why do you hate your life at the moment

>severe anxiety and depression resulting from brain damage from beatings from dad around age 2-7
>pills do either nothing or have crippling side effects
>can't read people's emotions had to relearn everything related to that and got bullied harshly for it until adulthood
>serious sickness from what doctors guess started age 12 and got found out late age 14 when my heart randomly gave out during class
>sickness fucked literally every joint in my body so I'll have serious arthritis and tendon issues from then on
>all joints enflamed and painful and occasionally will cough up blood
>hurts to exist and hurts to breathe making depression vastly worse
>doctors are pretty sure I'll need some surgeries around age 30 to keep living most around the heart but several joint are getting bone spurs so those will need cleaning up plus hip replacements
>every single bit of news is bad news and all anyone from the outside can do is say just be tough like they have any idea what it's like or don't give up as if they've ever had to live like this >recently found out liver and kidneys are going so more depressed than usual
>contemplating chugging my hydro bottle but doubt it's enough to get the job done

I'm incompetent. I simply fuck up everything I do. I messed up every job offer that I had. How am I supposed to survive?

dunno, I haven't eaten in 24h, and I'm just testing how much I can go without food

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>>38539577
I can barely function
>somebody tells me to grab something next to me
>i sperg out and look everywhere to no avail
>they freak the fuck out and shout at me
>"ANON! ITS RIGHT BEHIND YOU!"
> they should just fucking do it themselves for once
>tfw this is at home and i have no job

>>38539754
You can go around a month but it won't be fun.

Do you have an implant in your leg, OP?

If it's possible you might want to look into having it removed.

cause im bored and momkey jones is not my bf

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i don't, i only come here to thrive on your peoples self-generated sadness and misfortune.

>>38539829
Mumkey Jones IS MY FUCKING BF YOU BACK THE FUCK OFF!

>>38539847
sorry to tell you elliot...but you have been rejected again....

>>38539886
What about me? I was replaced by Elliot :(

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>forced to quit caffeine and alcohol due to blockage in kidney tube
>kidney swollen and in moderate/severe pain constantly
>addicted to weed/opiates
>depressed, aspd, anxiety
>ulcerative colitis
>weak ankles and skin reacts badly to sunlight
>no desire to eat unless high so underweight
>slowly burning all existing relationships

>>38539906
I'm doing well at University, not bad looking, exciting job placement lined up but can't shake the innate feeling I'm going to blow my brains out before 60. I can't fucking take the constant pain and knowledge that if life hadn't dealt me such bad cards I could have been a Chad

>can't do anything productive
>crippling anxiety
>severe clinical depression
>shitty, fucked up spine that I got surgery for but now I can't feel anything
>no job
>no money
>can't find out how to get drugs where I live
>dad let's me stay with him indefinitely but I know I'm hurting him and everyone around me by being such a sack of shit
>everything I do brings me pain in one way or another
Nothing I do in life can bring me anything other than pain and I'm a burden on everyone around leeching off of them until I die

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>>38539896
we all have been replaced desu

he has a gf now

>>38539577
Go to a physiotherapist or at least google "knee strengthening" or "knee stabilisation" you fucking mook and don't say something like "oooh am robot can't think like a norman" you're 15 you summerfag piece of shit

>>38540234
>you're 15
nope, i said 'thought i got over it at 15' you illiterate

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Several things that are all very long stories, that if I were to sum it all up in one sentence, it would be:

Girls are bitches, and I am diagnosed autistic.