>tfw have depression
>tfw occassionally think "i wanna kill myself"
>tfw never actually serious
>tfw you know you could never do it
>tfw you do wish you weren't alive to deal with it
>tfw you know its worth waiting
>tfw the wait hurts
>tfw you have methods determined
>tfw a final bit of planning left
>tfw you browse for materials
>tfw you never thought it was actually serious