>edge for hours daily
>just to feet
>can't make sense of my fantasies half the time
>bizarre snuff scenarios and plenty of other weird ideas circle around
>chasing some unattainable high
>see feet online and irl that make me think of the vast amounts of amazing feet that aren't seen
>it's all a fucking tease, there's never any true satisfaction achieved
>refractory period high
>feel productive and on top of the world
>promise myself that I will abstain from indulging my perversions
>30 minutes pass and urges return
>convince myself that I may as well indulge and I can do so responsibly
>spend 4 more hours edging
>go to sleep defeated
>see new content
>pic fucking relevant
>go into an Elliot Rodger-esque spiral of disbelief, anger, bitter, sadness, and rage
>IT'S ALL AN UNATTAINABLE FUCKING TEASE
>THERE IS NO FUCKING ENDGAME
>I feel like I am going insane. I am so pent up from years and years of perverted seclusion.
>Thousands upon thousands of dollars and hours wasted and I am still at square one.
I am just writing this out due to sheer mental overload. I just hate my fucking life and this fucking obsession with feet is driving me fucking insane. I can't function. Can anybody else relate at all? Not even with feet, but just whatever the fuck gets you off? It is torture. I feel like writing and communicating about it with others even here will be cathartic. I am so close to fucking snapping and letting someone feel this frustration.
>>38451467
Gross feet/10
Also I know your pain, always looking for the "perfect" picture/video.
Yes anon I spend hours edging to anime feet sometimes but you should keep it for the weekends. And my refractory period is short so I can fap well over 10 times a day. I get the obsession though. And how the dopamine makes you feel you're chasing after absolute bliss yet it keeps escaping you as you can only feel it for a few seconds.
>>38451500
>Gross feet/10
Fair enough. What do you find gross about them? Probably the things I find appealing about them: very large, long, and slightly dirty and calloused with long toes.
>Also I know your pain, always looking for the "perfect" picture/video.
It's worse when you pay hundreds for the video because you want everything so specific and then you get bored of it a day later.
It amazes me when I find things like this picture that turn me on so much. What the fuck is the source? I feel that I've spent enough time searching to find everything yet more triggering shit keeps popping up. Sometimes I think: what if I just had a complete and omniscient database of female feet for the entire world? I'd probably kill myself or at least gouge my eyes out like Oedipus.
>>38451529
I mainly stick to 3d feet, but occasionally I'll turn to drawings or anime. Pic is still top 10 for my all-time favorites in terms of non-3d. Again, it's all a fucking tease.
Buy sweety worn socks from young girls,lot of offers online.
Best money you will ever spend,just make sure its from a reliable source.
>>38451561
Anon how can you fap to such a shitty drawing, I like weird styles but this is very anatomically inaccurate
>>38451614
Again, just another vain attempt and some unattainable high. I prefer used and heavily imprinted insoles and birkenstocks over socks. Either that or freshly crushed food.
>>38451656
Your picture does nothing for me. The foot is bland and it seems like the creator put a lot more effort into drawing what's behind the foot than on the actual foot itself.
I like my drawing because of the coloring since it looks they have a sharp odor, the toes are very long, and it is Misaka Mikoto.
The only improvement would be to make the soles longer to match the toes and to decrease the protrusion of the ball and increase the depth of the arch.
>>38451467
>bizarre snuff scenarios
Please describe. I do the same thing but with belly buttons instead of feet.
>>38451821
I imagine myself or others being killed by women and their bare feet in different ways. A lot of them have to do with dystopian futures where population control is enforced and with it follows execution and the fetishization of the execution through an industry that caters to snuff. In these dystopian settings, female feet take on the role of a holy symbol and it is mainly through the feet that execution is enacted.
>>38451467
girls peeing themselves. every time. I've only ever wanked to girls peeing themselves. fuck, i'm getting hard writing this, i hope nobody's home tomorrow so I can rub one out.
>>38451875
Maximum kek. Sometimes I forget how bizarre these fantasies sound from the outside.
So you always imagine being killed? You never kill them?
Check out my candid foot collection if you haven't already. Good fap material if you aren't bothered by the fact that the girls are filmed without their knowledge.
Uploaded all the webms in /gif/ but archive only lasted about a week. Now I'm the process of uploading all of them to youtube channel.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmqk3_W21uwyMhtleq3N75g
>>38451892
No, I never kill them. I always imagine women killing others, not necessarily myself, but often myself. Sometimes I like to insert myself as a small child who is kidnapped by a woman to be trampled to death as a hobby. This originated from the fact that I actually fantasized about this scenario as young as six (guess I was doomed from the start?). Another frequent fantasy is sneaking into a woman's house at this age, crawling under her bed and seeing her bare feet walk around then purposefully giving away my position for the impending death. Other times I also imagine myself laying under the bed, my bottom half naked and sticking out from the bed while my top half is under the bed as I hear her footsteps go upstairs and into the bedroom and I await to be discovered.
Tldr; save my brain for science.
>>38451956
Wow a lot of this stuff is almost exactly the same for me, just instead of a foot fetish I always had a belly fetish, and like you, it also started as early as I can remember, like 6 years old. The content of the fetish is different but the tone of the scenarios is similar. How did we get like this?
Want to be friends?
>>38451467
It's a blessing no matter how you look at it. You derive pleasure from something as simple as feet. Women generally view it a harmless and sometimes even amusing fetish. There's no downside.
Tell me whats harder OP? Getting a girl to show you her pussy / tits or scrunch her soles / wiggle her toes a little?
>>38451980
If you say a lot of the stuff is same for you, then I am assuming yours also manifests itself through snuff scenarios? If so, I am curious as to how that even enfolds. Are they suffocated under a large belly or what?
>How did we get like this?
I had a lot of foot experiences with my aunt when I was very young. Who knew I would be hitting the peak of my action at the age of 5? She thought it was innocent play, but I was very aroused at all times. My favorite thing was to go under her sheets while she was in bed and have her pin me at the foot of her bed with her soles on my belly and my back against the board at the end of the bed. The smell alone trapped under the sheets was amazing.
>Want to be friends?
I prefer to keep conversations about my illness anonymous.
>>38452046
It is a two-edged sword. The number of women willing to satiate your fetish grows exponentially. In fact, I've gotten ordinary women to produce me videos of even themselves crushing food.
The downside is that it remains so alluring. In the end, there is no high that is ever fulfilled. I always feel unsatisfied. But I always keep coming back because of the sheer potential for content from untapped sources. To me, it's torture.
>>38451928
>>38452046
top quality merch man
>>38452046
JUST look at that hairline
I know what you mean, I have been in relationships, hell even in bed, with girls and seeing their feet is the most important part.
Ill meet a cool girl and when i see she has ugly feet it just kills any feelings I had for her.
>>38451956
>>38451980
Shit, same here man. Real early development of fetishes must be more common than I thought. When I was 5 or 6, I had a dream where one of my female classmates cut off my leg and ate it in front of me, was one of my first erotic dreams and it was super realistic, bloody leg and everything. Had never seen gore before then either, wasn't abused (not yet anyways).
Guess that shit runs deep.
>>38451928
What's that goth girl's name on Fiverr? I may have some projects for her.
>>38452285
One of the weird things about my snuff scenarios (I'm the belly guy) is that I'm actually not into gore at all. In fact in my scenarios I have to invent kill methods that leave absolutely no trace and aren't even violent really. The realism isn't important to me. I haven't figured it out complete, but there's some abstract idea or transcendent aesthetic about it that is what turns me on. I wish I had some memory of how this developed but there's so many added layers on top of it now that it's probably impossible to fully uncover. All I know is that as early as 6 I was already sexually manipulative based around it.
>>38452340
(Foot snuff guy here)
>In fact in my scenarios I have to invent kill methods that leave absolutely no trace
I don't mind gore at all, but one of my favorite killing methods involves no gore either. I imagine the woman pounding my temples with her bare heels over and over which turns my brain into a slush slowly without leaving much of a trace at all (somewhat unrealistic). I also imagine her saying something like, "If you can recite the ABC's in under 30 seconds, you can go!" and when I get to like S she pounds down with her heels and the hit leaves me dazed and while I struggle to get to Z I never can.
>>38451467
I feel the exact same way but with futa which is truly unattainable. Ill take any kind of meds to stop this endless cycle.
I feel you so hard OP.
>spend all night having ridiculously intense dreams about finding corpses completely unguarded and getting to make love to them, only to have them come to life and scream or cry right as I'm about to cum
>wake up horny as hell, can't stop thinking about the nightmare, masturbate
>does nothing to relieve the tension
>go to work, can barely focus, obviously distracted as hell and have to tell my coworkers "I'm tired" or "had a long night" every time they ask what's wrong
>fight the urge to jerk off on every break, every time I use the restroom, every time I'm away from my desk
>most of the time hoard pictures of the dead on my phone while no one is around
>commute home and fap as soon as I can or take a very cold shower and fap in there
>spend the rest of the evening trying to distract myself or give into temptation
>fap again before going to sleep
Most days I feel like a fucking slave to my libido/obsession.
>>38452708
OP here
Sometimes nights are the worst when I try to go to sleep. I jerk off before I sleep and then it's a game of beating the clock and hoping I fall asleep before I get another urge. A lot of the time I don't beat it and I begin fantasizing and sometimes even coming up with my best ideas. I try to fight the urge to start sending several emails to different women asking for customs so I can wake up to replies because seeing that Inbox (1) is like crack to me. I fight it and before I know it, two or three hours have passed of me just laying in bed brainstorming. Then I finally fall asleep but I wake up and remember my thoughts and have the most intense desires to begin edging.
>tfw my coworker was saying how he doesn't understand how people develop porn addictions
>i respond with i know right
>wanted to grab him by the collar and say listen here you fucker, you can't say shit until you've been in someone else's shoes
>>38452780
>tfw you hit the end of porn addiction and nothing arouses you anymore so you have a permanent limp dick but you still get the phantom urge to masturbate and can't rest unless you've ejaculated so you fap out of habit more than lust
>>38452708
>>spend all night having ridiculously intense dreams about finding corpses completely unguarded and getting to make love to them, only to have them come to life and scream or cry right as I'm about to cum
holy shit dude
>>38452116
>Stuck torturing myself over my weird kinks
>think i'm totally alone and isolated in the world
>meet a robot who is really similar
>asks if he wants to be friends and maybe we can discuss and figure some stuff out
>I prefer to keep conversations about my illness anonymous.
You couldn't even throw an lol in there to soften the blow you conceited fucker?
>>38452909
I don't know what conversation there even is to be had on the matter. I share my weird fetishes and fantasies, he shares his, I share my origin story, he shares his. Then what?
I've tried in the past to maintain communication with others who share my bizarre kinks or suffer from similar things and it just ends with them ghosting me after they've had enough of my degeneracy. It's a waste of time.
>>38452951
>I don't even know what conversation there is to be had
>started a thread about it
>>38451884
Little story for you. I was walking around with my hot female friend, just the two of us, and she told me, "Anon, I need to pee." I asked her how long she could hold it while I looked for a toilet and she said "I need to go soon."
I decided to have a little fun with her. I told her there would be a shop with a toilet soon and we'd walk there. There was no such shop. We walked on and she'd say stuff like "How long more?" and "Are you sure we're going the right way?"
Eventually she started walking weird and said angrily "Anon you really need to find a fucking toilet cause I need to go really badly. Hurry the fuck up. Where is the place?"
Unfortunately I didn't get to see her piss her pants (not that I really wanted to cause she would've gotten mad), because she stopped by a public toilet (or should I say ran there awkwardly) and relieved herself.
Fun times.
>>38452970
Correct, and the conversation that is to be had can span the length of the thread. It is not a topic that lends itself to further discussion down the road.
>tfw normal people can get aroused from a simple picture of a girl showing her tits or video of two people having vanilla sex
does anyone else get envious of this? Think of all that free, infinite content. You wouldn't even be able to browse 4chan without having to masturbate.
>>38452868
You're telling me dude. Imagine that shit almost every night for YEARS.
>>38453088
Do you have any psychological theories why you are dreaming that?
My first thought is that for some reason you learned that sex is unacceptable (which is why they have to be dead) and that it is somehow wrong (which is why they "catch" you in the act and then scream/cry)
Maybe when you were a young child you got caught being sexual and your parents punished you pretty harshly?
>>38451467
You're fetishes will never truly satisfy you, I'm dealing with some hebephilic desires and a skirt fetish and I realise that I'm never truly satisfied, it's all just senseless fantasies that will never be relevant to my actual life and it's just keeping me locked in my room fapping to jailbait until I'm drained of my sperm and left without energy to function.
Lately even after I'm done masturbating I am left with a terrible feeling of "that's it? now I'm going to be tired as shit for the next 3 days? I'll fuck up my sleep schedule from tiredness again?"
Over the last couple weeks I even started feeling pain in my right testicle and it wouldn't stop, I even took meds to fix it but kept fapping and it still wouldn't stop. I'm now on a 5 day nofap streak (I've been half trying to nofap for the longest times with no success whatsoever) and now I don't feel any pain. I guess it was life trying to tell me it was time to stop.
I feel I might make it now. The veil of my fetishes might fall and I'll finally sort myself out.
Hopefully..
>>38453136
Well I have necrophilia so my first theory is that the dreams are an outlet for my fetish, but they turn to nightmares because of my guilt about it. My parents did punish me for having relationships but that was long after I discovered what I was attracted to.
I get this.
I'm literally only attracted to feet.
I don't understand why. A naked woman does absolutely nothing for me, just zero reaction. But show me her feet? Hard as fucking diamonds.
Just seeing a girl's soles can give me a crush on her.
I just want to be normal bros.
>>38453479
how are your looks?.
why you become necro... i mean, the death have something symbolic in it?. are you aware of that or you simply have a boner and dont think about it?
>>38453346
I feel you on the hebephilic shit. It's gotten weird lately.
>tfw no shota or loli foot findom
These are not good feels.
>my fetish is seeing passable trannies and traps get tickled
>no one caters to it at all
>maybe a half dozen videos out there
>I have to just watch videos of homely girls getting tickled with the sound off and pretend they're guys
Fuck, I wish someone would cater to this. Companies like Tickle Abuse shove a million girls into the stocks for a million similar videos, why can't they toss Bailey Jay or some other qt in there
>>38453550
Don't worry dude I got you covered there's some stuff like that out there. Check out doskoinpo on the panda website, there's plenty of time to worry about not finding what you want when you stop finding it. Give up searching when you die
>>38453602
I think I'll keep those fantasies to myself and not explore them. Seems like a sketchy road.
>>38453540
I look pretty attractive. Have had men and women buy me drinks at bars and ask me out and shit. Doesn't make any difference though. It's not like I'm a necro because I can't seduce the living, it's because (like so many other people ITT) I am just not sexually interested in anything but my fetish. I don't know how arousal works for other people exactly but when I look at a corpse I'm immediately aroused without thinking about it. There's a lot of stuff that makes them symbolic and romantic and beautiful to me, but the inherent sexual interest is almost completely unconcious.
>>38453725
what is the point when a corpse is too rotten or degradated to make you aroused?, if there is...
you can substitute the feeling if a person dont make any move while you are doing whatever you do?
>>38453910
I'm more into decomposed corpses than fresh ones- up to when they've liquefied-so there's a pretty big window. Unfortunately, like you've pointed out, corpses don't kep the meat on their bones for too long so I can't think of them as partners. It's pretty demoralizing.
Having real people role play as being dead can be comforting but it doesn't get me off, no matter what extremes we go to. Other inanimate objects don't work either (never been into dolls or mannequins).
>>38454386
Do you like the corpses of young people or old people more?
>>38454386
not wanting to play the freudian here, legitimate curious.
what do you think about death, about dying?.
>>38454435
I like healthy men or women. No kids, no elderly. I prefer younger than their 40s but I make some exceptions if they've rotted in a really nice way. The decomposition is more important than the human characteristics.
>>38454571
I am simultaneously afraid of death and in love with it. I believe that once we die we cease to have any conciousness and all that is left of us is the impression we've made on the people we knew and the world we lived in. The thought of all of my experience and everything I've suffered for abruptly ending is nightmarish at best, but at the same time I really appreciate how much death can alleviate suffering and pain. The dying deserve respite from the pain they're in, the elderly deserve to rest, the sick deserve relief. Death is not some boogeyman that should be talked about in hushed whispers. We should celebrate the lives of our loved ones when they pass, we should see that death is just another part of life, we should respect it.
>>38451467
I have a fetish for big rough female feet like OP's pic.
God my fetish sucks.
>>38455091
>and all that is left of us is the impression we've made on the people we knew and the world we lived in.
that is like saying all that is left of us are our material belongings. that impressions they have of you are their impressions, not yours in anyway.
do you think this celebration of death its part of the necro thing?. i repeat, i dont play the Freud.
i refer to this
>We should celebrate the lives of our loved ones when they pass
>38455264
What sort of impact do you think you have on the world after death if it doesn't involve the people who's lives you've affected? Relationships and influence is a far cry from material possessions.
Sort of a necro thing, sort of a life experience thing. I've lost a lot of relatives for different reasons but one thing that universally bothered me was funeral services and receptions that only focused on grief. There are other ways to mourn. The deceased would surely understand how hard it is to lose someone but isn't celebrating that person's life a hell of a lot better than wallowing in grief? I'm not saying by any means that grieving isn't completely understandable and necessary, just that at a certain point and in certain situations it seems more respectful and fitting to remember someone fondly and with positivity.
I understand that I'm not explaining my point of view very well. I have a very unhealthy relationship with this sort of thing so it's difficult to not sound like a lunatic when I talk about it.
>>38455264
Fucked up my (you)
>>38455572
>>38455572
>Relationships and influence is a far cry from material possessions.
what i want to say is that the influence and relationships only remains in others. is something totally apart from you.
i totally agree with you in that the funeral services are a disabled way to deal with death and the dead people. i dont have a better idea anyway.
you have an open idea of death and my question is if you think this open and passionate idea is related to your necro fantasy or whatever.
also: do you know you gonna have a unfulfilling sexual life?. or you can live without that.
>>38451467
>>38451532
>>38451561
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>>38451875
>he likes monkey feet