>be me
>be 19 year old white male
>been on an anti-psychotic, an SSRI, and a mood stabilizer since I was 11
>side effect of one of them was anorgasmia
>attempted to masturbate multiple times since age 11
>all attempts end in failure
>just stroke my dick for an hour with no results, no orgasm, no ejaculation, just one 6 inch erect penis
>got off the meds last month
>realize just today that some of the side effects may be gone
>have literally never busted a nut before
>masturbate
>last for about a minute and a half before cum literally shoots out of my dick
>dick doesn't even reach full erection before it spews
>feel literally no emotional or mental satisfaction during the act or after
>just feel hollow and empty, stomach actually becomes mildly nauseous after I ejaculate
What the fuck is this? This is what I was missing? Am I doing it wrong or are my reproductive organs / genitals fucked or what? A minute and a half? I couldn't even orgasm in the first place before.
Why does anyone do this? It feels strange, alien, unfulfilling, and wrong.
>>38389786
I went on no fap for 8 years, didn't feel anything really when I nutted.
I think that old saying "if you don't use it, you lose it" is particularly true in regards to this.
>>38389786
Gotta build it up man. Watch some porn and edge for an hour or something.
That being said, yes, masturbation-induced orgasms are not as awesome as some make them out to be, but explore and try out several things to at least enhance that feel. I for example like lightly touching and stroking my balls when in the process.