>all this KHV roleplaying on the board It's getting out

Living my life this long without any intimate contact from a woman has made me both fear it and find peace in knowing ill never have it.

8 months ago I made a penpal with a supposed woman (not the reason I even contacted "her" in the first place) whose face I've never seen and whose voice I've never heard. No matter how much I force myself to believe that I'm really writing to some 40 yo. guy, I still fantasise to hell and back about "her". I imagine us hanging out together, being a couple etc. I'm fucking pathetic. Whatever, it's always a good feel whenever I see I received a letter.

The A/C broke in my cuckshed and now I'm sweating my ass off while LaDante fucks my wife.

>>38290979
>something only a KHV would know or feel
Like what, the feeling of not kissing a girl?

>>38290979
I like this image a lot for some reason. Do you mind if I save it?

>>38291595
Its like coming back from a con hanging out in the hotel.

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>>38290979
>tfw no cute kotori cosplayer as gf
Life is suffering

I've literally never been touched by or touched a female in 19 years (outside of obvious accidental bumps, old lady handshakes, etc.)

>>38290979
Someone explain why this girl looks so qt

>>38290979
I don't even care anymore, it's not a big deal.

I tried to ask out the only girl I ever liked. Highlight being tried, i was about two words in before a classmate screamed that i took creepy photos of her. She looked me in digust, and neither her or any other girl even agknowledged my existance after that, andvthe bullying doubled tenfold. I have never tried to make any sort of contact since

>>38290979
A girl has never spoken to me of her own free will besides school and work.
I can't remember the last time I stepped outside the house for anything fun. My life is a rut, the best compliment I've ever gotten from someone outside my family is "you're smart", I've stayed in every 4th of July since I was 14, and the only living thing that shows any positivity towards my existence is my dog. Finally, the lack of any sort of intomacy in my life has slowly driven me bitter and slightly insane.
Is that enough for you OP? I'm telling you, it only stings a little.

>>38293484
It's probably a guy

Unsurprisingly unoriginal on this faggot board

>>38293572
How old are you? Also how haven't you done 4th of July since 14? Don't your parents still do something at that age?

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>>38290979
hmmm, ok

the social ladder is merely a pretense for barbarism, normies behave like pack animals which is why they spite and bully the weak hence they are no better than animals and deserve to be treated as such.

morality isn't real neither is altruism (with a few exceptions to altruism)

nihilistic egoism is the final redpill and the best rout for true robots

>>38293607
That was it. I went to a barbecue with them. I'm 19 now.

I dunno, what's my most pathetic feel

I get a boner when my leg touches a woman's leg on public transportation

I sperg out when I accidentally touch someone and start apologizing because I feel like I need to

I still think about my crush from middle school and high school, all the time

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I don't interact with people, and I'm shy+avoidant to romantic love

dont want to load a video game anymore but when i do i just spend the whole day doing it, i dont feel like browsing 4chan anymore even though i usto just go through days by looking at 4chan, nights are getting boring none of my tv shows i can vicariously live through are on, when i fap i just cum in 5 minutes cause i find everything attractive, thought about sleeping at 11 pm which i have never seriously i have never considered to leniently sleep so early but i want to only because there is nothing to do.

this isnt about being a virgin but i think im depressed and im not sure how to feel about it

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>>38293702
you can be a romantic without the moist hole of hedonism, if you fallow your heart you will blow dicks, if you fallow your mind you will blow minds.

socialising is for faggots

Tits feels like sandbags, amirite guys?

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>tfw still believe in the idea of soulmates despite never having a non-mandatory conversation with a woman

>>38293754
Anime literally ruined us.

Much original.

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>>38293754
just keep waiting anon, you'll find her.

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I want to kill the dumb attention whoring bitch in op's picture. Probably would think she was a fembot and get orbited by a hundred idiots here.

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From elementary to high school I didn't talk to girls much at all. They always hated me.
Whenever I did talk to a girl, they would make fun of me. So I grew to just stay away from them over the years.
>you must say stupid things to them to make them mad
Nope. Literally say hi to them and the next day they'll hate my guts or make fun of me with the other girls. They always said I look funny, or talk weird.

So when you don't talk or even interact with girls, you just go without ever holding hands or even getting a hug.
>but surely you had friends who had girl friends that would talk to you
Nope, I didn't talk to them. Whenever a girl spoke to me, I usually gave a quick answer. So they wouldn't make fun of me. Less interaction the better.

Was hoping I would meet a girl one day that would make me feel comfortable enough to talk with her. But that never happened.
I stopped caring over time. Now I'm just trying to make the lonely life not be so bad.

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>>38293800
fixed it for you ya pseudo normie

>>38293800
there definitely is a connection to being smart and being a virgin

you grew up with your solution to women now thats how you are today although the lack of social engineering doesn't help when you try

>>38290979
I had a gangly weeb friend once who ate terribly, so his hair and nails grew in thin and brittle. This is how I've often felt about myself in this regard: that I've missed out on a vital nutrient during a critical period and so have grown up twisted and malnourished, appearing to all the world to have the soul of some vaguely eccentric ghoul.

>>38293885
>get called a normie
Well thank you anon.

>>38290979
>stayed up all night last night
>woke up today around noon
>spent 5 hours fapping
>After which I felt incredibly suicidal
>Bought some music
>I went for a jog to see if I could make myself feel better
>Ended up just jogging while picturing my suicide
>This song was so sad, but it managed to make me smile.
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QiaCZ3KgJe8 [Embed]
Apparently it is about a groom whose bride did not show up on his wedding day, and him going binge drinking.

Music really does help numb the pain of having nobody around to talk to

I went to an all male HS for 3 years (failed out for bad grades) senior year in a co-ed school I had a hard time talking to anyone I managed to be friend a blonde qt wrestling girl...we became friends and I had a crush on her but she constantly had guys sending her dick picks, jerk off vids...she was funny, we were both virgins but we would joke about all the kinky sex we would have at our group table in class to make other kids feel uncomfortable, she was smart too had a 3.5 GPA but didn't have the money for college and was working to save up for a private school she got a wrestling scholarship...she told me how she was sexuallly abused as a kid...she had a chad college boyfriend who she never met but she would constantly text him everyday during class...I fell half in love with her after a few months but never made a move because I was graduating HS and wanted to get out of my hometown as soon as possible...right now she engaged to some ugly tattooed spic and is going to community college

This was 2 years ago she was the last girl I was friends with or had a crush on

pls dont let my thread die robros

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I literally do not know what it feels like to have a girl WANT to text me. I see all the time women complain about their guy not texting them back and i just can't imagine a girl doing that to me.

>>38290979
I get hard when i talk with my omeitis face to face

>>38290979
I try to avoid using the word "version" in conversation because I'm paranoid I'll accidentally say virgin instead and embarrass myself and then everyone will know I've never put my p in v