> i get people to get friendly and close with me
> overtime my self destructive personality takes over and turns them off and makes them think im a weird shit
> tfw the only friendships i can maintain for more than 6 months are because i act passive and understand them, and feel fucking uncomfortable w them
> currently just spent out two formerly close friends and had a nervous streak for the longest ever, 3+ hours
> when i try something spcially it always fucking disappoints and rubs everyone off and i dont even fucking know what im doing that made them feel that way
> im a fucking emotional mess and i will predict it will get a whole lot worse. its beginning to have a noticable effect how my day to day life
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I know this is normiert-tier advice, but honestly anon the only thing you can do is try your best.
I have a friend exactly like you with pretty much the same issues plus he still lives with his extremely fucked up family, yet he still manages to hang out with the chads because he made an effort to overcome his issues and his friends understand he struggles with some issues.
If your friends ditch you because your having mental/emotional issues they're probably pieces of shit that you shouldn't hang out with in the first place.