>I enjoy being depressed now
Is this the final stop?
>>38235603
No depression and just sadness are often pretty comfy. That's one of the things that makes it so hard to get out of if you want to get out of it that is
>>38235634
Depression is not just a sadness, at least for me not anymore, it's more of feeling totally indifferent towards everything, nothing really sparks any strong emotions. Not that bad I'd say, though you don't enjoy anything as it all seems bland. Only sometimes I just have a surge of despair/sometimes even I'm angry, but it only lasts a moment.
If it were true depression, you wouldn't enjoy it.
>>38235832
Not quite the same for me but similar. I feel as though I've adopted a sort of ideology of anti happiness and anti success where I do everything that I can to make myself as miserable and failure prone as possible because doing anything else would be a sort of 'lie' that was against who I'm supposed to be. Thankfully I can still authentically enjoy Berserk and a few other things I've been doing since before I got 5-7 years in the muck but I feel that recognizing just how much of my own worst enemy I am has helped recently.
>>38235930
>I feel as though I've adopted a sort of ideology of anti happiness and anti success where I do everything that I can to make myself as miserable and failure prone as possible because doing anything else would be a sort of 'lie' that was against who I'm supposed to be
I can relate to that, like just doing things to get by and being more comfortable with failures than a sucess, though lately as I've revised thouroughly my life I started forcing myself to care more despite always feeling that there is no purpose and despite this indifference. All in all I don't imagine how it would be to be really happy about my life.
>>38235832
the only thing that gets me excited anymore is girls. it's deprivation at it's finest. the more depraved you are, the better everything is.
>I enjoy losing
what have I become?
>>38237041
Girls don't get me going that much anymore, most of them were cunts to me, why should I care about them anyway. Though I may try with latinas, they seem so easy-going and always positive and happy.
What's interesting in my depression I like laughing a lot, especially at my own misery, there is no funnier thing.
>>38237066
That's a common Robots' enjoyment, just like stacies and chads enjoy winning, we robots need to take pleasure in what we are best at- losing in life.
>>38235634
I can understand sadness being comfy, but not depression.
>>38235603
dont ask questions you know the answer to.
I feel more at home being sad
Whenever I feel happiness there always feels like there's a catch, or it just feels like something is off, or wrong. Like it's fake and it gives me anxiety
>>38235603
Isn't this a paradox? desu