By staying hyper rational in my decisions, I was very good at achieving certain goals. The problem was, I had no good foundation of goals in the first place. How can one understand what they really want if they don't understand their emotions, the primal thing driving them to even exist at a fundamental level? The emotions must be dug up and brought to the surface. Through pain... Pain is the bane of the rational mind. Pain brings to the surface all that is deep seeded in our existence. The very things that make us feel alive and realize our existence. Rationally, we want to avoid pain. Because with pain and life also comes death. Especially as human beings. Our bodies can only take so much pain before they are dinged and dented to points of inoperability. But then, how do we find meaning in life without having something to strive for? How can we rationally discover something to strive for? One conclusion many people take is to apply their rational to the rest of the world, to remove all pain from existence. Pain changes you. It changes YOU. The outside world can not be moved an inch by your own pain. The outside world can only be changed through the rational. Internal pain can be translated into the logical mind which must find a way to stop it. That's how internal pain is translated to the outside world. It is through the rational mind.