Its my birthday today, I spent the whole day alone on campus, did nice things but still feel sad. Its already past midnight here, the only people to congratulate me were my parents.
Wasnt sure my father would call me, we had a really bad fight before I left for uni, and he hit me in the face. He did call, but I wouldnt care if he didnt.
I lived separate from my parents for a year, before leaving, I had so many hopes about how this year will turn out, I thought I would meet with people who will have same interests as me, who will "get" me or some shit. Ended up spending another year being miserable, which would not be that bad by itself, but I also fucked up my eyes because there is no decent healthcare in this shithole. Now I have floaters and this shit called "visual snow" which has no known cure. It was likely caused by an infection I havent dealt with in time, so now I have a reminder of how stupid I am my every waking moment, I am angry all the time and its getting harder and harder to read.
I am returning home in a week, I didnt miss my parents at all, the thought of talking to them, let alone living with them, makes slightly nauseous. The only thing I am looking forward to is visiting a doctor in hope of restoring my vision, but most probably it will be fruitless. Maybe I will be able to stop, or at least slow the deteriorating.
Happy birthday blindy
>>38042540
>spending birthdays alone
Feel like total shit but the more you spend alone it just ends up another day lad
Happy birthday anyways anon
>>38042540
Why did your dad hit you?
And happy birthday friend<3 :)
>>38042540
This is probably the saddest thread i read this week.
>>38042540
Yeah. Atrophy is a tough one.
I swear, you sound eerily like a 19 year old version of me. I don't miss my 20-something years one goddamn bit.
Happy birthday my man
>>38042540
happy birthday
dont worry, you ignore the pain the older you get
>>38042596
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>>38042953
Thank you
>>38042842
Because I told my mother she was lying, she slapped me, and he hit me in the jaw. Told me he was "defending her honor" looked dead serious saying that. I was evading him for a few days, then worked myself up and picked an argument, nearly insulting him, he asked me if I want to get hit in the face again, I dared him to do it, he didnt do anything. We ignored each other until I left, he was doing nasty stuff like being really noisy in the morning when I was still asleep tho.
>>38042904
Yeah, I am only a bit older than that.