>one bad thing happens
>I dwell on it and become sad over 500 other things within the course of an hour
>end up wanting to die over a ton of things at once
>inevitably realize I ruined my own life and I'm so young that there's no other excuse for it
I'm so out of hope that it's actually funny. I can't stop laughing. I can't stop crying either. What's happening.
>>37903695
I don't know if you're the same anon, but suppressing shame and regret is the most useful thing I did to myself in ages. You must picture the past as conditions for your future, conditions in which to work out your life plan. Cool your head and look at it through the eyes of an engineer. Regret is useless bevause past is static. Only relive the memories that are useful to you. If they aren't, condense them into information, a new set of rules to follow in order to reach your ultimate goal - survival.