Newfag here. How do I prevent myself from turning into a true robot? I'm only 21 so I should still be able to fix things before I become a full hermit.
Problems: anti-social, somewhat ugly
Ever since I was in elementary I failed to fit in. Kids would bond at a certain level, but not with me, never would have people over etc. I come from a poor family so I was embarrassed to have people over, kids are mean you know? I'm also a "foreigner" (born in this country but of foreign parents) and that didn't help either, bullying etc. That said I'm not a physically weak person, I've always been /fit/ and even more so now. I beat my bullies in elementary and high school and they stopped bothering me.
I have bad teeth, borderline /britbong/ bad, so I don't walk around smiling much, usually just looking at the ground. Maybe that's why people don't talk to me. I've never had a stranger start a conversation with me, regardless of the context. At uni the people quickly got to know each other, no one bothered with me. I don't start conversations myself because I have nothing to talk about I used gaming as an escapism for too many years and I don't even enjoy it. My whole life exists of gaming and going to the gym. My classes arent mandatory so months go by without me going to uni, often I don't know what day it is. I don't have social media, since I'm paranoid about the government. I have been to a party once many years ago, but it was awful.
Long story short, I want to improve my life, but I don't know how. I've never had positive experiences in social settings which demotivates me from trying. I'm losing touch with the world, but I'd like not to.
Welcome OP enjoy your visit as you won't be leaving
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Do you think it's already too late?