Why is it when I masturbate I cry the past few months? I don't do it that often, but when I do jerk it even if I am in a happy mood, I cry and become miserable and alone feeling after. I just want to make it stop. Does anyone else feel this way? Is something wrong with me? I know I am generally not very happy but this seems too much. Could it be stress? Any help is appreciated honestly.
>>37677892
Also if it helps I am a caregiver to my mom full time now. I don't have much time for myself at all anymore. If that could affect it I would like to know. That is only thing that has changed majorly.
No one? :c bumpppp.
>>37677892
Fine, Jesus Christ, I guess I'll bite. I'll ask only because it's relevant to the advice I may give: Male or female?
>>37678217
Female here surprised it would matter for the advice but thank you for actually responding to me.
you got raped.
you repressed the memory but, its manifesting itself.
>>37678273
Do you mean when I was young? I never had this happen till now would mean it took a long time to manifest. Also I like to hope I would know if I was raped. :/
>>37678252
It does, males and females are actually different, despite what the media might say otherwise. Though I'm having my doubts that you're really a female since you used "jerk it" and not something else but whatever.
After you finish your sessions, what's the first thing you think of that makes you cry? Actual thoughts, not feelings.
Hormal imbalances.
Maybe you schlick too close to your period.
If it's not some kind of deep self loathing or repressed memory.
>>37678377
If was male what would advice be then?
Hmm it seems I think about being lonely. Usually the tears start then I stop. Thoughts come after which can range from I hate myself then go into details as to why and cry more and more. If something happened that annoyed me that day or I did something stupid I will let that consume me. It feels like a general mess in my mind honestly. So I would say thoughts of self hate or alone.
>>37678692
If you're female: Maybe hormonal imbalances like >>37678538 said. Try going out more, maybe make some friends. Maybe try talking to guys.
If you're a guy, then it's probably major depressive disorder. Get out into the sun, go out during the day and maybe hang out with friends.
Barring all that, find someone online to talk to regularly, it's a good place to start assuming you don't scare them off. And I don't care if you're male or female but don't lie to me.
>>37678751
I really am female. I can assure you not lying, I think it would be counterproductive to ask for advice and lie. Since I became a full time caregiver I don't have much time for my friends the few I have. I would hate to meet a nice guy and eventually sleep with him and cry. I really worry if this keeps up when I do get with someone I will act like this. I never thought it could be hormone imbalance though doing this.
>>37678834
If I can ask, what's the deal with your mother?