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Ask a girl with BPD anything part 2. Before you ask, yes, I have

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Ask a girl with BPD anything part 2. Before you ask, yes, I have empathy and I regret my actions a lot of the time. No, I won't kill myself. My actions aren't justified by my illness, they're only explained.
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post bpd titties
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>>37654917
uhhh ok roastie.

>i regret my actions
sure you do.

women shouldn't be allowed to have agency in anything except raising a child. you're all basically ruled by emotions and instincts and then only retrospectively are you rational and ONLY rational when its necessary (there will be consequences)
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>>37654927
No thanks.
>>37654948
If I didn't regret my actions, I don't think I would be diagnosed as borderline. But okay. Thanks for your opinion.
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>>37654917
comfy picture. I proclaim this shitty thinly veiled "im a girl give me attention" thread as a MOTHER FUCKING COMFY THREAD
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>>37655001
This thread is mainly for questions. I wouldn't have continued it except the last one was archived and people were still curious. Okay though. Comfy threads are nice. Heres another.
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>>37654917
just dropping in to remind you girls can not be robots, thanks have a good day
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>>37654927
>>37654948
>>37655001
Kek, roastie completely BTFO. Always good to see robots not orbiting in these types of threads. """Fembots""" cant and dont exist.
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>>37655170
I didn't ever say I was a fembot but thanks.
>>37655175
Again. I didn't say I was a fembot. But alright.
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>>37655041
>people were curious
yeah fucking right, everybody knows BPD girls are absolute neurotic fucking pieces of shit and the only reason any one pretended to be "curious" or otherwise interested was to get n00dz. you know it, I know it, we all know it, so stop bullshitting around and tell me the artist of those gifs you stupid fucking roastie.
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If you were forced to live alone in a desert with a stack of books and some dogs, but no internet connection and no possibility of seeing another human for the next decade, would you kill yourself or would you make it through?
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>>37655227
Whatever you say. You could've asked nicer though. And reverse image search does exist. Thanks for the (you)
>>37655246
Hm. A decade? I probably wouldn't make it. I would also feel bad for the dogs though.. to leave them alone. So maybe I would. Interesting question.
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>>37655206
Then why the fuck are you here if youre not a robot? Its obvious youre just an attention seeking roastie.
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>>37655175
honestly anon, its beautiful. I'm an oldfag, and back in the day this used to be my main board. I will always continue to browse 4chan, but this place has gotten so fucking reddit tier and normified over the last year or two. It shocked me to come back and see /r9k/ had been invaded by women and normie posters, so to see a thread of a fucking attention whoring roastie get BTFO by each and every post warms my heart. It feels like old /r9k/, during better times when at least our board was a refuge, unspoiled by normalscum
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>>37655289
People were curious about us and why the way we are. Im answering questions and all. It's not hard to tell.
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>>37654917
Want to be my bpd gf? We can be a bpd couple since I also ahve it.
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>>37655429
No thanks. That would be unhealthy and toxic.
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>>37655497
Like everyone here said then
Fuck off you roastie.
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>>37655519
If the thread archives, so be it. Thanks for hostility and the (you)
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>>37655567
Don't reply to me you fucking roastie. Go post in tumblr.
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>>37655589
Oops, my bad. Sorry, anon.
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>>37655041
how many dicks have you taken?
oreganoli
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>>37655607
Ok now kiss me and be my girlfriend.
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>>37655415
Bullshit, no one gives a fuck about the BPD. I bet all the questions were from orbiters wanting nudes or you to be their gf so they pretended to have interest.

>>37655381
I know that feel anon. I miss old /r9k/ too and it really is impossible to revert it back to its former state, shame.
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>>37655629
None.
>>37655631
No.
>>37655642
Alright. If you say so. Thanks.
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>>37655736
Why not? Wouldn't it be better than being lonely?
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>>37654917
what does BPD make you do?

I know a girl that's married with kids that has BPD, she says she's "fun" when she's not on her meds but her meds make her boring.
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I posted in your last thread. I wish I knew why BPD girls ghosted. If you're going to wreck us, be upfront and abuse me until I can't do anything but block you. That'd be better.
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HEY EVERY ONE post comfy images AND STOP GIVING THIS STUPID FUCKING ROASTIE ATTENTION dont give her any (you)s. shes probably gonna fucking reply to this post but guess what? im still not gonna reply
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I dated a girl with BPD once. How does your BPD affect relationships? With her she'd get very emotional and say and do things she'd regret and then it would pile up and she'd get bogged down with all of it.
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pls b bonnie gf

actually, the more I think about it the more ambivalent I am. Fucking hellish disorder
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>>37655748
I'm not really all that lonely.
>>37655772
I wish I knew. I never understood ghosting. The least you could do would be upfront and then leave.
>>37655784
Thank you. Comfy images are good.
>>37655794
That's pretty much how it is with me. I get upset over very little things, and get melodramatic, and then I regret all of it and get melodramatic about that too. Sort of a cycle.
>>37655815
Bonnie gf? I don't understand.
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>>37655844
Then I can't understand how you have bpd.
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>>37655844
>Intentionally skips my question
well fuck you, too.
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>>37655854
I'm not a sociopath. I have empathy. I don't like ghosting people, and I regret hurting others.
>>37655878
Not intentionally. Sorry, didn't see it.
>>37655753
This one right? I don't think it's like that at all. It isn't fun. It's a pain in the ass and I would give anything to be normal.
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>>37654917
What's your favorite toilet paper brand?

Unoriginal post
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>>37654917
You play any video games if so what games? if not what are your hobby's?
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>>37655892
I never asked you about ghosting or empathy. But guess I shouldn't expect someone like you to know.
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>>37655904
Not too sure.
>>37655912
I play a lot of games, nothing like OW and LOL, though. I'm into creative hobbies. I like "hands on" things.
>>37655940
You should've been more specific. But I don't have ASPD, or AVPD. I feel empathy.
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Girls bragging about having BPD are just mega attention whores. Die slut.
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>>37655954
Do you happen to play rts/tbs?
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>>37655954
How's your personality reflected on the way you dress, like your panties?
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>>37655844
>Sort of a cycle.
Yeah, it seemed like a cycle. It would keep repeating, getting heavier each time. Not exactly great for a relationship. Do you take any medications for it? How effective is it? Do you notice the difference when you're on medication compared to when you're not? She was on lithium and she complained it made her feel not herself, but when she was off it she'd spiral down even more.

Also sorry for bringing up personal blog shit, it's hard to get over this kind of stuff for me.
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>>37654917

What draws you to any one man in particular?
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Bpd man here. How old are you op
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Ayo gurl whats it gunno take for you to gimmi the succ
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>>37655958
Okay.
>>37656012
I don't, sorry.
>>37656021
I change my clothing style based on what personality I'm feeling.
>>37656022
I don't take any medications for BPD specifically. Don't worry about it though. I don't mind the personal stuff.
>>37656030
I haven't figured that out yet.
>>37656046
No.
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>>37654917
have you been diagnosed by an actual psychologist or psychiatrist? (the answer is no, you're making it up to be special)
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>>37654917
What have you done though i read the archive when it was still up and it doesn't seem like you did anything that mean.
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>>37656273
I've been diagnosed multiple times by different psychiatrists. I'm pretty sure I have BPD, anon. But okay.
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>>37656231
So you can wear hello Kitty panties one day and then some black emo-style ones in the other?
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>>37656305
why so many visits?
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be my internet gf please
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>>37654917
When did you start browsing 4chan?

I suppose this isn't an original question.
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>>37656231
Do you take medications for other things? When did you learn you had BPD? What is your living situation, are you supporting yourself?

Also, what drew you to /r9k/?
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>>37656231
whats your favorite jojo/stand/part?
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>>37656304
I've abused people emotionally, I suppose. I act out a lot. I get violent with myself over silly and small things.
>>37656321
Yeah, pretty much.
>>37656323
BPD isn't a thing you should look at a person once for. They wanted to be sure.
>>37656335
No thanks.
>>37656353
Years ago. I'm not exactly new.
>>37656367
I take antidepressants. I didn't suspect I had BPD myself. I thought I was just an angsty teen and depressed. I was originally treated for just depression and anxiety, but the more I opened up, they more they looked at other options.
I'm not supporting myself either. I'm not sure what drew me to R9K. I'm not exactly a robot. Failed normie, possibly.
>>37656391
I like Joesph Joestar, and all the Zeppelis. I don't know too much about JoJo all together though.
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What the fuck is this shit.

Why don't you "men" find fucking passions.

Fuck this cunt.
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>>37656444
who is they and how did you afford all the visits
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>>37654917
Hey, I have a question - did you ever think you had it before you were diagnosed?

I'm not one for self-diagnosis but I've been doing a lot of research on the condition lately and I feel like I'm at risk, so I was wondering if you felt similarly. I sometimes have suicidal thoughts that happen in response to certain minute things in daily life, my relationship with my father and certain close friends is full of ups and downs which I sometimes can't explain, and I have this constant feeling of emptiness.
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>>37656444
Do you have anyplace I can contact you? I wanna learn more about you in private.
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>>37656444
okay but like PLEASE be my internet gf
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>>37656444
>Joesph Joestar, and all the Zeppelis
wtf your taste isn't bad for a crazy bitch
what music you like
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What do highs feel like?
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>>37656444
Do you feel slutty sometimes and wear some black tight panties?
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>>37656444
Do you have a discord you can share because i'm still not quite sure the extent of abusing people emotionally means. Like what did you do to someone that you beat your self up over so much?
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>>37656444
Nice trips Do you get out much? Do you have any hobbies or anything that get you involved in social stuff? Tell me you're not just holed up in your room browsing this place all day.
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>>37656582
>Tell me you're not just holed up in your room browsing this place all day.

lmao

stop hitting on her you pathetic fucking loser
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>>37656449
I have passions.
>>37656458
"They" are my doctors.
>>37656461
No, I didn't know too much about BPD. I knew I had some sort of weird thing going on, but didn't know what. That sounds similar to BPD, but i always recommend seeking a professional, if possible.
>>37656462
My discord is euphoria#1307
>>37656467
No.
>>37656482
I like a lot everything. Been listening to s lot of lo fi, since its popular.
>>37656492
I feel kind of like a god. Like I can do anything. I feel free and weightless and I feel happy. Too happy. I don't experience the highs as often though.
>>37656498
Odd question.
>>37656501
euphoria#1307
>>37656582
I have a lot of hobbies. If you didn't know me personally, you would see me as a Stacy. I have online friends, I go out much more as of recent, and trying to better myself. R9K makes my mental state worse when I browse for too long.
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>>37656615
how do you afford them
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this thread is a facade designed to milk money out of pathetic betas

be warned i have spoken to this user before and she tried it with me
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>But okay
>okay though
>thanks though
>but thanks

It's not just those canned phrases, but your entire writing style.

Do you have a shred of originality? is it possible for you to speak or type without plucking used up and stale phrases from the mouth of someone else?
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>>37656647
Personal.
>>37656656
I don't need money. I'm fine.
>>37656682
I only type like this because it's simplistic. My personal writing style is completely different, and easy to recognize.
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>>37656615
Do you use music as a therapy?
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A question coming from a girl, not a thirsty robot.
My best friend's new girlfriend claims to have bpd, and she's an utter bitch and really unreliable. Is this personality or mental health?
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Thought you said you weren't going to make another thread
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>>37656717
spoiled shithead
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>>37656717
I added you i'm this anon>>37656501
My names Ethanw80 on discord.
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>>37656615
That's good. It's really easy to hide yourself away and let it get worse. Have you considered becoming employed/have you had or do you have a job?

Not to be rude, but what was the ultimate goal of creating this thread? Is there something enjoyable about a crowd of desperate virgins vying for your attention mixed in with a few reasonable questions? Also, do you frequent other boards besides this cesspool?
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>>37656717
>I-I'm only typing like a 3rd grader because it's simplistic

Sure thing. Enioy the fleeting attention from this garbage thread.

Bye.
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>>37656728
Therapy? In a way, yes. It's theraputic to listen and create playlists based off of what i'm feeling.
>>37656731
If she's using her BPD as an excuse, it might not be mental health. I'm not too sure since I don't know her personally.
>>37656741
Questions went unanswered. And I changed my mind.
>>37656743
Not exactly.
>>37656752
I'm fine in terms of employment. The goal of this thread is to help people understand our mind and the way we think. A lot of anons have had experiences with people who have BPD, and don't understand it. I thought I could shed a bit of experience. I frequent some other boards, but lately have been trying to stay away from 4chan in general.
>>37656764
Is it third grade level? Huh. Sorry about that. But okay. Goodbye.
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>>37654917
I don't care about how you feel or if you regret it or not. I only care about how you treat me and act towards me; you fuck that up and you're as good as dead to me. You're pile of walking shit on two legs who can't even put a slight effort into controlling their own emotions and behaviors. Learn that none is forced to take your shit or live through your wild coaster of emotional distress. Fix yourself or you're just useless fuck meat.
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>>37656785
>trying to stay away from 4chan
How's that working for you? I find I can manage around three days before I open it just out of reflex and then I'm down the rabbit hole again. It might be better to just migrate to less shitty boards for a while, wean yourself off of it. /tg/, /diy/, and /an/ helped me in this way.
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>>37656785
yeah exactly

get the fuck out you fucking normie richfag
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>>37656822
Sorry that someone with BPD hurt you. I'm making progress.
>>37656825
I can stay away for a few days but eh. You're right, though. Ill try to do that, thanks.
>>37656826
Thanks for the (you)
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>>37656868
np you will have this disease your whole life i hope getting some attention on a board full of pathetic incels helps you feel better
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>>37655246
Lol she'd fuck the dogs and enjoy herself the entire time, absolutely no fucking question about it

Hi faggy OP. I haven't slept in... Nearing 48 hours at this point, which isn't by itself all that meaningful, but I'm pretty manic atm lol. It's actually pretty fun. I just hope I don't do anything I regret, but I actually seem to have a modicum of self-control unlike females lmao, and I don't (or at least I try not to) use my diseases (yeah I'm pretty fucked up) as a crutch, so I feel like I ought to be fine.
To humor you, what's the longest you've ever stayed up?

My record is a week.
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>>37656868
Do your friends and such know that you have BPD? At what point do you usually tell someone you have it? How do those conversations usually go? How many white knight faggots try to save you from yourself once they find out?
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>>37655381
>>37655642
Definitely chiming in to say I feel the same way
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>>37655736
>bpd
>has taken zero dicks
>>>FEMALE bpd
>>>Zero dicks

Yeah, and that's how you identify a troll, boyos. Pack it up.
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>>37655794
Holy shit, anon. You literally just described my mother, like fucking perfectly. This explains so fucking much. Not even memeing you, it was like this huge revelation all off a sudden. What a fucking cunt.
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>>37656987
I don't stay up too often. Stay hydrated and sleep when you can. Be safe.
>>37656999
My close friends know. I tell someone either upfront if they're online, or I'll wait until we've known each other for a while and are comfortable with each other. It's usually like "hi i have bpd if u wanna leave me that's ok sorry" and they're fine with it until I experience symptoms. And then I'm abusive and should've warned them. A lot of people try to "save me" but I tell them not to. Ofc they don't listen, but I do let them know that it doesn't work.
>>37657039
If you say so.
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>>37655815
I understood your reference, anon, and I just watched a few episodes recently which just perfectly capture that bpd spirit. Specifically running away with (and fucking a whole helluva lot of) a new ma/en because waahhh sad I'm totally trapped but then hating it after your high wears off and going back to your cuck (doesn't even deserve to be called a husband desu, a disgrace to the term) when you get bored.
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>>37655844
>I get upset over very little things, and get melodramatic, and then I regret all of it and get melodramatic about that too. Sort of a cycle
This is absolute shit. Seriously, just the most pathetic, pussy-tier bpd I've ever seen.
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>>37654917
have you been hospitalized? I'm bi-polar and so is my oneitits.
Tell me the freakest sex thing you have done, I know you all get hyper-sexual, but unlike a man have the power to act on it.
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>>37656449
Seriously. The post above yours got seven fucking replies, most all of them either a compliment or asking for contact info. But underwear anon is pretty based
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>>37657145
I hurt people, trust me. It's just very personal things, and the people I've hurt would most likely read it.
>>37657170
I have. I was a danger to myself and others at one point. Still am, but I can keep it between myself and others who won't say a word. Haven't done much sex stuff. I'm a virgin. Sorry about that.
>>37657203
I'm not sure how to answer this but I feel like it needed a reply.
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>>37656615
>If you didn't know me personally, you would see me as a Stacy.
So you're a Stacy.
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>>37656682
It's what women instinctually do

>>37656717
LMAO holy shit, absolutely delusional. Maybe it do have some mental disorders after all.
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>>37656731
Yes.

3400 Calle
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>>37654917
How do I find a BPD gf, both IRL and online? I'm about 19 and look decently attractive, just a bit socially awkward
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>>37657231
Does Stacy have BPD? If so, let's say that I am. I'm not much of a socializer irl, though. I hope to be.
>>37657255
Your english seems off for some reason. Not sure what it is.
>>37657273
You don't. But seriously, just date everyone. Youll find someone. Most likely regret it though.
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>>37656785
>But okay.
I'll bet that wasn't even intentional lel
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>>37656717
you mean "simple" not "simplistic" you dumb thot, your "writing" is probably a bunch of bad flowery prose and poetry, "he loves me, like the moon loves the eternal flowers of existence" or some such bullshit, you probably wish you were Sylvia Plath and you're like the opposite, because she was talented and wrote well
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>>37657282
Trust me femanon, I do want a BPD gf specifically. I don't want to date just anyone and everyone.
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>>37657289
damn anon why gotta go so hard on a bitch
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>>37657283
This seems like it needs a reply. To show I'm not ignoring it. You're welcome.
>>37657289
I don't really write all that much. Sylvia Plath was talented, you're right. Wouldnt want to be her. Seemed to deal with a lot. Thank you though.
>>37657306
Not sure if I can help you. Having a "BPD gf" doesn't seem like a great idea to me.
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>>37657282
Maybe you* do, my bad
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what race dick do u love most
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>>37657461
BBC of course, is that even a question wite boi
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>>37657309
kek I was kinda kidding, one of the robots above complained about these threads and everyone being too nice to girl posters so I thought I'd be a little (just a little bit) vicious, just to warm a fellow robot's heart

the vapid cunt did use the word simplistic wrong tho
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>>37657461
Virgin.
>>37657516
My bad. I'll fix that when I have the opportunity to use that sentence again. It'd be fun to see you go full vicious on me. Just because i'm curious.

I'm sleeping now. My discord is in the thread. Night.
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>>37654917

OP's name starts with "C" and has a nick name starting with "E'.
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>>37654917
Hey, I'm a bot with bipolar, aspergers and ADHD. I know everything about my 3 but I'd like to learn first hand from someone with borderline-

Question;

When did your illness manifest?

2;

Do you have trouble with relationships like boyfriends or family?

3;

Are you medicated?
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>>37657576
Is it Carly? OMG please come back OP, I looooove you :3
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>>37654917
>ask a girl
yeah nice try
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>>37654917
Another borderline grill here.
do you want to be my friend?
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>>37657616
I feel like she meant bipolar disorder, since highs were mentioned (at least that's what I assumed we were talking about this whole time, and nearly half of the posts in this thread are mine lol)
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>>37657751
No offence, but that's fucking gay.

Everyone knows BPD means borderline personality disorder, bipolar is just bipolar or MDD, manic depressive disorder.
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Hi, I am a girl too and looking for advice. How do I know if I am BPD? There has to be SOMETHING wrong with me, because if this is just me and there is no way to medicate it then I might just seppuku. Do I have to see a psychiatrist? What sort of questions do they ask? How did you get diagnosed?
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I hope these threads have been a fair warning to you robots. Mental disorders are not cute, they are no healthy, and most importantly, they shouldn't be idealized. If you are browsing /r9k/ you are probably walking a fine line when it comes to your sanity, so don't test your luck and push people like OP away from your life.

It's abuse. That simple. No amount of supposed "regret" or medication will make it any less obnoxious and hurtful. If you are being manipulated and toyed around with, kick their asses to the curve as soon as possible. Don't become another notch in their belt for them to parade around.
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>>37654917
What's your favorite Jojo's Bizarre Adventure part?

Part 2 or 4 for me are strong contenders, though I've yet to read the manga proper so I'm biased towards the earlier parts.
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>>37654917
AND, if in case you are not retarded, or a child, you need to at least be mentally ill, to get some replies as a female, not being told to fuck off. That's because the men around here only want to fuck retards/children/otherwise hindered females, who are clingy enough and easy to manipulate.

I have nothing to ask you. You are totally uninteresting attention whore who comes here to get some validation. Or then someone working for the police forces, to give unhappy, potential mass killer robots some hope and reasons to live. :)

I like your picture related tho.
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>>37657687
No, it's Ciara, and the nickname is Erica. She's a famous YouTube attention whore who collects money from robots to buy drugs.
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>>37657616
I started having symptoms a long time ago, but it was written off as being a teenager.
None of my relationships are easy. My illness interferes with my life in any way it can.
I'm medicated, but not for borderline.
>>37657719
Haha sure.
>>37657751
No. Having mood swings is common for BPD, and that means having highs.
>>37658607
Go to a professional. It might be best if you tell them what you think you have, or maybe you should tell them your problems and let them figure it out. A lot of mental problems stem from abuse and trauma, so they're going to ask questions about that. They'll ask questions about how you are in certain environments and with certain people. I got diagnosed when I started opening up and showed a lot of signs of having BPD. I got evaluated many times, and they're treating me for it now.
>>37660209
Thats mainly a reason for this thread. A lot of people who contact me say "you don't seem that bad" but you all have to remember that I'm mentally ill. I can be abusive and awful. It's not something to be romanticized.
>>37660256
I actually haven't started JoJo at all, sorry. I've been meaning to, but a lot of people say "start at this season" or "watch it backwards" and honestly I think I've spoiled myself too much.
>>37660683
I don't really see the point in writing this.
>>37660755
I really hope this post is ironic.
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>>37655175
Seeing all these thirsty beta's orbiting this roastie, it sickens me

Saged
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>>37660768
>I don't really see the point in writing this.
If you don't you've got to be an idiot.

>I really hope this post is ironic.
No it is not. I was just explaining what another poster meant, not trying to claim that you are Ciara. Also what I say about her is the truth.
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>>37660768
Cool, thank you so much. I'm waiting for a psychiatrist right now. Driving me crazy though! Haha!
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>>37654917
>>37655041
Got anymore of these? Madoka Magica is my favorite anime. Oh and I also have BPD shit sucks.
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>>37654917
I have question
What is the point of this thread? I'm serious, what do you hope to accomplish with this?
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>>37661070
It starts with and A and ends with an N. You know it, son.
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>>37661082
Shh, I want OP to answer.
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>>37660856
Alright.
>>37661013
No more of the images like those, sorry. They're the only two like that. I was hoping there would be some for other characters, too.
>>37661070
To give a warning of some sort, and to show that BPD shouldnt be romanticized. And people also have questions which I feel like I might be able to answer.
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>>37661128
>warning
and what is the warning? I've read this entire thread and honestly all I've really gotten from it is that you like attention. No offense.
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>>37661070

What's the point of any thread really?
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>>37661128
I added you on Discord. Please accept. I'd like to ask you some questions about a friend of mine with BPD.
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>>37661150
No you just see that it's a girl, and assume everything is for attention.
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>>37661200
No, I see someone answering repeated questions multiple times and seeking attention. I assume you're not female but actually male anyway, so that's not really a factor.
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>>37661186
This is creepy. Ask your friend instead
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>>37661182
That's a 2deep4me question but many threads do have premeditated points or goals.
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>>37661227
Looks like you're starved for attention bro
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>>37661236
Uhh, I want to be able to help my friend by understanding about their illness without offending her by asking her personal or private questions.
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> responses are as dry as saltine crackers
> tastes good at first but holy shit these crackers are dry
> let keep eating these crackers tho

What the fuck are you doing r9k?

Any further questions here could probably be answered with another dry cracker. So ask a question but then get up, go to the fucking cupboard and get a response.
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>>37661150
It can come off that way, but people are having questions answered, yes? I can't help that people ask the same questions. I could be rude and refuse to answer them, but that isn't what I intended this thread for.
>>37661282
This is a nice metaphor. Never been compared to dry cracker before.
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>>37657081
Wait, so you are telling me that you try to befriend people, but they end up leaving when you turn abusive due to your BPD? If so, have you found a way to combat this?
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>>37661359
I see what you mean, but I'm still unclear on the warning...
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>>37654917
How do you balance the sense of right and wrong with the desire for retribution against the idea of maintaining empathy
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I felt like saying that this thread is a nice change from the constant discord, trap, and tfw no gf threads.

Perhaps you could describe a situation that would show the symptoms of BDP? Like a green text or something.
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>>37661200
I doubt that that is the only reason why people conclude that you are seeking for attention. Why else would you come here and start a thread to give people a chance to ask about BPD? You do not seem to be a regular, but a visitor, as you do not even get what is the point of noting you about possible attention whoring, even if the whole place is full of similar threads. If you were a regular, you'd see the point, as you'd know the number of similar threads. If you are not a regular, or an attention whorer, another possibility is, that you are some kind of authority figure, a social worker or a youth psychologist, who comes here to lecture people about BPD, telling that it should not be romanticized.

Well, whatever. I hate attention whores, but luckily this forum is not my entire life. :)

BTW, you are not going to invalidate anyone's point by mockingly agreeing with them. It only proves that you lack any counter arguments and that your opponent is right.
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I bet Op is enjoying the abuse
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>>37661377
Yeah. I don't understand it because I usually try to make sure they know that I can be abusive. I've been getting better with controlling my emotions, and learning to not impulsively act in bad situations.
>>37661384
A lot of people here know that BPD is bad, but they still feel like the person isn't bad themselves. We all do fucked up things and we hurt people. You shouldn't mess with someone who has BPD. You also shouldn't try to save them.
>>37661406
Haven't learned to balance it yet, actually. That's something I need to work on. You worded it much better than I could, though.
>>37661419
What would the greentext entail exactly..?
>>37661443
I didn't read this. It didn't seem of any importance to me. But the person you replied to wasn't me anyways.
>>37661452
I don't enjoy being abusive and getting abused. Though, the word abuse gets used lighter now. But I'm not trying to use it in a light way.
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>>37661384
Not OP, but the warning is that BPD individuals are dangerous. We tend to befriend people easily, much like a magnet, only to have it lead to disaster when we show more and more of our true nature. We don't mean to hide it, but it is much a survival mechanism, and it proves how little we can be accepted when it leads to more heartbreak than not. It makes you worry that you are alone and the best you can get from others is temporary bouts of compassion before you tear them away. You are dangerous, you try to scare people off you, and people of course don't listen. You try not to fight it too hard, you want them to be the one who stays, but then they find out about you and leave as well. It is a painful cycle.
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>>37661508
>I didn't read this.
You're a shitty person. Not because of your BPD, not because someone said you were seeking attention, but because of this, specifically actually saying it.
I'm not angry or anything, I'm just disappointed as always at this bucket of crabs.
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>>37661508
>You also shouldn't try to save them.
What if we have a savior complex, what if we could only love someone we helped?
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>>37654917
Do girls with BPD intentionally seduce harems of men? Are they shrewd and calculating or do they just do it out of habit?
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>>37661443
>im a girl
> ask me anything
> haha is this reddit?
> im a loser like you guys
> im going to passively answer all your questions with one liners
> what a way to get information!
> im so helpful
> i'm going to start most of my sentences with "and, though, and but" to make it seem like im impartial
> im a virgin so no sexy questions boys

jfc this thread is the worst.
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>>37654992
>No thanks
Thread should have ended here.
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>>37654917
Did you ever wonder if you could conquer your disorder so that it was no longer a point of self identification?
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>>37661508
Friends don't listen anon. They believe they can power through anything. They don't believe you can be "that bad". They think you are exaggerating or just beating yourself up. Until they get hurt, I don't think they understand.

How do you control your impulses anon? I find they get so overwhelming that is hard to control them 24/7. I am quite good at disguising it when at work as long as I play the quiet role, it is how I can lead a stable life, but I don't understand how you do not need release.

Indeed, BPD is dangerous everyone. They hurt everyone against all odds to prevent it, they are an emotional bag of tears just waiting to collapse on you. I am unsure what BPD anon means by saving, I assume she means all the friends assuming you are just a pessimist that can have their confidence raised or the friend that thinks they will be there for you even when your negative BPD side comes out.
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>>37654917

Two questions. Are you at least 8/10? If so, want some dick?
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>>37661598
Yeah, put the word girl in the post and pathetic bots feed them attention.
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>>37661563
You will only be disappointed. There is no helping BPD anon. You will just be left feeling like you have made no progress. You probably would be the type to slowly disappear quietly without saying a word to not hurt BPD anon anymore. You would have other, more successful projects, and forget she exists. And she would be happy because you finally aren't struggling for her.
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>>37661673
If anon didn't want the attention, why did she state her gender? I am not sure how that benefits those wanting to know about BPD.
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>>37661690
>>37661663

Exactly.

BPD'ers will literally push out everyone in their life that tries to help them.

And embrace everyone who enables them.

And this shit right here is just a ponzi scheme to get as many of you orbiters in her gravitational field to help her feel better about her BPD bullshittery. Heck the more BPDers, the better.

When depressive, they'll do poor mouthed shit like this, then

WHAM BAM

Manic switch into overdrive and fuck their lives all over again due to being fucking broken and unmedicated.

Enjoy your rollercoaster of a life OP. I'm sure it will be short and wild. Like most BPDers.
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>>37661539
Thank you. You explained it perfectly.
>>37661553
You're telling me pointless things.
>>37661563
I wouldn't reccomend loving someone with BPD if you can help it. Know that they have to save themselves. You can help them along, but ultimately they need to do it. You'll feel useless and you'll end up getting hurt by trying to help them.
>>37661581
I don't think it's intentional. Pretty much out of habit and the way we are naturally. I don't think a lot of us sit down and plan out how to get harems. It's impulse.
>>37661598
Ouch. Didn't say I was a loser. I give one liners to things I don't have a lot of information to give on. Never said I was helpful. You got me on the second to last question, though. But, I also go through periods of hypersexuality and use sexual things to self harm.
>>37661618
Probably.
>>37661638
Yes. A lot. Sometimes I think I can "will power" myself out of my disorder, but it doesn't work like that, even if you wanted it to. I need to slowly take my time at becoming a better person, and develop my own personality that doesn't revolve around having BPD.
>>37661663
You're right about that. I don't want to hurt them. I try warning them and it hurts to see them disregard that.
I don't really control my impulses. The more dangerous impulses I have, I think. A lot. I think about the situation and what would happen. Or I try to distract myself. I mess with my hands a lot in order to keep myself from doing things I shouldn't.
Your last paragraph sums a lot up though. Thank you for explaining it better.
>>37661665
I'm above average. Dick? Maybe later.
>>37661673
I think most of the attention comes from the fact that I'm female and have BPD. But if I was male and had BPD, a lot of the questions would be similar, just not female orientated. Do i make sense?
>>37661690
You're right. I don't know the anon personally, but this happens a lot.
>>37661716
A lot of anons experiences with BPD come from females. BPD girls are sort of a meme.
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>>37655772
>BPD girls ghost us
explain this please
I've been ghosted by this girl that I know has problems. How do I know if she's BPD
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>>37661741
This is pretty much the cycle. Thanks for the good luck, even if it's sarcasm. BPD is fucked.
>>37661762
If she's already ghosted you, I don't think there's a point in knowing if she has BPD. Diagnosing someone, if you're not a professional, isn't the best idea. You could be wrong and end up messing things up more. If she has problems, then she has them. But she's gone, isn't she? I always like to say that people have symptoms of cluster B disorders, instead of an arm chair diagnosis. You can help them with the symptoms individually instead of acting like it's the whole disorder.
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>>37654917

I fell in love with a girl who had BPD, OP.

I don't recommend it, and I don't condemn it either. Worked for me, in some overly optimistic way.

You'll be alright.
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>>37661762
I'm not trying to cure her or anything. I just wanted to know if she ended up having BPD. I've already accepted that I'll probably never hear from her again and if I do, I don't plan on giving her another shot.
it would just be nice if there was a reason she did it. didn't feel great on my end.
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>>37661758
I can understand the distraction logic, anon. I have a weird thought process where I suddenly get amazed that I have the ability to control myself and could do absolutely anything, so I almost want to prove it to myself by doing something that society says is wrong simply to prove I can make my own choices.
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>>37661690
The only thing that you said that might deter me is if I'm hurting them, do they really see wanting to be with them and helping them and forgiving their mistakes as hurting them?
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>>37661758
Anon, I am thankful you have posted. It isn't much, but it feels good to not be alone, to not be the only messed up being among a sea of confused individuals. Mostly, I just wanted someone to understand, so seeing someone say what I have been saying makes me feel better. Though I apologize that you go through what you do, I must thank you for this thread and for everything you have said.
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>>37661814
Thank you.
>>37661839
I didn't know her personally, so I can't say for sure. You did say she had problems. They most likely overwhelmed her and she acted out because of it.
>>37661851
I understand. I'm sorry that it's like that. It can be hard to control. Realizing you have free will, and could make an irrational decision just because you can, it's .. a strange thing to deal with. But I also find it interesting. If I wanted, I could go outside and do almost anything. I can change my appearance anytime. I can say whatever I want. Ofc there's reprecussions but the fact that I can do anything is still a nice thought.
>>37661896
A lot of thoughts can be twisted if you have BPD. Helping someone can be seen as manipulating, so the person with BPD trust you. Then the perosn with BPD gets paranoid, because sometimes they believe they don't deserve kindness, or it might be a different reason.
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>>37661919
Do they get bothered if you try to twist it back? Like saying youre desire for penitence shows your goodness or saying I love you because I love you?

Do you have any tips to help me deal with their thoughts like that?
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>>37661919
Exactly anon, it is a very fascinating thing when you realize you have control over this body. You question what it is like to control other bodies, you wonder if they can truly control themselves or are like NPCs, and you get this urge to prove to yourself that you can still control yourself. I have slapped myself just to prove I could cause myself pain if I wanted, it is a fascinating feeling. I found it a great way to scare people away, nobody wants to talk to the person that yells out random words when you get close to them and acts like a crazy person just because it is a way of reveling in your free will. You get paranoid at the same time at the great responsibility, especially since you want to just do whatever, and indeed the repercussions mean you don't do most of the stuff you think of. But it is an amazing concept, one I am unsure why I am so fascinated with.
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>>37662026
you don't have free will though
control over your body is an illusion
ultimately we're all made from atoms and chemicals following the laws of physics. whatever happens was going to happen no matter what.
though yes everyone has consciousness and the same illusion of control
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>>37662019
BPD individuals like anon tend to not believe they are worthy of their goodness. They are not worthy of you if you are too nice to them and will seek to avoid something they did not deserve. They will believe everything you say is because you do not fully understand them, that you never can understand them, and it is only through their own accidental misleading that you are even still trying.

BPD can be torture. People that are nice, you will lash out at because you are certain you don't deserve such good people. People that aren't, you get defensive and get tired of them as well. You are never truly alone because new friends are easy to obtain, but at the same time you are because you know you can never have a friend stick by you. If they tried to, you would question why they would.
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>>37662077
>you will lash out at because you are certain you don't deserve such good people
even if i didn't think i "deserved good people" i still wouldn't lash out at them.
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>>37662095
But anon, that would be selfish. You would feel bad about having led them on some massive charade. You would feel like you would want to do something nice for all their kindness and that the only thing that can make them truly happy is to distance yourself from them. You would be emotionally torn while doing it, you wouldn't want to hurt someone like that, but you would want them to see life without you because you just know it would be so much better.
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>>37662019
I haven't ever had a problem with that. That might actually be helpful. But keep in mind that they have to do all of the work. You're there to support them, not save them. It's different. Try and motivate them. If they help themselves, they'll have a better future.
>>37662026
I don't know why I'm so fascinated too, but I am. I love the way you explained this all. It was nice to read someone else who feels the same.
>>37662059
You might be right. I like thinking I have free will, though.
>>37662095
Well, if you have BPD, you can't control how your emotions work. I try to twist them into hating me, and I push them away. I don't mean to do it, but I feel as if I don't deserve to be treated kindly, and I try to make them hate me because I deserve it.
>>37662077
Most of you can word things better than I can. Thank you for putting in your input.
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>>37662152
Same here anon. I have a fear of losing control over myself. I don't even know how you can take antidepressants, that would be too much for me, since I would feel that isn't the real me or that it would inhibit my ability to do whatever free actions I would want to do. To know I never had it to begin with might be too much.
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>>37662147
>>37662152
so bpd is basically like having the lowest self-esteem ever and going about it in a dramatic attention whore fashion without being able to stop? fuck that sounds like a nightmare
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>>37661758
>>37661758
Sorry youll never understand what being a robot is truly like, that's why I don't like this post.


I hope you cope okay with your disease though still.

Id respect you enough to not hang out on bpd forums, why do you have such little respect for robots to invade our space and pray on the weak robots?

Oh yeah, for attention, guaranteed. And don't argue that. Every thread with 'le grill here xD' maxes out. Just because you can't help yourself.

That's what gets to me. It's just selfish.

If you actually cared about your mental problem you'd not distract half of the betas on here by mentioning your roast.
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>>37654992
OBJECTION
real bpd would post tats
t. bpd anon
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>>37662077
How would they feel telling them that its their illness telling them to push someone away or that they think they don't deserve love or help and that they know they shouldn't think that way
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>>37662228
oh right, their attention would be much better used reading some thread whining about being 5'10 or how all women are evil
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>>37662227

comes with alot of dick though, so it really doesn't matter.
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>>37654917
Part of your disease is to seek other people's attention.

You may be more borderline then bipolar. Go take your medicines and see your psychologist. You may truly be bipolar, if you are I do have empathy of you. I worked in psych for a short while and those patients were the most awful people I've ever met. Try to go above your disease. Don't let it hinder you and don't use it all the time like it's a handicap. I don't respect people who do that shit. "Oh I have depression, oh I have anxiety". Stop letting it control your life. Take charge. It doesn't have to be that way
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>>37662202
I'm trying to get better in any way I can. i don't have much of a "self" to change, so I'm fine being medicated. Sorry about that.
>>37662227
Yeah, pretty much. It's difficult.
>>37662228
That's understandable. Thank you. But r9k isn't exactly just robots anymore. I'm not saying it wasn't "for robots" in the first place, but there are many other people. This also isn't a safe space. Just keep that in mind.
The last part, I don't care for. Too many people bring it up and I don't care enough to argue about it.
>>37662231
Oh? Interesting.
>>37662241
It might help them. You just have to use trial and error.
>>37662268
I'm borderline. BPD is borderline. I'm getting help for it, and trying not to let my illness get the best of me. It won't define me.
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>>37662268
Harsh but fair.

>install gentoo and read books.

>>>/g/
>>>/lit/
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Do you ever worry that you're going to end up killing yourself one day? People with BPD kill themselves at a super high rate. My ex gf had BPD and she killed herself. She was very impulsive and had extremely dark moods with low self esteem at times which is a perfect mix for suicide. If you are also impulsive, how does it not worry you?
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>>37662227
Pretty much anon. I think I speak for BPD anon by saying that we feel quite negative and have low self-esteem. But it feels justified because we have hurt so many times in the past that we just anticipate hurting again. It is more just a matter of time to someone with BPD. It becomes hard to build up your self-esteem when you see the results in action, which in turn makes you want to prevent it from harming others as you realize it is a cycle.

As for the dramatic part, that is pretty much BPD, a lot of excessive emotions that change rather quickly. I am actually curious about this, I have always said that I am the black and white to society's grey. I seem to live my life in extremes where I cannot seem to find a middle ground. Does this sound similar BPD anon?
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>>37662300

do you ever wonder if a gamma burst might just obliterate the entire planet without warning?

Yeah, me too.

I have to accept I can't fix people or make them better, they're never going to share my perspective on their life and it will just drive anxiety through the roof expecting them to change if they are on a completely different journey. And they are, because they're not me.

>don't sweat the small stuff anymore, anon. Take it from daddy.
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>>37662335
You can't control a gamma burst but you can control yourself so they're nowhere near the same thing. The rules you use to rationalize risk don't apply to decisions you yourself make.
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>>37662268
You know, this makes sense, this is why BPD anons post here a lot. They are all intensely lonely and desperate for someone to talk to, at least at the moment. The problem anon is that is there hope for people with BPD? It seems like they are such a wreck that their best hope is just to function the best they can. They have so many emotions... so many conflicting emotions... that half the time they don't even know if what they are saying is true. I don't even know if this post is stating things correctly.
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>>37662335
aren't people just swallowing atheism in the same way people swollow god?

as a working class zombie or brain dead neet it's hard to do anything worth a damn, you ultimately just get swept along by the current.
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>>37662312
No, it's so fucking simple. All they need to do is stop tying all of their self esteem to the approval of another person, then getting freaked out when that person threatens to get close to them and get to know the real them and pushing them away. They always self sabotage and then self pity. Every single goddamn time all they need to do is stop this fucking cycle. Maybe get a life where you understand what's important to you, what your principles are, how to live a life that you can be proud of, but no, you're stuck in you're two year old attachment phase, constantly chasing for daddy's approval.
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>>37662282
Don't apologize, it is your choice anon. I can understand also not wanting yourself to act on those impulses and believing yourself needing to change.
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>>37662335
>that pic
>mindlessly consuming words that someone else has written makes you a supremely enlightened gentleman
Reading is no better than watching TV. Both are merely the consumption of media. Get over yourself.
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>>37654917
My ex had diagnosed bipolar, along with HPPD. During her sweet phase, which tended to last for a few months, she was truly the girl of my dreams and acted like I was her dream. The second phase would come without warning, like a switch being flipped, and she would hate and resent me for everything, cutting contact in the process. After a few months, it would pass, and she'd contact me again.
In the "bad" phase, she'd claim she used me for sex (kek, she said I was incredible in the bed and even during her bad phase, she never said I sucked at fucking) and that was all she wanted from me. Of course, when it reversed, then suddenly she'd cry and apologize profusely for everything she said, claiming she hurt me deeply and wanted to mend the relation.
Interestingly enough, antipsychotics such as olanzapine, risperidone and haloperidol seemed to bring her much faster to the "good" state.
Have you ever been on such medication? It interests me since biochemistry is also one of my interests and I wonder if BPD has its roots in "faulty wiring", to put it in simple words.
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>>37662351

You're looking at it wrong dude, there is no such thing as rules, only cattle, shepherds and wolves.

Cross whatever line you want, no one's going to stop you, and if they do, you deserve to be stopped.

Do I really have to defend myself here?

Suicidal thought comes from a point of irrational fear and loathing. Were I not to make such a contrast of internal or external influence to illustrate anxiety, the point would still stand.

It's pretty fucking simple. If you're suicidal and you haven't done it yet, you're a pussy. If you're suicidal and you haven't thought about reaching out to anyone for help yet, you're an asshole.

But any way you slice it, you're a human with human problems, just like the next person, who sees things in very similar and yet vastly different ways.
Stop agonizing about your problems and take the fastest way to solving them, whatever that may be.
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>>37662373

what the fuck else is there to do but assume your role in the great stageplay? Except as much as I could potentially doubt the validity of free will, you literally can play the game however you want.

Life's a bitch, and then you die. Saved pic too.
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>>37662441
you're not suicidal until you're dead from suicide or have attempted it.

that's why I don't take responsibility for my thoughts, even though I plan it and am driven to it I'm never actually suicidal.
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>>37662439
Emotional seduction at its finest. You give people everything they want then take it away, make them dependent upon you like a drug. It exists because of evolution. Women and children were dependent upon men for all of human evolution, they evolved certain strategies to emotionally manipulate men into providing care for them.
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Don't use cute anime girls. They are pure and everything good, you're a boring slut with typical daddy/mental issues.
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>>37662525

Everyone has needs dude. Everyone also wants someone in their corner. I think that the problem therein lies on the need to seek validation from anyone but >you
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>>37662525
She did know beforehand I was not the type to get attached. It was fun to be around her when things were good (obviously). We were friends who ended up in the bed and from there everything escalated. I must say, I don't regret a thing and still remember fondly those times, even though they ended in a little bit underwhelming way. I knew from the get go she wasn't a person that I could seriously plan to live with.
Indeed, I smashed that sweet ass like a gorilla on meth.
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>>37662441
but with BPD it's
>emotions raging
>can't control emotions
>emotions tell you to kill yourself

At this point someone with BPD has a situation where if they really lose the battle for control they will literally die. You can't just treat the risk like a gamma burst because what triggers the emotions are things that they can control by making the right decisions. If they don't make the right decisions and live in a destructive way, they can end up giving in to the negative emotions. I find it amazing how many people with BPD just seem to ignore this and keep hurting others and themselves over and over again and just act like toddlers with no responsibility. Then one day they realize how much they hate themselves and they end up killing themselves in a fit of impulsivity. If you live with this disorder you can't just live flippantly and do whatever you want.
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>>37662626

>If you live with this disorder you can't just live flippantly and do whatever you want.

Not OP, but this so much. I detach myself from life and treat everything as a joke and only seeking ways to entertain myself. I've fucked up so much and all it's done is entertain myself. I couldn't give a fuck because it was exciting. I've ghosted people and I don't know why I do. I'm not giving myself an excuse, rather just an explanation.

The worst thing is that I've gone off the meds because it's more enjoyable to get that rush of excitement by entertaining myself from the delusion and going 100% on my raging emotions. It's like delusional happiness, and it's amazing. If I was offered a pill to get rid of BPD, I would REFUSE to take it.

But my life is suffering so I'm having to go back on meds, I don't know, I feel conflicted. I feel so much more full of life without meds, I'm just so god damn happy.

Pic related
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>>37662606
The sex with girls with personality disorders is always amazing.
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>>37662753
How about boys with personality disorders? Are they good in sex?
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>>37662705
So how can you claim to have empathy when you live like this? You obviously hurt other people and you don't seem to really care why you do it or want to stop for the sake of the other people involved. You only talk of excitement and enjoyment for yourself.
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>>37662753
Yup. She had no problems doing it 4 times a day and truly relished the feel of being cummed inside.
I have quite a sexual appetite, so she was perfect in that regard.
You should've seen how ecstatic she was after giving her some euphoriants and then fucking the lights out of her. Man, I wish I could enjoy sex as much.
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>>37662776
The narcissists and histrionics and antisocials are, yes although they can be selfish.
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>>37662705

>yeah you got me, spookek.
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>>37662790

>So how can you claim to have empathy when you live like this

Not the female OP, I'm male (24). I have empathy, but honestly (in retrospect), it's only when the situation involves me getting into trouble (usually due to my "entertainment"). I will act differently depending on the situations in order to get out the situation and escapes consequences. I practice how to do things like this constantly, I will act out a situation and think about what to do in response to what someone says.

Sadly this works all the time with people, even though I'm a male. I can only imagine what females can do. I have difficultly relating to people who are not me and so I try "things" to see how a person reacts because it's exciting.

I FEEL emotions, and they rage, but only when it concerns my life.
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>>37662828

I was curious, but is it like when both Male and Female have a personality disorder like BPD and they are in a relationship? Would that work? It seems exciting.
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>>37662282
Not the same guy, but if you don't feel like arguing tough shit. He has a valid point and you know it. Saying "I don't feel like arguing" is nothing more than a shitty cop out for not having a counter arguement at all. If you have a valid position, then it's up to you to defend it. We all know what he's saying is true though. The ONLY reason you made this shitty thread is you know it's garaunteed replies. This used to be a place where every anon had to contribute something of value in order to get (you)s. youre taking advantage of the fact that this board is filled with desperate isolated young men who never get female attention. The only reason youre getting any replies is because people are either calling out your bullshit, or they are desperate betas. Ask yourself honestly, had you omitted saying you were a grill would this thread get any replies? Why is your gender relevant to the discussion? You are a stupid roastie who lacks the ability to think objectively so of course your gonna lie about how that's not your intention, you'll probably even lie to yourself and convince yourself that that's not what your doing. But guess what? It is no matter how much you deny it to us and to yourself. If you admit it we will have infinitely more respect for you. (Infinity times 0 is still 0 btw)
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>>37662902
Male narcissist and female bpd is quite a common pairing actually. It can work but it's not exactly what I would call a healthy relationship.
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This whole threads remind me of my ex. What a bitch.
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>>37654917
No one gives a fuck. You're a crazy cunt, not much that's interesting about that. Go away, you attentionwhore.
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>>37662997

check out the obvious envy on this guy though, right?
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>>37662405
Tying all their self-esteem to another person? Not sure I follow. Nobody can handle the real BPD, that is the problem, it is just a bunch of ignorant and blissful individuals trying to be friendly but having zero idea the can of worms they are opening. You self sabotage because you know it will be worse later and you wish to make them not waste their time. You pity because you loathe that you needed to sabotage something that you wish could have worked. Explain how to break the chain, how do you do it when you know every single person you talk to will end up in shambles? That you cannot trust yourself to hold up your end of the friendship and expect they will learn something you "hid" before that destroys everything? You say stop, but it isn't as easy as just stopping when you can barely control your emotions.
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>>37663033
Envy of what exactly? I don't understand, whiteknight-kun.
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>>37663079
>BPD feels like shit about themselves
>BPD attracts someone to make them feel better about themselves
>gets scared that person will reject them so they preemptively reject them
>feels like shit about themselves
>repeats cycle

BPD always self sabotage. They usually convince themselves they've been abandoned but in reality they pushed the other person away. If they either A didn't have to seek out someone to make them not feel like shit about themselves or B didn't push that person away after the seduction phase was over they wouldn't have any issues.
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>>37654917
Don't become a parent. Please. I had to deal with that shit for 18 years. Never ever reproduce.
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>>37663224
Well, that is the problem with BPD. They want someone, they need someone, and they cannot bear to be by themselves. They want help and support. Yet if they get it, they fear they had no right to get it and only got it by living a lie, which bothers them as they want to be true to everyone. They push the others away only by revealing who they really were, if the other was such a great friend they couldn't be pushed away. The fact that people can be pushed away shows they are great individuals, but shouldn't be around someone with BPD for they cannot handle it.
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>>37663235
I don't see how someone with BPD even has a kid unless it is a one-time fling of romance before they entirely regret their actions and feel their partner deserves to be with someone else, thus forcing them to raise the child on their own.
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>>37662300
Yeah. I'll kill myself one day. Doesn't bother me.
>>37662439
Your ex and I have a lot in common, ha. I haven't been on antipsychotics, but I've been talking to my doctors about them. Thanks for this.
>>37662541
Right.
>>37662908
I didn't read this.
>>37662971
Darn. Sorry about that.
>>37662997
Thanks for the (you)
>>37663235
Don't worry about it.
And for the other people arguing, have fun. I didn't bother to read your arguments but some of you have goodness points.
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>>37663834
>didn't read this
You are just further proving my point. You break down in the face of scrutiny. When called out on your shit you can't even make a logical counter response or debunk it. Why are you so afraid to simply prove me wrong? Is it because you know I'm right, but rather than face the uncomfortable truth, you'd rather take the easy way out and pretend you "didn't read that"?
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>>37663834
Antipsychotics are certainly very helpful in such cases, but I'm not too grand on their prolonged use due to profound and persistent side-effects (they are absolutely unmatched when it comes to the sudden personality changes though), so perhaps mood stabilizers will work better for you. She was on antidepressants such as sertraline before, but those worked on her in truly amazing ways - bringing her into hypomania, while a typical person wouldn't even notice any difference while taking them.
Brain displays a high level of plasticity, so behavioral therapy together with PROPER pharmacotherapy will work wonders for you.
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curious about splitting. Does everybody go into one category or the other or is it only a thing that comes out after you're emotionally invested into that person? Also could you explain how the emptiness feels. Curious to try and semi understand the perspective
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>>37663296
Sometimes they use them to try and fill emotional needs. Other times it's used as a way to ensure their partner won't leave them. I'm sure it's not as simple as those two all the times, but these are sometimes reasons
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