Do your parents know you're a fuckup? If so to what extnt?

>used to have big drug and alcohol issues
>got sober and moved out
>in the last year have been lapsing back into abuse
>visiting mom today
>she says, "you look great, you look like you're thinking much clearer"
>mfw before I went over there I did a line of coke and smoked a bowl, then downed a beer.
>lied to my mom about how I'm doing great

>>37595029

They do not.

>Always been a good liar
>Graduated from uni
>Spat more lies at parents than truth
>They never bothered to get involved in my life
>Just went along with claims I had a large social circle and got out a lot
>I have not had friends a very, very long time

I even lied to them that I was still employed when I was between jobs for a while in 2015. I live alone; they never knew.

I don't trust them with almost anything. It shouldn't be like this for a parent-child relationship, but it is. I'm alone in this world.

>>37595029
Sometimes I tell my mom I spent the saturday night going out with my friends and stuff.

Its a lie, I stay alone in my apt the whole weekend.

>>37595029
They enabled my fuck uppery no life whatsoever now at 39 literally nothing