At what age did you realize you were different?

literally when i was 6 years old

First day of high-school

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16ish

took me a while to understand tbhh but i was never a smart kid
i like to think ive accepted my fate in this life

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>>37537875
When I was 4 and I first went to school, then it doubled down when I was 8 once I realized that I was one of the slowest in my class as well as begun to be bullied the same year.

>>37537875
When I was five I started realizing nobody wanted to hang out with me.

>>37537875
It started when I was picked on after being the worst at every sport in my class, I was around 7-8

16 after i couldnt get a gf
Others just didn't invite me y to parties
19 after i had to repeat a year
It took me 2 years to make friends in my new school. I realized after a guy asked me if i was aspergers. No one ever came over to my house no matter how much i imed them on msn
25 after i quit my job
My brother wont stop tormenting me how im useless.people just talk to others about stupid shit where i want to tall about scifi stuff and then they call me weird

When I was 9 I noticed my mom was worried about my sanity because i had no friends (even tho i wasnt feeling bad or anything)

and that other time when I realized I was a cringey retard at 14

>>37537875
At around 9 I first started to realize it, but I didn't want to believe it. Around 11 I had a nervous breakdown and realized I was different. At 15 I gave up and since then I've been hopeless

When I was about 11 and chad asked me when i was getting a GF, i said soon

>I was wrong

>>37538040
thats a shame anon
i hope you can find happiness somehow in this life

just remember none of it really means anything anyway. Just try and be comfy

When my friends went from join in on weird stupid shit to the people standing on the sidelines watching, so around high school.
Nobody wants to screw around and have fun anymore, they just laugh (not even maliciously) and watch.

>>37537875
Since I was 11. Still have hope for some reason, though

>>37537875
Since kindergarden

12

didn't solidify until mid high school

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Somewhere around 5 or 6 when I started feeling extreme existential dread

26

Until then I thought I just a horrible failure of a person instead of a sperg.

10. Realized no one at all liked me.

I don't have an exact date, but I realized I was different back in elementary school.

Visited a friend for the first time. No fights, no screaming, no threats, no trash everywhere. Hell they even fed me and gave me some old clothes. I realized there and then that the gap between my upbringing and experiences and the ones of normies was enormous and that I was living in a normie world - destined to be a robot.

>>37541026
how did the old clothes thing work

were you dressed kinda ratty and they offered??

when I was a normie faggot at 14 yrs old in high school I could tell that all my high school relationships with friends were superficial. I knew back then that if it wasn't for the fact that we went to school together none of my friends would hang out with me outside of it, it turned out to be true years later when we parted ways and all attended different schools.

>>37541060
too small with holes in them.

>>37537875
Just saying those guys are different too. Robots and 70% of the population will never be like them. But even skinny jawlets men can make friends. Fuck I know a nerd who is social and does sport.

>>37541026
>Visited a friend for the first time. No fights, no screaming, no threats

Iktf. your childhood sounds worse desu, i primarily got mental abuse from my mother that i think convinced me to always be on edge and watch out/look for the negative things in life. How you doing now?

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>>37537875
Birth
>Oreganoliolioreganolio

High schoolish, when I purposely got dark colors binders/folders to scratch and collect my dandruff on..just to play with it (didn't eat it)

What does robot mean
I don't feel normal and I wonder if I am a bot

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When I was a kid I was very naive. All I wanted to do was be a good boy. At 15 I realized I hated all institutions and people. The believes that most people hold have been deeply disturbing to me. Most people have twisted motivations that even they aren't aware of. I wanted to believe in my country, I wanted to believe in people, I even wanted to believe in christianity, but it's all vapid lies. I've been in a constant existential crisis ever since.

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>>37541122
>How you doing now?
I'm on r9k

>>37537875
14-15ish
Things were different when I was a kid. All you had to do was walk around the block and you'd find a group of kids to hang out with. "Hey wanna play soccer?", " You have an N64? Let's hang out dude". Those were simple times.
Then middle school happened. Suddenly people started to make fun of me for the way I look or act, finding friends was impossible unless you find someone in the same predicament.
Then high school happened. Everyone was having a great time. Parties, girlfriends, etc etc. All the people I used to call friends grew up and didn't want to hang out anymore. I was alone. Still am.

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>>37541160

Uh. What. Thanks for clarifying that you didn't eat it I guess.

>>37541265
>>37541122
Seriously though I managed to move away from that town to a bigger city, things are doing just in every way that doesn't involve other humans. Don't really talk to my parents much, just my mom and sisters.

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>>37537875
To me, OP, it came twice. First as a kid. Around 10. I had made some good friends by then, was some kind of small-time bully when I hung out with them, got invited to a few birthday parties. But I never played sports or spent a lot of time out there. I read a lot. And I grew a long her, I even had a ponytail. So from ~10 to 13 I was relentlessly bullied, sometimes hit. Nothing really triggered it, it just happened. At some point I thought I was crazy and just wanted to kys - teen feels. I was weak and girly, so I was called a fag as well.

Then around 14 it began to wane away. Most of the bullies were gone. I wasn't shy anymore, I spoke a lot in class (even started to become fluent in english). I had good grades. Everything felt fine by the time I went into high school (which starts at 14 in my country).

15 and 16 were probably my best years. Hit the gym thrice a week, hung out with other kids, occasionally some dude tried to bully me but I always laughed it off. I traveled a lot. I saw girls. I thought things would change.

Then I transferred. I didn't make new friends at that new school. I became extremely self-conscious about acne. I was culturally alienated from everyone else. I fell in love really deeply, and got rejected, which exacerbated my self-consciousness. I couldn't connect with anybody. I started not to enjoy anything. Gave up on all my hobbies. Stopped hitting the gym, and although I was never buff, now I have the body of a boy.

Then I found this board. And I'm still here. I thought I could be a normie, but apparently I couldn't. Now I'm accepting this fate, because I don't have the courage to stand up and fight like a man. All I have left are memories of those two so-distant golden years, which I will never get back again. I'm socially inept. Socially disabled. I never learnt small talk. I never learnt courtship.

I FEEL LIKE SUCH A FUCKING BITCH I DONT EVEN HAVE A GOOD REASON TO FEEL BAD IM 19 THIS IS FUCKING PATHETIC

>>37538040
>19 after i had to repeat a year
shit, you too??
glad I'm not alone. I thought I was a total retard. Bleh I prolly am.

>>37541273
>pic
thats hilarious

>>37541470
>I FEEL LIKE SUCH A FUCKING BITCH I DONT EVEN HAVE A GOOD REASON TO FEEL BAD IM 19 THIS IS FUCKING PATHETIC
I'm 11 and in the same situation

>>37541313
I'm glad you got out of there. Once I began living solely with my old man things got a bit better, but it is always with you if know what I mean. Never quite got interacting with people either, as much as I might want to make connections I tend to just shy away from interaction by default.

Twelve. I lost all my good friends moving to a new school and the cycle repeated for high school and my senior year. Earlier than that, was when I was being bullied at six for having glasses. Back to twelve, I first saw bestiality and was insanely turned on. I was already into animated porn for around a few months.

I realized I was an atheist at 14, coming out at 17.