What's stuck on your mind, anon?

I'm a loser failure

anime titties and my world history final

>>37072978
Im a loser failure and I wanna kill myself very very much.

Wheres God? Who will fight for God?


...Is there a God?

>>37072986
>>37073035
If you guys see that in yourselves what's stopping you from trying to fix that?

>>37073068
I have a weird theory on God.
God is most likely not the one that the Bible perceives him to be. After all humans did create it and they're corrupt.
What if God is a god-like race that creates galaxies/universes.

>>37072978
I have no ambition.
Or rather my ambition is weaker then my lazyness.
I will forever want things but be 2 lazy to work for it.

nothing
my mind is a finely machined carnival ride
throw shit into it and goofy shit gets thrown back out
i keep it well oiled constantly with 2D porn to ensure no breakdowns

>>37073121
the fact that it's impossible to fix

>>37073153
Nothing is impossible to fix.
You just look the opposite direction when you try to find the solution.

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why am i so quiet when there are nice people around

>>37073170
ok mate, you tell me how to fix being a sub-90 IQ, autistic, friendless, jobless, 5'4, shut-in loser. Hmm maybe I just didn't try hard enough, after all the normies managed it and everyone is on an equal playing field in their just-world

What my future will be like

>>37073237
It's not a just-world, you're right.

You can easily find a job but that depends if you know how to/willing to make a resume, dress nicely for the interview and try to make yourself stand out throughout the interview.

You're selling yourself too short. (not a height pun). If you work hard enough you can definitely try to get to being a 80k+ job.
If you really want friends then join public discords/skype groups.

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why do people i love always leave me

I found the perfect female for me but she has a chad bf

>>37073424
Try to incriminate chad then ez grill

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>>37072978
Waiting till dark, so I can ramble through town with my LA Gear shoes. Wondering how many slags i'll bang, heh.

My childhood home. I'm going to go by it before I kill myself. It's been over a decade so I feel like I should see it one last time. Not a lot of good memories there but they're memories all the same.

I'm schizo and want to kill myself

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how the fuck am i gonna find a job now that university is out. Why am i such a loser for never having a job at 21. Thats about it

>>37072978

oneitis

i never had one before the past few months

it's truly upsetting

If any of you are on the verge of suicide why not just sell everything you own, take the money and leave your current position. I know it isnt easy at all but instead of ending it all, completely flip the script and change it all.

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I ruined 2 of my only friendships in the last two days

>>37072978
The loneliness is killing me. And I'm slowly but surely acceping that it's going to be a permanent thing.

Wish I could end it but I don't want to hurt my parents.

My oneitis, she's such a adorable qt 3.14 and I want to ask her out so bad, I feel like she might even have said yes but for circumstances that mean we'll likely never be together. I can't get her out of my mind and it's seriously messing me up.

>>37074000
iktf, I only had one before this one over 5 years ago and it was never this strong.

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>>37072978
The absurdity of my own environment and personal existence, m8.

>>37072978
The fact that in not going to my university of choice. Just keep thinking about it and comparing the two, always making me feel disappointed

>>37073203
They aren't so nice, it's for the best

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>>37072978
I told my family and sister was likely going to go through with it and kill myself, I think I remarked "I'll probably die in this shitty apartment". On some level I want to live, on another level I feel obligated to kill myself. Its hard to explain. I am also struggling to find work, and hate almost every person I've met within the past year, and think its almost better to be completely isolated than have to deal with other peoples stuff. I'd also like to start growing shrooms again, I did it in highschool but like twice I got caught and another time it got contaminated and I was only successful once.

Some friends would be nice. In fact, 1 friend that doesn't make me feel terrible about myself would be incredibly helpful.
Also how do I give a good first impression?

>>37073203
I usually feel like they're being nice to me to gain something out of it.

>>37073068
ive come to the conclusion that there is no god.

I mean, think about it, if there is a god, why would he deny us happiness and mock us by having normies openly display their happiness. Seriously god, what the hell is going on? are you the one to blame for this? Do you ever think about me?

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I have so many things I need to do but I just sit around all day and don't do anything. I wish I could get some motivation but I just feel too dead inside to move. I wish I could disappear

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I want to ask her how she feels about me but I already know. I'm too scared to admit she doesn't share the feelings I have for her. I want to get over it but it keeps haunting me when I'm reminded.

>>37074121
Crippling mental illness, you faggot normie.

>>37074970
It's better to let it out than to have it bottled up.

>>37074932
Have you tried listening to upbeat music?

>>37074836
Crack a joke mostly works out

>>37074834
What type of work are you having a hard time to find?

>>37074697
As long as you're going to a uni then you'll definitely be fine.

>>37074584
Any way you can think of to try to improve it?

>>37074553
>>37074000
I know that feeling, anons.

>>37074199
I've been numb to that feeling far too long.

>>37074160
I'm sorry to hear that. Are you trying at all to find new ones?

>>37072978
can the cia see into the future? if not, what the hell do they do then?

>>37075050
>replying to everyone in the thread
overly enthusiastic op detected

>>37075094
I enjoy talking to people but can't for the life of me talk to people irl.

Kill me

>>37075138
oh sorry I feel like a dick now. just be yourself haha

>>37075226
It's all good my dude, I don't take anything people say to me to heart.
We're on an anonymous messaging board after all lmao

>Firmly believe that race mixing is wrong.
>Developing jungle fever at a rapid pace
>Already have a bit of yellow fever that I'm trying to suppress.

God dammit, why'd their women have to be attractive? I know it's wrong but when I think about the idea of having a non-white girl, it doesn't repulse me like it used to.

I feel like I'm becoming soft. I feel like just thinking about it already makes me a traitor. I'll fuck off to /pol/ now.

>>37075435
You're retarded. The world will globalize further and further and that ship has already sailed. Nothing /pol/ ever says or does can change our sealed fates. You can either die on the hill of a despised ideology that is ultimately doomed and for naught or maybe meet the colored QT of your dreams.

Your choice.

Daily reminder that fascism proved itself to be a failure on every single level in the long term and has been discarded by the world.

>>37072978
I jumped the gun and now she won't talk to me ever again.

>>37075538
I'm not about to be a quitter. I don't care if "the ship has already sailed," I'm seeing what I believe in through to the end even if it's a bad end. Even if it means the entire world hates me, I can at least know that the entire world is wrong.

I'm not about to be the guy who decided one day to change the entire colour of his family line just because he wanted to indulge in a fetish or fantasy. But dammit, I ain't making it easy for myself. I'm trying to get myself off this phase by trying to imagine the inevitable breakup where I have to tell her the actual reason why we can't be together, but I don't think that's a long term solution.

>>37072978
I finally got gf but now I'm too scared to talk to her beyond trivial shit

I haven't actually seen her irl in months. We've been good friends for a long time, but only recently did i get the balls to ask her out (thanks painkillers).

>>37072978
I have a crush on my friend but he's not gay

How it's impossible to find a pure helium tank. God damnit people in the early 2000s had it easy.

Her period is still not coming

>>37074834
That's funny because I want to die but I feel obligated to live.

>>37075675
>I can at least know that the entire world is wrong.

:thinking:

If everywhere you go smells like shit try checking your feet.

>>37075987
Maybe everywhere I go smells like shit because someone shit all over the path.

Anyway, the main point is how do I stop myself from liking black and Asian girls? At the very least, how do I cope with feelings that I know I cannot act on?

I've never really had to deal with that kind of thing before. Guess I'm sheltered.

It's too late to go back to college

Loneliness is starting to bother me again.

Going out and seeing people doing things together, hearing them talk about their plans, and realizing you're not a part of that world.

Wanting the affection of women but having no idea how to get it, because you never learned how to socialize with them.

Not knowing where you would even start to get a life.

Knowing that many of the people around you, even if their lives aren't perfect, at least have friends they do things with, have sex, do other things they enjoy.

Meanwhile you stare at your computer all day and ruminate about things, and it hasn't done you any good. It's just made you isolated, sad, and confused.

I'm sure a lot of you can relate.

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>>37072978
I'm drunk and I gotta wake up in about 5 hours to go to work, earlier if I want to not smell like disgusting alcoholic trash
I just want to be gone

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>>37076158
It's really pretty simple anon.

>>37072978
I will never make it w/ a woman
I am a dicklet and not even a good person
that part of the human experience is not for me
I wish I would die

>>37073016
This anon has life figured out.
I hope you do well on the final.

>>37076235
Oof, an alcoholic huh?
Have you tried getting out of it?

>>37072978
a girl I went to elementary school with other than that I have no feels just a failed beyond fucked up asshole loser

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>>37076883
I'm not really dependant on alcohol but i do rely on it occasionally, often
hard to explain that to normies tho

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>>37072978
There's no reason I want to work besides money. No platitude about honor, responsibility, maturation, or fulfillment make me want to spend a minute more than I have to at a job. It's getting under my skin.

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>>37072978
I've realized in my current environment, i am unable to make close friends or relationships of any kind

i go to a school that is 70% female and is known for being a place with "weird" people weird as in normie weirdrawrXD people

due to this very skewed demographic that i don't fit into, there is almost nobody that i closely connect to

most people like me (some romantically) but i just can't like them. they just arent people that i mix with and it makes me feel alienated to be around them

its senior year though so i dont have to deal with it much longer, but it's just on my mind that this is the reason my HS lifed SUCKED

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I really wish I were attractive. I wonder what it's like to have multiple people pine for your attention, to have two girls square off for your affection like in those cheesy romantic movies...to actually have a chance with her. Oh well I guess some people have to be born losers.

Unlucky I guess

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>had decent convo with a gril
>stops replying for no discernible reason
????
Shame, thought we were getting along. Such is life I guess. Only thing I can do is acquire more gains. I just want to leave this world behind.

I just want to overdose on anything

>>37077296
Overdose on DNP. Transform into the burning sun you are meant to be.

Gf stopped talking to me again withouth saying anything if I get mad again she is going to make me feel guilty again.

>>37077373
Oh shit girl problems.
Did you bring it up to her?

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I feel as if the world is waiting for me to come to a realization that should be obvious with the information I have been given, but is so far hidden due to my lack of awareness.

To put it simply, everything I used to enjoy has faded away, and I can no longer care about anything. I'm not sure why this happened, but it did, and for the past two years I've had a very rough time adjusting. I must have poured my heart out over 200 times on various sites just waiting for some experienced anon to swoop in and tell me all I need to know.

But that's not going to happen. Even when it did come close, their advice just boiled down to "eat right, exercise, and meditate". And I've done that, though I haven't committed. Why? Because it's difficult when you're apathetic and taking challenging courses. The thing is, it's possible. Despite my intelligence, I'm acting like a dumb animal and letting my feelings of hopelessness control me. I know that it's always unproductive to panic, but I keep doing it, despite knowing that the savior will never come.

The worst part of it isn't the Anhedonia, because that's a neutral feeling. No, the part that hurts is my inability to approach the situation properly and use my intelligence and willpower to overcome it. I was showing signs of improvement from meditation, but when push came to shove during finals week, I dropped it. Now look where I am - back several steps on /r9k/.

This seems like it will be the seminal challenge of my youth - almost like it was designed by some omniscient being to test the narcissism and unchecked superiority rampant in my world-view. For me to escape this, I must be my own father, my own role model.

So I can be sad that it turned out like this, and lament the loss of simple pleasures like music and video games. But perhaps this is the moment where my life diverges from the rest, and I have a shot at becoming great. If so, there's nothing to do but accept it. It seems like fate.

>>37072978
The fact that I have to get a job soon and its driving my anxiety through the fucking roof

the sadness from the fact this website is one of the reasons I haven't killed myself yet.
I've been living with my parents for 2 years now and I'm fucking bored as hell constantly. I spend all day on 4chan, mostly lurking and seeing the wonderful stories people come up with. Anyways, if this site got shut down id off myself. Ta ta

I love her but she could care less.

whether or not im going to get this job i interviewed for today

>>37077606
What do you believe there to be on the other side of all the toil that your lifestyle involves?
Being great? for what.

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>>37077674
Same tbqh my guy. Especially because I, personally, feel a complete and total disconnect to people my age on social media. I'm not a /pol/tard by any stretch of the matter but seeing the retarded shit some people say just detaches me further and further from normiehood. Like

>>37072978
I got nightmares/weird dreams recently
they feel so real and they are always scary to me
>see myself walking on a desert in a very hot hot day
>look like a hobo
>theres a road infront of me
>have constant flashbacks of me working and screaming and killing people while wearing blue collar clothing
>be on desert again
>see the oneitis infront me on the road standing there
>a car runs over her turns out it was just an illusion
>a bunch of wagecucks and a stacy see me and ask me if I need a ride
>tell them no
>they say ok and leave and then some guy with glasses tells me to follow me and I follow him and I end up in a house where a bald blind man greets me

I can tell more but thinking about them tires me I hate having dreams that make me feel uncomfortable

>have become infatuated with someone who barely knows i exist
>has referred to me as an acquaintance
>has compared me to a brick wall
>i'm pretty certain they think i'm literally retarded
>i'm so shy i will never have a proper conversation with them
>i don't have any redeeming qualities that would make them want to pay attention to me
i wish i'd just stop thinking about it and move on, since nothing would happen anyway since they live on the other side of the country, even if somehow the interest was magically reciprocal.

>>37073847
Schizophrenia or Schizoid personality disorder?

I asked out a girl today for the first time ever. Yeah, really. She had a boyfriend, so it was an obvious no. I knew it would happen and I'm not sure why I thought there would a different outcome. Could've been worse, I guess. She was nice about it.

It was this morning, after our final math test. It's the first day of summer and I spent it moping.

None of my supposedly supportive and caring friends have responded to my texts, either.

>>37072978

>think the hair dresser has a thing for me
>last time she asked if I remembered her and I just mumbled "o-okay" and sat in the chair
>remained silent entire time and thanked her afterwards
>need to get another hair cut this week

What do I do? I hate getting haircuts honestly because the people always think I'm weird.

Any other anons here learned how to cut their own hair? I want to do that desu.

>>37077912

The more girls you ask out the easier it is to talk to girls. You're on your way to becoming Chad anon, be happy, even though I know it hurts you are getting stronger anon.

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I'm too obsessed with politics.
I can't stop being obsessed with politics.
I want to not be obsessed with politics anymore.

>>37078128

>tfw can't stop thinking about the Jews

>>37078128
>stop browsing /pol/
>swallow a bit of nihilism (be careful, too much and you'll have an existential crisis)
et voila

>>37078093
Thanks anon, I'm far from Chad, but I do rest assured knowing that I actually went and did this after planning it out all semester.

It's experience, I guess.

>>37077764
I don't know. It's not really being great that I value so much, but more finding a reason to live. After I lost all the things I enjoyed in the world, I spent a very long time wishing for them all back. Now, it seems hollow. I've had some truly amazing experiences with music, but behind it all, it feels quite shallow. I can qualify the little factors that produce such a feeling, and they nearly always reduce to the conclusion that they're amazing because they feel important, as if there's something behind them. But that's all they carry - that promise that there really is something meaningful behind it all, and functions exactly the same way as hope. Ever had your day instantly turn fantastic because of some hope you conjured up in your head? That's what those deep sensations appear to me as now, and inside, I really can't care about them.

My problems are biological, but they've shifted my perspective to a degree that I will need to do some serious thinking about the world, and the sort of live I want to live. It's not becoming "great" that concerns me, it's finding my own understanding of the world and how I should spend my life. I believe most people die conflicted because they've never figured this out, and relied on moment-to-moment pleasures to cover up that uncomfortable feeling of bafflement at the state of the universe that lurks forever underneath.

Or maybe not, and normalfags don't care. If you're a sane, intelligent person, I think you must care to a degree. Even if I don't resolve the whole issue and never make a good philosophy for myself, I'll be slightly closer to having peace of mind.

It's possible to be pessimistic and complain that my life was taken from me before it had a chance to blossom (I'm 18), but I can also view it as an insight into the hollowness of ordinary pleasures and a nudge in the direction of understanding the world. It may be shit in the short-term, but it's a journey I feel I have to take.

>>37077373
drop her
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>>37078206

>try to be nihilistic
>lose all will to live because life has no meaning
>feel like shitty person
>go back to being /pol/
>pissed off at Jews all day

Eh, it's an okay trade off.

>>37078267
I felt more like a shitty person being bitter on /pol/ all day.

>>37078378
/pol/ turns people into shit m8

>>37078378
Surprised people don't see this more

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My oneitis acknowledged my existence by saying "thank you" when I held a door open for her. Seems like I've ascended to normiehood, robots.

>>37072978
My bf and i haven't spoken in a week. we had an argument and i have no idea what he is doing or even if we are still together.

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I can't help but feel like I've missed out on a bunch of opportunities, even though I wasn't even aware of them at the time.
Usually it's with dumb altcoins or stocks, i'll see them get huge and wish I invested some spare cash into them, eventually landing in a very depressive cycle.
How do I get rid of this useless regret?

>>37072978
This girl I talked to and loved talking to just out of the blue stopped talking to me

>>37078865
have fun on the other side brother

my class is doing a group presentation n i got paired by default with this person i got stuck sitting with. theres a qt in that class that is in my other classes that is always alone. how 2 swap partners without bb a doodoo

Girl that liked me at work quit right before i was thinking of asking her out.

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>want GF
>have dreams about having a GF
>realize that I have to better myself before I even have a shot at getting GF
>in process of losing weight
>making progress but losing hope because I feel like I wont get a GF even if I do better myself

pic related I want a GF like Taiga even if that isn't realistic


kinda wanna die tbqhwy

>>37078251
I can sort of understand what you mean and I feel like ive had a similar experience.
Used to love art and anything involving visual design and being wowed at cool things, but the more I exposed myself to everything I came to realize there are these fundamental barriers you cant break and will never truly be broken in art, either because it would go against reality we've been confined to as a dimension or just as a society as a whole or you (guess you could say the fact that all human creativity is limited to the mediums that what we can work with makes things boring). Knowing this everything ends up looking boring. Like its a continuation of something ive seen or experienced before but there's actually nothing new.

Honestly the only real solution is to not think about it and consider the possibility everything (including reality) is inherently flawed, accept it, and live a day at a time while doing everything you can. (here comes >their advice just boiled down to "eat right, exercise, and meditate") live efficiently, min max your time, keep grinding etc. Life is pretty much you're a boat on the open seas. What your boat is like and what you do is a variable thats (partly) up to you if you're self-aware enough.

None of this prolly helped and was poorly thought out but w/e. I remember reading something saying philosophy is flawed because you need to have base assumptions to serve as a foundation for philosophy which kinda ties into my point but its all tangential now.
>making the base assumption my memory is correct

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>>37079216
Don't give up, anon. You're in the right path. Even if you don't get a girlfriend, at least you had the balls and will to improve yourself. You should be proud desu.

>>37078921
Remember new opportunities in stocks and coins always come up and desu /biz/ usually is right about alt coins

I can't fucking sleep without weed but I'm too broke to pick up until I get paid on Friday.

lost it and beat my dad again today. Open fist but I feel awful. This isn't the first time and I feel like some drunk stepdad

>>37079295
thanks anon ill keep going because of my small hope of having a taiga gf even if it is a very slim chance

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I think I love being harmed by someone who secretly hates me and lies about loving me but it's okay because I'm into that.

>>37079431
So you're a masochist?

Nothing important, but it's there anyway. Feels too bad man.
Also I really want to stop dreaming about summer camps, this is the third night in a row.
And I was supposed to see a cool movie tonight but I got drunk instead. Now I'm a little sad because I just remembered that.

>>37079523
Yes my dude
I love hurting myself and the thought of him hurting me.

Wondering if a degree is worth it when I have no real experience in the field. Have lots of things that I am kind of interested in taking up but loan debt, career outlook, location, stress, etc. are holding me back.

Sucks real bad. All I need is a solid job and my life would be so much better.

>>37079563
Hey I'm not here to kink shame even though you'd probably be into that.

>>37079562
Were you going out with friends for the movie or just checking it out by yourself?

>>37079602
Myself, android friend.

>>37079761
Oh yeah? what type of movie?

I'm just sad... but there's nothing I can do about it.

>>37079908
It'll be alright anon

it gets better in the future

Bored, overthinking, anxious, you know the usual. I'm going on a trip with my family and I'm still unhappy when I'm supposed to be happy I guess. I still don't have a job, and I've never had one. No licence either, I'm a khv. Overworried about dumb shit. Trying to get into drawing but I suck big balls. I'm trying to find what is fun for me. I think years of internet and porn addiction since being a child, completely fucked my reward center and my brain. I can't focus on anything. I don't know what I want, I can't make sense of my emotions. Fuck. I don't why I'm so unhappy and unfulfilled.

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I think I'm starting to like this girl from my church. We've known each other a long time, she's a qt, likes vidya, DnD, and animu, and her family are all really nice and she's really nice. I'm too beta to do anything though and I'm a KV. Last time I went on a date was 2 years ago and the girl said she didn't even like me at the end. This girl also is very close friends with another girl who I used to like and who is well, interesting, and if I was suave enough I could probably date both of them at once.

Maybe one day robots, maybe one day...

>>37080131
I don't think going for two is a good idea lmao

I just took some pictures of myself for the first time in about a year and it's clear to me now that the only chance of me getting laid is if I hire an escort.
A year ago, I was fit, and healthy looking. Now I just look really bad, I haven't worked out in over a year and my forehead wrinkles have increased and my skin looks pasty and I just look awful.
THE RIDE NEVER ENDS

That I'll never get a gf

>>37080178
Nah I realize it's a bad idea and wouldn't go for it unless the girls suggested it, I'm nowhere near ballsy enough to ask girls to do that. The first girl just seems perfect for me but I'm probably just gonna let it all pass me by like basically everything in my life.