ITT: failed normies coming together. Cyborgs, if you will. What

>>37035813
I still suffer because I missed the obvious signals three times. Two slim redheads and a chubby qt childhood friend... Fuck my lack of empathy and understanding

>implying I ever into 3D even one time

ERP and IM in every "relationship." I'm not a NEET, but I have the personality of dry toast. I long for a fuck buddy who will never make drama and leave over stupid misunderstandings.

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>meet the perfect girl
>she pursued me
>have perfect normie life for three years
>be happy in ways never thought possible
>grew apart eventually
>be 30 and single again
>still no idea how getting a girl works

I've resigned myself to being alone now, though.

It's too late for having your own family and all that at 30 years old. I mean, meeting a girl, dating one, seeing the relationship succeed, moving in together, trying for children... that's all a process of several years, and for it to make any sense at my age, it all needs to go PERFECTLY or else it's too late. No room for errors.

Yeah, nah. That ship has sailed.

I'll be alone forever now, and that's just fine.

>Humans must become cyborgs if they are to stay relevant in a future dominated by artificial intelligence

>group of about 20 friends in college
>Finally get GF at 19
>Nothing in common
>Deal with it cause first time having raw sex
>Slowly lose all of my friends over the course of a year
>We finally break up
>Now I'm 26 with no friends and still live at home

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>>37035858
I'm similar except a whole new level of retarded because I see and understand the signals and still refuse to act on them because of insecurity :DDDD

suicide soon my friends, soon

>>37035945
I know those feels all too well anon, mixed in with some eye contact miscalibration. It's such a chore sometimes eh.

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not a grill but
>friends all go away to college
>ask me to get on discord and play games
>they come home
>hang out with each other never invite me

Otherwise, girls never give me the time of day at least I'm good to have around when normies are lonely. I will probably never trust a 3DPD enough to enter a relationship ever.

I always get the feeling people just tolerate me for free rides or pity.

>>37035882
THIS
I never got a GF, but tried and got rejected numerous times. Honestly it was hard when I was a teenager but now I wouldnt trade loneliness for anything. There is nothing wrong with living for yourself.

>Normie-ish but kinda beta and weird
>Sort of go out with a girl for a few weeks but she randomly ghosts me
>Tfw thought things were going fine
>This crushes me and takes away most of my confidence with women
>Fall in love with another girl a year or two later
>Don't really do anything except for ask her to formal when it comes up that she doesn't have anyone to go with
>She says no as if I'd asked the most retarded and outlandish thing ever
>sadface.jpg
>She likes a friend of mine, probably was waiting for him to ask her
>He likes someone else though
>The girl he likes likes me
>Tfw living a real life love triangle
>He bangs girl I like, I do nothing
>Discover drugs during this time
>Slow descent into addiction and madness begins
Now I'm here, a partially insane drug addicted shitposter.

She was pure white and powdery. Would give me a rush when ever I smelled her near buy. Thing is she wasn't cheap and I used every cent I had to be around her. Got very addicted to her happiness then I got arrested with her on me.

Now I have criminal record, a bad drivers record and Shitty credit. I have lost all hope in ever finding a decent job again, currently living as a NEET but don't know how to stop.

I wish I could go back 15 years ago and tell myself she is NOT worth it.

>>37035882
Depends how rich are you? If very it should be simple pretty much any girl can bee bought. If you're poor you're fucked

>>37035813
>What happened?

Life I guess.

>Who was she?

There were lots of them. I've even been married twice. I have no friends or family so I get lonely and find a girl that's my best friend and I love her and meet her friends and family and try build a life together. I put everything I have into it. Then it all falls to shit. And I end up alone and left with nothing.


>Why can't you get a new one?

I'll never remarry. I don't have the resources or energy to invest into another relationship. I can't start over from scratch again. I've done it too many times now. I'm too old to get with women that don't have kids. I'm sick of doing it. I don't have anything else to give. I'm emotionally drained to the point I don't think I could ever love anyone again. I just don't want a relationship anymore.

I just turned 37 today. No cake or presents. Nobody called or text. And nobody ever does. I spent the entire day alone. And that's my life now I guess. That's how it's always going to be. And I've come to terms with that.

>>37035813
>have all tools to become a normie
>hate everyone

...

>>37036453
You're doing the right thing cuck.
Well maybe not.

>>37036453
>Discover drugs during this time
>Slow descent into addiction and madness begins
Now I'm here, a partially insane drug addicted shitposter.

Hello me. Know that you're not the only one here that is in the same situation, because some bitch that you made the mistake of falling in love with crushed you. Mine was at 4 years though, 4 months after we got engaged.

>tfw depression got rid of my motivation to text Stacey back
>Her friends tell me she is still keen
>Send her a snap, she replies, things are going well
How do I skip to the part where we fall asleep in each others arms? I miss it so much.

The only time I'm happy is when I'm on MDMA being absorbed by the crowd at a rave. I'm a nervous wreck the rest of the time.

>Tfw can only do MDMA occasionally
>Tfw too scared to do meth
Why live

>>37037472
Keep talking to her, and suggest you meet up for coffee (outside) or netflix at your home.

Do it faggot, you owe it to us

AAAAA I HAVEN'T HAD SEX IN TWO YEARS IDK WHAT'S WORSE THE IDEA THAT I'LL NEVER HAVE IT AGAIN OR THE REALIZATION THAT I'M STARTING TO NOT CARE AS MUCH

and the shit of it is in not a bad looking guy, a lot of the girls I know have been reacting to me differently in the past year, but I'm still not good enough for them

Women have ruined women for me, I can't bear the thought of trying to make a move on them even though I may be able to, they pls too many games and I don't want to be rejected again

>>37038180
sex is shit compared to fapping anyway

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Oh boy, i have a tale to tell. Beem zucced off fb for a week. Here goes.

A few months ago, "she" re-entered my life. I was 16 when i last saw her and we dated, im going to be 20 soon. She reactivated her fb and started liking my stuff. We started talking, and turns out shes dating some guy for the past 3 years and shares an apartment with him. I told her how much i missed her. One night, she got drunk and sent me all kinds of romantic and sexual messages. One of them said "i live with my man now but youre on my mind all the time" said how she loves me. She made me send a picture of my dick and said "i cant wait to take you inside me tomorrow"(we had planned to go and work out together at the gym that day before)

So we hang out, and she pretty much changed her mind i guess. She wouldn't kiss me. I felt no kind of vibe from her. Before i went home she said we should just be friends. Stupid cunt. Thinks it works like that? Think you can fuck with my feelings and then friendzone me? You asked for this, bitch.

That night i screenshotted all the messages from her and sent them to her bf on facebook. She called me 10 times, didnt pick up. She called my cousin crying i guess asking him why i would do this. Kek. Whore got what was coming to her

>>37039544
Lmao what in the actual fuck? I'm sorry anon, you shouldn't have to put up with stupid shit like that. I would've gone crazy if my "oneitis" did something like that

>>37039544
If only others would follow your example, anon.

>>37035813
I'm not a failed normie per se, as I have little trouble with actually getting girls and I recognize opportunities that come my way easily, but I've hit a slightly less active period. What always happens with me in these cases is that I obsess over the best girl I've been seeing up until the dry spell.

So, she was, in one word, amazing. She was a third year student, very cute (8/8,5 out of 10), intellectual, all that jazz. According to someone who knew her for some time already, there is also a high probability that she is still a virgin. In short, perfect.

What happened was that I destroyed the growing relationship to spite her. The same guy who informed me about her potential virginity also said that, based on his own and the experiences of other guys, she had a habit of going on one single date with a guy and then keeping him at arm's length. This didn't stem from a desire to cuck guys, but rather out of awkwardness and a fear of intimacy. This same process repeated itself with me. Even though she showed very strong interest (I've gotten farther with her than any other guy), she kept fucking up my attempts to set up a second date. So, to show her that behaviour like this does not fly with me, I baited her into a standard "I think of you more as a very good friend". She took the bait, I replied with "oh god, thanks, freedom! I can go fuck my other girls again!" (The reason that I could pull this off was that I had one girl orbiting me, had managed to seduce another and was doing volunteering in an environment rich with shy, submissive and desperate girls)

We haven't talked since the incident, and I strongly doubt we ever will again. In a sense, I miss friendship with her more than the possibility of sex. She really was more interesting than the average girls I've known. Oh well, I'm already being orbited by a new girl (though she is fuck-ugly and I won't give her the light of day), and this summer promises to be a fruitful one. But I still wonder.

>>37035882
30's not that old, you still have time. maybe if you look for women your own age there's bound to be a few that aren't crazy/with kids.

There wasn't really a she. It was more of the fact that my parents sheltered me till I was 23 and kicked me out. Now I realize I am ill equipped to deal with adult life.

>>37036453
bang the girl he likes to get him back then

>>37037336
>cuck
On the subject of being cucked I forgot to mention that the second girl also gave a different friend of mine a handy while I was sleeping in the same room.
Needless to say that wasn't a fun night.

>>37037418
Damn sounds rough anon, at least mine were pretty quick. Sadly they happened in my formative years so they still took quite a hefty toll.
What drugs do you use to forget?

>>37040044
This was back in HS, she has a BF and a life now and I'm a NEET loser who smokes weed and does prescription opiates all day. I have no chance.
As for the guy, this is actually pretty hilarious, I saw him post his pic on a faces of /r9k/ thread.
So perhaps the fact that he's here with me is a little justice? I don't have any ill will towards him though, he's actually a pretty cool guy.
I'm more mad at the girl because I swear she was toying with me the entire time we were friends.

>played citybuilder games til 3am last night on my own
>woke up at 7am
>stayed in bed daydreaming about various scenarios where i had a gf until 5pm
>got up at last because back and legs started to ache, wash face and stare at self in the mirror for a bit wondering why my skin is so pale
>go sit in living room with a coffee and some toast, my usual meal, and continue posting on r9k
>live with ex gf, she ignores me now, we mostly avoid each other
>another girl i've been talking to, and getting along really well with, declines my offer of a meetup for dinner
>deleted facebook so can't use tinder any more, not that it was working anyway
>all girls on OKC are literal human trash
>just sit back at my pc and boot up some more games, listening to some chill music (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpIQNxiKJoE) and sipping my coffee
>another day spent the same
it's a strange zone between isolated and depressing, and comfy. In some ways I hate being like this but in others I'm kind of content.

>>37040188
that right there is exactly why i've been here for 7 years and not once posted anything personally identifying. even my greentext stories and things had names and circumstances changed, and sometimes i change my spelling from UK to US just so it seems less like me. it's probably paranoia but you never know who's reading and might put 2 and 2 together.

>>37040328
I don't really care, I'm sure most people who still give enough of a shit about me to ever think about me know that I'm a NEET loser. What does it matter if you add knowing I go here into the mix?
Also if I never posted anything personal I'd have to feel my feels alone, and I already do enough of that.

>>37035813
>What happened?
She cheated
>Who was she?
A gf
>Why can't you get a new one?
I can if I tried but still not over I guess

>>37037516
I did MDMA before meth, its pretty much the same minus the "WHOLE WORLD AND EVERYONE IN IT IS BEAUTIFUL IN THERE OWN WAY" bullshit. Meth is the antisocial man's molly. That first hit of crystal I took was literally better than anything else I've ever experienced. Just do it, I don't like being the only tweaker robot on here.

>25
>fuck qt 3.14 in her dad's basement
>"anon, we need to have same interest"
>can't love me because I don't like drugs, have same taste in music, and then feelings for ex
>become increasingly distraught as she flirts with other men, while putting me off while far away
>share nude vid I didn't even record with her friends and dad
>*crickets chirping*
>tell her i'm going to rape her and kill her father
>*crickets chirping*
>always blemish her with the fact she cheated on her ex, and that she sucks of 50 year old mexicans
>REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>feelsgoodman.jpg

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>>37036453
>tfw the beginning describes my current situation perfectly

>>37040502
>tfw i took MDMA at a new years party
>just had an ok time and got a bit tired
>probably was more energetic than usual but got no lovey feels like that
>even drugs can't make me feel anything
;_;

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>>37039544
I love you anon, you are what I aspire to be. Ravioli Ravioli, this is originoli

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>>37035813
>What happened
Hmmm. Always was a shy kid but was really starting to come into my own at about age 12-13. Confidence, girls, friends..it was all coming together. Then my family moved states twice in the period of two years. Became incredibly isolated, anxious, and depressed which culminated in me having a panic attack in front of my 9th grade class during a speech. Any self confidence I had was shattered in that one minute. The rest of high school I was an anxious/depressed mess that hid away from everyone and anything and would skip school for days when a presentation/speech was due.

>who was she
About a year after high school my confidence was starting to come back as I was no longer in that environment with those people. Lost all the weight I gained when I was depressed and started a band with some buddies. We started gigging and my confidence skyrocketed. Met a shitload of people including the most beautiful girl I've ever met. Short/skinny alt girl who became completely obsessed with me. I fucked her for a while without my feelings getting involved because I was afraid of getting too close. Eventually fell completely in love with her. She loved me too and ended up moving in with me. We dated for two years and were planning on getting married and trying for a baby. Then one day she just left without any explanation and moved in with some guy. By far the most painful experience I've ever had. That was 3 years ago and in that time my feelings towards her havent changed one bit, and she takes complete advantage of that. Every few months when she's not with a new guy she'll start talking to me, we'll fuck for a few weeks maybe..then she's gone again. My self confidence takes a hit every time this happens but I always have hope that it will work out with us.

>why cant you get a new one?
I could get a new girlfriend. Im a pretty good looking guy and have a few girls regularly texting me/hitting on me. Im still in love with my ex. I dont want anyone else

>>37040585
Maybe you got a dud pill. I've done it multiple times and what you described sounds exactly how it felt when I got a caffeine/ADHD med mix. If its golden brown choke it down, if its white or pink throw it in the sink.

>>37040585
>>37040759
This, you got a dud.
With real MD you will feel it, oh boy will you feel it.

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>>37040759
>>37040853
it was powder, not a pill. looked like this. Was told to rub it into my gums. got it from a friend who seemed to be pretty off his face with it, he was kind of gurning at the end of the night and we had to carry him into a taxi.

>>37040920
You may not have taken enough, also good MD is kinda like tiny rocks, not so much powder. Maybe they were crushed though, I'm not an expert or anything.
I've also never heard of gumming MD before, try snorting or parachuting if you get it in powder form again.

>>37039544
>That night i screenshotted all the messages from her and sent them to her bf on facebook
lol damn.

I was kinda normie before I became a trans

>>37040964
maybe true, i only had three or four pinches or so. that friend is my only drug connection and he's in another country atm so i'll try it again next time he's around.

I think my brother is. Help.

> he went to a party three years ago
> we're super trash
> he fucked some old lady who was hanging around
> who might be a relative
> but it's rapey because he was underaged and intoxicated but he says he's fine

> now
> we moved out together because mom is crazy
> he watches porn without masturbating
> says he falls in love with specific porn stars and watches their body of work
> i befriend a girl at university
> chubby, 5/10, really nice and sort of charming in a weird way
> has a crush on him
> it's obvious, she follows him around
> he seemed into her for a bit, told me he skyped her for a couple hours
> i have a birthday party, invite her
> brother gets drunk
> brother cuddles her
> she kisses his neck
> he says that he wasn'y trying to do anything
> she's horrified
> he keeps cuddling her although she's annoyed
> she gets up, starts hitting on his friend to be petty
> gives up after five minutes and starts crying
> tells me he's been trying to get her to cuddle him because our mom was crazy
> later tells me he doesn't want her to get the wrong idea

What the fuck is wrong with him? She's not the cutest girl but she's (1) smart, (2) into him, (3) into his hobbies ( which are nerdy shit like collecting figurines), and (4) making good money. My brother is a 6-7/10 pseudo NEET who works a fast food job and comes home, draws a little, and plays vidya.

Has porn ruined him?

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There was never a she before and never will be, yet I am considered a cyborg, heh

>>37041092
Be careful though anon, don't go all out and OD on me. Remember to test the waters first and find your limit. I only advocate drug use if it's done at least somewhat cautiously.

You don't want to look like this guy, or, well, die
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=czmjOvR6O5E

>>37041163
i feel like this guy has experienced heights of emotion i can only imagine
but anyway don't worry this guy is a lot more knowledgeable about drugs anyway, i dont really do them otherwise.

It all went wrong at 12. Met one of the only unconditionally kind and nice people at Primary School and ended up becoming best friends. We played and sat together all the time. It was the best time of my life.

Everything was going great until some fuck up doctor got her killed because Pneumonia and chronic Bronchitis don't mix well without meaningful treatment.

I've never been much for hating people, but I sincerely hope that doctor suffers in the worst possible ways.

>>37041220
It's a pretty crazy drug.
One time when I was on it, and I thought this was hyperbolic nonsense when I saw it in movies so I got an extra kick out of it, I started rubbing my sheets and started saying "DUDE they're so soft." Something as trivial and mundane as my sheets suddenly became the greatest thing ever.

Anyway, my last post was maybe a little scarier than intended, MD is one of the safer drugs out there but it doesn't hurt to be careful.
Happy rolling, anon.

>>37037318
this

well not all tools

but i do hate everyone

i sometimes laugh at myself for knowing i could never be a normie because i hate it

>>37035813
>married
>5 year relationship.
>been unhappy for 2 years at least.
>each time I go to break up with the wife she breaks into tears, begs and bargins.
>I bottle out.

I wish I was normie enough to just say 'no'.

i'm not failed anything, that just pathetic

but i have adhd and i low key enjoy 4chan which makes me less of a normie

>>37041333
what's the issue? if she's actually willing to work through things

>>37041362
I feel like I no longer love her. Well, I'm not in love. I still love her, but more like you would a family member than a wife.

Also constant accusations cheating, the fact I feel like I'm stuck and can't do anything. Get aggro if I go out with mates, get aggro if I don't because I know it's gonna cause shit, get aggro if I don't invite her out, get aggro if I do. And she said some horrible vile things that I just can't get over.

I told her I want to give it a chance, but I just don't feel in it.

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>>37040534
this was the dumbest shit I read today, are you a 4chan simulator bot or something?

>>37036742
You sound like my ex. I texted on his birthday, though, and his parents probably did too.

>>37035813
She just doesn't pioritize me in her life. It's selfish to expect it and i was a fool to offer that blindly for so many years. I'd hope that she'd feel vad when I'm dead, but something tells me that at this point it'll probably just be a relief for her.

>>37035945
I know this feel. Literally the perfect girl showed interest in me and I fucked up.

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>>37041430
I get how you feel. I felt out of love in a romantic sense with my ex gf for a few years before it ended, too. I still cared about her deeply, but it got to a point where I always would rather masturbate by myself than have sex with her... and I would tense up and inwardly sigh when she messaged me and I had to socially engage her.

>in highschool
>total normie
>shitload of friends, go out almost every day, parties all the time
>never lost virginity but fooled around with girls and got to second base
>good grades, going to college, future looks brith

>in college
>get a part time job
>meet new people
>social and party all the time
>still cant get a gf and lose virginity

>starting having bad anxiety problems (it runs in family)
>fail classes
>get fired from job
>had to me back in with my parents
>all friends are better off than me, social interactions starts being more diffcult
>still a virgin

>dropped out of college
>NEET
>gained a shitload of weight, fat now
>developed alcohol addiction
>social skills went to shit, can't maintain friendships
>always feel awkward and anxious in social situations
>still a virgin with no prospects to change that

It all went so wrong..... and I'm not sure exactly why

>>37042332
But I should mention that I am (or was, I don't drink at all anymore) an alcoholic in the last couple years of the relationship after I finished my bachelor's degree and said some nasty shit to her a few times to her while blackout drunk that I didn't remember saying but she had proof of. She ended up dumping me over this stuff that built up over time. I cared about her but I guess I cared about alcohol more.

>>37035813
Wtf are you on about
There is no she
There never was a she or a he or an it
I have been a void since I had memory
But i still function in society
Its just a game
You play the game right
All you do is play the game
Until you die or until you grow balls to take yourself away from this
But it goes against everything your fragile body has programmed for it
So you go on and on and on
Until you fucking die of whatever
Kill yourself dude if its just a girl who brings you here
You are nothing

Memes, they stole my perception of reality

>>37035813
Don't know if I'd consider myself a cyborg, but I don't really consider myself a robot either.
>What happened? Who was she? Why can't you get a new one?
Nothing happened, I never had a chance with her and soon I'll we'll likely never see each other again. Time will tell if I can find a new one but it'll probably be a very long time before I'm over her.

>>37035858
The only girl who ever actively showed interest in me was also a roastie who flirted with damn near every guy she met (not the one above). From what I hear she still might be interested but looking at how she acts and how things went down with her and her now ex-boyfriend gives me nothing but huge red flags.

I suppose I'm a cyborg. I'll tell my most recent story about "her"

>meet cute girl at a video game tournament
>she asks to play some friendly matches with me
>we talk a bit, she seems cool
>start going to more tournaments and seeing her there, start becoming infatuated with her
>this semester we started talking more and more, on social media and in real life
>being this close to another girl is pretty rare for me, I only have one female friend
>probably mistaking her kindness for romantic interest
>turns out she has a boyfriend anyways
>still like her
>at least I made a cool new friend though

Lately I've been trying to figure out why I feel so empty and what I actually desire. Why do I want romantic companionship? What role would a girlfriend fulfill that my friends wouldn't (besides sex, of course)? Is it just a desire to be close to another human, since I'm usually very cold otherwise? Have I just deluded myself into thinking that this is the missing piece, that a girlfriend is what will make me happy? I wish I could answer these questions.

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>tfw peaked at 17
i had two drunken one night stands back in 2014 when i was 17, ever since then the only thing i've wanted was a gf and have had a crush on my oneitis for two years now and she wont respond my affection.

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>>37035813
>Childhood abuse vs Chad qualities meant no social services ever guessed anything.
>Was OK with being alone and feel no great need to make friends
>Being orphaned later on only heightened this.
>Aware of how to make friends and be charismatic, its just tiring to do so.
>Constantly feel on the outside looking in, despite being among it all
>Afraid of hurting those I love because I have to fake about 50% of all empathy

Also addictive personality

>>37036742
Ouch.
Were they worth it in some ways? Do you have any hopes/ambitions for the future?

>>37040282
>>all girls on OKC are literal human trash
Yeah dude, can totally relate. I had pretty low standards then I got one pretty cute girlfriend. Now all the girls on dating sites absolutely disgust me. Wish the bar hadn't been set so high....

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>>37035813
I USED TO BE ONE OF YOU. Im like a liberated borg from star trek. There was a point in my life i was legitimately fucking depressed. Knew i couldn't kms because that'd be pointless anyhow.. just pain for my family to deal with. My sister would've been permanently psychologically damaged. I couldn't do that to her. Life was purgatory.

Almost lost my best friend and long time crush to some dude. We live far away and talk over the internet everyday, until one day she just stopped. It killed me... dismissive conversations, like she didn't want to talk to me at all. Part of it was because she felt guilty.. she knew i liked her. It killed me.
Long story short, the guy turned out to be pretty immature. I think she realized this. We recently started talking again and are now closer than we've ever been. She broke up with him last week.
I honestly think I'm going to marry this gurl you guys... that's my dream.

Moral of the story: Don't loose hope guys. Pray that he's more of a dick than you. Never fully sever relationships - they can always grow.

>>37043582
how the fuck did you have one night stands at 17?

Held a girls hand yesterday lads, am I gonna make it?

>>37044261
>>37043582
>>37043496

Pretty much same as you, cybros, had similar feelings as you describe.
Years ago, before discovering 4chan I was a robot, though I didn't knew that.
In 2016 I met a girl studying medicine in my country. It developed into something more within few months. For some time I was a really happy cyborg- had shitty but non-stressful job, intelligent (not beautiful though) girlfriend and few thousand local currency in savings.
Now:
>half of year NEET, now similar job
>been drinking since my qt met someone new- pretty sure I was and probably am alcoholic
>no savings, needs to borrow money from my parents
>danger of failing studies

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>start off as normie with eccentric tendencies/interests (always into reading and art and music and browsing 4chan/messageboards/etc.) so for a kid i guess i was "weird" but people did like me
>when i was 14 i became really good friends with a girl who had a crush on me, but i didn't really like her back even though i liked her a lot as a friend (i was obsessed with this other girl)
>slowly over a year / year and a half, grow to really appreciate girl who liked me
>we start dating when i'm 15
>she listens to me, she likes all of my weird eccentric interests and gives me someone to vent to about random ideas or random weird movies i watch or whatever, always interested, always very supportive
>she's my best friend, my first love, my first kiss, my first fuck, literally the backbone of my entire life
>6 years later
>she's the only good friend i have, she goes to college in NYC while i work a job i hate in NJ to save money for when she graduates so we can move in together
>she leaves me

>>37045094
cont.

>my job no longer has a purpose, i go just to get through the week
>no friends
>all of my hobbies feel hollow and pointless because i have no one to talk to about anything
>all of the people i went to high school with are either townie junkie alcoholics or have long since fled the scene entirely
>i'm 22 and have no experience with women (not even a kiss) outside of this one girl who i still love very much
>terrible social anxiety
>no ambition
>no goals anymore
>my entire future was dependent on me and her reaching the end of the tunnel together

i don't know man. lol. i might take being a KHV over this. it's been a year and i don't feel any better

>>37045173
why did she leave? originally whyy

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>>37035813
I've actually got good feels today. I've got this cute tomboyish coworker that I've been hitting on and she's been reciprocating. Today she asked me out for coffee after her finals are over. She's really cute, engaging in conversation, and smart to boot. I-I hope to make it fellow cyborgs.

>>37045604
i think it just got to be a lot...she's two years younger than me, so...we had been doing long-distance (even though we saw each other irl every week at least once) for a few years already...she made friends in college and grew attached to the city...i started settling into a routine in new jersey...we just kind of drifted in different directions and idk. it's complicated i guess

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>>37045667
Ah. I have a similar story with my ex in that we'd known each other since early high school age (although we met online initially through a game). I did kiss and grope one other girl before her, but we were each other's first experience with sex. Haven't talked to her in a year+ either. I'm kind of over it, romantically at least, but she was my only friend and now I have none. Known her since I was 16, I'm 25 now.

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>>37045660
Well done, brother. Ride that high for as long as you can.

Hope it's the start of something beautiful.

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>too lazy and scared to get my shit together because I would feel so fucking stupid if she found somebody else
>she found somebody else anyway
I don't want anybody besides her. She wasn't perfect but she still was you know?

>>37040188
Hopefully you're still here, I got really busy with work. But I'm >>37037418 mostly alcohol, but opiates as often as I have the money. Mostly order them off deep web, spend literally ever expendable dollar on painkillers, opana and dilauded. I couldn't even tell you the last time I went out to eat, or went to a movie. That's valuable drug money. I have a prescription for Xanax, it take the pain away, but I can never remember anything when I'm on it. Never really been a fan of benzos/barbs. I need the euphoric rush to actually feel happiness. I just go through my days on autopilot, the days and weeks blend together, just constantly counting down the minutes until I can get drunk and go numb, or get high and feel happy for a few hours.
What about you, fellow drugbot?

>>37045802
Thanks amigo. I hoping so too. Here's hoping for the rest of you fellows.

you stupid fucking shits. Having had a gf makes you a normie, not a failed normie or a cyborg.

get the fuck off my board you fucking normalfags

>>37047123
Even if you're unable to get a new one and spent the rest of your life alone?