Hey, robots. As promised, this is my second daily update. For whoever cares.
I've been getting dirtier. I think internet porn fucked my brain a little, so right now it's struggling to right itself. DESU sometimes, especially now while I'm not jerking off, I get weirdly turned on by gay shit. I'm not gay, I could never suck a cock or fuck a man, it's disgusting, nor have I ever been turned on by men, but I think that because I jerked off to gay porn a few times (I was a liberal, I thought that "I should try it just to see"), my brain associates that with ejaculating.
Beyond that, I'm still a KHV, I aim at changing that. Daily working out to fix my noodle arms (I've lost weight and now I see that I'm really just a weakling, feels bad man), and continual weight loss (I'm still 188, not terrible, especially considering how heavy I was, but not ideal). I'm forcing myself to go to social events, which I hate, but it's a good way to find girls.
It's essentially a philosophy called laying bricks. You don't talk to girls with the intention of getting laid, at least initially, but you do talk to girls. 5 a day is ideal. That way you get used to the idea and aren't such a weirdo around them.
So far it's working. I'm less awkward.
I'll answer questions anyone has.
>inb4 NORMIES GET OUT
Self improvement isn't something normies are capable of understanding, don't even try with that.
Yeah man I'm there with you. I have a problem with porn for sure and I'm trying to quit it. I've given it up for short periods of time every now but never been able to completely give it up. I know I've watched too much and gotten into weirder and weirder shit over the years and it's killed my dick, I've had the chance to lose my virginity with two different girls but I couldn't get it up with either of them just because my brain is so used to needing a screen and my physical stimulation.
It's a rough addiction to get over because there's no real chance of physical harm and so it feels like I can just do it every once in a while and be fine, but then once in a while turns into "oh well I already did today, so I may as well again" and "well I already did yesterday, so I may as well today" and so on. Here's to hoping for success to stay off it this time though.
>>36880902
What I did was I didn't give myself a "last day". I just went "Actually, I'm not going to jerk off ever again", and I haven't yet.
Porn, in my view, messes with how you view women. You see perfectly reasonably pretty young women, and because they're not tens like you jerk off to every day, you're not as interested. You also know that you can go back home and jerk off if it doesn't work out, so you're not as invested.
>>36880977
>What I did was I didn't give myself a "last day"
Yeah, this is what I tried the last time, but I ended up going back after a week or so for some reason or another. I know porn is basically a coping thing for me so I was probably just upset about something. The longest I ever went was Lent back in high school, I wasn't even a practicing Catholic but I just wanted to see if I could do it. Right now I'm either on day 2 or 3 again.
>You see perfectly reasonably pretty young women, and because they're not tens like you jerk off to every day, you're not as interested.
Yeah, I agree with this. I've known more than a few girls that I could have gotten with and enjoyed being with, but I didn't go for them because they weren't the near perfect models I was used to. Like whatever I liked about the girl's appearance, I can find a pornstar with that same thing but better.
>>36881102
Yeah, but to me, the emotional and physical opening up of each other is what's important. Porn removes that completely.
I'm sort of learning to appreciate flaws that girls have. Something like a scar or whatever, for some reason, that makes me like them more.
I am, actually, a practicing Catholic now. I wasn't when I stopped jerking off, but I was baptized a day or two before.
Porn is a hard one to stop. Your brain goes "Wow, this dude is fucking tens every day! That's incredible!". So when you stop doing it, you hit a depression where your brain goes "Wow, you virgin fag, you must not be good enough". But you have to learn to sort of carry that as motivation for working out and talking to girls.
Now I'm at the point where rather than feeling the need to look at porn, I feel the need to find someone to have sex with. Obviously I won't have sex with anyone right away (I'm Catholic so until marriage), but I'm using my primal instincts to my advantage.
I sorta prattled on, but you get the point.
>>36881240
After, not before.
oh, and I took off my name for some reason.
Okay, the thread is likely going to be pruned, so I'll add one more thing, just because.
I'll be posting daily under the same tripcode from 6-10 Mountain Time.
Let's Make Robots Great Again.
>>36880561
Good shit anon, I'm on day 19 myself. I don't even know if my dick works any more. All desire is gone.
>>36881944
All desire to jack off is gone for me, but my desire to find women has been expanded beyond my wildest dreams.
>>36881944
aaaaaaannnnd I took off the tripcode again.
You will never become a normie, stop thinking youwill ever have sex. If you're going to quit masturbation addiction, porn addiction, semen retention or whatever your goal is, do it for you, don't expect anything to change outside yourself.
Be forewarned that as your T levels rise you will be attempted to do stupid shit like hit on fat ugly women or be douchey and aggressive for no reason. Learn to cultivate and master your sexual energy rather than letting it control you.
>>36882499
I am doing it for me. I'm doing it so that I can find someone to spend my life with, raise a family, and ultimately leave the earth having served a purpose.
Basically, I'm going to be a case study into whether or not you can turn yourself from a robot into a chad.
I """broke up""" with this girl who turned out to be an absolute over-controlling jealous slut. When I say """broke up""", I mean she was using me to get off. And I fell for it.
So, while I had made progress out of robothood, ultimately it culminated into me doing it and being a robot at the same time. I was chasing a red herring.
So, fuck it, I said, turn yourself into a chad, get someone who is a decent person, and spend your life with them.
>>36882625
>so that I can find someone to spend my life with,
LOL you think a woman will want to do that instead of just raping you in divorce court? Maybe socialize more and get some male friends you can count on and go on adventures with. Marriage is dead because the religious believes and conservative family values that enforced it are gone, so its literally just a legal contract meaning you're getting cucked by the state
>raise a family, and ultimately leave the earth having served a purpose.
Wanting to be a breeder because you can't deal with the existential void of meaninglessness, freedom to subvert the biological imperative to reproduce, and choose your own purpose free of the burden of child rearing.
You will never become a Chad no matter how much you improve your aesthetics, and women are not decent people no matter how sexy their bodies and charming their fakery. Take the red pill and stop longing for traditionalism, the juice ain't worth the squeeze.
>>36882805
I'm Catholic, I'll be finding a Catholic woman.
You're just upset because I'm actually getting better, whereas you're wallowing and will never amount to anything, just some sad lonely gamer who jerks off on a daily basis.
There's more to life than one's self. Why would I fight my biological urges? Why would I not completely satisfy them? They're there for a reason.
Also, if we're Catholic, we're not allowed to divorce unless there's something that makes the vows we took null and void. Legally, sure, but that's why you find someone who's actually Catholic
Also
>prenup
Today is my first day of nofap after living the hedonist lifestyle for months and months. By hedonistic I meant that I gave into the urge to beat my dick anytime the urge came up; no second thought. I did have the urge a bit today, but I decided to not give in and reclaim the power of my will.
Other than that, nothing really happened today. I worked, then came home and watched some videos about musicians and their obtuse of lsd. I think I need to get a real hobby or something. Because that was basically just another way to go into mental cruise control.
I look forward to strengthening my will.
>>36882957
Work out at home. Use the unused testosterone to build muscle.
Force yourself to go to social events. Talk to women every day. Not to hook up, just to be friendly with women.
>>36882858
>implying Catholic women won't divorce-rape you
>implying they won't just do it anyway regardless of what the scriptures say
>implying prenups don't get thrown out of court
>implying I even play video games
I am becoming better and better at abstaining from ejaculation. Longest I did was over 2 months.
>There's more to life than one's self.
Of course, but its all experienced through being you as a brain and body that exists in the human plane.
>Why would I fight my biological urges? Why would I not completely satisfy them? They're there for a reason.
And that reason no longer applies now that there are way too many people on the planet, all our resources are rapidly getting contaminated and depleted, climate change, loss of arable land, dangerous nuclear reactors, toxic dust storms and antibiotic resistant superviruses... And now that we can use our rational brain to reason that it is morally wrong to bring children into this world knowing they will suffer so much.
>>36883065
Okay, so because some men get raped with divorce, you should rid yourself of one of the greatest experiences on Earth. Not sex, raising a family.
I mean, like I said, they could do it, so that's the point of finding a devout Catholic.
I mean, whatever man, more power to you I guess.
Suffering isn't always bad. It sucks, sure, but good things come out of suffering sometimes. Life is suffering, really.
>pro life antinatalist
What even?
>MGTOW virgin
Yeah, we know. You may as well say "dead corpse"
>>36880561
TODAY WAS MY LAST FAP! I WILL NOT FAP THE REST OF THE WEEK. I WILL STAY PURE!!!!!!!
What do you talk to 5 grills a day about?
>>36883214
I don't always, 5 is the ideal.
Anything, really. Just make small talk in social situations.
>>36883194
>>pro life antinatalist
>What even?
I would actually want to ask you about this since you're Catholic. How to people who are pro-life, meaning after they conceive a zygote they consider it a human life which must be born, ever justify having sex if they aren't totally willing to procreate. Believe it or not, this is actually a major reason why I'm still a virgin and probably will be permanently, because I never want kids, nor would I ever support any kind of abortion, so its like I have a moral obligation to stay celibate, unless I fuck a woman who had here uterus removed or is post menapausal
>>36883484
We don't. That's why you're not supposed to have sex until you're married. Marriage means you're open to having children. You're not meant to use birth control, either.
>>36883515
What is the response to overpopulation then?
>>36883572
There's ways of semi-reliably tracking ovulation. It's the only form of birth control you're allowed to use, because you don't end up killing a perfectly good egg and all that.
Plus, you don't need to have sex all the time, and the way things are looking, China and India are probably going to be facing a massive plague.
The world is far from being too filled to support itself. We just need to do better with what we have.
losing my sanity
>>36883344
>anything
real helpful, faggot. i want topics
>>36883815
I mean, I guess this a bunch of robots I'm talking to.
Small shit like "Hey, I like your shirt" and stuff like that builds your confidence as far as talking to girls.
There has to be a reason for you talking to them. If it's an open atmosphere like a party, you're pretty much fine, but other than that, there has to be a reason to talk to them.
If they mention something you're into, join the conversation (again, this only applies to social events and the like)
>>36883623
My parents did this, and that show I was born