i hate crying everyday. cant control it it hurts

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>>36848288
Why're you weeping to begin with OP?

>>36848288
Eventually you won't be able to anymore.

>>36848309
my family is abusive to me all the time. i havent moved out yet.
and ive been starving a lot to distract myself.
my one friend left me and was egging me on to commit suicide with his other friends
I dont know if i should do it or not. maybe theres a chance i could be friends with him again dunno.
but for now im gonna try to avoid more panic attacks by talking to people on 4chan

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>>36848360
At least you've a plan in mind, that's content. We can chat if you'd prefer it. I'm not doing anything eventful at the moment. I'm all ears, as they say. Hehe.

>>36848400
thanks Ive only been drinking coffee
i cant eat anything now
i was thinking about what they said to me.
really feels like i should die. whenever one of my friends goes away for just a few minutes i start to breakdown. its horrible and i cant control it. my family ignored me since i was little. and they are no help. when they ignored me it reminded me of the way my family treats me. it burns this feeling inside my head. im trying to not cry but if i do ill try to cut my neck again and aya will laugh at me

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>>36848288
I love you Remu

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>>36848486
You're welcome, hmmm, maybe you should continue to push forward in pursuit of a happier more fulfilling life? Try to forget the one who's caused you this pain? Maybe that's been said to you before, I'm not entirely sure but it'd make sense if you did so. Try to find scraps of food around or go outside or something. It'll only better you in the process.

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>>36848562
yeah my bodys starting to ache again. its like theres needles inside me
Ive been starving for a couple days.

I dont know how to forget them. what they said playsback in my head every second. its like its trying to kill me and I just fall. crying wishing i had a mother or father. sorry for being weird
it hurts so bad. i hate crying from these memories
i just want to die already

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>>36848726
It's quite alright to be eccentric anon, not a thing at fault with that. Huh, you can't get them out of your mind? This isn't me being a dullard but have you considered seeking professional attention? Maybe they'd be able to sort this out for you, or gather some medication. Pick up a hobby? There's many options available to you, I'd assume.

>>36848811
ive been to many psychiatrists and therapists
but ive never been diagnosed with anything but depression. they always tell me im very coherent but I dont think any of myself makes sense at all.
Theres hobbies
but right now
i feel like dying again
this feeling hurts
i dont want to cry
please help

>haven't cried in about 3 years
Is this bad? I feel alright, I just haven't cried in ages.

Do you need a friend to talk to?

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>>36848894
I've mustered up all I can for you to be frank, otherwise I'd suggest finding someone else? I've to reiterate that point, I can't do much for you knowing I don't have knowledge of you personally, though I wish the best to you. I'll be around I guess.

>>36848932
im sorry
youre right
i just dont know what to think anymore
>>36848929
>>36848932
Rem#1843
lets send each other cute pictures on discord

>>36848486
Do you ever tell your friends not to go?

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>>36848999
I'll add you on what I assume to be Discord? Huh, I'll get around to that then. Sure. I will expect cute images if that's what you say!

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>>36848288
pls rember that wen u feel scare or frigten
never forget ttimes wen u feeled happy

wen day is dark alway rember happy day

Control it

>>36848904
same here, maybe even longer. i get close sometimes, randomly choking up, but nothing comes of it, i become self aware and just go numb

>>36848360
It's not easy at all, anon. I dont understand your situation nor do I know anything about it so my words are going to sound shallow. But you should make an effort to move on from your abusive friend, and then move on from your abusive family. I dont know anything about you so I dont know what advice to give, but you could always try making friends here, as bad of an advice as that sounds, Ive actually made a few I like quite a bit.

>>36849968
thanks
i feel sick again
i just want to die

>go to a barber because mom says so
>sit down, the barber is a qt
>she starts some small-talk
>i do quite well most of the time, but a few times when i have to speak a lot my eyes start to water and turn red
>i'm sure she noticed
>wish her a good day and walk away in shame
why can't i just speak to other people like a normal person?

>>36850246
Not eating will do that to you. I could invite you to the /sft/ server if youd like. Most people on it are alright. Unless you have something against gay people.

>>36850887
ew
i hate gay people
i want to die now
im a bad person

>>36851127
please dont pretend to be me
even if you dislike me for whatever reason

>>36851127
You're not OP, are you?

>>36851127
>>36851146
dont imitate me
leave me alone
just let me d
ie

Op, whoever you are, respond to these
>>36849968
>>36850887
Do I contact you through your discord?

>>36851216
this is my post
>>36851146
but sure Rem#1843

>>36848288
come back to the server Rem, please