How do you deal with the monotony of life robots?
I used to do drugs and drink by myself for months locked up in my room, had a psychotic episode, ended up in a psych ward 5 days and then 30 days in a rehab center located inside the psychiatric hospital.
I've been outside for 3 days and everything is monotonous and boring, even the shit that I used to like, and the depression and anxiety is the same.
I tried hanging out with some acquaintances but they're fuckwitts and I've noticed that any social interaction bores me.
>>36843915
you just get used to it, and then live a pretty sad life desu
thats my experience though
>>36843915
you've got to find interests, anon. Things you can go and actively do that you enjoy
buy some weed on alpha bay or something, jesus christ
>>36844594
The problem is I can't control myself, and I got to the point where all my life revolved around getting drugs, I fucked up my job and all relationships too.
I used to get most of my stash from the pharmacy, 33% of the other shit was illegal.
Drugs.
I used to do real drugs but later moved into just supplements, nootropics and research chems.
I also keep an audio journal and rattle off theories on things any time I'm alone.
Existence is crazy boring
>>36845061
please post your auditory manifesto, anon, you've peaked my interest
>>36845061
Answer couple of questions please, cause i am thinking aout going down that road.
>Did you just deal in your city if so whats the population
>Did you knew people to sell to or did you start selling on the streets until you built up contacts
>How much weed did you move in a month, average?
>Profit? 30-60% based on my calculations and observations
>Did you work at the same time or been NEET and just dealing
>Did you make enough money to :live it up: or barely paying the rent
I swear im not FBI, just interested. Also ocean separates us so you can be at peace.