Let it out
To be original
I have a homemade fleshlight made out of a plastic cup, a glove, and 2 sponges.
>>36583721
I'm in a relationship but I don't think either of us particularly want to be in it, we're just going through the motions rather than be alone.
I wish people would stop yelling at each other during discourse.
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surely this has enough content to pass the robit
>copy-pasted from a dying thread
>be me
>be ugly/manlet/young looking my entire life
>don't go on my first date/have first kiss until i'm 17
>only ever go on a date with one girl
>have girlfriend for 2 years but only get to third base twice
>get dumped
>spend the next two years getting rejected by a dozen girls
now, not only am i a virgin about to enter my senior year of college, i now have severe emotional and physical intimacy fears. i also know what it's like to be in love, which is worse than when i was a khv, but i fear i'll never feel it again.
>>36583721
What about you, OP, whatcha thinking about? (:
Whenever I make a thread that gets no replies I want to kill myself.
i don't know why you let our thing disintegrate because i thought it was going so well. i felt like a human being around you. you were so cute. but you ruined it, and you don't seem too bothered about it. it wouldn't bother me if you didn't once seem as invested as i was. so basipally, you're a fucking faggot and im not gonna reach out to you anymore, and also, fuck you
I don't want to talk bout it
>>36584008
What I usually do is I make a thread then leave it in another window and go do other things/look at other threads. Then you'll forget about it and either you'll come back to a pleasant surprise or a dead thread that you didn't haven't spent waaay too long worrying over.
I don't want to be alone anymore.
Original fuck you
I think I'm going to order a sex doll even though I still feel some shame over it.
I'm not even going to try and hide it from mother; she knows what my life is.
My mom cheated on my father when he was dying of cancer. Turns out the dude had a sick wife as well and a disabled kid. Two scumbags who betrayed their families.
After my father died, she lawyered up and sued me and my two brothers so that she would own the company he left to us. The company he built through years of blood sweat and tears. The company he let her work for and receive a very healthy salary even though she was unqualified. She used her position there while he was alive to secretly steal money and move it into a private bank of her own, on top of her regular salary. This was all when I was 18. I am 24 now, father is gone, and mother is a multimillionaire with her fuckface new husband while me and my two brothers are fairly broke. She is a selfish, narcissistic, alcoholic cunt. I have not spoken to her in years. I hate her more than anything on this earth. I will not be at her funeral when she dies.
>>36583721
life has stopped having meaning to me, days go by one by one, with one seeming to lead into the next. i don't sleep well, I don't see the point anymore, I know I'll never accomplish anything I care about, and no matter how many times people say that life has meaning simply because, I don't think I'll ever believe them. I'm not a nihilist though, I do think that a life can mean something-as far as humanity is concerned-I just don't think anyone's life(mine included) has any sort of value just because it happens to exist. existing is something anyone can do, and if that's your only accomplishment then-in my opinion anyway-your probably better off dead. elaborate further, in the popular scenario of "a plane is crashing and there's only 5 parachutes, the plane has 10 people, 5 of the worlds smartest people and 5 children" I'd choose to save the smart guys and let the children die.
anyway, I realize that my life is probably worthless; even more so than most people, since I have no prospects. I'm not in a relationship and will likely never have children, and even if I do they'll likely grow up to be noncontributing nobodies like me, I'm not meaningfully employed, and I don't even have my own house or apartment. truthfully the world wouldn't change at all if I died, not for better or worse, which is why I don't think I could ever bring myself to commit suicide(that and I don't believe in an afterlife so I'm scared of dying), but I don't want to go on living like this. life just seems so empty.
>>36584043
Same feels anon. You're not alone feeling like that about someone. I wish I never met mine, it would've saved this heartbreak
It is a failure, everything from the beginning has been a fucking waste of time.
Since I was child, I have always been a little strange, only 1 or two "friends", autistic fits of rage, good at academics but shit at sports.
Fuck, I thought it was my fault when someone treated me with disdain, I tried to be cheerful, but I only got laughed at.
Frustration, frustration, I thought it would get better, but I was wrong, tried a new mask to be normal like the others but I was always odd, never had a girl, or interests, always hollow inside.
At first I blamed my dad, mom and the shitters at school, but now I am the only one left to blame.
Sorry for the bad english, I was always a spoiled child, so I never felt the need to spend time time with others and the love of my mom has become such a traumatic shit for me that everytime she hugs me I feel disgust and is the same with other people.
I have just lived throught life, doing nothing and feeling despair and frustration and I just cannot stop hating myself for it, I try to be succesfull but I always make the same mistakes
I wish could I trust people more easily, why does everyone leave me? :<
>>36584378
im sorry to hear that.
ive never been so chemically attracted to another person in my life. we both smelled so good to eachother. it felt primal and bizarre and wonderful and i never thought id feel that way, thought pheromones are pseudoscience. now there's nothing.
>>36584372
I think we are not meant to live in the world we have created. We're not meant to work 5 days a week 9-5 in a fucking office on a computer. Were not meant to be massively instantly interconnected and have instant access to information about everything. We don't DO anything anymore. We just work nonsense fake "jobs" and buy food and use technology and 1000 years of instinct is being fucked by this massive drastic change in lifestyle. It's why were all depressed and fucked up. Were not even fucking human anymore and the people who are content with their structured little lives are blind to the joke of an existence that they live in.
I'm starting to realize that finding "the one" is either impossible or a dice roll. I'm starting to realize just wanting that one girl I can grow old with, in this day and age, might just be fantasy.
I'm a cyborg so I regularly hang out with normies, and a lot of the girls fool around with a bunch of guys boyfriend or not. I stay silent during their sex stories, but it's been a real eye opener.
Maybe I should just drop my ideals and submit.
>>36584428
because you're a piece of shit, or because they are, or both. people are leeches who use each other, when they no longer feel as though they gain anything from you, they'll leave.
I started trying not to eat like a fat tub of shit again. This is my 3rd attempt in the last 3 months. Things are looking glum, chum.
>>36584509
what this guys says.
what do most people even do for most jobs? they just sit down and plug made up bullshit into computers. we'd be a more honest society just paying people to sit on their asses all day, it'd basically end up with the same result. most "jobs" these days don't even actually produce anything, they're just mindless bureaucratic bullshit, and deep down people know that, they know that they aren't contributing anything and that if society collapsed tomorrow they'd be the first to die.
we're nothing, we're organic beings made to work like machines, and such a distortion of or nature will bring nothing but ruin to us psychologically.
It wasn't until I became a cashier that I realized how utterly empty American social conventions are. Not in a comically stupid way, either, but a depressing one. When people come up to my register, I always say "Hi" and they usually respond with a "Hello" or a "How are you?" even though neither of us cares one bit. The self-checkout machines prove that exchanging pleasantries isn't necessary to buy groceries, but we do it anyways, and I get slightly annoyed when they don't respond. At the core, greetings only serve one function, which is to give the illusion of community. It's to pretend that you have something in common, even though you'll just go back to sitting on your ass once you get home, and the old guy'll sit on his ass too watching Family Feud. The more I think about it, the more bizarre it seems. We live in big neighborhoods with big lawns and long roads connecting them, and then drive out to huge buildings surrounded by hot white asphalt where we say a few words and pretend there's something behind them.
The whole thing feels so hollow, it's strange.
>>36583721
I wish I did not live in America so I could get the healthcare I need.