Med student (inb4 normie get out) feeling like horseshit
>leeching from parents, they don't mind but it kills me
>faggot obese depressive roommate is literally my only human interaction outside of rude patients and peers
>have to study 8 hours a day to pass biweekly exams
>sleep 4 hours a day
>live on caffeine, cigs and alcohol
>no gf obviously
>whatever hobbies i had are gone
>can't even remember how life was before it went to shit
Give me a reason to not kms robots, I don't want to save lives if i cant live my own.
Just do it OP. It never gets better. If I wasnt such a coward I'd end myself.
>med student
>smokes
never understood this
Also sleeping 4 hours a day is probably hurting your studying. You cannot retain as much if you don't get enough sleep.
>>36462851
You'd be surprised how many of us smoke, just because we see the harm in it doesn't change the fact that it helps us cope with our daily bullshit
Some of my group are even hooked on one kind of synthetic drug or another
>>36462802
Part of why I won't do it is my parents, I'm their only child and even though we rarely talk, they keep telling me how proud and lucky they are to have me
They don't know about my horrid state, if I become an hero out of the blue my dad would probably have a heart attack and follow suit, I can't imagine doing that to them.
I'm a med student too. This is hell, if I knew how it was going to be I would have chosen another path.
>>36463042
I fell for the "You'll feel good helping others" meme, it's true I get some satisfaction but it means nothing compared to the shit that comes with it
>>36462770
>have to study 8 hours a day to pass biweekly exams
>sleep 4 hours a day
>caffeine
give up caffeine and get 8 hours, then your mind won't be so sluggish and distractable and you can get more done while you study, also you should get off 4chan soon and never come back to buy more time
>cigs
waste of money, but I guess your shit is too fucked up to give up now, get nicotine patches and gum solely for the purpose of removing cravings at minimal expense
>alcohol
no more than 2 drinks
>can't even remember how life was before it went to shit
once you get a decent job you will be less worthless than us, you could get into the pharmaceutical industry, make smart investments, found a biocorp that exists to grant your biological immortality and get to see the future and shit, maybe
Fuck i fell for it too, all the worse since residents earn like 70% of average wage here
If you have other options OP i seriously say go for, sacrificing your health and happines isn't worth it