Does anyone have any ideas on how to mentally prepare for suicide?

fucking grow up and stop putting the burden of your eventual death on others. take a deep breath like an adult and carry on with your life without whining ffs

>>36436806
This is exactly what I'm talking about. I don't see how I'm burdening anyone here, it's not like you have to post. If you're referring to friends and family, I'm going to die at some point anyways. I'd hope they would respect my decision to choose where, when, and how that happens. Nobody is reliant on me and I don't have any real responsibilities. What does it matter if I kill myself when I could easily get hit by a car tomorrow or die any other painful and random way? Will that be any less distressing to my family? I also don't believe that I'm obligated to continue my life for the sole reason of accompanying others for their comfort. All things considered, I fail to see how my death would burden anyone.

>>36436673
>>36436899
Reading this really hurts. My train of thought is almost exactly the same as yours, but this doesn't matter. It still won't give me the push to finally end it. Rationalizing just doesn't seem to cut it, when it comes to suicide. Such is life, I guess

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>>36436899
>What does it matter if I kill myself when I could easily get hit by a car tomorrow or die any other painful and random way? Will that be any less distressing to my family?
It's like I can feel the teen angst. Listen faggot of you're actually """"depressed"""" and going kill yourself you wouldn't be fretting over it so much. Most people who commit suicide leave no note or anything behind. They're simply too depressed to care anymore and evidently you're not at that point yet and it seems like you won't ever reach it.

So basically
A. You're not depressed enough and you don't want to kill yourself you fuck
Or
B. You just want attention

>>36436993
Have you considered that there's a distinction between premeditated suicide and impulsive suicide? Also, why exactly would I bother to seek attention on an anonymous image board when I could be talking to people who to some extent care about me? If you read my post, you'd see I already answered that question: the answer I'm sure to receive from people like that doesn't help me get anywhere, same as you posting is a waste of both of our time. The point of posting here is to get input from impartial people who couldn't give two fucks about me offing myself. You seem unusually invested, though.

>>36436993
>A. You're not depressed enough and you don't want to kill yourself you fuck
Or maybe he still hasn't reached that point and wants to end it before it gets even worse?
>B. You just want attention
What is wrong with craving attention when you have been denied it your whole life? and ffs this is a fucking uzbekistanian tapestrie discussion forum, what do you care about someone wanting attention?

>>36437043
>You seem unusually invested, though.

I can relate a lot so I'm just sharing my was of thinking hoping it will help. I see myself as pathetic and chicken shit for not being able to do it and I think it will eventually push me to do it

>>36437058
>Or maybe he still hasn't reached that point and wants to end it before it gets even worse?
I will mention that at one point I botched hanging myself. None of the surfaces in my apartment were fit for it. That was under some particularly extreme stress, though. I had just gotten carjacked and lost my job as a result of that. Later I felt like an idiot and vowed that if I attempt suicide again I'd do it right.

>>36437110
>I will mention that at one point I botched hanging myself.
Me too, fucking dozed off when tying a noose, cuz drunk very, very drunk. When I came to I couldn't do it, and ever since then I not only have lost my will to live, but to even fucking die, just pure numbness now

>>36436958
I really wish it did. I listened to the Jonestown mass suicide tapes earlier and was really struck by how steadfast they were in the face of the shit unfolding before them. I think what they did was a stupid reaction to the core problem of the airstrip attack, but I wish part of me could muster the sureness and will to talk myself into doing it when I'm of a "sound mind." Maybe the key is that element of impulsivity, and perhaps I should equip myself so that should the mood strike, I can take advantage of it. I'm not sure how to hide an exit bag from my roommates, and I don't want to die via firearm.

>>36437176
>I don't want to die via firearm
Well, man I was sympathetic, but you can get a gun and still haven't ended it? Absolutely disgusting

>>36437151
For me the only "noose" I had was a belt and I tried using a doorknob to secure it. It kept slipping off and I couldn't get it to sit on my neck to properly restrict airflow. After a bit of fiddling with it one of my roommates came home and I felt too embarrassed to keep going as I really didn't want to explain what I was doing. I just downed some cheap vodka to knock myself out for the night and went to work in the morning trying my best to forget about it. You're right though, something did change that day. It's hard to put my finger on it but it felt like a sense of acceptance that I had no interest in trying anymore.

>>36436673
>Does anyone have any ideas on how to mentally prepare for suicide?

do dissociative drugs. if you have few connections your best bet is probably DXM which you can probably buy at your local pharmacy.

>>36437202
I feel like it's the least I could do for my parents. They're the only people I really care about leaving behind and I don't want them to have to see me with my face blown off. My dad's brother committed suicide by hanging himself and his aunt was murdered in their house, I mostly want to keep my corpse in good condition to reduce whatever emotional trauma that may follow. I also don't like the idea of leaving a mess for someone to clean up. Spreading out tarp and positioning things where people in neighboring apartments won't get potentially harmed by a stray bullet sounds like a real pain.

>>36437279
I have a prescription for Ativan that I take as needed for panic attacks and agoraphobia, every so often I take them to mellow myself out after a rough day. I find they help me look at things much more calmly and objectively, when I take them the idea of death is almost comforting desu.