Late Night Bar Session

>>36425918
Looks pretty comfy Nick

>>36426080

Sure is. This will be a much more relaxed thread, and I'm off duty now.

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Nothing more comfy than a half empty bar/cafe at night whilst its raining outside

>>36426105
I'm still stuck at work for 70 minutes, then have 10 hours until I go back.

>>36426145

That sounds shite, i've got work tomorrow in till late sadly

Post some comfy pictures. I have almost nothing on this computer. Just Silence of the Lambs pictures.

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>>36426228

Gotcha, just chilling in my reclining chair, got a small blanket around me drinking tea,
>feels/comfy/man

https://youtu.be/alo3KFRfLvE

Thread theme song.

>>36425918

1940/50s looked so comfy

>>36426228
I deleted all my comfy folder during last depression flare. Fuck, now I'm disappointed. Had some great shots from my house.

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>>36425918
Got this from another anon. Good view somewhere in Europe.

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Here's one of my very few comfy pictures

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alcohol doesnt seem to cut it anymore.
can i shoot up in your bathroom?

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Tomorrow is a special day. I do get the blues when I consider how little I've progressed in the passing year of my life.

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postin comfy

>>36426382
Ok you're here, I'll start typing about back injury
>captcha was vehicles
Saw my ex's model car, fuck. Didn't need feels today

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Anyone else find abandoned cities comfy?

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or we can just comfy thread

>>36426393
Got plans for it? Seeing family, perhaps?

>>36426464
Ha, hell no. I'll be lucky to get a phone call

Meta? Are you around?

Facet?

>>36426387

Yes. It's my bar, my rules. Go ahead.

>>36426393

Happy birthday, Meta!

>>36426496
Yes, I'm here. Something's gone wrong and i can't post pics. Trying to figure it out

>>36426393
It's my birthday tomorrow aswell. Also feel anything but accomplished looking back.

>>36426478
Well fuck 'em anyway, assuming like most here you don't have a great family situation. At least you have a handful of strangers on 4chan to wish you a happy birthday

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I read that bit about the "buffalo" and how you'll eat him when he eats grass, like a bovine version of Judas' kiss or something.

What's that about?

>>36426536

Happy birthday, Max!

>>36426545

This. I spent my last birthday alone all day. It's very precisely when things turned to shit for me. The whole year was shit. It's like I've died with no redemption possible.

>>36426546
Did you read the end?

>>36426578
>It's like I've died with no redemption possible.
Melodramatic. You're doing it. You're sorting yourself out.

>>36426382
So junior year of high school "wrasslin" took a shot on opponent during practice. I was sloppy and got cross-faced.
>pic related, except I got ahold of his leg as well
He tells me to let go or he'll tighten it up. I of course don't, because I'm a stubborn little shit when pissed, so he twists my neck further. Everything went red, next thing I know I'm laying on the ground, tears covering my face and I feel like I've been stabbed in the back. Later was told I'd been fucking crying for 10 mins and no one could get thru to me. Turns out my L4 and L5 had been twisted at more than 90 degrees opposite to each other. Told I was lucky it wasn't worse, but that it'd hurt hurt me for the rest of my life, even with monthly chiropractic care. The days it flares up again are awful, and I can barely walk.

>>36426592

Yes, the buffalo part is at the end.

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>>36426620
dammit my pic fell off my post. Here's pic

It's 9am and I just woke up. I feel like drinking now is pushing it... but I probably will

>>36426610
>Melodramatic.

My emotions are too extreme for casual words. I know how it sounds, but I'll take it. I'd rather my life wasn't Shakespearan drama, but so it is.

How do you end your life in an appropriate way to be respectful towards your family and partner? Any tips or experiences?

>>36426634
The very end tells you who the buffalo is. What more are you asking? Idk what was meant by the "eat some grass and then ill know" part...

>>36426640

>dass it mane, smell dat ass
>mmmmm yeaahh
>mane, twist my fucking L4 and L5

>>36426701
80 years old, lying in your own shit in a nursery home.

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>>36426701
honorable sudoku maybe?

>>36426620
That is extreme indeed. Do you wish you'd let go?

>>36426674
But what I'm saying is that even if you feel the world is ending, it isn't. You will endure.

>>36426645

Are you a legit anon?

I'm surprised nobody whined at us so far.

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I thought a cyoa could be revelatory.

>>36426701
>How do you end your life in an appropriate way to be respectful towards your family and partner? Any tips or experiences?

You kill them all painlessly.

No, you don't, you can't, don't kill yourself.

I'm off duty, next thread is tomorrow, though, if you're serious, spit it out.

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Fragonard

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>>36426708

I know who the buffalo is, in this context, he said so clearly. He also said that he'd know the buffalo was a buffalo when he ate grass, which is Judas' kiss.

He means, I suppose, an act of weakness, of showing I'm no true carnivore (since I'm the fucking buffalo).

He may have been thinking of my Silence of the Lambs deal, in which Buffalo Bill is my nemesis of sorts, and that makes me a buffalo, I suppose.

I'm Clarice, Facet is Lecter.

>>36426721
Kek. Elbow injury was dumb, got hip tossed in practice because chucklefuck I was against can't follow fucking directions. Wasn't ready, landed directly on left elbow first. Tore 97% of that ligament on the outer elbow, only have alittle left. Instead of the Tommy John's surgery(replace with some tendon from leg), just did PT to make my elbow functional for day-to-day stress. I didn't get the surgery because had no insurance and my family was poor. The surgery was (back then) HALF of my dad's yearly salary.

>>36426779
I might come back tomorrow. Thank you

>>36426734

That's funny.

Ravioli.

>>36426751
>But what I'm saying is that even if you feel the world is ending, it isn't. You will endure.

Not so sure. I am way too confused about love to know what to do, and even if I knew, I am not sure it's feasible.

I care too much about people, and so my life has become an impossible riddle.

>>36426751
Yes. More than anything in my past I'd fix that.

>>36426821

Very nice. What year is this from? I'm big on years.

>>36426545
Oh, I probably will get a phone call, a couple texts, and a happy birthday in person. I don't know what to say in response, as they can't really be happy I've merely managed to survive another year, doing the same nothings...

>>36426761
Legit about what?

>>36426836

I hope you will, stay safe, you are important.

>>36426891

Are you from the previous thread? The rest of us are.

>>36426875
1767 i think
Honestly surprised that wasn't original

>>36426926
>1767 i think

Some serious shit took place in 1767, brah, including the Beatles' first album.

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Should i redo the brand on my arm.
Damn things starting to fade.
I either need to burn deeper or make some cuts and then burn to make it really scar up.

>>36426769
I was sure it'd just be fear and hate but the last one is probably the best. I'd have to think hard about it. Not sure whether I have more fear or anger desu. As far as a group decision goes, there's no consensus there either.

>>36426854
Time will honestly make the difference. It won't take away the pain, but you will become more accustomed to function in spite of it.

>>36426947
Tell me more about the brand. What does it mean to you?

>>36426947

I have no context for this, but no, don't.

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>>36426854
And yet you help other random people on the internet. You're a good man, Nick. Please treat yourself a bit, have a comfy bonfire gif for starters.

>>36426822
>He means, I suppose, an act of weakness, of showing I'm no true carnivore (since I'm the fucking buffalo).
This is what occurred to me as well, a clear demonstration of your nature. But surely you've been gently grazing all along?

>>36426951
>It won't take away the pain, but you will become more accustomed to function in spite of it.

Such encouragement, such glorious future.

Do you like Stephen King?

>>36426999

Trips for comfort.

The exact way I feel is that God loved me at some point, and then I did something that made even God hate me. Now I'm exiled for good.

>>36426945
I don't get this. I tend to perceive hostility in ambiguity

>>36427041
Are you religious at all?

>>36427001
>But surely you've been gently grazing all along?

No. I've eaten Seethe for breakfast and Facet saw it. I'm no buffalo. I'm a minotaur, I can eat humans, but I hide in a labyrinth.

Mostly, I anger the wolf in Facet, because I'm not scared of him, which makes him feel week. But maybe we should stop talking of this, he's very quick to react to me.

I might be Facet's gay fantasy of the moment.

>>36427041
What act was this? Almost all sin can be forgiven.

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>>36426999
Have a counter-Solaire for your efforts.

>>36427018
I liked him when I was a child. Not so keen now. Will probably see the IT remake.

>>36427041
If such a God exists, He is unworthy of worship. Besides, you don't need God when you have us.

>>36427055
>I don't get this. I tend to perceive hostility in ambiguity

Really? I was making a joke to make you laugh.

>say random stuff that isn't true, I have no idea what happened in 1767, but since the comment wasn't original, then something MUST have happened, I picked on that idea for keks

>used different language to make you laugh
>off duty Nick is wild

: (

I just wanted to give you a giggle, mate.

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Guess ill put the name on.
>>36426983
Branded "no love" on my arm. Started it during my first major depressive episode on a lark. Only got "no" on before stopping because the smell of burnt skin and the sizzle was stimulating enough. Still had my lady so she made me stop and i'd never finish it. 2 years later she abandons me and it was only appropriate to mark that i dont deserve anything and that ill never have anything like that ever again. So everybody will know that im just a fuckup and to not even bother.
>>36426994
The canvas, she calls for fresh paint

>>36426906
Don't think so, I just woke up

>>36427081

I have been, or tried to be. I'd love nothing more than for God to exist.

I used to pray, read the Bible, read lots of theology and apologetics. I've read everything CS Lewis had to say about God. (Almost.)

>>36427085
Not to gossip behind his back, but if he's ok with us discussing over email, shoot me your thoughts and I'll reciprocate.

>>36427119
I've always wanted to brand someone like that. As Nick said you shouldn't do it, but the description of the smell is genuinely making my mouth water.

>>36427116
My mind generated that possibility, but also the possibility of a hidden inside joke at my expense. I really feel like my mother.

>>36427098

For God, yes, but this was no God.

>>36427099

I like King's short fiction better. Only read Carrie as a novel and thought it was OK but no great impression on me. His short stories are cool, however. I read him chronologically, and have only read the shorts, and his memoir on the craft, which is great.

>>36427127
If he'd exist and be rather consequent with following his own rules, that would make some stuff much easier.

I can't convince myself to believe in an entity that has no real basis. Even though it would provide support when there's literally noone else to support you.

>>36427127
Perhaps surprisingly, I still pray. Sometimes I even still make the sign of the cross.

>>36427139
Do as you will. I feel ashamed that it's come to this.

>>36427119

Some very BPD traits there: self-harm and low self-esteem.

Very sad stuff.

>>36427116
Don't stress too hard man, its off time now. I'll leave this here for you, helps me unwind. Thanks again Sensei for starting Tai Chi and giving me this link:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Y1xwtA6C2DQ&feature=youtu.be

>>36427120

Not much in this thread will make sense to you; feel free to ask anything.

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>>36427166
>I've always wanted to brand someone like that. As Nick said you shouldn't do it, but the description of the smell is genuinely making my mouth water.

dafuq.jpeg

>>36426536
would you be aries or taurus?

>>36427168
>a hidden inside joke at my expense.

I'm not like that! And I like you, I'd never do or say anything at your expense.

!!!

>>36426951
I'd definitely pick the last one as well.

>>36427241
Taurus

Why do you ask?

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Well, guys, I wish you a good one. I must rest and make some gains tonight.

See you tomorrow, friends.

>>36427228
I think he needs a snack. Also, speaking of, tried my hand at my dad's special steak, with a recipe he's only shared with me last week, I didn't fuck it up, tasted great, and nobody's was over or under cooked, so success!

>>36427247
It's my inheritance and my burden. One of the things that makes me abrasive in real life.

>>36427292
Farewell, Nick.
'Till then.

More drunk than I've ever been, and it's on my own celebrating Eric and Dylan. Anyone else /haveafewfriendsbutnoconnectionwithanyofthem/?

>>36427271
just asking because some people born early in the taurus calendar feel more of an aries. i'm an aries. birthday was two weeks ago.

Night night, Nick.

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>>36427166
Its because its the same smell as bacon. Just go grab a pan and a pound.
If you're in indiana i'd let you- no fuck it its mine alone.
>>36427199
I remember i had a family doctor visit and my depression and suicide came up and i mentioned I thought i mightve had BPD and the psych the sent in just said "no".
From what i can recall of my reading a lot of the articles made BPD sound more like being a histrionic psycopath.
I can see why someone wouldnt connect the dots to some bitch crying in his underwear.
I remember they had a really nice lady checking up on me over the phone over my daily ideation and i had to make an appointment at the psych center but never did because im such a piece of shit she was so damn nice why did i waste her time like that FUCK

>>36427292
See you next time Nick

>>36427356
I'm nowhere near there, but it would genuinely make my month I think. I just need to find someone extremely kinky, anyway.

>>36427198
Well, it won't be happening if he's leaving. It's just for clarification purposes. I don't see why you would be ashamed, really.

>>36427333
Ahh. Nah I don't really put much thought into my star sign. It's *just there* basically.
Do you actually *feel* like your zodiac sign?
If so, how does being an aries feel?

>>36427381
Because I know that 'I' expressed malicious intent, of a kind, and that's a poor show.

>>36427380
>tfw you described cutting off your lady's breast and frying it like an egg and making her eat it
She used to draw hearts on me in menstrual blood.

>>36427389
doesn't feel like anything but what i read about it is crazy accurate to my actual personality. aries are very loyal but picky with who they let into their personal space. and we tend to be hopeless romantics. the accuracy is crazy but so cool. you can get a birth chart and see if its true for you. i used this website: http://astro.cafeastrology.com/natal.php

>>36427393
I guess. Maybe it's a failure of empathy on my part, but if it weren't "me" acting that way, I don't know that I would feel anything. Just as though it were a completely autonomous individual

>>36427442
It's embarassingly normie of me, but menstruase squicks me. Just something about globs of snotty blood that stinks of piss really doesn't sit well with me.

>>36427499
The issue is the potential for it to create distance and damage trust.

>>36427527
How important is trust to you? And is it just a means of securing access to sources of... ingredients fo something pernicious?

>>36427557
That's the trouble: trust does indeed have the capacity to be used that way. It's difficult to make friends, knowing that I'm also accruing resources, of a kind, that can be used to do harm by myself or others.

I'll head to bed aswell guys.
Was a pleasure talking to you!
Have a comfy night.

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>>36427527
Naw, not everyone can handle having rotten muff blood wiped on them. Didnt care much for the smell past it was a part of "her" and the hearts were SO FUCKING CUTE I MEAN HOLY SHIT.
Fuck... all these memories i thought i'd lost...

>>36427594
I don't think I'm harmful, just selfish. I also question my motivations for pursuing interactions. I can't tell if it's neuroticism or a genuine problem with me participating in the social circus.

Need some help here anons. I've been talking to this girl named Nancy for about 2 years going on 3, it was never a real relationship but it felt real enough. Every day she would send a goodnight text saying I love you and we would do our best to make each other smile even though things were long distance. Throughout the 2 years she would constantly text other guys behind my back but still rely on me, and it hurt and broke me down emotionally to the point where I feel different. I chose to forgive her and kept thinking of the future, hoping we would never separate or stop talking. We had a lot of great moments together and in general I see a lot of me in her. I planned on seeing her in person but recently she texted me and said she went to a party and lost her virginity, it tore me apart but I still talk to her. Things feel different however on her end and it feels like she keeps all her emotions and problems locked in a box even though she knows she can talk to me about anything. She had a rough childhood and got exposed multiple times in the past for sending nude photos to guys. They would use it against her and ask for more, and if she didn't they would expose her which in the end they ended up doing anyway. She feels so distant now and I don't know what to do. She really hurt me quite a bit but I can't abandon her. What do I do?

>>36427676
It's interesting that you feel the same away, or similar at least.

>>36427735
Why does that interest you?

>>36427725
be honest with her. Ask her why she's growing distant with you, or if she even wants to talk with you anymore. Sounds to me like shes attaching to someone else, find out where you stand.

Was waiting for a new one to pop up, thanks fellow Nick.

>>36425959

Yeah, being around her makes my day worth it I feel.

Anyways yeah, my mom told me that as a kid I would scratch my face until I bled. Knowing it's anxiety now as an adult makes me hate it and my acne because every time I feel an itch, I have to scratch it, no matter how painful or red of a patch of skin I have there.

I have to admit, talking about it does make me feel better. I don't think I have many people I can talk to about it without fear of some kind of retaliation. I feel like my gf is perfect to talk to (and almost perfect for me in every way), but anxiety gets the better of me and I worry that she'll leave me when she realizes I'm a failure.

But back to the feeling better. I think I might frequent these threads now. It may get a little bloggy and gay or whatever, but reading the responses does make me feel a bit better.

>>36427899
Thats why I'm still here.

I suppose I'll take my leave. Goodbye to Facet and everyone.

>>36428066
See you next time metapsych

>>36425918
I want to enroll into college, the only bad thing is I am horrible at math. I want to do accounting or computer security. I am going to be in remedial classes for the first semester. What are some good ideas to start getting better.
And Ill be in a wheel chair.

>>36427838
She told me that I'm an important part of her life and still messages me every night. A major accident happened yesterday though where a friend of Nancy's has a boyfriend that has nudes of her from before she started dating her friend. And he used them against her to get more, and I guess he exposed her. Now everyone is calling her a hoe and she downright started calling herself that too. A lot of people in her town know she got exposed and her friend won't even talk to her I'm assuming. She's still acting closed off though and I want to give her space, not to mention I don't want to bombard her with questions when she's going through this.

>>36428101
Wherlchair is zero problem, colleges are handi-accessable.
>horrible at math
Knowing this, get a tutor, that's what they're there for.
>Accounting or computer security
Am cybersecurity/networking myself. If your college has it, dual specialize if you decide to go into IT. Makes you much more marketable once you graduate.

>>36428233
I appreciate your advice, in cybersecurity is there a lot of advanced math involved? I want to be challenged and learn more.

>>36427953

Yeah the last Psyche thread I found and responded for the first time. I felt so sick to my stomach, but I feel much lighter, in a sense, after posting.

(I'm back home from work now on my computer, if you care, lol)

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>>36427802
Because it's interesting to find that others have comparable experiences to me. I'm never sure.

>>36428066
Goodbye, and nice dubs

>>36428265
Not for me. Math is something you let the computer solve. All you really need to know, as far as your general IT courses before you get to your field is how to set up the problems.
>>36428169
That's messy. Seen these situations before, they never end well. Just let her know that you are there for her "regardless of what they think." Let her know that you will "make the time to listen" to her. Between the party and that, her self-value has probably plummeted. Also, as a very Machivellian man here, the quoted lines are very effective.
>>36428375
I figured nothing'd happen, but it changed my life.

>find comfy thread
>it's fucking over and dead
Every damn time

>>36428576
Doesn't have to be over yet Yoyo, what's up?

>>36428596
Not much my lad, life is looking kind of solid at the moment, got gf, a hobby and looking for work at last
How bout you friendo?

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>>36428492
I'm hoping it will for me too. I want to start enjoying life again. I feel like every moment, I'm afraid of the roof I've put over my head for shelter will come falling down and I don't really want to fix it.

>>36428492
I have my way with words, I used to write her page essays about everything I like about her and just things based on us in general. I feel like I'm running into a corner on things to say to her and it worries me because it's bad enough that things are long distance and she's pretty insecure and a fast moving person so yea. I always tell her I'm there to listen at the drop of a text or fuck what everyone else thinks but her mental state and her heart feel so unreachable sometimes, especially at times like this. Good mention of the self worth though, I don't know what I can do since I'm long distance and she hardly wants to call since I assume she's busy or out doing her but I'll try doing my best to boost her self esteem. It doesn't help that she seems to be falling deeper and deeper into new activities and closing herself off though.

>>36428672
I'll let you know when I enjoy life as well. As of now I'm simply trying to hold mysef together. What are you talking about with the roof though? Forgive me if it ahould be obvious, been a long workday.
>>36428641
Well enough. Have two different companies interested in hiring me. No gf, going solo for awhile, heart needs more time to heal.

>>36428776
Shit brah, you go through a rough break-up recently?
I wish I could get a job I want but unfortunately I studied stuff throughout my life that turned me into a pseudo-intellectual with no real talent

>>36428776
Just the way I'm living, basically lying to everyone that I'm doing well in college, when in reality, I'm not going.

I'm worried about when they send home the D/F notices. That's when the roof will fall in.

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Hey guys. I've been okay lately - the apathy's as strong as ever, but the meditation is really helping me adjust my expectations and vanquish my anxiety. My new job's going well, and so is my diet. At this point, I'm just patiently waiting for life to start being enjoyable again.

But I had to come here tonight because I realized something: I feel like no one. An empty container. When I reflect on my life so far, none of it feels personal or true. Don't get me wrong, I'm not upset about it. I'm just calmly realizing that there's a massive gap between now and how I used to feel, and none of it has any weight or presence to it. I'm floating along now as if I'm on autopilot all the time, but I don't mean to be. It's out of my control, and like I said, I just have to wait.

Here's a picture I found helpful with my diet, by the way.

>>36428725
She may be closing herself off because she may feel she's not worth YOUR time. My best advice is letting her know that she is important to you, regardless of what happened. Let her know that you value her and want her to talk to you.
>>36428813
It was in November. She had been distant since that August, also the last month that I'd gotten any with her. We'd talked of moving in together and starting a family, but a week in college and she was already fucking someone else behind my back. I didn't find out until after we'd split, but it fucking broke me inside. I'd actually found someone who really knew the real me and not the face, then she hurt me as deep as possible. She knew that cheating would hurt me as deep as possible, it happened in every relationship I've had.
>>36428981
Why aren't you going to college? Just no desire to or something else?

>>36429037
I don't know how to help you friend, try this to unwind, helped me.
>>36427204
I was running on pure rage after last ex cheated on me. First time I listened to this and took it seriously, I relaxed for the first time in months and realized just how much of my energy was taken up being angry.

>>36429061
Oh shit dude that's terrible, my condolences man

>>36429238
Thanks. It fucking hurts, but I'm not angry about it anymore. The rage went away with the Tai Chi meditations my Sensei has me doing. Its up in this thread somewhere, don't feel like linking it again.

>>36429061
Thanks for the advice, it calmed me down a bit for today and gave me some new insight. I still worry about running out of things to say to her to keep things fresh but eh.

Also sorry about your girl cheating on you man, hope you find someone 10 times better in the future that really cares for you as a friend and a lover.

>>36429061
I have no idea, no motivation, general laziness, depression, who knows. I hate getting up early every day, and I feel like a total piece of shit. It did kind of snowball to how it is now though, every day missing my stupid classes.

>>36429347
Don't worry about what you're saying as long as you're sincere. If you two share a hobby that is a great way to keep things fresh, especially if it is a hobby such as art.
>>36429452
I can't help you with that, but you should come clean with your folks before it all falls down on you.

>>36429546
You sound like a fucking normie. "Just bee urself" is an overused meme.

>>36429688
If she likes him, she won't just suddenly stop because he's somewhat boring. Or shit maybe that what's happened to every single one of my every relationships.

>>36429688
Trying to teach /r9k/ social skills is like trying to teach a chimp how to drive.
Social manipulation is how 99% of the world operates and when someone cant even reliably hold an honest conversation without shitting the bed, you think actual advice will help you?
If being a pussy pillow isnt helping this guy nothing fucking will.

>>36429546
I mean, I should, but I feel like it would make things worse. I'm deathly afraid of my parents.

>>36429987
Im the absolute same.
I called my brother and my fucking boss for bail over my parents.
Trust me. They love you. I know it might not look like it, feel like it at times, and there will be yelling. But at the end of the day, theyre your flesh and blood.

>>36429987
Look at it this way, how much worse will it be when they find out that you've been lying to you, from someone Other than you?

>>36426228
You don't happen to be the Nick who does drinking threads on /b/? - D&C

>>36430257
You missed him, he's gone for the night. If the thread is still around tomorrow you can try and ask him when he comes back.

>>36425918
Just give me straight vodka, preferably sobieski or absolut, none of that dutch trash.

Lately I've been a little more antsy to say the least than usual. Just jumpier than usual, though I try my best to hide it. Also I keep seeing shit out of the corner of my eyes. Thought nothing of it until I saw some little girl with a polka dot dress and bloody gauze on her face right by my bed, scared the hell out of me which normally doesn't happen. I dunno what's going on but I'm not too keen on actually talking about this, considering I'd like to keep my hunting/gun licenses and not get hopped up on pills that'll turn me into a zombie.

>>36430506
How much sleep do you get vs how much you've been getting last 2-3 weeks?

>>36430607
Typically I get between 4-6 hours with no problems, but now it's been all over the place, sometimes up to 8-9.

>>36430677
Ok why is your sleep all over the place? A regular sleep cycle is important for health. Other than that idk whats up man.

>TFW you're so negative you can't make friends any more

>>36430802
You can be friends with us here anon. Take a seat and get comfy

>>36430819
But I don't want to talk about anime and being a virgin

>>36430775
No idea anon. Funny thing is that I for the most part feel alright in the mornings, but I'm just waking up at later times than I usually do, which sucks considering one of my favorite times of the day is 6-8 AM. I'm more concerned about those hallucinations or whatever though. Apparently there's been a study on people's brains with a rotating mask, and those who could see through the illusion had a high tendency of schizophrenia. Again I don't want to jump to conclusions here but consider me not a fan.

Link to the study: https://www.ucl.ac.uk/news/news-articles/news-releases-archive/hollowmask


Link to the rotating mask: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=sKa0eaKsdA0

I don't think I'm going to make it this time
my problems might make me fail my exams
if that happens i'll legitimately kill myself

Jack and coke please.

Wish I didn't live in the states so I could get legally pissed at 19. Better than being sober all the fucking time.

>>36430892
What do you want to originally talk about

>>36430892
You apparently didn't read thread, but what do you wanna talk about friend?

>>36430915
Idk what else to tell you, but good luck regardless. Hope it works out for you.

>>36431229
good horror movies of the 00s that no one appreciates. Stuff like Final destination

>>36431330
Seems interesting, I've never been a movie guy myself.

Well I'm out, got work in 6 hours and need my sleep. See everyone in the thread tomorrow!

>>36430978
You can always lean on Marijuana if you really want to get away from shit, it can get pretty addictive though so eh.

>>36430978
Ya that 21 thing seems so weird. Some places in Canada are even 18. Went to America a few times between 19-21 and was such a weird feeling knowing I couldnt just order a drink regularly

>>36431964
Weed is good but doesn't do my anxiety any favors. I still smoke it from time to time though.

>>36432160
There's plenty of marijuana to try friend, I don't know if you live by a dispensary but try something that lifts the mood.