Why haven't you all killed yourselves yet? Do you still

>>36401107
My mother told me she loves me and doesn't want me to die.

I know I will. Fuck, I don't even like /r9k/ or its commonly held beliefs, but you guys know what it's like to be lonely.

dude i dont like the thought of being able to think after shooting yourself with a shotgun even if it is hust a few seconds and plus i cant really picture me dying that easily, like id probably live even with a gunsgot wound to the head because it wasnt aimed perfectly or someshit.

Waiting for my mother to die im only staying alive to avoid her pain , until then i'll suffer a bit more

>>36401107
I have the faint hope that technology will be able to solve all my problems in the future. Like, if I live long enough, they'll invent brain pills to fix my brain and turn me into a normie, and there will be super realistic matrix-like simulations where I get to experience all the moments I missed in my life. And have VR sex with lolis.

>>36401391
You're only prolonging her pain by existing

>>36401107
I've deluded myself pretty hard. I like to believe that I've given up all hope, but I admit that there is a small, very delusional part of me that thinks i still have some kind of chance. Not for a normalfag life, but a life where i can at least function day to day without wanting to bash my face in. I know that i will never have a girlfriend or wife, own a home, have kids, or achieve any of the other major normie milestones in this lifetime. However, I fantasize about having my own apartment with a decent vidya setup and maybe a home gym (or at least be within close proximity to a commercial gym), a decent car, a steady income (there is nothing majorly wrong with me that i could get bux), and a pet or two (ideally a dog, but i only like large breeds and most apartment complexes don't allow large dogs. I would be completely content with a cat, or even a couple of rats.) i would also hopefully be able to find a hobby that i would be passionate about. Anyway, I know that these things will never happen if i remain in my current state, and I don't have the energy, motivation, or resources to change anything. I am probably going to continue deluding myself until i wake up one day at 40 years old with nothing to show for it. At that point, i will hopefully kill myself. Ideally it would happen much before that time, but i do admit I am afraid to die. I have promised myself that, if by the age of 24 absolutely nothing within my circumstances has improved, i will get an exit bag

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>>36401107
I don't know, I just don't care anymore.

I only enjoying playing games with my online friends occasionally, music is also alright. Some films are good, so is food.

I realise it won't get better, only worse, much worse, but I may as well stick around. Killing yourself means taking action, even if it is negative, I can't be bothered.

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The ride never ends.

Because I'm a normie with a college degree, a full-time job, and I get laid on a fairly regular basis.

Also I still have shit I want to do.

>>36403520
better get to it kid instead of posting shit like that or ull end up like one of us ;)