25+

>>36105623
>make peace with my father in my dreams
>no longer feel the need to do it irl
>months go by feeling relatively content
>all comes crashing down when he shows up on my doorstep

>>36105623
>29 year old kissless virgin
>worthless BA degree
>have only had tutoring, retail, and hospitality jobs
>currently neet
>getting unemployment because worked full time at last job
>will get it for 4 more months
>waiting for test results to come back before I apply for English teaching jobs overseas

>>36105623
>26 almost 27
>never had a gf, never went on a date
>don't want kids, but the world is plagued by a single mom epidemic

what the fuck do i even do, i'm at the point in life where you either settle for a single mom and raise some other man's bastard or settle for no one at all

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>thinking of following my dreams in art and joining an art school here
>have a set path set out for myself culminating in an entertainment job in california which I would love
>think about the point where I'd need to move to a different part of the country for a job
>miss my pets way too much, can't go through with it

>>36105726
overseas as in asian countries with braindead waifus?

>>36105744
Can't you find a place that allows pets?

>>36105737
what do you even want from a female that friends/hookers/fapping cant provide?

gonna move across the country soon; i need a new environment

I can't figure out why I hate life so much. I make good money, gave an easy job, take medicine for it, try to be healthy, but still have a hard time mustering the energy to get out of bed in the morning. I'm completely invisible to women but surely you can have a happy life without them, right?


Is this all it is?

Have been scraping the remains of myself from a targeted shit storm for years now. Lost everything I worked for in my 20s because I put all the eggs in one fucking basket. Don't do that.
I've really only accomplished one thing since.. I'm now a professional at fucking up.

>>36105623
>want a hobby to pass the time slightly more meaningfully when not working
>want to try getting back into mtg
>extreme anxiety over going to a prerelease
relatively fine when it comes to workbased interactions but doing something outside of work is so spooky

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>26
>Live with father in house I grew up in
>Diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder
>Dropped out of college after I had a panic attack on campus that led to a half-assed suicide attempt
>Only jobs I ever had were as a paperboy in my youth, and as a stockboy in a grocery store (which I quit after a couple months)
>No friends due to SAD
>Never been in a romantic relationship; feel attracted to females, but have no drive to try and date or whatever
>Not passionate about anything; just kind of drifting along doing what I feel like doing at any given moment
>Riding the anti-depressant carousel to see if anything will help
>Contemplating another suicide attempt (if I can find a gun somehow)

I wish I could make myself care about anything, but my patience is running out.

>>36105801
>surely you can have a happy life without them, right?
no, unfortunately, the only thing fun in life is childhood and secondarily creating more of that for others

25
>working full-time as security guard
>starting school on Monday
>first time back to school since I graduated high school, but I did well on the entrance exams so at least I retained some knowledge
>car will give out on me and day now, no funds for a new vehicle
>balding, overweight, literally live in parent's basement (rent free)

Things could be better, but they could definitely be worse.

>>36105778
somebody to actually give a shit about me, to actually love me

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>>36105798
Nice. I did that at the start of 2017, moved from New Mexico to Pennsylvania. In the 3 months I've been here, I've already accomplished more than in the 7 years I spent in NM

>>36105811
Story pls, you're being much too vague

by the end of the year I will be 25
>no job (2k in savings)
>sociology degree
>sexless for long time
>manlet

>>36105835
If you want to things can get better. I was living with my mother in the house I grew up in at 26. Dropped out of school. Quit the only job I ever had as an overnight stocker.

I eventually went back to a similar job and reenrolled in school. Worked my ass off for a year finishing school with a full time job, and then I got into a grad school.

Now my life is pretty cozy compared to 26. Living on my own. I make enough money in a low pressure job that is interesting to me (very low pay compared to others my age but still). I even had a brief relationship for a few months.

I get a little sick everytime I visit my mother in that house I wasted my twenties in now.

>28
>brother and sister, no one talks to eachother after our mother's death
>apparently my sister took out a life insurance policy after hearing of her illness
>is sort of 'rich', no one really knows the extent
>bought a house/navigator directly after her death
>be a neet and mooch off both of them for about a year
>finally move out, get a job, a car, start life all that shit
>meet grill
>she ends up fucking my brother
>have evidence thanks to this neat phone app that shows you the address/wifi the person called you from
>one of the addresses is my brothers house

wew lads, how do I kill myself asap

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>tfw revisiting nostalgia (WoW, Runescape, first Borderlands, Red Dead Redemption, beach place near your house you hung out with neighbourhood kids before bus came and local oval you played soccer at as a kid during crisp winter mornings) is the only thing that brings you any enjoyment or happiness in life

>>36105853
From my experiences with guard work there is no chance in hell you can be doing school at the same time you're full-time. You're stuck doing a fuckton of overtime.

>>36105978
kill yourself after you milk this soap opera, confront them

>>36105763
No waifus for me boss. Just wanna save some money

>>36105924
It doesn't sound nearly as good with details.
>Fiance bailed after 6 years
>Took all the money
>Left all the responsibilities
>Two months later the girl he was fucking now works with me
>Six months later my best friend died

Yup had a relationship once. Put everything I had into it. Had nothing left when it ended except my job which turned into a living hell. No money, no direction. Just a lot of unpaid bills and debts.

Feel really stupid now. And have only gone downhill since. Barely keeping it together enough to have a roof and food. I'm sure soon enough Ill be doing my drinking and drugs on the street.

I just can't seem to figure out how to get back on the right track.

>>36105943
I fucking hear you, although I'm your senior by a year.
>no job (bad experiences has made me afraid to work, also less than 2k in checking)
>advertising degree
>going for wizarddom
>at least I'm a decent height

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>>36106028
I work night shift at a hospital and get on average 4 hours of downtime. Plus, my classes are scheduled on my days off. I'm not stressing about it desu, but if it becomes too overwhelming, I'll just quit my job

>>36106054
Lol you're right, fuck off normie.

I'm lonely as fuck and I'm wondering if any 25+ recently-out-of-college fags wants to try getting a job together or starting a fucking business.

>>36106054
Shouldn't have dated a Chad, lel.

Jk, it sounds awful, sorry for your loss, hope something good comes your way soon.

>>36106072
Do you even sleep?
Oregano

Hey oldfags, does the pain ever become numb?

How do you deal with the rejections and failures?

>>36106033
It's been 2 years, I moved far away from them. I sort of google my brother in law that's an alcoholic/drug addict/not employed and see that he gets arrested every year or so on domestic battery, karma is sweet.

I also have proof my brother is a closet homosexual, I came across an email he sent to some guy on craigslist about wearing a mask when they meet up 'due to his rank in the military'.

At least I'm living my life and don't have to deal with that garbage rofl, I sit back and laugh whenever I think about it.

I feel like I can't believe the amount of entitlement of so many people. It makes me so sad that people are so mean, and that they think everything is about them.

I also hate selfie culture.

get off my lawn, apparently.

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>26 next month
>still a NEET as of now

at least I'm off drugs / alcohol and am in better shape than I've been since I was 20

>>36106103
Yeah bb, I go to sleep around 8-9 AM and wake up at 5PM. My classes are at 6PM

>>36106108
>does the pain ever become numb?
mostly, yeah.
I don't care too much anymore. But I'm still trying, not out of desperation to get better, I've mostly accepted things, but more of an experiment to see how far I can go.
If I fail, it's no biggie, I never expected anything better.
I guess I'm keeping myself occupied and that keeps the pain at bay.

>>36106126
When I was working, I couldn't get home until 8 at night and had to get up at 3 in the morning. My foot pain wouldn't go away. It was a week of fucking hell. I'm scared of doing any more security work.

>Have my shit together more than any other point in my life, got a job with full bennys and good wage, have gf, etc.
>For some reason am still not happy and am so used to the feeling of being a broken loser that I subconsciously trying to subvert it all

For example

>Drinking to the point of getting shakes when I dont
>Am a hair's breadth from being addicted to coke
>Cheat on gf every chance I get. She's doing it too though so I dont feel too bad.
>About to get kicked out of where I'm currently living. Have no real plan for what to do.
>Dont really care about most of the "friends" I've made
>Seriously contemplating walking out on everything and wandering the country, or killing myself. Haven't decided yet.

I promise you guys, even if you "make it", you're still a deeply damaged worthless robot. Save yourself the trouble.

>>36106146
What was your job site? Thankfully we have someone on call 24/7, so I never have to stress about working late

>>36106169
this is me, but without the coke and gf. coke is hella expensive, I couldn't keep it up even if I had a good job. 100$ a gram? ridiculous.

you should be up front with your woman and see if you can repair the damage, if not cut y our loses and start over somewhere else.

>>36106169
Yup. Wish someone told me to never leave the basement.

Alcohol and cocaine might make the basement leaving worth though... At least I'm high all the time.

>>36106178
A hospital under construction. Most of the time I wouldn't be relieved until almost 30 minutes after my shift was over. I had to do 60+ hours and they expected me to work on my day off.

>31
>Just went on 2nd date, it was great
>Never been this far
>Just waiting to fuck it up somehow
I literally have no idea what I'm doing. Hold me bros

>>36106192

$80 a g. Used to be $100 but quality has taken a nosedive where I am recently. No less ridiculous though. Wish I didn't like it so much.

>>36105919
lol

Doing the opposite. I lived out west for a few years; loved it. I've outgrown the city life; time to go.

>>36106213
You won't fuck it up. But remember nothing will ever be perfect.

>>36106210
Thats brutal. I'm guessing it was because you were the new guy, and there were 1 or 2 guys who kept calling out?

I dealt with a similar situation when I first started. One dude quit and another went on a 2 week vacation, so myself and another guy worked 9 out of 10 shifts, with our boss coming in and taking a shift here and there so we wouldn't die of exhaustion.

>>36106213

You got the 2nd so you're doing something right. Keep it up.

>>36106265
Hate to be the bearer of bad news, but the girl most likely has kids/or is damaged goods rofl

Those types will jump on any dick they can at any cost

>>36106258
It was a new contract. All of us were new hires. One night a supervisor failed to show up so there was nobody to relieve the entire team until around midnight. Even then someone had to work more than 24 hours.

>>36106276

True, the pickings get more and more slim as time goes on. Are we supposed to be supporting each other in this thread though? I dont know, was just trying to encourage anon.

>>36106304
suppose you're right, my bad

>26
>so terribly lonely

fuck it all

>>36106281
What a clusterfuck. Glad you got out, no security job is worth that much strain on your body and mental health. Still, you should check out actual hospital security assignments, it pays well and something different happens every shift

>>36105737
look harder m8. my cousin is 26 and not a single muh muh. but she is normie as fuck.

there's still hope for you lad.

>>36106333
There's part-time guard work at a local casino I'm interested in, actually. I need to see the doctor to try and find a way to mitigate foot pain before I can though.

>Be 28
>Do literally all of the things I love doing anytime I want art, sports, music, travel, etc
>Just happen to be good with people and fixing things so I lucked (i.e. networked correctly) into a cushy job that requires very little work, basically free time all day on the internet and to read books, make art, write music, netflix, maybe fix something once in awhile
>Extremely enriching social life, well known and respected musician, lots of friends all over USA, mired' by both sexes (bi guy), any night of the week can hang with friends or do something cool
>Bought a house at 25, started a successful business related to my favorite hobby that's doing well and self sustaining
>Fiance after 5 years leaves suddenly with no indication there was a problem in the relationship, had plans to marry, move across country, had started saving and allocating assets to attain dream together, her only explanation is "I need to see what else is out there"
>Now newly single with an awesome social and personal life, but feel so unfulfilled and lost and my self esteem took a huge hit
>Feel like I'm "starting over" when I'm almost thirty even though I've got so much to show for the time and effort I've put into my life and others respect me highly for it
>Still depressed, I know there's more fish in the sea, still doing all the things I love but it's been almost a year since breakup and still am not over being left by my best friend and life partner

l want to breed.

>>36106169

This is me also, except from the coke, gf, friends and drinking.

> 29
> was a neet autist khv until i went to community college then uni in my 20s
> now have a job
> below average pay, but more than enough for my lifestyle
> all that energy put into changing my situation, just to end up at the bottom of a slightly better barrel
> at least my parents are proud
> still don't really have any sort of a relationship with them
> lonely

Sometimes I think if you a robot by time the start of your 20s, then the damage has already set and you will never truly 'make it'.

It's like normies can sense immediately you are not one of them, even if you try

>>36106276
Nope. She's way younger than me. Super sweet and pretty and smart. I like her a lot.

>>36106382
Become an antinatalist.

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>>36106371
>sucking your own dick this hard

Embarassing

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>>36105896
>tfw just want someone to love and care for but women cannot get off the cock carousel

ffs i want off this ride.

>>36106420

It's okay to appreciate where you've come from and what you did to get there. I just got pretty lucky. Others will have different circumstances and privileges to overcome or embrace.

>>36106396
Convincing myself you're the guy I have a crush on and all these nice things are about me.


If only.

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>30
>neet for a decade
>about to go to a job interview in a food joint
>so anxious i couldn't sleep and almost tear up
>no idea wtf i'm doing
>already waiting for the "so what you been doing?"

I have no clue how the fuck normal people do this shit

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>>36105978
You don't kill yourself. You kill them.

>>36106386
>>36106204
>>36106192

I'm not sure how it works, but coke turns you into a normie for about 20 mins. I think I like that aspect of it more than anything else. Still stupid, bad for you, and expensive though.

>>36106054
Be honest. Was he a Chad?

>>36106487
And then when it ends...
It feels even worse than it did before. A lot worse usually. More lonely. More pathetic. Hopeless.

But I keep going back.

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>>36106169
You definitely have trouble copping with your life due to your chaotic lifestyle.

>nearly addicted to coke
>alcoholic "shakes"
>a meaningless relationship

If you want to feel good about yourself again, you must solve these three crucial problems or you will be plagued by the crushing circumstances you have willing placed yourself in. Get help.

>>36106512
Ya. But at 20 I was clueless.

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>>36106406
I was for pretty much all my life.
But the last couple pf years, the desire to have a family keeps creeping up on me, and it's getting stronger.

Seeing my friends and other people my age having kids makes me want to be a father.
Every time I meet a girl, all I can think about is whether she'd be a good mother.

I want something to live for.
I'm tired of coming home to my empty house every day.
Every time I do something, I'm always thinking about how it'd be to have a family around.

I doubt I'll ever have the opportunity anyway, I just hope this feeling eventually goes away if that's the case.

>>36106449
when asked about gaps in work history an easy explanation is that you where caring for a ill family member. I used this because its true and it can show you have some work ethic and dependability

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its gone, its poison. go the fuck away

>>36106449

As someone who hires others to do the retail side of my business, I could give a shit less what your work history is (to a degree).

If you're a nice person, show some initiative and can tell me about your personal goals or interests to show that even though you were unemployed for an extended period that you were trying to better yourself (did you learn some coding? Did you work on art? Physical fitness? Fix up a 1966 Mustang?) I know as someone hiring for entry level positions that I'm helping someone's first step.

Show me that you think you're worth something.

I'm quite not sober right now and I hope I'm not stepping on anyone's toes right now but I just wanted to open up and say I'm very ready to just kill myself and take my stupid, worthless life out of the pool of lives that do nothing but drain this world of it's resources and it's good people, gullible enough to get involved with me, of their energy and patience.

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>>36105778
Someone to love you and hold you dumbass

>>36106572
How about replaying my extensive collection of nintendo 64 games? Does that count?

>>36106614
what is love

origami

>>36105778
Sometimes I wonder if love is a concept that only occurs in some people's brains.

It'd explain a lot.

>>36106639
have you ever been in love long term, anon? I used to think I knew love but it was only temporary, i no longer believe love can exist longterm

>>36106554
This is so sad anon. Dating in your late 20's is the toughest part.

Try online dating or get a dog.

>>36106639
I'd say you're on the right track.

>>36106512
how can you even spot a Chad irl though? just look for the loud confident guy?

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>>36106606
dun do it anon we care about you..

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>>36106637
BABY DONT HURT ME
DONT HURT ME
NO MO
NO MO

>Ask the only woman I actually feel could put up with me out.
>She says no
>We still both want to be friends

I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up.

>>36106663
Got a dog. Keeps me from killing myself.

But I don't think a dog is for everyone. Some days I find it really difficult. But usually easy and nice.

>>36106691
That's very nice of you but it's simply not true because you don't know me. There is too high of a social desirability bias when it comes to living. Perhaps some people simply would rather the infinite bliss of endless rest to a wretched existence that benefits no one. It's best if people like myself just die, as a net positive in society.

>>36106732
Not much point in pushing away someone trying to help.

I am 36. I no longer long for relationship. Since 2 years I have been going to Thailand. At work everyone thinks I am a freak. I consider women monstrous abominations.

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>>36106606
But can you contemplate what you would gain from just ending your life right now as we speak? Obviously when you compare it to the benefits of fixing up your life to gain freedom and control, it should outweigh any "impulse" you may feel about wanting to just end your life.

Trust me, I've had experience with suicidal tendencies and after overcoming those impulses, I feel stronger even though I know I still haven't achieved what I truly want in life.

On a side note though, MAGA. Just be patient and gain some motivation

>25 year old virgin
>Actively planning on the means to making it.

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>>36106564
>>36106572
thank you for the kind words here goes nothing i guess

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>>36106703
BAN NA NA NUH NANA NA NA NUH NA NA NA NA NA NUH NUH
OHH OHHHHHHH
YEAH HA OHHHH

>>36106750
Perhaps you're right. I'm sorry.

>>36106550
C A L I F O R N I A

Organic

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>>36106780
Take it away, penny!

Originally.

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26.

Got in a fight with girlfriend right before the weekend when she is supposed to come home from uni. Plenty of fights in the past but now I think I am realizing that I need someone new. I have no idea how to go about doing that
Got drunk last night and it didn't feel good. I guess late 20s is the breaking point where you either completely let the bottle consume you or you just get pseudo-redpilled.

Work ends in a few hours, going to get a bunch of energy drinks and play Mass Effect 1 all weekend long with a texture mod. Going to turn my phone off.

I wish something nice would happen just once in a while to at least nurture the illusion of life not being complete waste of everything.

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>>36106814
I-I just want to hug you and tell you it's going to be alright...

>>36106768
I admire your resolve. I simply want the struggling to end. That's what I would gain. Some days I would question my ability to truly fixing my life. It appears as if I'm permanently stuck with my ailments.

>>36106815
Uh I almost threw up at how weirdly that reminded me of him.
What do you mean by that?

>>36106848
That's very sweet of you. Most likely I am too far for you to hug. Please don't grab my butt. Sometimes I also think that some day it will be okay, but other times I think it's chronic and simply will never end, realistically speaking.

>>36106858
It's a common meme, newfag. It's a play off "LONDON" to check your location.

But seriously, I just got dumped for a shitty reason and wanted to meet new people.

>>36106837
I had a similar situation. I left my gf since she couldn't get her head out of her ass and wanted to consistently argue with me. I dumped her and I feel so relived and relaxed now. My life feels put together for the first time. Truly the best decision I can make. It was so bad that I will happily risk dying alone instead of being with her.

>>36106882
I already dumped her twice in the past but we made up because she was literally begging me and I could get over it. She is 19, she is hot, pretty, was a virgin before me, is absolutely loyal and loves everything kinky, anal, blowjobs, facials, bondage, you name it. She isn't consumed by social media like most of others. She will be relatively hard to substitute.

But man she fucking lives to argue. We made a plan for me to visit last weekend and next one too, if she visited me now. And now turns out that she has a break and will be here for the next few weeks and suddenly she feels like we absolutely MUST go to her uni's city to "take advantage of her empty flat because her roommate is gone". Whereas I live on my own and privacy was never a concern. And it got to the point where she straight up said she will not honor the deal we made, despite not spending more than one day together for a month now.

Last week we haven't talked at all due to a previous fight. Like seven days worth of not talking. Man I missed her but otherwise I was in such a damn good mood. I didn't drink at all, I worked out every day, I was productive.

I cannot belive how toxic most women are, and they don't even want to realize that.

>>36106880
I do miss a lot. I still don't even get it. London. What. Autist. Help.

Sorry about the dumping. I'd offer to listen if you desired that. Turns out it's one thing I can do right.

>>36106869
Sorry man. Thought a little grab might do you some good.

Take this from someone that has Major Depressive Disorder and has been suicidal since 2009. You will be okay again, and then things will get bad again. I've come to learn that life is a cycle of ups and downs and it will never be 100% good nor will I be 100% happy. I don't remember the last time I felt genuinely happy. It has been 8 years. But it has gotten better, to the point where I can tolerate it. I have gotten used to it by now and I do not take it as seriously as I did in my teens because I already know what to expect.

Things will get better, but they will not be perfect. Never expect that because perfection is a fucking meme. Whatever is bothering you, do not let it take you down, it honestly will not matter years from now. Just keep going and try and enjoy things you want to do before you die. I have a bucketlist and that keeps me going, because I'm already alive so why not just enjoy it y'know? Keep going man. You haven't experienced anything yet.

>>36106946
>You haven't experienced anything yet.
>You haven't experienced anything yet.

Tell myself that everyday. So next time I'm at least a little prepared when it gets worse instead of better.

>>36106926
sounds like a headache desu
i would dump tbqhwyf i love having no drama in my life

>>36106946
Thanks for helping me. Maybe someday I can tolerate it too. You are a kind stranger. I wish I could just get a hug. I just want a hug.

>>36106940
A long time ago, a female appeared in a random thread and being that we're on 4chan, a thirsty fellow responded to her with the phrase, "pls be in london" and it morphed into simply "LONDON"

How do I contact you?

>>36107007
[email protected] could do other chatty app shits from there.

>>36106926
Hello, Anon. I remember being in a very similar relationship as yours. When it gets bad, it's awful, and you recognize the relationship for the awful thing it is. But when it's good it feels like you simply can't substitute it. Especially a strong sex life can lead a man to foolishly pursue a relationship he knows is unhealthy deep down. Even just reading your post made me more stressed and anxious. Some days I want a relationship again, some days I wonder why someone who narrowly survived a plane crash would want to get on a plane again. I wish you the best of luck.

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>>36106986
I'd like to give you a hug for 5 minutes anon. Come here lad.

Anyone else feel good for once but cant enjoy it because it seems too good to be true?

I can live to day to day and feel somewhat good and satisfied but it's always plagued by that irrational voice that has become so ingrained in me after years of neetdom/depression to call me a phony for enjoying this pointless bs with no 'real' argument. Sure, I know deep down that everything is meaningless and my life will never mean anything but conciously i dont care but my subconscious wont let it go.

>>36107043
>why would someone want to get on a plane again

Because those random moments that are stress-free are only reflex reactions to the stress that came before it.

I am depressed, I cannot enjoy most things on base level and when I am lonely I resort to the selfdestructive mode.

Having a girlfriend to sleep next to feels better than any drug or anti-depressant on this earth. I also got rejected like 20 times or something while binge going out and drinking and hitting pubs last year before meeting her finally.

At the end of day I will say that I consider myself not lucky but at least fortunate. Fortunate because I know what works for fixing me. Getting is the hard part.

>>36107059
Right here. It is very annoying. Sometimes I wish to enjoy it because i know that moment is rare for me but my stupid brain wont shut up about it being fake, and how it wont last forever, this is why i can never be happy.

>>36106986
lets drink our miserable lives away togetha

I want to break up with my slob gf.

I bought a place and in two weeks she has pretty much moved in here without paying.

She doesn't cook or clean, just comes home from work and school and looks at stupid shit on her phone and complains about how hungry she is.

She expects me to take care of her every whim and doesn't lift a god damn finger. I'm getting really sick of this shit.

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>Meet girl
>She has depressions and other disorders
>Talk with her often we really get along good
>She says that i'm looking good and that i'm really funny
>Always offer her that she can talk to me and that i'm here for her if she wants something
>After some time she asks me if want to do something with her on weekend, repeats from time to time that i'm funny, her best friend and a very important person in her life.
>The "date" went great and we talked for hours and hours
>Time passes
>"A-a-anon do you want a relationship?"
>"I really like you Emily and i think you are pretty"
>"Anon.. can we stay friends for now? maybe it can DEVELOP into something than, i'm sure it will at some point.
>"Please please please don't hate me Anon please."
>"I'm so sorry if i hurted your feelings Anon"
>"Emily you know that i could never hate you."
>"<3 Anon i don't know how i can describe my feelings for you.."
>"I'm so glad that you don't hate me but i should really get myself into good shape for now and i'm still hurt from my ex friend,(This was like 1 month after she broke up)
>What did your EX do to you?
>"Anon ... i'm feeling really really ashamed for that and i think everything is my fault"
>"I was together with him for a time and you know that i have depressions, hate myself and think that i'm ugly"
>"He was really nice to me and i trusted him, i really said him everything and he was important for me"
>"After sometime together he started to push me more and more to having sex with him but i was not ready because at that time i had anorexia and i didn't want to show my body to him."
>"After some rejects he started to grope me more and more when we cuddle and the last time we were together he pulled my pants down and tried to fuck me with out me allowing it ,he didn't stopped when i asked him, he just tried to keep sticking it in,he stopped after i screamed and cried"
>That's the reason why i can't love anymore and don't trust anymore"
I
Is there still a chance?

>>36107140
>"After some rejects he started to grope me more and more when we cuddle and the last time we were together he pulled my pants down and tried to fuck me with out me allowing it ,he didn't stopped when i asked him, he just tried to keep sticking it in,he stopped after i screamed and cried"

>he
>twice

KEKE

>>36107140
>is there still a chance
Sorry my dude, if it's not a yes it's a no. Cut all ties and move on.

>>36107086
it's not even rare for me anymore, for the past 6 months my life has been increasing in quality and i would say i even enjoy life on average on the surface now but im just so inherently attracted to thinking of myself as a 'broken, tormented soul', like im some sort of character from a novel destined to be above life, it prevents me from being content with living like this. I guess it's evolutionary to make me strive for more but I just hoped that one day I could find peace, I guess life is just suffering.

>>36107124
This is every female alive now. They are glued to their phones and expect men to rub their feet while they contribute to nothing except for likes on social media.

It's sad desu. I miss the traditional times where women prepared to be housewives since a very young age. Now they offer nothing but pussy.

>>36107171
>life is just suffering.
nailed it. thats all there is no matter how hard you try

>>36107140
after some time as she heals from her trauma. a chance right now? no. be patient with her something could happen

who /still lives with parents and has no savings/ here?

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>>36107168
She still wants to meet herself with me
Maybe she really just wants to slow down things?
Maybe she just doesn't want to get hurt again and needs to be 100% sure if i'm not an asshole and stick to her over time"

>>36107251
me pretty much, i barely work and have like 1k saved for food and video games.

>>36107176
I cooked dinner every night. Cleaned every weekend. Worked as many hours as him making an equal salary. But it wasn't good enough. It's never good enough.

>>36107229
She still wants to meet herself with me.
And she is exactly the same as always if we are together nothing has changed she still sometimes flirt with me and we still mess around and do stupid jokes.
Sometimes she just randomly pulls out a pen and draws a hearts on my arm and other shit.
And sometimes she just draws pictures of me and says that i'm cute.
I'm really unsure about this if it wil develop or not.
And no i'm not wasting my time i really like her as a person too even if nothing develops i will remain a friend for her because i can really see that she cares for others.

>>36106837
I've thought about getting a trolley for my doggo

>>36107255
Lol no. You're not going to listen and forge ahead anyway. Remember this conversation when she cuts all contact.

>>36107282
I'm sorry. Then he is just ungrateful. There is nothing wrong with you, you were just unfortunate and got with the wrong guy. I'm not sure why that was not enough for him. Was there a good sex life? Could be that or he is just retarded

>tfw got over my anxiety somewhat but cant bring myself to care about what others have to say in the first place

whys it so hard bros

Can't stand the echo chamber hugbox of Reddit
Not extreme enough for most of 4chan
I really don't belong anywhere it seems.

I think it's time to just turn off the news for good and go full autism.

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Getting closer to pic related lads

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This too tbqh desu senpai. It's too much.

>>36107420
didnt happen

>>36107430
>baww im a failed normie i wasted my time

kys

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>>36105744
>Even considering going to an art school
I N F O R M A T I O N E R A

> i vot ushli romantiki iz podvoroten vorami

I'm tired of girls not looking at me or the so long wait for love.
And I'm also tired of being a 25+ khv.

I just want it to change.
But no matter how confident, strong or sociable I look, girls just keep rejecting me.

Today I am that khv on his way to wizardry, I tried it all.
Street pick up, bar pick up, knowing some girls in college and talking to those who I thought were interested.

I don't have any mental strength left, pursuing this goal left me depressive and with the lowest self-esteem you can imagine, I have lost motivation to everything.

I have gone from humiliation to another, girls ignoring me or laughing at me, running away or telling me a straight no.

I give up, girls simply won't like me ever.
I always end up at the same result, I thought about all the possibilities, my personality may be with flaws, I may be boring as a guy, but to be rejected like this it has nothing to do with how I behave, in the end I still managed to socialize and make lots of friends(especially girls).

It's my physical appearance.
It's that simple, I'm just not good looking enough for girls to like me.
I can have all the confidence in the world, it won't change much.

>>36107449
>classic smug teenage/early 20s that doesn't know what's coming to him
Good luck, anon, you'll need it.

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>>36105623
This feel when years pass by and you only gain experience in isolation, loneliness, hikikomority, NEET life, etc. and that in turn twists, warps, and distorts your worldview, making you more and more disconnected from reality and life and giving you this mindblowing dose of comfiness and smugness.

>>36107532
Same here, senpai. Meeting up with girls is way too much effort. I think I'll just bury myself in my hobbies for life and forget about raising a family or anything.

>>36106077
what an edgy cunt

One more year and i'll be 25.

I look fine. My personality is fine. The only problem is i never tried or have done anything. I'm too much of a coward.
Hell, there were girls in my college who constantly wanted to talk to me, and gave me hints, but i'm just too much of a coward to ask any of them out.
Why the fuck does the guy have to initiate everything.

>Just turned 25
>Never got to date
>Never got to go out with friends
>Never got to experience parties or anything of that matter
>Live at home
>No job
>No education
>No money
>Virgin and only options are people with kids and ugly fat girls who still have slept around themselves

I started lying on my resume saying I went to college when I didn't and making up a bunch of experience I don't have but fuck it. I have to get out of here. Have to at least live for myself if nothing else and leave this place behind. Nothing good has EVER happened here and i'm tired of dealing with all the niggers. I don't have shit to lose at this point other than my life

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>>36108217
I agree with leaving this site if you want to better yourself, I know that it holds me back personally.

Not in terms of world outlook but more so just procrastination and a time sink.

I think a lot of the original people here have left over the years too, I've been here since 2011 (Remember when that would be met with "newfag") and the board dynamics have changed so much, even just since 2015.

The trap/gay threads, race baiting threads, /pol/ threads and stupid Tinder/Uni normie threads topped off with worthless NEET race to the bottom admiration culture sucks. The competition as to who has the worst life isn't productive, it used to be ironic but now people take it seriously.

All good things must come to an end anon, I think for me too it's nearly time to leave.

>26
>full time retail minimum wage shitter
>save all money because live with mom
>khhv
>no friends or social life

I could do anything or go anywhere and do something but I instead I just stay inside on my computer

>30
>NEET
>fired and rage quit every shit job I had
>last had sex 4 years ago with my cousin
>just started taking steroids
>yolo

>>36106080
I'm recently out of college. Where do you live?

currently shopping on amazon and creating a list of stuff i'll buy in two weeks

>>36109525
What you gonna buy? This wont be original.

>>36109543
>leather desk protector
>24.000mhA Power Bank (only color they have is rose....)
>Microsoft Arc touch Mouse (grey)
>Pen Nibs
>Bose Quietcomfort 35 wireless
>Office 365
>Screen Protector
>Notebook Sleeve
>micro SDXC 200GB
>Micro SD adapter

all in all arount ~760 bucks

>>36109588
what do you need that power bank for are you really outside for 10+ hours a day using gps and other battery sucking apps

What's a good way to end your life?

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>>36109712
>What's a good way to end your life?
A lethal dose of morphine

>>36109688
it's not for a phone
i will use it for my notebook but i've had it with >NO POWER
that powerbank has enough output for a notebook

I'm 20 year old and have no skills that could be used in the workplace besides decent knowledge of japanese I use to read VNs to dull the pain.

I thought about being a professional translator instead of a free one, but I would need to go back into school for several years and I really can't be arsed.

>>36105623

I just discovered I'm deformed

Oh boy, that's great.
I knew I was a freak, now I have the confirmation.

>>36109831
Just try to find a fandom to translate to and beg for donations.

28, here, just got an job offer from out of country took it and leaving soon. Scared as fuck but i need a change in my life.

>>36109858
>I'm deformed
What's up with ya?

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>>36105623
>25 years old
>Closer to 30 than you are to 18
>There are world-famous people who have accomplished more than you ever will, and they're younger than you

>>36105623
>get a STEM bachelors
>decide i want to be a doctor
>get into med school (hard as fuck)
>drop out after 1 semester because i hate it
>decide to study accounting
>half way through my masters in accounting
>do an accounting internship
>get a full time job offer for good money, contingent on finishing masters degree
>hate my life, bored
>think about applying to police dept or fire dept

why cant i ever stick with anything?

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>>36109885
Protrusion in my shoulder blade.
I'm a few years away from being a hunchback.

I'm already checking local churches, to see which one has the comfiest bell tower.

>26
>Doctor
>KHV

Submitted my Engineering masters dissertation and now spending the whole day listening to Drum & Bass instead of writing some shit papers and audits that I promised some seniors I would do eventually.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4SIdbXP3JNA

Also really far behind with Tiger Mask W and can't decide if I can be arsed to watch 2nd season of Attack On Titan especially after the manga became so shit.

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Hiding my alcoholism is getting a bit tedious.
She thinks I've been sober for 1+ year now, but I never stopped. I just became more careful. She is waiting warmly for me to propose to her, but, in my head, I know it's gonna fail because of my habit. So I won't do it.

She deserves so much better, desu.

>>36110346
you can't hide alcoholism

>>36110346
Ever since my last gf left me I've sank deeper into alcoholism. I just hope I will find another soon to give me a beacon of hope and stop my excessive drinking.

>>36110376
I must be James fucking Bond, then.
>>36110400
I know your feels man. But once you start drinking to excess, no matter who waltzes into your life. Alcohol is the only one always there for you.
Good luck, anon.

>>36110498
a person who does not drink can smell alcohol a mile away, also there is post alcohol sweat.
Binge drinking is not alcoholism.

>>36110346
become the person she deserves

>>36110498
Thanks, bro. I will need a miracle.

t. On my second beer of the day now

>>36110521
Not everyone sweats booze. And vodka is hard to identify.

Also, my gf had severe allergies, as a child. She has pretty much, no sense of smell..

>>36110542
Now I'm teared up. I am trying, but I don't want to go to any AA stuff, but I think I'm at the point I desperately need it.
It's 9 AM and I have already had 9 shots of vodka.
My biggest fear is overdosing on this shit and fucking dying, then everyone will find my dark secret.

>26
>NEET
>Live with mother
>Share a bed with brother

I have food, a bed and internet, I can't complain especially since I'm a lazy fat cunt,

>>36110637
I bet you're chill as fuck.

>26
>no job
>no marketable skills
>nigger
>manlet
>But for some reason a rich girl wants me

I have to fix everything so quickly so she doesn't leave.

>>36110637

>Share a bed with brother

How do you do it

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>2nd year of university
>Due to course changes, unit failures and being retarded I won't graduate until I'm 30
>It will be impossible to get a job at that age

>>36110665

You would lose that bet.

>>36110695

Apathy.

>>36110637
How old is your brother if you share bed with brother?

>>36110785

23, he's also a NEET loser.

>>36110829
whoa do you guys fool around?

>>36110840
Rude.
Just absolutely rude. I want you to leave.

>>36110906
Honest question, nothing rude about it.

>>36110840

While he is gay, I am not and even if I were I wouldn't fool around with a family member unless they were second cousins and I didn't grow up with them.

http://www.strawpoll.me/12702282

Answer honestly please.

>>36111498
>be honest
This one cashier smiles at me usually, i guess that's something

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>>36110768
I'd befriend you.