At what age did you realize you were different from everyone around you?
5 when my parents decided to homeschool me
6
At what age did you realise you really aren't? 23 for me
When I was 3-4 years old.
>>36023162
The year I turned 18. Realized I have no friends, no aspirations, no goals for the future, shit grades in school due to short attention span, extreme social anxiety. Mediocre height and face. Got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder on top of being a literal autist who isn't even particularly intelligent (I'd say I'm kind of dense, even retarded) and now I'm a deadweight NEET with no job prospects and no future.
>>36023313
Dam nikka 18?
>>36023390
I worded it badly. I knew by that point that I was different, but only at that point did I come to view it in a negative light.
I realized it at around 9 or so. I was always a weird kid but I didn't become fully aware of myself until then. I started getting fat at that age so it made me feel even more isolated. I've gone on to have all 3 of the major eating disorders (I was anorexic, then bulimic, now I'm a binge/compulsive eater). Not that it matters in this thread, but being fat was the first thing (of many) that I realized was wrong with me. After that it snowballed, and now I can say that I am one of the ugliest people that I know of. I blame my parents, they should have paid closer attention to how they fed me/how my eating habits developed. Better yet, they shouldn't have created me in the first place
26 when i lost my fiance, went through 3 year depression and my parents took care of me like a 9 year old boy, spent most of the time lifting weights and playing vydyas to mitigate the pain through tiredness, falling asleep and pretending i was the character i was playing, rough times, but still in my now 30 birthay, i know ill never grow up, adult life is done for me, so ill keep being a 16 year old thtough the rest of my days. Finding and leaving jobs after i get bored of them and living with only the necesary shit and problems a 16 year old has. Pic related, my face everyday though oblivion. I never want to suffer the loss of a dear one ever again. Ive accepted my parents dead and so i tell them how much i care and love them, but the look in their eyes seeing im not fullfillef sometimes gets me. Anyway, thanks for reading.
I knew I was different from very early on, because I was in gifted classes, but it wasn't until about 12 that I realized I was different in *that* way
>>36023162
Not sure the exact age, but it was in kindergarten. I absolutely hated going there. I once locked my dad out of the car in the parking lot because I didn't want to go. I'd cry almost every day because I wanted to go home, while the other kids were having fun and socializing. I had to go to the school counselor until like 4th grade because I fucking hated school so much. I've had social anxiety and low self esteem literally my entire life. (Probably because my dad was a real asshole growing up) It's kind of ironic though, because I'm actually like an 8/10 and was 1 of 4 nominees for homecoming king, senior year in high school. I don't know how that happened. I didn't play any sports, and wasn't in any clubs or anything like that. I just lifted after school and played video games with friends. I didn't talk to girls or anything. I guess it just shows how beneficial physical attractiveness is.
>>36023676
I know what you mean. I realized I was even more different when I found out that no matter what I did, there was always an upper echelon of smart kids that I couldn't beat in school no matter what. However, I became crafty because of it
>>36023162
Year 2 got forced to kiss a boy (male) and frequently pissed myself until i was 12
>>36023162
When I only wanted to talk with adults at the day carecenter about muh family gateway computerinstead of playing with other kids
>>36023162
At 10-11yo when the other boys started hanging out with the girls like it was all natural and even to this day I don't understand it.
Age 13. Realised I had no real friends and only followed groups around from the side.
>>36023676
Fucking retard.
This is original
I was 3 or 4 years old
>>36023183
Iktf
>tfw watching high school anime makes me want to kill myself cause I'll never experience anything like it
Even fucking harry potter makes me sad and I know real schools don't have magic and shit but still
Homeschooling shouldn't be allowed, it sucks to miss out on something everyone else experiences. I'll eternally feel like an outsider in my own country because of this
>>36023162
7 or 8 I think, when me and my best friend at the time were running around pretending to be pokemon lords and the normal kids called us faggots
it got worse at 12 when I was really really convinced of my delusions of grandeur.
6-10. Not sure exactly when. I just was a lot more socially aware and didn't do dumb shit like my friends did. I didn't go full robot until the end of 8th grade, though. By that time I realized, most girls are a lot of work and I don't even really like them. They aren't very appreciative if you do nice things. Now I just wait for a sky daddy to bless me with someone who is self aware and can talk to me like a person. But I've come to terms with the fact that I'll probably be a neet for 10 more years before I inevitably get bored and kill myself.