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my brain fog is so intense right now I can barely type this.
I'm not even a conscious being at this point, I don't think I qualify as human besides some ego resistance that gets crushed into mind haze.
The voices are back at medium level, I can get through the day but what's a life of just getting through.
>"You need to learn to drive anon"
>"Get off the computer anon"
>"Why are you always in your room"
>"You need to find a job or we're going to kick you out"
I go to college isn't that enough for them. If I can't be in my room the majority of the day I should just die. I have a belt and a stable door knob. What are some key things to do before suicide?
>Belt and sturdy door knob
How do you even hang yourself with a belt? Serious question. Also, that's probably not a good idea, as you'll thrash around while unconscious and you'll likely slip the belt off the knob.
how would one embrace nihilism? post ideas.
>in the end, nothing matters, so i can better myself any way i want.
nihilism is the ash that the existential pheonix rises from. You must burn down all societal norms, vestigal morality and untested beliefs through constant questioning. eventually nothing is left. that is where you begin. you can start to actually become your own person with your own thoughts and convictions when you realize that nothing matters. you can arrive at that correct conclusion and be a piece of shit, and realize you're a piece of shit - or you can begin to actually stand for something
It occoured to me today that due to the fact that everyone has a different life, everyone has a different worldview. Therefore, no two people can possibly agree on anything completely.
So why fight with people when you can acknowledge that they have different experiences, and then move on.
This has brought me great peace.
>tfw you see multiple r9k discords being shilled here
>you join and they're full of normies and attention whore fembots
>tfw you have to make your own to talk to fellow robottos
Get in faggots - /yfjhxE
I'm a trailer trash NEET for years. I huff all day long. Air duster, rubber cement, model airplane glue, gasoline, febreeze. If I can huff it I'm down. Best part is you don't even need to know dealers to get this shit. So antisocial NEETs that wanna get high try huffing.
>you'll never have a fan base and be really nice to them
but you dont even know who i am how could you be my fan
Going to bed right now. Good night Ray. Was nice talking to you earlier. You haven't responded to my discord messages in a few hours so I thought I'd just leave a little something here.
tell me what you were doing 16 years ago today anon
I was in high school, I'd been up until 3am playing video games the night before. I had my head down half asleep when they wheeled a TV into the room and turned on the news. Everybody watched for a while not really knowing what to do before I put my head down and fell asleep again. Well except the fat girl who was into weird woo-woo stuff, she was sure the Sears Tower was gonna get hit next, because she had a family member who worked in it. They wound up dismissing us early.
playing counterstrike that night was kinda odd.
I was 4, probably shitting my pants or eating some random stuff I found on the ground
robots, I'm 19 with a well paying job.
there is a 29 year old who I am going on a date with but she has 3 kids.
should i go through with it?
yes, just let her know you're not looking for anything serious. this is your time to explore your options. you'll ultimately want someone in the same stage of life as you, but that doesnt mean you cant get your dick wet right now