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The best of times are when I'm staring at the ceiling and my mind is completely blank. When it isn't like that, there's just pain.

I don't think there's a way out, except for gradually hollowing out inside.

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>>37629867

I know exactly what you're talking about OP. For me, I got to that stage of emotional desolateness through years of heavy depression and social isolation. The disconnection from people and my reality soon followed. Once you reach this stage of perception, it's a hard ascension back to feeling "normal" again in the sense of not feeling entirely apathetic to your existence or anyone else and anything.

My means of escape was a strong desire of overcoming, and a desperate attempt to find something that would help give me insight into how I could change things for myself emotionally and psychologically.

Religion never gave me any fulfillment in existential terms, nor did I ever see the benefit in a cathartic way to channel my suffering. It felt like a cop for the self-overcoming I truly wanted. I began to get more into philosophy and certain thinkers/writers. I got myself into therapy (I've always been lucky with getting great therapists/counselors) as an extra measure of checking in with myself so to speak. I began writing again to better collect my thoughts and express my true feelings.

I was able to get a part-time job, and I began to use the environment of it to get better at communicating with other people and throwing away my inhibition regarding social anxiety. It's been 2 years since I've really tried and exhausted myself many times in order to better my state in existence. It's a hard, arduous road to get out of that state, but you can do it OP if I was able to.

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>tfw too intelligent to not lock myself in my room all day, eat ramen, and post on 4chan

>>37629789
would penetrate that ass hole tobehonesto

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as a robot, the only time in my life I was ever really happy was being a NEET for about a year while living from savings money. I could just distract myself from reality and not worry about what normies think of me.

Normies will probably tell you to try to compensate.

What do you mean it's over? You've barely even started.

>>37629771
My life literally ended at 22, I'm ready to pull the trigger now, 3 year later.

I'm 20 too and just got my first gf.
Kissing is nothing like that.
When her and I kiss I just suck on her bottom lip with my lips, and she sucks on my top lip with hers. It feels silky, but lukewarm, and there really isn't much of a taste to speak of, its just a very faint skin like taste. You'll be too busy focusing on the kiss to focus on how it feels to touch her elsewhere, and my gf doesn't wear much perfume at all so I hardly notice it.

It isn't nearly as mind blowing as your pic describes it. Its really rather mundane. It feels nice, but it isn't pure ecstasy.

>>37629726
>Georgian, a language I was able to learn
Why? For what purpose did you spend time learning this?

7ggfq4T

just like me, i cant tell if this server is gay or not
if you want to hit on femboys and squeeze out fat shitposts this is the right place

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>>37629914
yeah well, it seems gay people post a lot are very communicative, compared to other people...

discord gg/mEfFNBu
join this comfy server

>>37629654
Outside, where nobody will bother me.

>>37629654
Where the weird girl is to get my dick sucked.

>>37629834
What he said because I can't deal with talking.

>>37629630
Cute maus desu

>>37629630
This comfy lgbt discord server is better.

EGXtMxy

My week is this full actually. Except the weekend.
On the weekend no friend calls me and I stay at home alone, often I work at night listening to eurobeat.

I always wished I wasn't so dumb/bad in school. There's a certain level of education that will forever be unavailable to me because of it, and I want that more than anything.

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>>37629582
>My week is this full actually
Why are you here then?

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RTa6KEE9cZU

origioli (drip)

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>>37629579
if people are interested I'll stream always sunny on rabbit or something else

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>>37629579
>>37630434
>>37631386


THIS IS BETTER

yBpFVt5

>be in Ecuador
>taking the bus from Guayaquil to the coast
>driving through a small village alongside the beach

>everyone is outside in the town's only square
>kids and young teenagers are all playing soccer and laughing and smiling and high-fiving each other
>lots of adults lounging around the edges, drinking and joking and smoking cigarettes
>some adolescents and older teens dancing and socializing

Probably would fucking suck to actually live there, but it looked nice from the outside.

I live in a suburban part of the Rust Belt and people are just cunts here. Nobody interacts with anybody they haven't known for at least several years, unless they're trying to get laid or are obligated to make small talk due to the circumstances.

>>37629627
My father went to Nicaragua, and he said it was a totally different way to live.

You could walk right up to homes and start speaking to random strangers.

>>37629648

Yeah, I went to Nicaragua in 2015, too. I agree with that.

For all of its many problems with poverty and violence, Latin America has always just felt more colorful and vibrant than where I live in the United States.

I've traveled a fair amount and never thought I'd like the region, but I can't fucking get enough of it now. Going to Mexico for a month in two weeks TBQH, looking forward to it.