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>>37863711
Not, I've had it for four years now. I fool myself that it will go away but it never does

>>37863711
Embrace it, Anon. Nothing can become something.

chain smoke cigarettes desu

I feel a strange pressure in my chest. I don't know what to do.

>27
>wasted life
>get a chance to "fix" it, but i don't feel it's worth it because i've become a horrible, cynical person
>cannot cope with life
>too invested (have long distance GF, potential job lined up) to just lie down again for half a year like the last time i did

There was a power-outtage today. Instead of reading a textbook I'm supposed to, I just sat there, doing nothing. Literally just sat there, looking in front of me.
I did the one thing I promised myself not to: I got too invested and "tried" and now I'm going to be destroyed and crushed when I fail. I am also very sleepy.

I feel so tired nowadays.

Back then, 10 hours+ sitting infront of the monitor wouldn't stress me out, but not now.

I sleep way too long, and I am tired all the time.
It's not possible to pull an all-nighter anymore.

I just want to sleep, forever.

>>37863637
Ive come up with a new mental concept that is making me feel a lot better about myself and where I am in life, in my career etc.

I am 25. But I have the life of someone who is a lot younger and doesnt have their shit together.

So Im going to be younger. My body might be 25, but I will think to myself that I am 22, I am still young, and its ok for me to still be studying, its ok to have a shitty dead end job because I am still developing.

And it seems to be working. I was a lot happier today after telling myself this is how I am going to go about life from now on.

>>37863609


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8SWMAQYQf0

If you were ever curious OP, that gif was from the music video Dj Format & Jurassic 5 - We Know Something. Came out around 2002/2003.

Also the crazy frog sound in spam emails back around the millenium with a picture of a guy in a go kart.

Numa Numa

>>37863607
No to bump my own post but OP here and I've stopped talking to my parents and hardly do now. And I haven't visited them in almost 3 years.

Just needed to vent.

I am waiting for a full time position at X job which will happen eventually but because I didn't get it right away its a shit job and for losers.

Then some faggot told my dad its a bad job my son never will do that. So now it must be because some random stranger told him.

>>37863679
boohoo. live your own life you faggot and stop caring about what your parents think

>>37863602
They like being raped, choked and BLACKED

>>37863602
Oh anon, you don't need to worry about that.
You wont be having sex anyways.

they seems to like nipple pinching and being slapped

I only had sex one time in my life without paying for it and the girl that >did it for free with me seemed to like that stuff

i don't dream because i'm too much of a robot but imagining the skunk thing made me chuckle OP

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I feel like I don't sleep enough to dream.
>2,5 hours a day

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>>37863429
Eat more! More more!

>>37863344
It's a coping mechanism for fear of all of that and to laugh about that it won't happen to you due to your lack of a gf and to be thankful for being incel, as well as giving a sense that you are superior to non-incels who got majorly jewed like that by nature's sociopaths: women.

It's also paranoia inducing payback towards people on this site who have gfs.

>>37863290
I'm lazy, I got to the gym only when I'm feeling positive about life, and my job.

If not I stay I bed longer. It's stupid I know but I can't control my brain. I'm trying to but I can't.

I know that gym would make me feel better but I'd prefere to go there felling good rather than as a cure

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>>37863342
when I feel bad and go gym, most of the time feel just as bad when I went in, when shits bad I won't get out of bed for anything for months after mania normally

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i am breaking the rules in here as well
my breath is bad when i dont brush my teeth or eat anything

>>37863221
There's some kind of phlemb in my throat that just doesn't go away. I'm not sick anymore but it's still there and fucks up my breath. Fuck. I have a good face andi dress good, i shouldn't have bad breath.

>not having breakfast
>rush off to school

What country are you in OP? Makes a big difference to recovery paths. Also; how old are you?

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>>37863249
Balkan shithole country where they would jail me for getting caught with a joint. pretty paranoid about somebody recognizing me so I can't tell you much.
I am in my early twenties, doing good in uni, have a nice career ahead of me. I would surely be banned from working if somebody found out the shit I'm in. that's the main reason I don't go to the psychiatrist. had a friend who got diagnosed with acute psychosis and he was kept in for a week. that stays in your files for life.
I need to do something but I dont want to be put in the loony bin and dont want them to end my career. I dont know if quitting everything is a good option either. I started self medicating because I was in a bad place and was not functioning properly. without drugs I would surely have killed myself or went completely bonkers.

okay one last bump then I let this thread fall into oblivion