Who here /punishedbylifebutnotgoingtosurrender/ here?
Today i looked back on my life up until now and my life seems to just be a series of trageties, one after another.
I never got positive reinforcement or very many kind words.
The only person to care about me is my father, who is reaching close to his final decade or two of life.
Everything in my life that could go wrong, went wrong.
Like when youre presented with a choice in one of those interactive Goosebump novels and you choose the wrong path and die
Every.
single.
time.
But despite there being no light at the end of the tunnel i something in me that wont give up.
Maybe its my hate, my anger at the world and its cruelty.
I want to own the world and to fuck it in the ass no matter the futility of trying.
I get back up only to get stone cold stunner by society and normies and the government and my family and 'friends' and roasties over and over and over and over again.
But as long as i live i keep going, does anyone else relate here?
If at some point im REALLY cornered then i suppose ill blow my brains out.
>>38259015
yes my friend. i was considering suicide but i've decided to claw my way out of the hole i've dug for myself. i will prepare a suicide kit before hand though just in case because i don't want to be caught without any money to even die peacefully and have to resort to something like jumping off a bridge. fight to the bitter end.
that's pretty admirable attitude. I'm just too weak and pathetic to end my life but I often wish it would end
>If at some point im REALLY cornered then i suppose ill blow my brains out.
Example?
IM ALMOST A WEEK INTO MY NOFAP BUT I REALLY WANT TO JERK OFF REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Fap anon just jerk your cock
>>38258409
I really want to but I know I'll feel like shit after
>>38258374
Stupid people deserve a stupid fate.
Have you ever cucked someone known anyone who was cucked?
My friends girlfriend sat next to me on the couch. Fucking slut. I ddidn't make eye contact
>>38258332
I did and feel bad about it but I was young and stupid at the time.
>>38258386
Why did you do it bro?
Stoners: the perfect kind of girl.
women are already boring as fuck to talk to
stonned ones are even worse
>>38258252
No thanks I dont like have diseases
Stoner girls are always dirty greasy sluts. No exceptions.
https://youtu.be/GC_uMlOrozs
Anybody robots try acid here?
>pic related
My first time doing acid was yesterday and it changed me.
>>38258044
i hope you choke on that 2-ci
>>38258044
yeah i did it every weekend for a few months and really reached some dark parts of my mind. it was fucking crazy. ill probably never have an experience like it again.
Yes. I do not get frustrated as easily and I never want to argue anymore. Some people are better off without an ego.
And by "done porn," I mean anything from starring in professional porn, to making amateur porn for tube sites, to camming, to selling vids on manyvids or other sites like it, to posting nudes on tumblr or reddit, to uploading pics to /soc/ or /b/, to making erotic audios, to making softcore insta accounts, etc.
It has to be well over 50%, right?
>>38257744
there has been research showing that actually far less than .000001% of adult women have created or starred in porn. The idea that porn exists on such a large scale is actually a fabrication in order to "scare teens straight".
>>38257805
You didn't read the whole OP.
I'm including posting nudes on 4chan, reddit, or 4chan as porn. I'm including posting pics of yourself naked but covering your nipples on instagram as porn.
Tons of grils have done that.
It's almost like a rite of passage now, once you turn 18, you can start posting nudes to your secret tumblr.
>>38257805
And even if this research is from only 5 years ago, it's hopelessly outdated. Amateur porn has exploded in volume in the last several years, especially among solo girls.
I know three girls from my high school who are now "doing porn" in some fashion. And it was a private, upper-middle-class school.
One is camming, the two other posts nudes on her tumblr.
And those are just the ones I know about.
>he doesn't wear autism shoes
why do she companies make these spectrum shoes?
More footwear cringe
Who looks at these and thinks it's a good idea?
What happened to 4chan? It used to be widely accepted that liking traps wasn't gay in the slightest. Now everywhere you look there are trolls pretending that traps are gay and some poor Anons are even getting duped into believing that it's true!
I dunno mate, I blame /pol/ becoming the new /b/, coming to 4chan has become about having edgy political opinions, rather than just being edgy for fun. Then since this behavior is opinion/ideal based rather than enjoyment based, it creates toxic bullshit whenever these people see something that doesn't line up with it. I'm not syaing you have to like, enjoy, or even accept traps, I just think that derailing cometely unrelated threads when even vaguely gay/trans shit comes up is beyond annoying, and intentionally going into the threads just to get mad is beyond retarded.
>inb4 these newfags chimpout
>>38256543
It's scientifically factual. Even sjw sociology classes will tell you this.
You must be new. In the old days, the term "trap" was used been cause a seemingly female person trapped you into being gay
Get it?
It's always been gay
Neo-4chan turned it into the norm
Remember to ignore tripfags edition
Milk Cat 118
britfeel, more like shitfeel, haha lads
Who /vr/ here?
Enough self-hate.
In this thread you have to give yourself a compliment. No matter what.
I'm a pretty nice guy
>>38254842
Your nuts are fat dude.
I'm really wise.
Ballbusting thread
Wife is getting my boy and her self ready for our weekly family dinner. In the meantime I wanna share the story of the Best time she hit me in the junk.
>I used to go to the local swimming pool every weekday.
>She could always find me there but she hated going out in public.
>her and her friend showed up one day to surprise me
>We're swimming and carrying on then they had their 10 minutes of adult swim
>so I'm sitting at the pool edge since I'm not old enough for adult swim time
>I had told my gf prior to this that my favorite style of ballbusting is stepping or standing on them.
>as I'm sitting there she casually just puts her foot on my balls and leans forward. And soon her other foot joins in on the other nut.
>not a word was said. I just looked up at her amazed..she gave me this shy cute smile and eventually stepped off.
>I thought about it for months after. Was by far the most intense ballbust of my life.
>>38254836
degenerates like you should be shot. honestly, what the fuck is wrong with you?
why do ypu feel the need to post this every single day when none of us gives a shit about your shitty fetish
>>38255083
I don't get why there is so much hate for degenerates. How does it even effect you? Its okay to be vanilla.
>>38255120
Actually this is the first I've posted in a month. We've been doing birthdays and family event. Showing off the new baby and seeing old friends
>tfw summoned for jury duty
NOOOO I DON'T WANNA GO BUT I DON'T HAVE A LEGAL EXCUSE
>>38253419
I told em I was treated for depression in the past and they let me go.
Which sorta sucks since I wanted to do it.
If you got nothing what are u doin on here buddy??
>>38253419
Can you tell them you're really, really racist, to get out of it?
>>38253440
Really? I was treated for depression in my teens, maybe I can play that up and get out early.
>summer
>all these qt feet
>all these qt legs
Its that time of the year
Has anyone else realized how women usually expose more skin than men?
Why is this? Do their bodies require more refrigeration? Do they produce more heat? What's going on?
>>38252605
Jesus Christ they all look the same.
>>38252614
their bodies require more attention
What is the worst thing you've ever seen?
>>38251288
"Hillary is going to win" polls
>>38251288
Probably your pic, friendo.
>>38251288
dream gf if she wasn't fat to be honest
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Hi Nick,
Up late, not sleeping much these days. I don't know how much credence to give that test but compared to the last time I took it I've gone from Very-High Schizoid to High; I try to answer as truthfully as I can, not sure which answer(s) changed but I guess that it's positive, while not dispositive in regards to any part of my mental state, in non-meme test land.
I have a big day (for me) coming up today or tomorrow, I almost never do, and I'm starting to have the cloud of panic about bad outcomes and can I just stay in the house-thoughts.
I so rarely do anything and yet I'm always exhausted and stressed. I used to kind of do it, but it's inconceivable to me how people fit activities, jobs, self-care, et. al into their lives.
This train of thought is never productive. Meh.
How are you doing this morning?
>>38250372
This is the craziest result to that particular test I have ever seen.
I don't even know how you can have avoidant and histrionic on very high simultaneously.
Holy shit! I'm impressed. But yeah, that test is super sensitive. Don't be alarmed.
Once you do daily things as a routine, it all becomes manageable; when you're with someone, even more so as they do some of the tasks you'd do alone otherwise.
Give me examples of this stuff and tell me what the big day is about!
I'm constantly tired lately, because of the heat. I'm resting from yesterday's work out. So I eat healthy and shove protein down my throat. Muscle repair and all that. I'm reading and writing e-mails.
Slow time.
I'm available for chess, if anyone wants to play some. My level is something like weak intermediate.