Yo /lgbt/ im a male. I especially hate the male body. (Not mine

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Yo /lgbt/
im a male.
I especially hate the male body. (Not mine though)
I identify more as a female (i was raised by my mom and her 4 sisters.my father isn't with me, he has never been, and my (ex) stepfather was also shit (hitted my mom and such) i hate him in particular, females were good role models for me)
I wear female jeans and nothing else ( i do not crossdress or wear makeup)
I don't feel attracted to males, they are disgusting.
I go for the male look. For professional reasons.
But 8 outta 10 people think im gay.
And guys try to hit on me,way too much. Like 7 out of 10 gay friends tries to kiss me or go farther
I'm OK with LGBT things.i mean, I'm probably under the LGBT umbrella.

I'm also pretty narcissistic . But not in the sense of "im the greatest thing alive" but in the sense of"i would totally fuck myself "
My family things of my "identity" as some kind of joke. My mom in particular want me to get a psychiatrist for my "problem"
I always tell them. This doesn't affect me in day to day stuff. It's not like im in bed with a girl and dunno which role to play as.

Got any recommendations?
What to do with males that don't understand "NO"?
Should i describe myself as non binary?

Thanks in advance.

(I wanted to talk about this for so long)
(pic is me trying to make a heart with my legs)