Sex, regret, and ever changing preferences

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Anyone else here feel there sexual preferences constantly changing? I'm not even talking on a Male/Female/Other spectrum, I'm talking full blown sex types/kinks such as one day topping for a man, the next time bottoming for a woman, being rough/dominant with a different woman, then submitting to a dominant man. Don't even get me started on the trans folk I've dated. I have this ever changing and morphing sexuality that is causing me extreme distress because I also prefer monogamy and have tried the whole polyamory thing, but I just get too jealous and will fight people. This phenomenon has caused me to leave a trail of broken hearts and destruction and I am filled to the core with regret for having hurt people that may have cared for me. I threw them away like garbage simply because they couldn't give me EXACTLY what I wanted. It is like once the urge kicks in there can be no substitute. I've been with my current GF for 3 years and have intentionally stopped myself from leaving her to pursue someone else. I care about her and have thus stopped the destructive cycle, there urge is there constantly though. I've never cheated on her, but I constantly flirt with other people and have to catch myself before I get a phone number. I feel alone and it seems so petty when so many people I see struggle to even start a single relationship. Its like a drug. Anyone with a similar experience?