>inb4 "fuck off furshit"
Edition
• Makeup for beginners: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
• Correct hormone levels: http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
• Checking your levels: http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
• Reducing Muscle http://www.trans-health.com/2001/lose-muscle-gain-fat-dieting-for-mtfs/
• Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
• Transition time lines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• Voice Training: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
• Elanna thread
Old: >>8015451
anime is comfi
>>8016214
Fuck off furshit
i brushed my teeth only to realize there was still a can of iced tea in my room and now i'm suffering because it tastes bad :(
>>8016220
shnugg
>>8016214
fuck off furshit
>>8016157
Me too wtf
>>8016113
He's really big lol
He looked at me taking pics and like he looked a little mad
I wonder if my guy voice was always this faggy or it's gotten worse
I feel terrible
I thought I was meant to start feeling ok once I was no longer on just AAs
>>8016226
hugg
>>8016214
neko is not furry
anon is retarded
link is adorable
these are facts
>>8016212
Strong sense of worthlessness and dysphoria for me
I hatred myself most of my life before I experienced dysphoria tbqh. Wanted to kms a lot as a kid, blamed myself for my parents divorcing and always felt like my parents secretly hated me
I try to put the dumb shit I did to deal with my worthlessness in my past
>>8016230
This pic is epic
>>8016234
Wait for your levels to adjust and stabilize?
please say mean things to me
>>8016241
Honestly I want to fuck Link
>>8016204
sildenafil/tadalafil?
>>8016234
tbqh my aa always makes me feel bad
although i'm thinking maybe my the muscle pain in my arms/shoulders is due as much to the aa as the e
>>8016234
hrt does not fix your problems it just will probably help you feel a bit better about your body
>>8016231
it feels like my voice has gotten softer since ive started hrt but maybe im just hearing things
>>8016235
evvvaaaa ^>^
fuck I've got massive stretch marks around my nipples now, is this normal? they've gotten worse over the last 6 months but now these new ones are deeper and actually painful to touch
>>8016250
I'd be worried if you didn't
although I think he/she would make a good switch
>>8016253
w-what?
oh these are viagra-like things
thanks :3
>>8016258
omg your awake ><
>>8016231
I tried a deep boyvoice just forfun a few days ago
And i actually can't
The undertone is always pretty high and faggy and it just sounds a bit rougher than what i consider my girlvoice
>>8016261
fucking thumbnails
>>8016261
I want him to call me daddy
tb.h
>>8016254
no as in I feel like I genuinely have no energy and I can barely make it to 8pm without wanting to collapse in a pile
>>8016265
yeah ive been practicing my voice for like 3 hours!
>>8016259
that sucks
i think lotions with vitamin e are supposed to help
some people just don't get stretch marks, some do
i've seen plenty of breasts with stretch marks
>>8016264
yeah viagra/cialis or whatever y'all call them in euroland
>>8016267
well yeah but i still use my male voice whenever i speak in public
>>8016271
you have excellent taste
>>8016275
mostly viagra i think c:
thanks!
>>8016259
stretch marks on areas that are growing are normal yes
you can get like vitamin e oils and scar creams to help fade them a bit if you want but I think most are pretty expensive.
Yea??
Yea?!?!?!
Well I think it was cool
I'm going to go eat out of trashcans >:[
>>8016273
that's really good to hear! don't over do it too much, it might need some rest! I woke up pretty late today D:
I wonder if I should start progesterone again
>>8016272
that is probably partly because of the aa
idk for me I either got used to the fatigue or it became not as bad with time somehow
>>8016272
spiro makes me feel a lot like that
diet and exercise help
I'm just going to linkpost for a while
i miss when i 18 and i just assumed i was beta and was able to fix it.
>>8016257
https://clyp.it/viz5b5jp
>>8016269
Yeah at most I sound like a teenager these days it's weird
>>8016267
<3
>>8016290
fuck off furshit
>tfw talking to dad about hormones and he seemed somewhat proud of my knowledge on them
uwu
>>8016293
I miss when I was cute before I went into dysphoria depression
>>8016245
have u seen my dancing butt vid?
https://youtu.be/G1P0ai0_lRo
>>8016299
london?
>ttw stomach ache and super exhausted
I think I am lactose intolerant >o<
>>8016293
"It was just OCD everything's okay I'm gonna be in the ARMY soon and leave all this 4chan gayshit behind"
>>8016290
;3
>>8016314
Ash help me I have awful skin ;-;
>>8016314
i'm just intolerant
>tfw sex drive STILL won't die
Masturbating once a week is still too much I hate it
Fucking cut everything off
>>8016293
I miss high school when I had friends and could repress my thoughts
>>8016316
>when you already have the uncropped image
;p
>>8016298
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1hR52iXgbxh
>>8016323
Awww how can I help love?
>>8016314
hugg
I haaaate stomach aches ;_;
I really hope that isn't the case with lactose. Dairy is love :(
>>8016285
i wanna get it perfect tho!
you said you were gonna get up early today ;-;
>>8016331
I need the best cleanser moisturizer and stuff I can get so I can be cute
You know a lot about this right? ;~;
>>8016335
I had trouble sleeping last night, I kept waking up feeling really bad...
>>8016314
pat once
you were expecting Dio...
>>8016298
Every time you make a clyp I can always hear how you slip towards girl voice halfway through and it makes me laugh every single time.
>>8016339
i had a dream that my mom could tell i was a girl based on my skin and my door made this sound like it was being opened so i literally woke up screaming lol
my mom came and asked if i was alright and i said i didnt know what she was talking about
so i had to stay awake the rest of the night because i was scared that i would scream again lol
i'm comparing cypro and bica and both sound equally scary lol
i could always try it i guess
definitely gonna talk to anna about this since she has a bit more experience on this
>>8016346
D-dio sama?!
>>8016214
>fuck of furshit
b-but... okay :c
Also Amy needs a better taste in men
Boring, boring, boring.
Really pisses me off when people sexualize Link. His spirit is pure, and his intentions noble.
>>8016350
I take lupron
>>8016351
not quite
>tfw not actually sure who dio is
>>8016330
>tfw i have dark circles 90% of the time of i don't wear makeup
Damn you genetics!
>>8016333
*hug* I know x.x if it's not that then I'm definitely not good with processed foods like cheese-it's and potato chips!
>>8016337
You're already super adorable, even if you don't believe it. So no amount of moisturizer cream is going to make you cute because you first need to realize how cute you actually are. But I can make some recommendations based upon your concerns skin wise.
>>8016356
yeah but he has dumb girl hips
the dork!
>>8016327
i have friends but ill always be that gay guy "who wanted to transition but changed his mind" so ill have to disown them if i want to fully repair spartan in my mind. i will never be the alpha of the group like i once was. ive exposed too many vulnerabilitys
Im not giving up. i can repress again.
I can quit hrt, i can repress my feeling for guys, i can undo the damage
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rD5L8EpkgJg&spfreload=5
>trying to play game
>sensitivity drops into literal nothingness
>broke in windows too
>turn up DPI all the way and sensitivity all the way
>now completely haywire and out of control
>broke sensitivty in all other games
>always moving too fast or too slow
I can't even post a reaction picture I want to scream I hate technology
laser when
>>8016356
>>8016349
that does'nt sound nice at all
I think I had bad dreams too that kept waking me up...
>>8016363
Amy
I'm going
to cut myself
if you repress
>>8016329
https://clyp.it/24pq1fqg
>>8016347
Don't bully my boy voice ;_;
>>8016361
My dark circles are always pretty bad.
>>8016340
*hug* hello my precious Imouto! How are you?<3
>>8016363
if you repress I'll repress too
the internet is weird sometimes
>>8016361
Like half of my face is dry and the other half is oily
I also got a buncha red spots and like rly deep acne
It's definitely hurting my ability to be cute ;~;
>>8016372
dont exploit my emotions while im filled with empathy and dumb emotions
>>8016363
Ohhh ... you were that spartan “guy“
So you started transition ...
You shouldn't stop, transition is your fate
>>8016252
>>8016373
I'm not bullying you. I like it.
At 0:20 in this clyp you talk like a girl then at 1:00 you go back. You don't even realize it. It's cute.
>>8016359
>tfw no gnrh analog
>>8016363
repressing doesn't work
>>8016314
>I think I am lactose intolerant >o<
how are you going to drink Mommy Faye's milk?
>>8016376
I'm not sure if it's true but I heard humans aren't supposed to drink milk? Like their bodies are built to digest it or something? :x
>>8016379
I've tried so many things, teabags, frozen spoons, vitamin C serum's, and much more. What I found works best for me is if I apply "take a deep breath eye cream" by philosophy before bed and when I wake up. I think it's only something that can be relieved temporarily.
>>8016386
I can't let you hurt yourself
>>8016397
Correct, humans had to only recently evolve the enzyme to digest milk.
>>8016329
Aww you were me like 4 months ago
>>8016361
<3
hmm.......
>>8016367
is your whole setup just falling apart
>>8016385
You definitely have combo skin, I also have it! It's weird my four head can get very dry and so can my nose, but at the same time I can break out? It's so weird. But since you are still very young it's the perfect time for you to get into a good skin care regimen! I really really like philosophy and dermatologica! And as for deep acne that's usually hormonal related so have you ever thought about seeing a dermatologist? I would on Accutane when I was your age and it completely vanquished all of my cystic acne. I still get blackheads and small pimples here and there but other than that my skin is good.
>>8016380
im good!
i did a bunch of voice training today and had like a two hour lesson with zheanna on top of that
feels productive ^^
>>8016397
most white people have an adaptation that allows them to digest milk in adulthood
>>8016399
luce, we're mammals, think about what you wrote
>>8016408
Just like my life
>>8016391
God damn wtff
How am I supposed to convince people that I'm an alpha now
>>8016404
hot
desu
>>8016397
Fuck I need money
>>8016392
I'm sure there are at least SOME examples of people repressing successfully, and I hope I can be one of them.
me
>>8016419
Alpha females exist
Become a professional dominatrix, duh
>>8016397
>>8016399
>Correct, humans had to only recently evolve the enzyme to digest milk.
I was pretty surprised when I learned about it, like how much of the world is intolerant of it.
>>8016419
get a motorcycle and fight bears??
Do free mental hospitals exist in the US?
>>8016416
Aww yay! I am so proud of you that you're moving forward and being productive! <33
>>8016373
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0x5Z7uVhXZa
>>8016411
I should see a dermatologist but I'm scared cause going outside and being tran ;~;
I'll ask my mom about that tho
>>8016430
milcc
>>8016437
hey Shakira
hows you?
>>8016426
I'm more the submissive type though
;_;
>>8016437
ah I see you are back with your fetish for pimping people out
>>8016387
>>8016389
>>8016392
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Rr_hxY909k
dont tell me what i cant do.
it will all be fine, T will flow back in
my empathy will fade, my rage and anger will come back, my arrogance, my sense of indestructibility will return triple fold. the crying will stop, blocked by biological stoicism
Testosterone will come back like that first hit of heroin. and Spartan will be ten times more powerful than he was before.
and ill simply ignore my family and friends who try to stop me.
>>8016429
What do you think of merc? Apparently she has some sort of crush on you, she was autistic enough to make a recording about it last night
>>8016446
Can medicaid cover the whole stay or would I need something else?
>>8016439
yeah im stuck on one aspect of the voice that me and zheanna have been trying to get me to learn but im focusing on specifically that this week in my training
i wanna get this already!
>>8016429
>>8016421
Ignore shakira, they'll try to ruin your life
>>8016454
idk.
i'd check the policy.
or just avoid going to any hospitals
>>8016452
>dont tell me what i cant do.
you cant not fail if you continue this retarded repression charade
>>8016438
yes
talk to your county hospital
>>8016447
I don't think that's right, it's just lactase persistence in whitey that's a relatively recent adaptation... it's still lactose (glucose/galactose disaccharide)
>>8016451
Wouldn't be the first time someone's tried to talk me into that. My friend's sister's boyfriend says he can hook me up with interested parties.
>>8016468
cool
imma linkpost cause autism and idk i feel weird
>>8016430
Somebody has to eat the grass. We then drink their milk and eat their flesh.
btw, it's snowing again.
>:/
it's supposed to be spring, god damn it
>>8016468
It seems like she has a preference for white people or something
what are some really tasty kind of bread I could get for sandwiches????
>>8016483
i wanna see snow :(
>>8016482
completely undiagnosed but hey, if the shoe fits
>>8016474
That kind of stuff is only excusable if you're both homeless and starving
>>8016440
https://clyp.it/20mzame3
>>8016465
You mean being held up against a wall getting dicked by ur bf isn't the most alpha thing?
>>8016485
i want a yummi eva sandwich :3
>>8016452
Stop being such a faggot and take your girl pills
Also spartan can be a girl too
>>8016430
>I was pretty surprised when I learned about it, like how much of the world is intolerant of it.
I was too, the idea that some people couldn't drink milk was pretty weird to me when I was younger
>>8016443
Cheesecaek!
>>8016494
I want to come up with some really tasty ones! I'll need to pick up a bunch of ingredients sometime soon
>>8016397
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KyyZqCl8kXQ
>>8016506
You're still in love with her? I don't think you ever had a chance desu
>>8016493
Beta as fuck
Sex is really disgusting and boring anyway
>>8016430
>pic
w-wait, does that mean my ideal japanese boyfriend will never drink hot cocoa with me ;w;
Also these captchas really make me angry, they work once in 20 times
>>8016492
I'm not that prejudiced against it, but I'm not really in a place in my life where I feel like I could give a customer their money's worth
>>8016464
its always gonna come back because its the natural pull of the universe for me.
i am meant to repress. the best version of me is repressor me
the worst is tranny me
>>8016497
i cant.
i desire power. if i get power i can cast off my submissive feelings and those stupid faggot bfs
>>8016493
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1tCO8QlQJ9v
ANNA
N
N
A
ily
>>8016501
i dont usually eat sandwiches but ill try one if you make it! :3
>>8016463
>or just avoid going to any hospitals
Good idea what was I fucking thinking
>>8016442
If you're OK with ordering online I would highly recommend these products :D
http://m.sephora.com/product/P312002?icid2=skugrid&skuId=1417203
http://m.sephora.com/product/P4016?icid2=skugrid&skuId=654228
>>8016511
I think there are vegan options for hot chocolate that don't have milk/lactose
They might not taste as yummy though >.>
>>8016514
Get power in other ways.
EAT YOUR GODDAMN GIRL PILLS NOW.
(h-how's that for power?)
>>8016512
It's very low down stuff that could ruin your identity forever and leave you mentally damaged desu
Stay away from it if you ever wanna fit in as a girl
>>8016521
Ty
>>8016506
Yah she planned her and ash's wedding her this week for like an hour straight, sorry for your loss
>>8016519
I'll work hard on my sandwich making skills! I want to try all sorts of different types
I'm lonely and cold and I want to die.
>>8016472
I don't even know where they are
I'm scared
>>8016526
they make me feel weak and pathetic.
i get triggered when i see guys with masculine eyes and strong jawlines or taller than me, want to punch them but remember im a faggot on estrogen and get mad at myself
>>8016523
they taste fine, you can use like soy or coconut milk if you want it to be creamy too
hey Carol
here's one you might like
>>8016485
Itallian bread is always the correct choice of bread.
so i cried all of last night, slept for 15 hours, then woke up and saw all of the messages about my friend dying and started crying again.
does it get easier at some point? i see everything around me moving as if nothing happened and i feel like i'm just standing still
>>8016527
Don't worry. I probably would only do it if I was homeless and starving, and even then, there are worse places to be homeless and starving than where I live so I probably wouldn't have to even then
>>8016521
So when are you dropping faye and getting with someone who passes like merc, you two would be cute together
>>8016544
Good girl
>>8016510
Wtf sex is awesome when you're doing it with someone you love
>>8016517
https://clyp.it/ujrvzvf4
>>8016527
My pleasure dear! I had a horrible acne when I was 15, from what I learned from the dermatologist a lot of it is hormone based and the reason why a lot of treatments don't work is because your glands are overproducing sebum from the hormones and that's why Accutane works. But yes you can talk to your mom and maybe try saying one, if not maybe just make it a goal to see one in the future and work towards it.
>>8016541
I remember that, I don't know much about bread
>>8016544
If you're in SoCal you're in luck. I was homeless there for 3 years and made it just fine.
>>8016542
okei :3
i gotta study for an exam tomorrow too x-x
I love you too !!!
started cypro today after a few months of spiro. when is the extra depression supposed to arrive?
>>8016485
sourdough
not link but still cute
I want a onesie now
>>8016551
>sex is awesome
>someone you love
You're disgusting
You sicken me
Sex is supposed to be with strangers in drug fueled hazes and should leave you feeling empty and sad
Filtered
>>8016546
I don't know how this got so out of context, but Faye is just coming down to visit, we're just going to have like girl time. ^_^
I'm still getting to know everyone so I wouldn't rush into a relationship with anyone, plus with school keeping me so busy I need to focus on that first.
>>8016566
sorry but can you please stop
>>8016558
how much are you taking
i noticed it within a few days
>>8016560
Nothing is going on with anyone I swear! I'm as single as they come, both of my cats are laying on me xD
>>8016557
cute exclamation marks :3
>>8016567
get in the shower
the water's warm
>>8016568
girl time? is faye redestransitioning?
>>8016571
sorry
no
but I've nearly run out
>>8016485
Focaccia and ciabatta are my fav. sandwich breads.
>>8016551
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1JrVG2EaGPu
so if you keep taking cypro for a couple of years, does your sex drive get totally annihilated, never to return?
>>8016568
hey ash! is it normal to just have one specific spot on my face that ever gets dry? like, my face is mostly oily, but i have to constantly put moisturizer on this spot
>>8016574
aww lil genevieve all shy in the corner
>>8016584
that's what they say
and once your dick is dead, it's dead
usually doesn't take years desu
>>8016573
50mg, was on 200 of spiro before.
also, how bad was it? was it noticeably worse?
>>8016567
>not slowly and tenderly working yourself and your partner up before having slow, sensual sex
>not feeling them inside you and feeling deeply connected with them on both an emotional and physical level
Don't cheapen what sex can be
>>8016585
y'all should know that part of the reason you're greasy is that your skin is too dry
gentle cleanser and moisturize... at least twice daily
>>8016593
thank you very much, anon
>>8016577
How does one learn to steal? Can you teach me?
>>8016514
Aw, come on amy
Do you want to talk about it?
You can add me on skype if you want to
why are we all autistic
DOES FAYE HAVE A COCK OR NOT
nim is a gayfer
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DM-GZGtqmEw
i hope it ends up like this when my Test comes back
>>8016576
They serve a purpose uwu
>>8016605
I'm not autistic.
>>8016589
Thank you, but I feel really bad
I'm bored
>>8016597
i hope i get to experience that some day
want to go to the movies but don't want to go alone.
wish i had friends :< although since i haven't really done anything about that, i can't complain too much
>>8016620
lil gayfer nim
>>8016610
I'll cut.
>>8016604
i am on discord. i am insane tho
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q-JIfjNnnMA
>hrt withdrawel is a lie
I'm gay
>>8016578
No
>>8016591
Huh. In America you're punished and fined for being homeless and broke.
>>8016603
Don't be black or look like white trash and nobody suspects you.
>>8016597
That's awful. You're awful. You're awful for even saying that out loud. You're a degenerate and need to be institutionalized for your own safety.
>>8016597
i miss sex im kill myself now
>>8016606
Faye has a tiny baby dick
>>8016594
well your mileage may vary
but i started crying in bed a lot
really intense feelings of worthlessness and hopelessness
also worth noting it's been almost 2 months on cypro and i'm sort of feeling better
I went to the doctors a couple of days ago to start hormones legitimately
when I left the flat I had a borderline panick attack
when I got home I broke down and cried for 2 hours
>>8016625
i hate how bad my adhd is x-x
>>8016634
yes
>>8016640
hugg
>>8016628
why am i being blackmailed.
what if im not really trans?
>>8016615
>shakira
>not autistic
Next you'll say the earth is flat
i'm beginning to wonder if i should be admitted into a mental hospital. :(
all i want is a job so i can take care of my needs.
get a job or starve.
good luck finding a job tho lol.
kys faggot.
if i can manage to get out of this mess, i promise i'll do everything i can to start a union to help peeps out.
shit in this country sucks.
capitalists aren't helping, the state isn't helping, & people need some fucking help
>>8016631
Projectinggggg
>>8016633
I miss sex too :<
>>8016621
Someday
I hope everyone here gets to experience it.
>>8016639
oh nice
I'm going to order shrooms over the internet and hopefully fix my brain
>>8016641
Same! It's really bad when it comes to homework for me, I'll procrastinate and put everything off to the last day!
>>8016639
>mostly
Pathetic
>>8016643
i said no
>>8016543
*hugs*
It takes awhile, but yes it does get better. You might be disassociating some.
>>8016647
It's not blackmail
I can't let you hurt yourself
>>8016636
are you taking that amount too?
i mean, i already cry a lot, so maybe it won't make too big of a difference? here's hoping
>>8016647
you are
>>8016646
Thankyou
you're always nice!
>>8016656
you mean like now since you're posting on here :3
>>8016629
Ok, give me your discord
And don't worry, you can't be much more fucked up than me
>>8016652
I don't like those places
I hope you find a job soon :c
a mental hospital is not a good alternative to a job
>>8016609
so different ones for the different spots? which moisturizers have worked well for you?
>>8016639
Yeah, this country is an absolute shithole. There's enough empty houses across the US for every homeless person or for families of 8 living in a 3 bedroom apartment to live comfortably, but nobody can make $150,000 easily anymore and everyone is afraid of taking out loans because banks will find any way possible to fuck you over.
Enough jobs for everyone in the US to have two jobs but nobody will take the chance to hire anyone that isn't 350% qualified so it's easier for people to work two minimum wage jobs and die at 27 of exhaustion.
But we have our FREEDOM so that's cool.
>>8016653
I'm not projecting, you're projecting, okay.
>>8016667
._.'
I'm going to do some tonight, I'm just not feeling too good right now u_u
if you feel like you need help on your mental health alex is the last person you should listen to
>>8016680
aww i was just kidding lol
im actually writing my midterm notes between posts >> <<
>>8016683
she knows me already
don't be a cunt
>>8016605
I'm pretty sure autism and being trans is linked
my eyes have achieved anime status
>>8016616
sorry :(
I hope you feel better
>>8016685
i'm just trying to help newfriends
>>8016677
yup, that's the goal! hopefully I like it more than spiro, having to pee all the time and the dizzy spells were shitty.
thanks for answering, though! hope things are going well for you, Maeve!
>>8016689
qt emi eyes
>>8016606
Cock and no balls
>>8016689
Do eyes just keep getting bigger? Mines grew but they're still too lil
>>8016687
I remember a time when that wasn't true so I don't think so lol
>>8016452
>>8016629
>thinks heroin will get the body to produce t or do anything more effectively.
>thinks hormone w/drawal is a lie
bitch, i was forced of hormones by my family for a day.
i threw up the very same night, i had intense head pain, & i felt completely weak for the next week until i got back on hrt.
this shit isn't a joke
>>8016685
yeah she's kinda like that, just ignore her
>>8016701
maybe it's just that transitioning post-2015 gives you autism
>>8016689
>anime status
I doubt that.
>>8016692
please don't make me do this
>remove testicles
>sell to FtMs
>make money back from procedure
Medical technology needs to evolve faster
>>8016710
half of my face is now eye
>>8016702
I haven't taken my hormones in 2 days fight me
>>8016709
Or being a 4chan tranny
>>8016709
It definitely seems like it
>>8016649
I'm really not that bad away from here. pre-hrt I'd agree with you I was a complete spergmaster, but now it's limited to the occasional edgy joke on 4chan.
>>8016654
I'm still too scare to use darknet
>>8016657
Hey this is nothing, I had a crush on a girl throughout the entire 7 years of high school. I have a long orbital period haha get it?
>>8016679
Come to England.
>>8016715
Thankyou
>>8016714
I wish we could all detach our peens and trade them for ftms' vagoos
>>8016719
ya maybe
better than being a susans/reddit tranny tho
>>8016700
yup, they will eventually take up your entire face
>>8016718
what if your face is really smol?
would explain why you think your shoulders are so big :p
>>8016724
lol so am I
it's a legal grey area
delivers to us in 10 days so here will be quick and easy
straight from holland
if you want i can pop you a link in skype
>>8016730
Naisu
That's what I want
>>8016729
They're all shit
/cd/ was the best
Long live /cd/
>>8016722
Ok, add me on discord
MarinaBeach#6162
>>8016724
>pre-hrt I'd agree with you I was a complete spergmaster, but now it's limited to the occasional edgy joke on 4chan.
Just because your self perception changed doesn't mean your actions did
You're far too autistic here for it to be an "only on mtfg" thing
>>8016722
no
it won't be just one day
don't stop
>>8016731
no i think i have a big head too
>>8016731
why are you like this
>>8016739
that's a lil gay tho
and it was on an animu board right so i would have never found it
>>8016748
uwu
>>8016733
https://clyp.it/olcr2bgl
>tfw no food in the house
send help
>>8016687
There are studies that show a correlation, more so for trans men though
>>8016754
im a biclops
>>8016749
/cd/ wasn't on an anime board it was on 420chan, the drug image board
>>8016754
At times it was pretty hilarious
>>8016760
pizza for eva quick!
>>8016376
Lol who cares lol if they're actually men and not just boys playing builder they won't really say shit put on some ear buds and get ur skin cancer on
Lol who knows one of them might even the succ
Robin gangbang when?
>>8016307
Nu-uh I aint clicking that ur trolling me this I know
Be my slut sass
>>8016765
I don't have any D:
>>8016758
this is awesome
>>8016763
wouldnt have found it then either desu :(
>>8016743
if i prove to you im ugly. will you let me repress
>>8016761
I think I heard about that, I wonder why o~o
>>8016749
desu if it weren't for /lgbt/ spilling over into /a/ sometimes I'dve never learned about hrt ;-;
Someone go get merc. I want to resolve this her/ash/faye business right now
>>8016769
Yeah
Guess how I found it
Lol
Life has a funny way of working out, I probably wouldn't have transitioned as young as I did if I'd not been a massive druggie
>>8016771
It was funny til she killed the board
>>8016763
>drug image board
I'd have never found it.
>>8016772
I wish I had stuff to make thing but I just don't right now :(
I saw a question up there about what I had, so here is a no tuck shot
>>8016702
I've experienced feeling like shit just from trying to halve my dose to stretch it
I'm kinda scared about what will happen if I go off completely.
>>8016314
Drink my leche bb :*
I found these shoes in the bathroom.
They're size 10 1/2 so like a size and a half too small but besides that they're great.
But yea my feet hurt after walking around a little so idk...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RCxgqHqakXc
i wanna be a drug addled gayboy
>>8016779
i wouldnt have started at 20 if it hadnt been for some guy shooting up a gay nightclub in miami
>>8016774
Amy you can unironically be a pretty girl lmao why'd you wanna be an ugly guy
>>8016737
nahh thanks a lot but I really should cut down on my drug use.
>>8016746
I have a very English accent.
>>8016742
I got IRL friends now you know, part of why I left here. Bunch of trannies and chasers. They all think I'm great.
>>8016766
Hello beanboy
>>8016768
Hello Neptune
>>8016772
>heroin/opiates will depress hormone production.
Shit is that why HRT didn't work on me?
>>8016779
I think what really killed it was that everyone either repressed to death, commit suicide, or just moved on with their lives.
And 420chan is a lot smaller than 4chan with less traffic too.
>>8016786
aw such cute feminine feet~
I'm a were-depressed tranny. My depression spikes at night right after midnight
>>8016786
Yea I mean she is a bitch but I'd still make love to Faye
>>8016775
are you currently watching anything, cindy? or are you just watching k-on clips all day? :>
>>8016759
https://clyp.it/olwlzvmd
>>8016782
thanks for clearing that up
>>8016771
>>8016779
Just went to /cd.
Seems pretty true to the boards name.
>>8016793
Maybe you should go to bed before you turn into a pumpkin.
>>8016789
that not true at all
I'm thinking that i have to stop transitioning for awhile to get the rest of my life out of the shitter but im too scared of what might happen to me trying to repress again even if only temporarily.
I just dont see any other way forward, i'm trapped on every angle and most of it is from trying to transition right now.
>>8016793
That's a pretty normal time for overthinking shit, and overthinking shit as a trannu inevitably leads to getting depressed.
>>8016782
where the peen at
>>8016791
Idk I don't know that people from cd necessarily moved on, I've ran into quite a lot of people here that used to frequent /cd/
Between forced anon, all the deaths and the like, yeaaaah. Give a bunch of trannies drugs and they fuck themselves up, whoda thunk it.
>>8016793
Depression seems to hit hard as soon as I lay down in bed .-.
>>8016795
Well I'm always rewatching k-on :p
But an anon here recommended Chihayafuru so I'm watching that rn ^~^
>>8016794
I think this is the general consensus of mtfg
>>8016802
wow fuck you too
>>8016774
Never.
I can't let that happen.
>>8016719
>I haven't taken my hormones in 2 days
*bonk*
>>8016790
I only like English accents on guys. The only female accent I like is French.
>>8016803
/cd/ was a weird, strange place. At first it was just for crossdressing and camwhoring. Then it became about transitioning and suddenly crossdressing was forbidden unless you were a certified tranny. Then it became /kayla/ and her hourly episodes of madness. Then it kind of just died over time and now it's like... just a weird dead eldritch patchwork of questions and depression.
>>8016806
Rnw / dis :
repressing never works / destransing is stupid
>>8016782
liar
keep glasses for nerd effect
or go for contacts in the future to maximize big eyes
>>8016813
i think you're nice but i'd rather just be friends
>>8016823
Much better
>>8016804
You always tell others to ask people who've seen you properly.
I have.
>>8016813
I'd need to become friends first.
>>8016812
i was the anon who recommend it! lol
currently in the second season, really like it
>>8016832
You have a future.
I won't let you throw it away.
>>8016835
Heya Valq. Miss me?
>>8016819
>just a weird dead eldritch patchwork of questions and depression
Sounds a lot like this place.
>>8016818
I've been distracted x.x
>>8016819
Pretty militantly anti agp and anti transbian iirc too. Miss that a lil :^)
this rice needs more ketchup
>>8016792
Yea lol shut up I'm kinda self conscious about how small my feet look in these lol
The left sock is from one of my hookups lmfao
>>8016813
Yea...
Yea...
Whatever...
You're cute
I hate you
Stupid
>>8016803
/cd/ huh...?
Hmm.....
>>8016790
Hey babe how u been
Post a pic
>>8016715
ok, i'll try to find out what needs to be done
>>8016719
tell me your secrets.
also, go back on your hormones, i'm serious.
your ability to produce t must be very badly impaired, & the body does need hormones
>>8016838
>Heya Valq
Are you still alive?
>>8016841
try srirachi with it
>>8016840
when I came here in 2013 anti apg and anti transbian made me think I wasn't trans
>>8016821
I hope this clears up any lingering confusion
>>8016811
tfw there is no getting off the tranny train ride
>>8016825
https://clyp.it/yfenzcaw
>>8016839
Eh... no.. /cd/ has its own special quality.. Kind of like the difference between some mom and pop coffee shop compared to starbucks.
>>8016840
I don't remember that part, but I don't think I paid much attention at the time, I was like 14. There does seem to be a lot more transbians here though.
my sister deliberately punched my chest to see if i would react
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>>8016813
No Faye is nice
>>8016834
O hi! Thank you btw I just started watching, I'm on episode 2 and it's pretty nice ^~^
>>8016841
What... baka senpai you put soy sauce or teriyaki sauce on rice
Not ketchup o,o
>>8016814
Hugg Alex
>>8016846
k but just a lil
>>8016845
We're all undead here...
Just realized once I manage to move in the US -if I do manage it, that is- I'll likely be homeless unless someone has a crush on me...
I hope my boyfriend will still love me in 4+ years...
>>8016861
I think antiandrogens would do you a woo oorld of good
>>8016841
>ketchup
Absolutely disgusting
>>8016849
I meant liar that you didn't tuck
>>8016844
I find being on other drugs makes it very easy to forget to take your drugs
>>8016848
It's just memes you know right? Pretty sure most of /cd/ had tasted the forbidden fruit
>>8016543
whoa wait I can't keep up with these threads these days shit moves so quick
was it anyone I would have known?
>>8016864
That portrait is pretty reminiscent of a wax doll
>>8016869
My thoughts exactly
>>8016855
soy sauce + ketchup + pepper is good
I wouldn't expect a 12 year old to like it though its a sophisticated flavour
Non of the cute little twinks / trans / CDs on grindr are >plz responding me what the fuck what the fuck what do I do what am I I need to calm down some one hold me and like let me suck on ur tits and grab the back of ur neck while I push you up against a wall and dryhump you hard while eating you face and gripping ur little hands until you're a stupid panting mess
>>8016882
Take cypro
>>8016790
long time no see. where you been?
>>8016804
you are really quite frustrating and annoying, doing this all the time. Live the life you are given, deal with it, stop fishing. You are retarded if you even doubt being trans at this point. Stop this stupid "i wants 2 repress" daily meme.
>>8016820
I'm not implying detransition or giving up. Just that financially and otherwise, i think i need to put this on hold until it is more feasible to continue.
Saying "repression" was a bad word choice of what i meant to say.
>>8016816
>>8016831
The problem is, i am self-medding so it is expensive, and i'm at a point where i have to decide between staying on HRT, or stopping and directing those funds to things that will better my life situation and making continuing transition feasible. Right now i have no foreseeable path forward with the rest of transition.
I'm not talking giving up or anything long term, just till like the end of summer when hopefully Tamara and i can move in together.
If possible, i'd cut my cypro dose to half and stay on that and stop the estrogen since that is the more expensive part but i would still prevent T expression.
>>8016866
My dick is hard
>>8016882
I thought you hated sex what happened
>>8016872
yes I know now but at the time as a dumb 16 year old I just saw a lot of hate and thought I must just be a really fucked up man
>>8016782
I can see your dick outline lol
I have 99.9th-percentile sensitive colour vision because of my autism
I took a pick with the panties off but it was too lude sorry
>>8016881
Reeeee
I'm not 12 >~<
>>8016881
>what the fuck what do I do
Try bathing
pizza
WHEN
>>8016892
All I said is I didn't tuck, I just have my little intersex nub
>>8016892
I have autism but where are my autistic super powers? :c I can't see the peen
>>8016897
I will probably after I finish the rice
>>8016892
Don't act like you're fucking special, anyone can see it.
>>8016882
why arent you fucking me :(
>>8016885
wait are you still on 50mg cypro?
You can safely take that to 25mg today.
You can get two packs of progymeme and pop 2mg a day and that will last you fine till the summer me thinks
>>8016871
she just has shrimpdick due to hrt so as long as she wears sufficiently tight panties she doesn't need to tuck to appear more or less flat
pay attention to the left part of the gusset in that frontal photo
>>8016903
i cant..
>>8016898
You had pizza less than a week ago
>>8016898
I'm going to starve to death
sertii
>>8016889
>forced to detransition at 15
>everyone on /cd/ laughs and tells me I deserved it and I wasn't a real tranny
>believe them and repress while I was homeless
Were they right or were they just bitter old hons
>>8016911
no ;-;
>>8016825
That's hormone production by the body, not what you take via pills, injections, etc.
>>8016835
I use a clipper to keep the hair down.
>>8016858
I now think my at first occasional, then addiction use of heroin slowed puberty for me. That was when I was 14-15. My first time on high doses of E&P was 16.5.
>>8016864
<3 iktf
>>8016885
estrofem generic pills are cheap if you have a prescription. At my ripoff pharmacy they are $12 list price for 2 * 2mg pills a day for 90 days.
>>8016889
I mean to an extent I felt the same way given at the time I wasn't really even aware of liking guys. Still, wasn't going to let people on an image board tell me if I was trans or not
>>8016913
>were they just bitter old hons
>>8016849
t-that's a cute butt. I totally don't want to put my hand on it.
lauren
Amy~
Let's make a pact
You stop repression posting and I stop sadposting
wuggie
>>8016913
they were prolly bitter hons.
nobody deserved be forced of the hormones they feel most @ home w/
>>8016885
>>8016906
>pic
>>8016922
ill just stop posting. then i cant be held resposible
>>8016899
yeah desu I could legit believe you're intersex after that pic
it's way too long to be classed as a clit but it's so thin and narrow I can't imagine that ever having been a normal-sized dick pre-hrt
>>8016831
I can express my own views perfectly well by myself. There's nothing to warn anyone about.
There is no solid medical basis behind the chemical imbalance theory, psychiatrists cannot prove that anyone is mentally ill.
They force treatment on people without proof that they are ill.
>>8016835
my mic broke so fuck it
I uh
hope you enjoy getting cleaned up
and feel better soon
^^
>>8016920
Italy soon ;_;
>>8016887
I don't know I'm a fucking almost 21 yo 6'1 alpha fucking predator male I need to fuck something soft and good smelling and the moaning oh my god I want it to hurt I want you to like it and push back onto me when you realize how much stronger I am than you and you can't move so you just let me open you up a little and then let you catch ur breath for like two min cuz you know I'm not done I'm not even close just let me bite and suck the back of ur neck while ivtell you how pretty you are laying face down with my thick cock teasing you
>>8016884
No kiss me instead while wearing something frilly and thin with your big soft phat ass arching back into my hands while I play with it while your face is shoved in mine
I am
Going to fucking commit suicide kill me
>>8016921
hugg
>>8016932
don't wannaaaaaaaaaaa
REEEEEEEEE
>>8016913
being forced off hormones sucks.
it happened to me at 20.
>>8016915
I wanna get rid of arm hair too....
Been working on alot of suzukis/Asian cars lately and they LOVE to drip oil directly down your arm with how their oIL filters are situated.
That, and my legs itch from sweating with hair to trap oil & dirt.
It's more of a convenience thing.
Ha
>>8016931
>psychiatrists cannot prove that anyone is mentally ill.
w e w
>>8016937
>tfw can't spend time with you for 7 more days
>>8016916
idk I guess I was just not very secure and pretty confused in general so seeing people say those kind of things convinced me to try to ignore it
>>8016935
How do you know my ass is phat?
>>8016931
<3
I really just need to go camping to recharge my batteries :-)
>>8016944
aaaaaaaa
this is HORRIBLE
>>8016935
Bean you're on meth or something take a drink of water and chill what you're feeling isn't normal
>>8016938
>>8016942
Yeah. It was pretty bad. Even with nobody there and no supportive community at all. Pretty much all my life became about was surviving to spite the people that hated me. Ironically in the end I still wanted to die all the time anyway.
What if we're all just genetically deviated, meaning that we're the next step in human evolution, guys?
>>8016954
kayla is the future
>>8016855
<3 I appreciate you
>>8016954
Humanity is fucked if I'm the next evolution
>>8016859
hugg anna
>>8016935
that's hot
don't die
>>8016940
There is no medical test for mental illness
It's all opinion based on the premise that chemical imbalances (which can't be proven) exist in somebody's brain, and that this can be measured by their behavior.
>>8016941
My theory is that nobody should be forced to receive treatment for an illness nobody can prove they have.
More of a moral position than a theory, really.
Your view is gay fuck you
>>8016948
camping sounds fun uwu
I hope you get to do it soon, make sure you're safe tho!
>>8016938
I wasn't really forced off them. My supply just dried out when I ended up unable to maintain my social circle.
>>8016954
Humanity is trying to end itself
>>8016954
cool
too bad we don't usually reproduce tho
>>8016954
>evolution
>can't pass on our genes
>>8016954
>next stage of evolution
>wants to forcibly sterilize itself
>>8016945
;_;
How many years did you lose?
>>8016899
oh so it's true
i wasn't sure if the bit about you having ovaries was real or not
desu kinda wish i was intersex if i can't be cis, you and ash make us amabs jelly
>>8016954
evolution is not real dumbass
>>8016939
I use that clipper all over my body. With it's thinnest head it clips it to under a mm long.
I don't know if this will work for you, but I shower with a body wash for sensitive skin. It keeps my skin moisturized. My hiar I only wash twice a week, and condition it. I tuck it under my hat when I expect it may get dirty.
>>8016961
yee another step forward into comfy oblivion lol
>>8016954
>next step in human evolution
>can't reproduce
>>8016971
The bible is only ever good as emergency toilet paper.
>>8016969
i mean natal males, not amab, since presumably lots of intersex folks are assigned male
>>8016961
nice desu
>>8016970
But wouldn't that spread the virus?
>>8016967
4 :/
>>8016967
>wants to forcibly sterilize itself
the only truly good thing a tranny can do
>>8016977
begone foul demon
>>8016980
we're the next step in human evolution tho
help i can't stop eating
>>8016907
No, i've been on 25mg Cypro since about mid February
I'm thinking of just doing 12.5mg daily so i can last till August with the pills i have left.
The issue with the estro is the feminizing effects and breast growth etc is also partly the issue. It is becoming much harder to hide and manage its effects the longer i go, so idk, if they can be put on pause while i focus on work and other things it would be easier than dealing with the continually increasing difficulty to boy mode.
I have enough estro pills to do 2mg till july but i might set them aside and just do the cypro.
Idk i'm not sure what i want to do yet, i just needed to talk it over with people.
>>8016915
>prescription
i don't have the means to get a prescription right now anyway. And thats only part of the issue.
>>8016929
I'm just saying, you do this all the time, at some point you have to realise how silly it is and how frustrating it is for everyone to see all the time.
We all deal with the same issues. Maybe not in the same way, but we all struggle. You act like you are some hopeless wreck and fish for people to tell you otherwise, when you dont realise that there are others in just as bad if not worse situations than you. I'm 6'2, man faced, and too poor to ever afford surgeries, but i don't do the same shit you do daily, i know that the only way forward is to transition in the end. You ought to know that too, so again, stop the bullshit, it's ridiculous.
>>8016952
Ok I'll stop idk why I almost feel like crying I fucking HATE sex I hate it so much why do I feel like crying idk what this is idk why I.
I can almost like kinda feel my feelings but also like suddenly it just stops and I just feel like whatever idk wtf is going on with me
I just want sex.
I don't know what I want.
I need a fucking job jfc
>>8016984
>wanting to reproduce
>wanting to spread these shit genes on
>wanting to force another life unwillingly into this world to satiate your selfish, primitive desires to breed
>>8016980
it's the point uwu
then, with evolution, we'll slowly replace all cis women and grow uteruses whilst keeping our autism
>>8016972
Yeah, I lotion my skin...
Idk.
I don't have clippera rn.
Mine are broken until further notice.
My hair:
Usually it's in a pony under a hat with my tranny bangs fringe covering my forehead in the front.
Basically, from that exposure alone, it has a 3 day minimum wash cycle.
And
I NEED my bangs in order to stay stealth at my job
>>8016970
too late, hopefully cypro has nuked any and all sperm
>>8016993
last phrase isn't true owo
>>8016990
Eat soup
It'll make u full
>>8016992
It's okay, everything's going to be okay. Your sexuality is warped because of what you did and there's no shame in it, just try to calm down a bit and think about things.
Is there no way for you to get an under the table paying job, even doing menial shit labor? In Southern California those should be abundant, I did it for a bit when I was your age and homeless too.
Are you someplace safe right now?
>>8016935
You're 6'1?
>>8016959
I know its fucking hot omg this morning I was remembering the one time I fucked this 17 yo twinky in public and my Cock got so hard for no reason and I didn't know what to do I just really really really want to suck on a neck and lick it all over and whisper into ur ear how hard I'm gonna Fuck you and bite ur little ear and tease you all over with my big rough callous hands with me being behind you this whole time reading your body and how you arch back into me teasing ur nipples never being too gentle cuz you don't deserve that you need to be abused and kissed and held and maybe slapped and choked while I pound you so hafd the neighbors get jealous
>>8017026
Stop you're making me hot >.>
>>8016954
No, it's just a side effect of a fucked up sex determination system. God had no clue when he designed us.
>>8016960
Yeah, that would suck. I could have gotten them from the drug dealers in NYC @ 14, but I wasn't going there. I wanted legit and I was to scared.
>>8016988
you should read:
http://www.newsweek.com/2015/01/02/thats-not-what-bible-says-294018.html
>>8016997
With the hair, I'd use conditioners. Maybe a deep conditioning every week or 2.
>>8017026
beanboy a lewd