• Discord: https://discord.gg/Z2h2VZe
• Informed consent providers: https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/932389/Trans/Stepping%20Forward%20-%20Informed%20Consent%20Clinics.pdf
• Makeup for beginners: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
• Correct hormone levels: http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
• Checking your levels: http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
• Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
• Transition time lines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• Voice Training: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
>>7497911
tfw no informed consent providers near me
Cool joined
Just joined the discord server and the people are really nice!
Thanks for the quick links to other sites!
>>7497921
yeah nice discord server lol
>>7497931
See a therapist
>>7497915
Do you live in the middle of nowhere?
PASTEL GIRLS TIME
I need my cherry blossom shoes and my bright pastel blue and pink nail polish
>>7501574
omg why only blue and pink?
everyone knows blurple is the best combination
>>7501574
should you really have considered becoming a girl when your shoulders go upward
>>7501574
>cherry blossom shoes
they make that?
who? my eye muscles been twitching nonstop for like 3 days and i was crying all day after being yelled at by 2 different groups of people in just 30 seconds, then someone asked if i was a prostitute. then i went grocery shopping before coming home and this mom sent her two kids to run by me and when they got back to her i heard them say 'i think its a boy!' ive been really stressed and feeling alone and wanted to drove my car off the road on the way home and i think im gonna check myself in
>>7497911
Junebug? Is this your thread? How r u?
>>7501574
wow you've only been there for like 1 day and already the hotel is starting to look like your room
>>7501574
nice tuck
>>7501599
Mhm! I have a pair of these at home
>>7501600
why are people so mean to you...
don't do anything bad or hurt yourself beep I think you are a pretty and nice girl
>>7501608
I'm better, I had the hangover from hell today! I'm happy to see you. :3
>>7501602
>tfw sass says you'd be a good mommy
>>7501611
:3
ditto u
>>7501600
twitching is just a sympton of stress
itll go away when your life calms down
you ought to put a warm rag over your head and eyes and relax for a bit
>tfw staring at a penis flopping around beside you
>>7501607
that's pretty neat
>>7501618
interesting
I also got some other stuffs at Target with Charlotte
>>7501603
ROFL
>>7501613
Which face? The blonde or the bride?
No matter, I still think you would be a good mommy.
>>7501623
>>7501618
flobbi benis
I fed Charlotte some 'go 'za
>>7501627
clothes shopping seems fun
that and having clothes you like
grace is a cute hip teeny bopper
<3
want to le die lol
>>7501629
I love me some 'go 'za
>>7501603
Sorry.
>>7501607
I need new sneakers. Remind me to look for some nice shoes that match my mostly grey and maroon wardrobe later.
>>7501633
get over it u
>>7501632
why she wear shoulder pads tho
>>7501600
You know what normally causes that
Either caffeine or low potassium/magnesium which would be odd in your case, but those like little kids fruit purée in the foil packs you can sort of drink are instant cure for that for me
>>7501640
how
>have a bf now at the start of my transition who's not a chaser and supports me getting srs and will treat me like a girl
>made me feel like a girl on the phone
>made me feel cute and adorable, melted with happiness
>will be able to see every weekend while I'm at uni for the next 4 years
Did I do this in reverse or something?
>>7501628
:DDDDD
>>7501637
it was just a friendly teasing
My bf texted me he is sorry and sad about dumping me. Could this be a way back together or should I not get involved again? I miss him like crazy.
>>7501637
You probably want black but grey is neutral enough you can get some leeway with colors
>>7501646
how
>>7501653
>my bf
He's your ex now
>>7501626
The bride, I did save it to show how parents would react to me tho >.<
>>7501653
don't do it
we can be wgotw together
>>7501657
Jesus.... i don't want an ex
>>7501653
you're gonna miss him but you have a chance to move on with your life without really messing things up
>>7501653
>my bf
>>7501649
There's not much friendly teasing going on in this thread, and I'm genuinelg sorry that you feel this way about my shitty cleaning habits. Most of that is mine.
>>7501646
it just means you are cute and girly prehrt even with muscles and short hair.
have you reordered hrt and some rainbow thigh highs and gotten some biotin?
>>7501668
i don't know what to focus on though
nothing makes me happy anymore
I'm sorry juni
>>7501663
Too fucking bad
You have an ex now. Don't fall into that trap of thinking you can get back together
>>7501655
Cewl
I might get some all-stars, although I'm not sure how I feel about meme shoes.
>>7501674
gay guy who comes here to troll and post cp
>>7501678
this
>>7501658
you want to be a girl married to a boy?
gaaaaaay
>>7501678
elanna im glad you're here
id be sad if you left
i
really
fucking
want
a
bf
>>7501629
>tfw you'll never have Chicago style pizza
Ok, peace out girls! I'm going to bed
>>7501674
im a jew
>>7501678
elanna can you rec me some yuri
>>7501673
what used to make you happy?
When you find something you appreciate try moving in closer to it
>>7501690
(((You)))
>>7501656
I don't know. I was expecting you to tell me.
Must be leftover Spartan cheat codes
>>7501671
Yes I plan to reorder today. And all that stuff too.
>tfw he has seen my face and says he can't wait to meet the girl I'll become
Sill expecting to wake up any second now.
>>7501687
>Chicago style quiche
Fix'd
>>7501678
this, go get your hair done and find someone better
he just wants to use you for sex
>>7501694
give me more daddy
I'm getting a makeover tomorrow and I'm really worried I'll look like a hon
>>7501692
i don't know if anything really did but video games and 4chan used to kind of distract me
>>7501691
Hibike! Euphonium isn't Yuri, but it's cute af.
>>7501696
dont try to get back together though
he was your first bf so beign clingy isnt surprised
you will find another eventually
just try not to obsess over one chaser
>>7501678
;_; but he made me feel special and i just don't wanna be alone
>>7501701
this is why i do my makeup myself. just ask for "subtle smokey eye, natural lip color"
>>7501698
Sass, do you know what quiche is?
>>7501691
I have trash taste
Citrus is aight
I really liked Girlfriends
I cba to do a lot of reading these days tho ;~;
>>7501685
;~;
That's really sweet anon thank you
>>7501706
Find someone who isn't going to pump and dump you
You can do better
>>7501699
Makeover tiem
>>7501709
How do you into smoky eyes without fucking it up?
>>7501696
why not just ask the dragon to see donkey every now and then
>>7501705
isla how do i get a bf
>>7501688
good night princess!!!
>>7501690
an exceptionally great leftist social engineer from nazareth
>>7501702
distract you from what, the emptiness? When is the last time you smiled sincerely? Do you have anyone to hug irl?
>>7501686
me too
I can't sleep
Heck this nonsense
>>7501715
youtube videos and practice. honestly, just sit in front of a mirror with hella makeup wipes and keep trying over and over again until you get something you're sort of satisfied with. the dysphoria will suck but just work through it because this is how you get good at makeup when you haven't been socialized as a girl since birth
>>7501719
You're right, Chicago is not pizza
It's a city.
>>7501715
wow youre still alive?
>>7501723
go to sleep bish
did that work?
>>7501729
no u
>>7501725
>honestly, just sit in front of a mirror with hella makeup wipes and keep trying over and over again until you get something you're sort of satisfied
But im almost out of makeup wipes :/
>>7501678
Thats really hard when a certain ex makes you feel a funny kind of way that nobody else does, no matter how much it hurts sometimes.
>>7501645
Thanks!
>>7501727
I didn't think I could date again after my ex.
It's the hardest thing to accept that it's over.
>>7501718
Yeah emptiness
can't remember
no
>>7501646
FUCKING EASYMODE
>>7501737
drive to CVS and buy more, sheesh
also, buy eyemakeup remover.
>>7501727
Kayla, I don't mean to be rude in saying this, but you were together for like a month.
Yes, it sucks now, but seriously, grow a pair. You will get over him.
There's a lot more people out there that will probably mean a lot more to you
>>7501739
He was her first
Nobody forgets their first, but usually they're not the deepest relationship you'll have
>>7501739
I really don't know what you see in her.
I wonder if she still finds me boring lol.
>>7501740
I don't want it to be over but everyone is right.
>>7501748
hugg
>>7501735
Not quite. I am a little upset you called some a bish though.
>pretend to be a transgirl for sympathy and roleplaying
>get really into it
>learn a lot about being trans and hormones
>want to get on HRT to become a cute transbian for real
>>7501746
It was 2 months actually and every time we met it was super special. I bet all this is because i did boymode with him and he didn't like it.
>>7501701
You look like a girl.
Like, that makeup shoop in the pic with your cleavage, that makes me want die because we're the same age and I'm a joke
>>7501755
just a phase kiddo
dad wants a strong boy
dont disappoint him
>>7501755
>pretend
yeah sure buddy
>tfw ugly and disgusting and don't look like a girl and would probably look even worse if i lost weight
:p
>>7501754
sorry
>>7501759
ill be a strong boy for daddy ill be anything he wants me to be
>>7501762
trip on sheen
>>7501763
I'm actually not upset, sorry, I'm just bored so I'm lying :/
>>7501762
you have to remember your competition, majority of american women are not nice on the eyes
>>7501766
sheen is better than me
Thoughts on Carth? Should I let him fuck me?
>>7501764
go take my advice i told you earlier
>>7501770
true
>>7501747
Its hard to explain.
i dont know how to dress girly without looking stupid or tranny
>>7501756
You should probably take what he says about why he broke things off as a starting point for what went wrong. I assume you want to grow from this, and the first step in doing that isn't to start throwing blame on minor details like that. If there was a personality problem then it needs to be brought into check.
Also, there is the very real possibility that he just wanted you for a quick pump and dump, he was a chaser after all. 2 months is the amount of time that a lot of high school flings last. Imagine how it must feel to be with someone for years and to have it end.
>>7501755
>>pretend
>>7501772
no he's an jerk
>>7501743
Know that you deserve better. Do you have the opportunity to see a therapist?
>>7501748
You'll always have the memories
Be glad it ended swiftly instead of turning toxic.
>>7501762
lauren stop hating
be proud of yourself
>>7501779
you gotta stop caring how others see you to truly express yourself
>>7501779
Whats the hangup for ya?
>>7501769
remember that time faye posted his love confession to me
I feel I cheated the system somehow
>>7501784
>ywn have style like grace
>>7501782
i can't really see a therapist
i can't make it out of my house
i don't know what to do at all
>>7501762
but that stuff isn't true
>>7501786
The fact you have a bf who isn't a chaser at the start of transition tells me you either a shitty repressor or a pretty boy who can't even look masculine with muscles
>>7501785
no lol
faye tells everyone they love them tho. very desperate for affection. they once told me while we dated that they used sex and affection to get ppl to like them lol
>>7501759
already did by being a failure neet
>>7501760
b-but I never wanted to be a girl as a teenager and I don't have dysphoria, I just want to be treated nicely and be cute
I guess Im a silly trandstrender, s-sorry
>>7501792
Yw any time anon
why does everyone want me to stop talking to faye we're gonna sit down and talk about this mtfg
>>7501793
I stil don't know how I did it.
>>7501796
wait
i meant remember that time faye posted boo's love confession to me >_<
So, mtfg, what are you listening to right now? Why isn't it Chick Corea and Return to Forever?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GkiYfwtrb3w
>>7501788
ITS SO EASY THO
i just went to target, looked for stuff i liked, and picked it out
I got that light pink shirt
Someone mentioned the black pants were too much of a contrast
So i got pastel blue
Which then creates a light color outfit that i can use my kate spade bag with because its pastel blue too
And then bam is an outfit
This happened by accident just by picking out clothes i like
Really just browse for a while, try stuff on, and learn what works on you through trial and error and build outfits based around what you like and looks good
>>7501793
>or a pretty boy who can't even look masculine with muscles
all the rating websites gave her 100% fem, she tried her hardest to get it to call her masc but the best she got was 40% fem
i like faye
>>7501797
read this article if you want idk I don't think trenders actually really exist people on here just need more people to hate
http://the-orbit.net/zinniajones/2013/09/that-was-dysphoria-8-signs-and-symptoms-of-indirect-gender-dysphoria/
>>7501720
*waits*
>>7501709
I skipped the smokey eye class like last week, I've just been using a light orange on my entire lid and it's pretty good with blue eyes, but super subtle
>>7501806
I'd be too scared to do that yet, I need to get electro far enough before I start doing that
On another note, i got these
The boot meme is real y'all
>>7501804
o nuh uh lol
i thought ya'll were on good terms or something
>>7501815
Anyone asks why youre in the womens section, its a gift.
You bring the clothes to the changing room, they just ask how many you have, not inspect them.
Its so not a big deal trust me no strangers shopping irl care about you and what youre getting
>>7501797
well whose fault is that dumbo
>>7501816
I like them
do you shop IRL now Kay?
>>7501820
Still haven't got girl clothes in person because im terrified i would cause a scene
>>7501811
>I don't think trenders actually really exist
Of course they exist. It's the people who get dysphoria when the hormones start to work and turn them into the opposite gender/sex and quickly drop the act.
Or those who never even start them and just cosplay while very young but feel fine maturing into a woman/man.
>>7501755
>have a fetish
>compelled to try estrogen when you found out about it
>start looking like a girl
>tell people you're trans
>kind of don't believe you/make fun of you
>learn makeup get a hair cut, do your nails so they'll treat you better
>everyone's nice to you
>but not when you talk
>practice voice, go to doctor
>people even nicer to you when you use it
I guess the point is... it's a slippery slope
>>7501818
no
he said he wished i would kill myself and never come back
thats when i decided our friendship is over
>>7501822
I just said i didn't shop irl, its my biggest fear. I hate openly engaging the public with my degeneracy
>>7501782
>>7501784
i want to try something like this but obviously i dont look as cis as the girl in the pic
>>7501825
Has anyone actually ever seen someone who gets dysphoria from the hormones?
>>7501823
I just said tho
Nobody cares about you irl
I walked around in half ass outfits, probably stubble, girl voice not entirely on point, and got a bunch of girl clothes and a new bag
They just didnt care
At all
Nor did i care
I wanted to buy stuff
Ill never see these people again
Theyll probably be gone in 5 minutes anyway
Idc
>>7501832
I mean circe makes it work
im not hjappy about those logs ok
>>7501827
stage 2 atm
>>7501807
Our phonecall really solidified everything I love about him since I've known him
I guess I was destined for this fate.
No more repression. No more fear. Just being held tight in his arms
>>7501833
that would be getting the symptom from the treatment wouldnt it
>>7501835
>They just didnt care
Easy for you because you pass, try looking like me and see how shit hits the fan
>>7501830
Your clothes must look weird like mine used to on me, I have to try on literally arm fills of stuff because no size is the same
>there are people in this thread right now that have had sex with boys
>>7501837
Welp I'm just going to call you a girl now because you won't want to stop tbqh
>>7501827
>take hormones because 420chan told you about them and you're a curious young boy
>not a tranny though
>the hormones make you a tranny
>get your peepee sliced off
>>7501846
not me im pure
>>7501841
you either look like a girl, a complete faggot, or a complete faggot that obviously wants to be a girl
either way, people know what's up
>>7501827
Tfw I don't do half of that and still get treated like a girl
>>7501843
Must be nice to pass and be privileged enough to openly try on girl clothes.
>>7501833
Edie honestly did
>>7501841
you pass, and you'll pass better as years go by. remember, i and a lot of the other passers here have a couple years on you. It's crazy just what a difference hormones make after 4-5 years. and you'll also learn how to dress more natural and act more naturally female. not even by trying, it'll come naturally. but it takes years for your brain and muscles to un-learn all the repressing you did
so calm down and work on personal fulfillment/betterment
>>7501855
Feels good mane
>>7501856
fake faye story #2475-B
>>7501820
it's also that my face looks irritated 24/7 somewhere since I do electro weekly now and I can't shave a few days a week as I need it to be worked on
juniper is a great person
>>7501851
>either way, people know what's up
Everyone tells me I look like a girl or I'm obviously trans, every time I go out I get gendered as a girl even in man clothes.
>>7501861
It isn't fake
Edie claims xer gets dysphoria if xir looks too feminine
>>7501863
she's okay
>>7501841
I've bought girl clothes in guymode. Seriously, no one cares.
>>7501864
then what are you whining about
>>7501858
I guess, still upset and pissed off I have to still live in boymode
>>7501867
i believe it now that a trustable source like anonymous told me so
also um so this is kind of just me asking for opinions but idk i could use advice
that pilot guy i've been seeing/sleeping with for years now off and on has basically offered to make vids wit me. like lewd ones.
which i could sell and make lotsa monies. obviously like that sounds good, but i've never made lewd vids with a guy for profit before
and idk if that's a good idea? like i'm sure in the future people can still find all my shit online so how much worse would it be than my shows now
BUT AT THE SAME TIME IDK. do i go full on porn whore mode or do i just stick to camming? wwyd? isn't vids like the next logical conclusion lol
>>7501827
>get ffs
>get srs
>start dating widower with two daughters
>get married to widower
>the girls are young enough to only know you as their mother
>eventually have a science baby with hubby
>grow old and watch your children have children
>grow older and watch your grandchildren have children
>pass away happy
>>7501875
Everyone cares and I would get horrid stares if I went to get girl clothes irl
>>7501849
>be me
>be homophobic transphobic repressor
>find mtfg
>lurk and shitpost
>post too much
>get the name Spartan
>repression slowly slips
>try to fight it and fail
>now im Amy
>and gonna be on hrt again
I really did think I was one of the more skilled repressors. I am happy i lost.
>>7501876
camming already puts you at the point of no return porn whore mode wise
>>7501872
you don't /have/ to. if it's so important to you, find a new job and start over. in fact, putting yourself in uncomfortable situations where you feel vulnerable for presenting as a girl are actually good for your growth. it'll actually get you to feeling more comfortable with your self sooner than just hiding for years.
i'm sure you know that you have a lot of pain ahead but it's all worth it.
>tfw legitimately don't know if I'm full time or not anymore
>>7501872
you're probably more pissed off that others don't
>>7501885
true
>>7501862
Use a big ass scarf
btw I wasn't being sincere that isn't the real story of how i fell to degeneracy ;~;
>>7501881
To be fair, if you had a gay relationship with a guy beforehand and they thought you might be trans, you were not that great at repressing
It's ok though, nobody actually is
I forgot to post my Walmart swag
Also like, is it normal for you and your gf to be propositioned in Walmart? I don't know what is is about people and hitting on people in Walmart/McDonald's
Shit just doesn't happen in Whole Foods
>>7501880
you'd have to be really self-obsessed to think that everyone cares about what you do with your life and how you live it, and that's coming from me lol
>>7501882
that's kind of what i'm thinking but for some reason i've just stayed away from making legit porn vids and selling them. BUUUUUUT
i guess i should do it since it'll be more money on top of what i already make right? plus i can control the content so it won't like
look like a trainwreck of a photoshoot and solo vid like a lot of other girls stuff with grooby or shemaleyum lol
>>7501891
What if you didn't know what trans is and the last gf before you started hrt said it was like dating a lesbian
>>7501880
Kayla... even I buy clothes, nobody cares
>>7501811
thank you, I think a lot of that sounds like generic depression doesn't it?
I guess I didn't like turning into a man growing up - all the nasty hair and smell ewww and not looking cute anymore made me sad but I didn't feel dysphoric about it
I simply started to enjoy pretending to be a girl or trap online and relate with transgirls
came to this board out of curiosity but ended up spending too much time here
maybe I should lock myself into /fit/ and that will make me want to be a buff man idk
>>7501821
daddy didnt love me enough, cheated and left to another woman, it's all his fault I didnt grow up to be a man
>>7501893
hey up to you dude
power to you
might as well if youre already past that point
beta cucks will probably shower you with donations
>>7501893
It's more of me just being a fucking coward, desu every time I have gone out in girlmode has been perfect and everyone has been nice to me.
>>7501900
To be super fair if they have young kids they sometimes looked like they car d when I was more boy mode then I am now
Started HRT today!~
Happy new year! Thanks to everyone for encouragement. This is a pic from when I came out last spring at a local music festival.
Lifestyle tips for an HRT beginner would be appreciated!!
>>7501902
you sound like me 2 years ago
>>7501833
this
even the couple posts about ppl detrsnsing because they realized they were cis didnt really mention it
they were kinda wondering what to do about their breasts but they didnt seem to hate them
>>7501902
i dont think everyone without a daddy in their life grew up trans brah
>>7501910
no problem
if you become rich split some donos with me
im broke nigga
>>7501896
P trutrans
>tfw was completely unable to maintain a relationship pretransition so have no idea what other people thought of me in that intimate of a setting
>>7501827
>>7501849
>>7501881
s-stop this makes me legit scared
should I never take mones and better stop coming here?
>>7501835
me
>>7501902
Daddy was such a drag..
Every day he’d eat the same kind of food, dress the same, sit in front of the same kind of games..
Yeah, he was just that kind of guy.
But then one day, he goes and kills us all!
He couldn’t even be original about the way he did it.
I’m not complaining… I was dying of boredom anyway
But guess what? I will be coming back, and I’m bringing my new toys with me.
>>7501918
like you had no interest in relationships, or you were insufferable during them?
>>7501905
I fewl the same way, if anything my boymode causes more problems then my girlmode
I think when I was with my ex that having him around made me feel strong and mostly every time we met I went in girlmode and we went to restaurants and took walks and everything was fine. I'm afraid if I do stay alone that I wont go girlmode again. If my ex says he wants to go over what happened at like some coffee bar then I wouldn't hesitate to show up in girlmode
>>7501920
no it means you should start mones now dummy
shhhh *stealth kisses kayla*
>>7501891
>nobody actually is
speak for yourself, I was the manliest man in town :P
>>7501914
Getting dysphoria from things the estrogen is doing is a very weird feeling.
>>7501917
b-but i need my money for me ;_; without it i could never live the ridiculous extravagant pointless lifestyle i've become accustomed
how do i trick a chaser into falling in love with me
>>7501920
Lmao one pill is all it takes
>>7501891
I guess I really wasn't
>>7501936
pretend to be a tranny
>>7501936
tell them you have a nice cock and you're in
>>7501934
whats it like?
i've kinda been doubting I was really trans but I really do like everything HRT has done to me so far
>>7501921
Pretty cute, ya did good
>>7501935
but how else will i pay for my coke addiction in college?
>>7501933
Yeah no
You sounded fucking adorable pretransition, like people could tell you were a girl and were like cuddling you and stuff
I was just an annoying ugly socially anxious tard pretransition ;~;
>>7501938
I mean, kinda called it, but you're getting better now
>>7501920
>being scared of being loved as a girl
Get good faggot
>>7501936
pretend to be a tranny and wear a false penis
>>7501881
Out of all the repression cases, why is Amy's the cutest?
>>7501927
why get into relationships if you don't want them
>>7501936
You don't have to trick me
>>7501941
Like looking down in the shower and getting dysphoric about breasts instead of my dick. I ended up decreasing my E dose for a few months and trying out T because of that. The T didn't really make me feel any different about myself and I discontinued it because it was inconvenient mostly.
At this point I'm back on the high estrogen dose and I'm hoping to stave off any further dysphoria by staying /fit/. In public I'm pretty much always surprised when I get gendered, regardless of which way it is.
>>7501948
>like people could tell you were a girl and were like cuddling you and stuff
wait, I told you about that? D:
>>7501953
she actually has a chance
>>7501951
i can see it now
'actual fire' produced by Edie's Porn Money Records
>>7501958
right
i love seeing my boobs when I shower
maybe I'm not cis after all
>>7501954
The ftm thing is super common, but so is presenting ultra fem and no hormone and saying your a man
>>7501911
Shave legs if you're gonna wear a skirt in public.
>>7501955
I wanted to repress, it was a last ditch thing. I feel really bad for the girl though, she was sweet and really didn't deserve to get sucked into my identity crisis
>>7501959
Yeah
And I remember it because it's so unbelievably fucking cute omg
>>7501911
>>7501936
do a little dance and touch them with your benis
>>7501974
I feel a bit bullied now
>>7501978
HAHAHAHAAHAHA
HE'S STARING AT THE UNSHAVED LEGS
>>7501968
Yeah that's not a very cismale thing to feel.
I like my muscle definition and miss my flat chest. I work hard to keep the definition I do have and miss things like ripped forearms that I can't get any more.
But there was also stuff about being male that bugged me too and whatever hormones I get on will be a compromise at this point. I can get closer to neutral without T and with E playing the role of bone health and sex drive, so this is me now.
>>7501972
fuk da patriarchy
>>7501948
Still can't believe it
>>7501953
Is it cause I like boys?
>search the name of that one guy i hated in high school who was a complete dick to me and mocked me constantly in front of my other friends
>tfw he's got a successful career in the same field of studies as me
>tfw he graduated with double major from a better college
>tfw I've struggled in my interviews and can't land anything on top of being some idiot guy in drag who thinks he's a girl
Well that's a nice way to crush my spirits
Really wish I could drink right now
>>7501936
Show him ur gt
>>7501981
HA HA
SOPHIE'S A GIRL AND ALWAYS WAS ONE
Not like me, I'm certain I was a convincing boy
>>7501986
>Is it cause I like boys?
cute :3
>>7501991
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
:(
>>7501949
Im legit scared no one will love me, not like I will magically turn into a beauty and I dont live in lgbt-frioendly place
roleplaying online is not the same as trying to make it a reality you know
>>7501938
>one pill is all it takes
>t-that sounds like heroin, better avoid!
but for real I know it wont make many changes until few months
>>7501988
what's your field of studies?
and that sucks, the bullies are supposed to be unsuccessful wtf
Im an alpha male and always have been
fuck u sophel
>>7501958
you weren't really dysphoric about them before like during your first few years of transition though were you? or were you and you didn't realise?
did a lot of you girls get bullied in high school?
>>7501999
WHAT DID I DO
>>7502001
I did a bit, but it honestly wasnt very bad
does grace usually post so many pictures of herself?
>>7502000
Comes and goes I guess? I tried femming up for a few years but it just made me miserable and I mostly neglected my appearance then. Luckily I never got significant breast growth so it's mostly been a non-issue.
>>7502001
in middle school
in high school i just isolated myself voluntarily
>>7502001
I always had a pretty girly voice so people would make fun of it sometimes.
>>7501994
Had the same fear, it's actually easier to get with some people, of course harder for others, but I don't know what your country is like >.<
>>7501993
Oh btw I was a troll and griefer and an online bully so yeah
Don't mess with me I'll bully u
>>7502001
Naw, I hung out with the drama kids they were really nice
>>7502004
she posts selfies every day with every post she makes
>>7502001
i was a ghost so not really
though some fucking kid on the wrestling team hit me for no reason
and he laughed at me in the street one time
i didn't get it really
>>7502001
yeah a lot
but i was a big guy so i only got in a few fights ;3
>>7502012
maybe we should playfight
Ill prove that I am way stronger
>>7502014
WHAT DID I DO??
>>7501992
I am really happy when my bf treats me like a girl
>>7502015
Some guy I never even talked to called me a faggot once. Just out of the blue, didn't say a single other word to me.
>>7502003
>>7502017
>>7502001
In middle school, yes. Early high school, yes. After I started repressing, no.
I got called girl, faggot and shemale mostly.
>>7502021
yeah that's so weird
like unprovoked bullying shit
>>7502020
My high school experience wasn't that bad honestly except for the whole puberty thing. And I couldn't get anyone to date me.
Sensitivity, kindness, compassion and all these other alleged virtues are of little use in this world. In fact, they will make your life harder than it need be, as you will be crippled by over-awareness of every slight, every injustice, every pointless grief. Life is a violent process, generated by violence (think of the thrusting, grunting, force and possession involved in the sexual act), and maintained by violence. Your life will be happier the more of a pig you can be. Moreover, those you help, or imagine helping, will not be that grateful; most will go on to procreate and renew the slaughterhouse, and applaud the others who do so.
Another good reason to be a pessimist.
>>7502001
this gay mexican guy and his crew of stacies made fun of me and wouldn't let me sit at their table
Extremely intelligent alpha male here - how do I date one of you faggots?
>>7502031
I had some friends though! And for my senior year I transferred schools and had a grand old time.
>>7502017
Nuh uh, you don't mess with this
I am the alpha
I surprised some people when I came out
>>7502020
Yeah I actually was pretty happy growing up, I had some good friends, plus I feel like theatre is pretty much the perfect place for a repressing/unaware tranny to land
I did both get bullied and bullied people in elementary school though
>>7502035
tyler?
>tfw the only thing keeping you from forcibly emptying the contents of your skull is knowing it would hurt the few people who still care about you
>>7502001
just the regular as any other classmate
in college im popular because im funny and homophobic and closet as fuck
>>7502035
be goodlooking and high status and treat us like girls and be really surprised when we tell you were trans
>>7502035
>intelligent
>calling us faggots
:thinking:
>>7502023
dont bully me :c
>>7502039
I am so strong, they dont even give me normal cups anymore because I just accidently squish them
>>7501574
Please teach me how to get into fashion like you.
>>7501995
I have some focus in cyber security and some in embedded systems design. He got a job at a big computer security company and it just made me die inside
He was such a two faced asshole that always made sure to point how much of a fucking moron I was and acted better than everyone because his parents got him everything he wanted because his dad is loaded
I shouldn't have searched his name I ruined my night
>>7502001
I had some friends and only had the one guy that was a dick to me
I was such a loser I think my friends just felt bad for me then because only one or two actually want to talk to me, the rest just sorta cut me off
>>7502046
>be goodlooking and high status
I think those guys go for real girls
>be really surprised when we tell you were trans
hahahahahaha
>>7502005
oh okay. I know you said before that being a guy definitely wasn't working for you but that makes sense too that really fem isn't your thing either.
>>7502035
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZgPyM-OJFo
You can make your own
>>7502035
Prove you're more clever than me.
>>7501998
alpha-cute and alpha-stylish
Edie x drake might be the pinnacle of thread cancer
>>7502044
I know
I have some pretty deep regrets about that
I had some issues ok, I ridiculed people for being "faggots" around the same time that I was secretly crossdressing
>>7502047
I'm so manly that I supply an eighth of Canada's pharmaceutical testosterone
>>7502048
1. Walk into Walmart or Target.
2. Close eyes.
3. Grab something out of bargain bin.
4. ???????
5. PROFIT
>>7501933
>>7501948
>>7501974
>>7501991
nobody at all guessed that what was wrong with me was I was a faggot.
I should have killed myself a long time ago.
>>7502001
there was a few times I almost cried... when I was still smaller than most of everyone in my year in grade 8 I had helped my mum bake some anzac biscuits for anzac day history class to share with my class, and they were in this tin can with a handle that my mum stored teabags in... one of the guys in my class decided to slap it out of my hand.
also I got dacked a few times.
but when I became a monster everyone was afraid of me because I was quiet and big
>>7502035
If you're so smart why don't you figure it out?
>>7502059
to protect the world from devestation
>>7502048
Pay attention to what cis girls wear
Look at pinterest
Find items that stick out to you and see how theyre advertised
Like
I like these shoes, what do they have the model wearing them wear?
Learn how to coordinate colors
Figure out what your body type is and what works on it
Go to stores and try things on
Find clothes to form an outfit based around what you tried on and liked
Ezpz
>>7502058
Ask Charlotte, im an alpha tranny
>>7502061
what did you wear when you cd?
>>7501911
You look amazing you're going to be the next Grace.
>>7501653
He got what he wanted dumb ass. He just wants to fuck your bp. He doesn't give a shit about you.
>>7502066
Because I have more pressing matters to pour my intellect into. The fact of the matter is that I would be doing a great social service to any one in this thread that I chose to associate with in any capacity.
>>7502073
based
>>7502070
if that you grace?
>>7502072
Idk, whatever I could find, girljeans and tees mostly because that's what was around
I didn't own my own clothes, I just stole my sister's
>>7502073
I know ;__________;
I just didn't want to be made fun of I wanted to be normal
>>7502078
excellent
sounds like youre ready bud
go and find your tgf
>>7502080
Very funny.
>>7502087
>i was a gigantic cunt my entire life until transition
> was
>>7502080
I wish
We are womyn
>>7502094
edie is really good though
>>7502027
Virtues are always tough to maintain, that's why people give it credence, that's why they're fulfilling
Sociopaths and the narcissistic bpd people of the world will try to rip those ideals apart, tell people good lies about how you don't need them for attention, but that kind of thing only lasts days for them and becomes sort of a drug requiring more and more new people to believe in the fakeness
They've known this since biblical times, but it's really something you have to learn through self sacrifice and accomplishment to even understand what it feels like
>>7502096
hugg
>>7502097
newfag
thinking about that time that gay mexican kid edward beat me up and crying
>>7502099
hugg u <3
>>7502089
What do you think I'm doing here you mental patient?
>>7502102
>thinking about that time that gay mexican kid edward beat me up crying
i-i'm sorry anon, i have to do this or they'll pick on me for being gay
>>7502100
i've been around since feefs
edie is the most street smart person here and she knows her shit
>>7502070
Nope, I'm just a lost puppy in my natural state.
>>7502087
Yeah and desu after that period I just sort of was a griefer and shit disturber online.
Idk I was an angry kid
>>7502070
>tfw just go to a store and buy some random clothes or something on sale
>wear it once, throw in a wardrobe and forget about it
>have more clothes than even a typical girl
>still not much to wear if I want to look stylish
online shopping certainly makes it easier but its no fun
>>7502087
honestly senpai i never thought id actually like a camwhores personality
>>7502094
i'm only really mean now when i feel attacked or see my friends being beratted honestly!!!
>>7502111
drake are you sure you're not trans?
>>7502061
>I'm so manly that I supply an eighth of Canada's pharmaceutical testosterone
going by canadas current manliness, thats probably 1/8th of ... nothing?
>when the dysphoria hits you
>>7502111
I don't know why you're a narcissist she's a narcissist, you'd obviously play well off each other
>>7502051
people with money and a lot of self-confidence tend to do well i guess
i like ediexdrake
>>7502117
says the person who spams their pic all the time
>>7502116
ur not allowed to have dysphoria
remember you have nice hips
>>7502117
i think the softcore selfie count you spam thread with every day kinda disproves your argument
>>7502127
Im a slut big difference
>>7502136
ahh iktf
mine are really gross
if i'm gonna start exercising it's gotta be stuff to work on hips
>>7502108
Such a cute pup
i miss dollface selfies
>somebody on the school Yik Yak feed posts their pic, looks pretty andro, and talks about hugboxing
Alright which one of you is it
>>7502116
Iktf
It always hits me when I feel okay and just unravels me
>>7502110
Still going to be more stylish than Grace.
>>7502144
hey merc
>>7502115
I am the manliest in Canada
>>7502125
Yeah I mean I guess
In general all the people that were doing it and that I was 'friends' with were all very sad people. At least one of them also turned out to be trans. I think a few of them are dead because alcoholism
Idk, bullies are always just trying to have some miniscule amount of control in a life where they feel completely out of control.
>>7502150
who?
>>7502133
>you're an insecure slut so I'm not a narcissist
Is literally a textbook narcissistic response
I bet by now there's another one exactly like it
>>7502141
>work on hips
>hon memes
What muscle groups are you targeting? Hip flexors??
>>7502143
>^ω^<
>>7502116
Would cuddling help?
>>7502001
I was in a shit school when in elementary where everyone got bullied, but I wasn't the weakest to be a constant target
then I moved and got into a good one that would be like US private school, no bullying there at all, we were all friendly and there were more girls than boys, I guess that affects the social environment too
I struggled to get accepted to the 'cool kids' circle tho
>>7502154
is that a jojo reference?
>>7502144
here u go am posting a selfie for u
>>7502146
LMAO I DON'T LIKE BULLYING PEOPLE THO.
like some sick twisted part of me likes it when it feels justified cause it's like venting that toxic energy but it's so mean
also don't mind faye, she's literally the most narcissistic person in here and her parents have BPD and beat her as a kid. you can't take that kinda person seriously.
>>7502156
i saw this pic last night and it got me :thinking:
i didn't realize it was just memes
>>7502162
hey i dont do it just to be mean to people either
im a warrior of justice
i think its best to consider everything faye says as fake since it is like 90% of the time
the rest of 4chan is p boring compared to you guys honestly
>>7502162
I plan to girlmode at bch when it gets warm again, even though I'm alone
>>7502164
This is what big hip flexors look like.
dp i liked the bird webm u posted btw
>>7502162
aw thanks! you were avatarfagging your face around the time i first started coming here, so it's nostalgia i guess.
>>7502169
i didn't say you did!!! I JUST feel mean doing it myself usually. and that's also tru. she just trolls all da time u know.
>>7502173
mtfg brings the excitement
>>7502174
girlmode at beach is p nice. girlmode in general is p nice!!! DO WHATEVER MAKES U HAPPY
>>7502180
oh yis i did it longg agoo. but now i feel like everyone knows what i look like anyways so i just post pics if i'm out doing something and happy and sharin a story about my day yknow
hugg
do you like me or am i just an annoying hon
>>7502179
i have a few sister
do you mean this savage one
>>7502173
I think it all depends on what you're looking for. If you want any topic with substance then /mtfg/ is going to be one of the most boring threads on the site. It's a good place to come to laugh at people, a gift that keeps on giving every other post.
>>7502184
idk you seem nice? idek what you look like
I am still going to be a man hon after weightloss
>>7502184
i don't really know you, but if you're the person i think you are, then you're not a hon
>>7502184
i like you
>>7502162
>lies to create a scenario where certain people are demons and others are angels
>black and white reasoning
>uses it to justify her actions
>>7502169
>I'm a warrior for justice
>literally my actions are justified because of my judgement being better then others
This is basic narcissistic behavior as well
>>7502184
Most of us don't even know who you are. Even the trips you think are popular are actually annoying hons to most people.
>>7502188
people say I'm cute but lolhugbox.
>>7502184
I don't pay attention to anyone that doesn't give me (you)s
>>7502184
I think you're pretty
>>7502197
faye hi
>>7502194
You aren't going to be worse than any other trip.
>>7502183
renren <3
>>7502184
i like you
you got spiral power
>>7502186
yes
>>7502162
>she's literally the most narcissistic person in here
t. the actual most narcissistic person in here
what's the name of the manga with the drr drr holes
>>7502209
hey you gave me a chance to post my favorite video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=plk35VYDKZE
>>7502212
the what now
>>7502205
>why does it matter even?
reee passers get out
>>7502204
it's tru it's tru....................
well i mean her life is kinda...empty? like everyone around her sees her as a man and tries to force her to be that
and she doesn't really have any friends and her family is awful to her. imagine not having anyone at all and being stuck somewhere.
of course you'd live here and live vicariously through lies online. es sad kinda
>>7502211
i'm not really that narcissistic desu tho people tend to think i am because....................... i use this thread in the same way everyone else does and take care of my appearance i guess
>>7502215
its like the enigma something
>>7502212
what's drr holes
>>7502197
>>7502194
is that you in the pic? your face is unmanly and you will be cute and face is 90%
>>7502205
It's just the structure of your argument
I don't do this
But in this case I can do this
Because (lie I tell myself to make someone sound terrible)
It's just how you handle yourself, it really isn't that huge of a deal, I used to sit through slide shows of indicators like this.
>>7502182
i'm trying to experience more of life, but getting ready and worrying about getting clocked takes so much out of you
>>7502212
Enigma of Amigara Fault
>>7502212
The Enigma of Amigara Fault.
>>7502227
thank you
>>7502217
she hates it the most when you ignore her by the way
even more when you gossip about her
i feel a little bad for her
manufacturing so much of your life must make you forget who you actually are
no wonder she's so crazy
>>7502216
we're all just randoms behind a screen idk
the way we look has literally nothing to do with who we are or how we express ourselves through text online so idgi
>>7502220
rip
>>7502223
isn't that what you're doing right now lol
>>7502224
yeah i get that. you gotta get past that tho. sometimes people will know and sometimes they won't. you're still the same person regardless.
>>7502227
(you)
meme number one
>>7502196
sorry I missed (you)
>>7502227
>tfw replied but no (you)
>>7502194
You've come this far, might as well see it through.
What's your overall thoughts about your transition thus far? Pros/cons..
>>7502220
faye is hotter than edie now though
>>7502232
NOW LOOK AT THIS NET
THAT I JUST FOUND
WHEN I SAY GO
CATCH ME AND THROW ME IN THE RIVER
>>7502231
Not if you have reading comprehension
>>7502217
Faye doesn't have it as bad as most people and a lot of them don't do what you said. Not everyone is an insane narcissist.
>>7502235
I'm sorry anon I'm running out of (You)s, hiroshima nagasaki needs to hand out more
>>7502239
dp sometimes ur cool but sometimes you're mean can you just be cool from now on
>>7502240
Faye weren't you and Edie bffs just a little while ago?
#teamFaye
#teamMommy
>>7502238
You must be extremely delusional. Faye is almost 5 years in transition and hasn't changed in the last 6 months.
>>7502245
thats just how men are sweetie
cant change em
>>7502230
ye ;_; it's very sad. i mean don't get me wrong i'm not 14 years old or some shit like i'm 25 but when i'm older like her in a decade i don't wanna still be here saying the kind of shit she does lol
like i pray to whatever deity exists that i have an actual life and can function like a normal human being when i'm in my mid 30s
>>7502240
alright whatever u say sergeant daddy
>>7502241
i never said everyone was desu
>>7502246
idk i've tried being nice to her but even when i'm not posting here at all i'll look through the archives and the only one ever bringing me up is her. it's cray
>>7502220
>>7502249
i guess... :/
i want faye to hold me and tell me im her favorite daughter
>>7502253
LMAO
THE DELEGATES EDIE
HAND EM OVER
>>7502246
Faye was actually on here literally gloating and telling people they're jealous she's dating the famous Dollface. If you're willing to dig into the archive you can find it all.
>>7502248
pretty sure she has bigger boobs and she has more kissable lips
>>7502238
get some meds for your retardation
>>7502259
faye is cute
>>7502253
Haha I can't unsee this now.
>>7502204
>shouldntve done it mate
stayed alive past puberty?
I agree, should have killed myself once repression became too much.
>>7502208
thats a lie, nearly everyone here is smol and those that arent got actual results
>>7502222
that was me when I was 18 and didnt have a chance, now I'm 33, been on hrt for almost 3 years and still have no chance.
>>7502258
i remember this
faye is pathetic
>>7502165
Yeah idk
I feel like my shitty side slips out once in a while but yeah, at least I didn't repress once I actually figured out what was wrong with me
>>7502250
oh youre 25?
noice
im 19 lol
i forget how old she is too
it's so creepy to think of someone wasting their life in fantasy at that age
what do you think she has to live for edie?
>>7502266
i'm curious, but too lazy to check the archives. i remember there was a portland meetup or something and faye broke up with her gf. or maybe she was just stirring up drama.
>>7502256
mommy elanna is better
>>7502276
>in agp pics
Does having a tumblr make you trutrans or agp
>>7502248
>.> I was on hrt in the middle of Iraq on a combat operating base with the 2-75?
That would have been interesting, the drone pilot on base wound up running around naked, drunk off liquor and screaming that she had been raped by a couple guys
>>7502269
i've honestly never really seen you be shitty so idk. but ye i agree repressing is real bad desu!!!
>>7502272
yis ur a youngin lol. she's 34? bday is like.....july.......27th? so almost 35.
um i mean when we dated she mostly said she was living for her gf at the time and that's why she let her gf abuse her verbally and otherwise.
when we started dating i had to literally get her to girlmode and help her transition and encourage her to go to school and do literally anything
and she was almost 10 years older than me... like tf
>>7502275
nooo she basically lead her current gf on for a month after the meetup until we became official and she dumped her. then after i dumped her she called the ex up within 5 minutes and posted pics of them in bed together. she's just...crazy
>>7502267
You put yourself down where others demand to be hug boxed. That's the only real difference.
>>7502279
mommi
>>7502267
How many times do I have to tell you, losing weight will help a lot.
>>7502288
i wish elanna was my mom
i think she would be good
>>7502231
>>7502281
depends on what you post there
show us
>>7502280
Yeah she tries to exaggerate in all of her pics. Sort of as if you can put an """ooh la la, would you fuck me, I'd fuck me, oo la la honny""" caption under all of her staged selfies.
>>7502283
if faye is so cray, how/why did dollface fall for it?
>tfw no friends
i wanna kiss Juniper
I kissed a pretty goth girl and grinded with an emo twink and some lady said my hair looks like Taylor Swift
>>7502267
>33
ouch but still younger than me
losing weight will help for sure
>>7502283
>faye has been going to school for two years for post bach science degree
>meet her in break
>she goes back to school
>I get credit
See this is also narcissism, this is like trumps tweets claiming bringing jobs planned out two years ago to the states
It's really bad I worry for you
>>7502302
you're my favourite poster
>>7502283
Being a mess in your thirties isn't anything to be ashamed of but you're right it's nothing to be proud of either.
>>7502305
lets fuck!!!!
>>7502310
i like you, red
>>7502283
>edie is a do-gooder
you've always answered my questions,
and i think people are just jelly that you're usually right and your looks triggers them more
>>7502302
this is good
>>7502272
hey drake
post some drakes
>>7502300
You can find that in the archive too. Dollface wanted to fix her and make her transition socially instead of stay in limbo. There are some that also believe Dollface wanted to date Faye because she liked her man mode and lusts for army men.
Im cold
I dont wanna go home tomorrow
I dont want charlotte to go home tomorrow
Im gonna miss having a real friend to hang out with
At least she might come back in the spring for an anime con
>>7502308
I own two houses though
I'm doing pretty ok
>>7502317
See the difference is you're just trying to use it like an immature insult. Except you really are a delusional hon and thinks the Buffalo Bill of /mtfg/ is one of the hottest girls ever. That's literally crazy.
>>7502300
i really loved her when i first saw her. and a lot of shit happened to her in her life and there were times where like i still saw her being extremely kind and compassionate
i kind of just thought that like she was still somehow this amazingly beautiful person who managed to not let everything life threw at her fuck her up
and then once i realized that she was fucked up i tried hard to reassure her of the traits i guess i projected onto her that i loved to show her who she "really was" but it turned out she REALLY WAS that fucked up person and not the girl i fell in love with at first sight. so i ended it.
>>7502308
ye. i just hope i have my shit together by then. i'm gettin it together slowly but ya.
>>7502312
like who??????????
>>7502314
i'm not a do gooder at all lol but yknow people change when they really care about someone
>>7502327
from doing what exactly? what did you actually do for a job?
>tfw seeing gf is 3 whole months away
Fuck
>tfw can't sleep because all my dreams are coming true
>>7502325
did u fug
>>7502327
Whatever makes you happy in life man. :^)
>>7502325
:(
you're a good person, grace. i'm glad you and charlotte had fun.
>>7502338
Hugg
>>7502325
I don't even know what I'm looking at except that it's a mess.
>>7502333
trust fund baby, army welfare
whenever she whines about the army not paying for this and that her excuse for not spending it out of her own pocket is
>I dont want to spend the money
>>7502342
ily
>>7502325
>ywn live near grace
fug
>>7502348
Hugg laur
>>7502325
Please stop.
I just want to pretend that I'm ok with being alone all the time.
You're making me cry.
>>7502350
hugg rinrin
>>7502349
>ywn live near anyone
>>7502332
Shakira
Robin
Cartman (multiple times)
Sweg
>>7502332
its so weird when you first meet someone and you think you've found someone,
and then something bad happens, which reveals their true nature
and you say to yourself, how could I have been such a fool
Im probably gonna rest my head on her chest and cry a bit once im done packing
>>7502336
No. I told yall many times her and i are just friends. We cuddled and thats it. Shes very comfy to cuddle and sleep with. And a great person to have around.
>>7502338
Hugg
>>7502339
Thanks anon
I wish she could have stayed longer at least
Theres still so much more i wanted to do with her
Though im okay with how things turned out cause she had a good time.
>>7502345
Ill be fine
Goodbies are always the hardest
But its not much of a good bye
Cause later tomorrow after we have gone home we will be talking again and back to normal
>>7502346
My stuff getting packed
Not sure what to do with my new bag
>>7502349
Charlotte flew out
>>7502351
I figured those werent cold sniffles. Time to hold you.
>>7502354
cartman deserves it
i just wish I could be a better gf for kaylee
I got medication for my yelling so hopefully i won't yell at her
>feeling kind of tired, lay down after making dinner
>get a call, slept for three hours, supposed to be at work 15 minutes ago
>coworker pissed no water bottle no girl pills no dinner
Kill me
PS kill me
>>7502049
>>7502300
I attribute things I'm doing to other people because I have no sense of self, it's addictive for a narcissist because I do a ton of great things for people, and push myself in a lot of ways.
To her she was getting credit for all of it, she was there to share some of the credit,
But when she decided she wanted other things she needed to change the narrative for her ego
It doesn't really matter to me but that's what the biggest gaps are, most my real life is built around making people happy feel included, charity work, and trying to transition, she's a sex worker, I don't really think those two things are actually compatible.
i'm a stupid bad gf and i dont deserve kaylee
>>7502353
you could always do what i did
1
>convince people to move to portland
2
>leave portland
3
>leave mtfg
?
>?????
>>>7502359
ok where you from senpai?
ive been moving around a lot and i could be in the area?? maybe?????????????
>>7502354
>pic taking shoulder anon
don't forget you dismissed me quickly
>>7502365
What did you do?
>>7502354
well...................................i mean.......................that list of trips is kind of.............................understandable...........
...so.................but.......i see your point so ty
>>7502356
ye .___. i mean the first weekend was real perfect.
but after that she made me cry a few times cause she was basically telling both me and her gf that she liked us and stringing us both along and idk
it all just basically went downhill and i was like wow this is def not gonna work at all. and then i felt awful ending it cause i loved her so we got back together but that didn't last obvi lol
THESE THINGS HAPPEN IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL but if i'm being honest it upsets me that she still says a ton of awful shit about me all the time
so that's why i dislike her now and say shit back. i'd be happy to forget it ever happened and regularly forget that i had any serious relationship in 2016 at all :/
>>7502370
don't be mean to robin
she never did anything wrong
>>7502347
I'm not a trust fund baby, but I did inherit my dads entire estate as the only one of five brothers who ever talked to him and for taking care of him through his cancer, I didn't expect it though, I tried to offer a fair split and my brothers thought it was worth millions of dollars and acted insane
In actuality I was thrown out at 17 and then again at 18
>>7502368
I yelled at her because people (including her) kept asking if I was drunk when I was going to drive and I really hate anybody saying I would ever drunk drive, so the yelling just came out
I really don't like when I yell but it just happens and it's a BAD BAD part of me I'm bad!
http://www.strawpoll.me/12010557
>>7502372
i try not to be mean to her but she can be frustrating at times lol
i've never met anyone who was not only so disconnected with social boundaries or socialization in general but who was also so adamant in their distaste for themselves, their life, and their conditions. like what do you say to that stuff
>>7502375
hugg
patt
>>7502376
delet
>>7502376
keep trucking
>>7502376
Neither.
>>7502370
Idk I guess I haven't ever been mean to someone on here that hasn't gone out of their way to get on my nerves but yeah
>>7502361
Yeah, but I made him stop posting for more than a month once
>>7502367
It's nothing personal I just don't know how to respond to those posts ;_;
>>7502377
I cant say publicly!
Shes secretive
BTW maeve is my f#*&kin waifu and none of you s*&t heads better mess with her
>>7502378
shes been having a good time recently though
and seems to have a decent social life
guess thats why shes barely here anymore
>>7502375
Sigh red, I wish you could talk to someone professional about this stuff, beating yourself up about it is hurting you
Not that you can't be self introspective, but just try to take it in stride and be better and kiss her and say sorry rather then bottling it up
>>7502376
neither
>>7502385
lol you can keep your degenerate hamster waifu
I lost all my friends transitioning, how do I make new friends
>>7502364
>she's a sex worker
camming isnt same as prostitute/whore
some normie stacies cam for money
>>7502393
i'm sorry all your friends turned out to be trannies
>>7502393
same
hang out with gay people and sjws
>>7502396
dumb shitposter
>>7502385
motherf&$#ing hugg
>>7502373
exactly
placed low plat in overwatch
feels terrible HONESTLY
>>7502398
rude tbqh
>>7502397
I don't like them
>>7502401
I think rating is 1161 or something but I'm scared to play much. I'm only really good with D.va
>tfw person I mentioned before that posted their face pic was the same person that helped give me the confidence to set my endo appointment
Spooky. Glad she's doing well and passing well
>>7502393
Try to find groups irl with the same interests as you and meet up with them
>>7502401
tfw lewded with a top 500 player
>>7502407
I don't have any interest, I'm boring
there was this one girl I was really excited to meet in Portland but she ghosted on me after i told her personal stuff and I really miss talking to her
Whats your new years resolution mtfg?
I'm gonna lose weight and become a hungry skeleton again
>>7502419
Me too!
Wanna reach skelly mode again by end of february
>>7502419
I'm gonna keep staying off the drugs
>>7502419
have to finish a big case of butter cookies first
>>7502419
I'm going to be a cute girl
>>7502419
to gain weight
>>7502403
I dunno I've been there with the killing my self thing, Haven gotten over it, I realized it's just a brain chemistry thing, like a compulsion, which is made worse by your situation not being ideal, but just kind of realize that it may feel real but it's not, you should want to live, you're programmed to biologically, and you will want to if you push through all of it and get to the other side.
>>7502419
i gotta come out
i hope to go full time this year
>>7502416
who
>>7502419
Come out to mom and keep up my momentum
>>7502429
But you are a cute girl!
Which trips are cuddle sluts?
>>7502419
gonna grow out my bangs and do pic related to my hair in color and style, gonna move to philadelphia, gonna travel to japan with my sugar daddy, gonna start school for botany, gonna get a bf, gonna make lots of $$$ with camming and making porn wit my qt pilot guy, and maybe gonna have a relationship wit him too cause i really want that. also gonna get tons of tats on my arms. maybe legs can't decide yet. DOSE MY PLANS
>>7502419
finish transitioning and make friends
>>7502419
I'm going to push my gf to workout with me, finally get back in the army and get married by the end of the year.
>>7502440
OH ALSO getting my nose and brow done wit raphael.
>>7502438
i will cuddle anything that moves
>>7502438
all of them are
secretly
>>7502438
i wanna cuddle!!
>>7502444
honestly i did the same and ya. did you know the placements are rigged?
>>7502419
mine is to kms
>>7502456
dont
How is everyone on mtfg tonight?
>>7502436
You didn't end up coming out on Christmas/New Years then?
>>7502419
Start taking control of my life: Go back to school, Start transitioning, Drop my weight to 120 then build muscle and gain weight till I hit 125-128ish.
>>7502438
Cuddles are nice but I have to have an emotional connection to be comfortable with it. Cuddling with people is really stressful if I don't have a connection with them.
>tfw ur dad ssys your the most selfish person he's ever seen and he thinks you're going to die out in the streets because you forgot to put the iced tea back in the refrigerator
>>7502419
Become a skeleton, briefly
Start voice training
Go to school
Stop being dysfunctional
>>7502462
he is a bad person
>>7502464
maybe
>>7502461
I've never thought about things I want to try so nothing really, I've always just went along with what my friends were doing.
>>7502462
<3
what did you say?
>>7502465
you are a good person
>>7502469
i just walked away
>>7502438
>tfw both cuddle and regular slut
>>7502463
imagine being raped by this big guy
>>7502473
I assume he feels like you took his son away
does he ever seem reasonable?
>>7502482
he hits my mom and breaks down doors and stuff
>>7502462
tell him he's a fag
Have you been raped?
http://www.strawpoll.me/12010644
http://www.strawpoll.me/12010644
http://www.strawpoll.me/12010644
>>7502486
Is he open to therapy?
Does your mom want to leave him?
>>7502491
I've been sexually assaulted but not full on raped
>>7502495
he doesn't think he doesn't anything wrong
my mom thinks he'll change
>>7502491
really? just me and one other girl?
>>7502462
This is how narcissists roll, you got to become dead to it, because it's aimed to fuck with how normal empathetic people think
If you internalize it, it'll fuck you up for years
>>7502502
i don't go outside really
i'm sorry if you were raped rachel, that's mad fucked up
>>7502502
>.>
>>7502454
yeah they kinda are honestly
idk they were difficult
i have a long coach trip today ;_;
>>7502502
ikr :\
>>7502502
I have to leave my house in order to be raped
I hope you're okay, that's horribly traumatic :/
>>7502495
junijunijuni
i wish I could be smart and motivated and serve my country just like Faye!!!
I want to be strong!
but I'm just a dumb slutty former escort
>>7502520
why do you guys care so much about oil pipelines idgi
>>7502513
where u goin
i'm trying to be strong despite being raped!
>>7502523
i love you
>>7502524
pokemon Planet
>>7502522
no oil = no cars
no cars = i cant go shopping
>>7502491
I want to be raped
>>7502502
>tfw you picked that weird guy up that had been picked on by the sergeants up and held him in you arms while the blood was coming out of the cross he cut into his veins
>you try to pressure dress it with your shirt while you scream for help and cry
>you'd see him and talk to him once a week while he sat on his suicide watch cot during your 24 shift watching the building and answering phones
>you took him down town and bought drinks and a hotel room so he could relax when he had been cleared
>he called someone up that had been hitting on You and unchained the door for them after you passed out
>>7502460
I wasn't planning on it. I have a vacation scheduled for my birthday that's always been the goal.
I want my tumor gone
I'm scared of being raped
sometimes creepy guys followed me at night
>>7502522
It's really just selfless service, some people like a positive way to give back, I never dealt with anything having to do with oil, it was mostly terrorism, and if you knew how bad it really is,
The european news blows like a single attack up like the world is ending; this happens dozens a times a day in some countries
>>7502533
mine happened because I wanted to hang out with a cute boy and maybe kiss him and hold hands, but he gave me alcohol and my mom's medication and I kinda blacked out but I did bad things because of that
>>7502532
no you dont
>>7502536
you have a tumor :(
>>7502542
You didn't do bad things while under the influence; you were just raped
And I'm sorry you went through that
>>7502547
I miss you a lot Faye
>>7502551
you're really brave and an inspiration
I wanna be like you
:=:
what are boys like?
Why do I like to pretend that this life was a choice? Why is it comforting to think it wasn't forced on me?
>>7502555
CUTE
>>7502555
gross and stupid and smelly and dumb and not cute
>>7502556
hugg
hugg
hugg
hugg
>>7502555
very good and i love smelling them
my big bf gives off an INCREDIBLE musk
boys are nice and make me feel little
>>7502556
Possibly because you like the idea of having that degree of control over urself and ur body?
>>7502555
also it depends
trans boys are pretty different from cis boys
>>7502570
let's kiss!!
>>7502570
noooo
i dont like cats ><
i like dogs uwu
>>7502568
We're all gonna get cute boyfriends!
remember to not eat meat
>>7502555
boys are all kindsa different
but mostly, the good ones anyways, they're like um...really warm. and protective. and tall and kinda strong.
they hold you and take care of you and they love u lots. and they stick their dick in all of your holes and make you moan. boys are great.
>>7502577
aha i knew it was you renren
hugg
>>7502577
>tfw eating meat RIGHT NOW
>>7502580
>>7502576
>>7502571
>>7502569
need to get cuter faster
>>7502577
reminder to shut the fuck up.
>>7502568
hihihihi
i think eating soy instead of meat since i was 13 help made me into a tranny
gelgel is my friend
>>7502553
I just want you to be ok, but if it helps to have something to shoot for that's good
What's a good way to loose belly fat?
I've exercised for 11 months and lost 20kg/44 pounds.
Went from 106kg/233 pounds to 85kg/187 pounds.
But I still have a stomach.
Anyone got any tips?
Also will it be easier to lose while on HRT? Cause apparently it's harder for men to lose stomach weight but easier for women.
>>7502577
I cant stop swallowing sausage
>>7502597
The solution is to lose more weight
>>7502592
b-but ;-;
>i'm only hers to kiss
im jealous of neptune >_<
i want a bf that can help get my life going again and protect me
which trips are nice ladies
>>7502595
i dont care
people who do that need to shut the fuck up
none of your business what others eat as long as its legal.
>>7502590
are you ashamed of it? do you feel it would have been wrong to make that choice?
nini
i love y'all and i hope you all get bfs or gfs as nice as my bfs and gf
sweet dreams
be good girl
>>7502605
still doeee
>>7502602
is bowtie hamster your bf
>>7502595
:)
>>7502609
there is no still
lol
>>7502605
you can't challenge the ethics of something as long as it's legal?
>>7502603
grace
juniper
red
caroline
ash
maeve
faye
>>7502603
everyone
but especially drakeposter
>>7502600
Yeah but, is there a way to help lose the Stomach weight?
>>7502614
;_;
>>7502566
Probably
It's just people always go on about free will, and looking back on growing up there's so many things that just point to it always being there and I don't like it. It feels like my life was never within my control.
>>7502562
>>7502563
Hugg
>>7502571
Yeah probably
>>7502619
don't send me sad face plz u qt
>>7502587
ya honestly like i haven't had sex in almost 3 months now? and it's driving me fucking insane
i was talking to my pilot guy earlier and he was talking about fucking me and teasing my body and all kinds of stuff and it was like hard to breathe i was gettin so hot. boys make lewd stuff so good ;-;
>>7502619
:3 :D >_< :D ;-;
>>7502620
U mean like
You had the opportunity to take controll but didnt?
>>7502597
Get on estrogen you won't put as much fat in your tummy, or straight up lose more, you can't spot reduce
>>7502610
he's a cute hamham
canonically he lusts after pashmina, i wish i had someone in my life who wanted me
>>7502622
Damn, well do you think HRT will help? Cause apparently Women can lose Stomach Weight easier than Men.
If that's not the case, at least I won't have a lot of fat going into my Stomach and more my Butt.
>>7502626
I've never have
I mostly just want to be held
>tfw you cough and your gf wraps you in blankets and then builds a pillow fort around you and kisses your forehead
>>7502637
If i were you id just lose all of the fat lol
>>7502631
Yeah I thought that would be the case, hopefully the Estrogen will help lose it cause Women can lose Stomach Fat easier than Men.
>tfw only look okay at one angle
Guess I'll take every pic at that angle
>>7502608
Night red <3
>>7502640
That's the plan.
But I'd rather have fat go into anywhere BUT my Stomach.
>>7502638
well boys are errywhere evangeline, if you want it you can get it
tfw no juicy steak on a plate in front of me
oh well
nini~
>>7502636
>they are lesser beings
wew
-
>tfw lost 2 pounds during christmas time
>can't even keep my weight
>hunger constanlty gets less and less
>>7502646
sleep well isla
>>7502645
I want someone special though
>>7502653
well that's a lil harder to come by :c
>>7502630
Yeah like
Trying to be normal and failing
Idk it always gives me weird feelings when I talk about pre transition, because there's a sense that I was stuck from the get go and just too tarded to figure it out.
>>7502636
stop getting your ethics from /pol/
>>7502648
ily ;-;
>>7502641
Now tell me how to lose thigh fat pls
>>7502658
ily2 forever
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
>>7502653
What makes a boy special?
I'll need to take notes
>>7502661
ily
>>7502655
I really would want to get married first :c
I'm scared that as I get cuter there will be less genuine people going after me, that they will care much more about how I look then how I am
>>7502661
;---;
ilyyy
>>7502667
ily
>>7502668
ily desu
>>7502649
I tried eating as much food as I can but still lost weight. I don't even watch what I eat anymore.
>>7502665
i heard if you use dating sites you could upload unflattering pictures
that way you get a more refined selection of responses that are more interested in your personality (or just desperate guys ._.)
>>7502671
hugg
>>7502662
they have to be protective, kind, able to mesh with my personality, also strong enough to carry me and help with heavy things. the personality thing is going to be the hardest I think, I'm a bit eccentric, maybe more then a bit
>>7502614
I wish I was nice, or pretty, or a lady like everyone else here
>>7502656
Oh i know what you feel kinda. I tried being normal in my mid-late teenage years.
I tried pretty hard but failed. After that i just gave up and became really alone.
I dont blame myself tho, i think being a tran makes it impossible to socialize before you transition.
I just acted like a dumb caricature desu.
I definitely beat myself up over not realizing it earlier tho
>>7502673
I'm probably too introverted for that also I don't want pictures of my publicly circulating online, I'm shy
>>7502676
Remember to not try to put to much on "him"
You have to be the kind of person this person could love first.
>tfw people being happy upsets me
>>7502676
Oh well this is good, I'm very protective and I always work on trying to be kinder in life in general.
You don't weigh much so lifting you would be easy.
What makes you eccentric do you think?
>>7502678
>i think being a tran makes it impossible to socialize before you transition.
Anna not trans confirmed once more
>>7502660
Y would you wanna lose thigh fat?
>>7502687
h-help my face won't unstuck ;---;
>>7502687
N-no don't be sad because of me!
I'll be upset for your happiness desu
It's just kinda painful
>>7502690
cat cuddles will help
>>7502634
I don't lust after you, but I would cuddle.
>>7502692
cats make me reeeee ;_____;
>>7502681
I think I am lovable, it's a matter of finding the right person
>>7502678
>tfw the one stretch of time where I could've socialized and made friends
>tfw spent most of it repressing
>tfw transition won't be adequate enough until after it's over
life's kinda mean sometimes
>>7502683
Focus on improving yourself
Theres allways someone better than you
No point in wallowing in it.
>>7502697
Except there isn't and that is why I deserve to be happiest reeee
>>7502691
If you feel comparable to them then you should feel comparable to those who suffer worse and then you get filled with silly white modern 1st world guilt.
just be (you)
>>7502694
but im a cat
>>7502696
SAME
>cant transition before uni anymore ;_;
are there any other generals as full of trips as this one on 4chan?
>>7502693
*cudd homura*
>>7502700
But people feeling worse makes me happy because I don't have it bad
Happy people just make me feel stuck and useless
>>7502701
If I wasn't a dummy I would've started hrt during freshman year at 18, but I waited until my senior year at almost 22 to start it instead. Spent most of my time inside my dorm hating myself. Reee
which trips do you want to hugg
>>7502700
o-oh
i like cats then
uwu
c:
>>7502710
Charlotte
>>7502710
you
>>7502710
sheen
>>7502710
waitforyou
juniper
sirona
red
faye
other faye
lauren
mado
hailey
uwu
>>7502717
also isla
>>7502716
sheen needs to be hugged exactly one million times
>>7502685
I tend to get very worried about things other people wouldn't, I think I got it from my grandmother, she is the same way.
>>7502702
I don't think my looks are really a issue, I'm not even on estrogen yet(soon though) but when I look in the mirror I see a girl. I think it might be all the estrogen that's in milk since I drank that all the time all my life. I really hope they do the blood tests this week since my endo is a gatekeeper I think.
I'm mostly afraid of getting hurt or used, "friends" have taken advantage of me in the past, I tend to want to help others too much, like even when I'm near broke if a cashier asks about a donation I have to do it, I mentally can't say no to something like that.
>>7502720
trillion *
>>7502724
or like a perma-hugg for the rest of her life
Kill me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f4Fr4RJbsqc
mystical john lennon
>>7502725
if only there was some sort of device that could constantly give her a hug
>>7502730
why
also goodnight
>>7502736
whoa now i want a real hugbox
>>7502736
holy fuck is that real
fucking auties man, fucking auties
Kek
>tfw have to work in 15 minutes
>tfw only been hugboxed with words, not actual machines
>>7502722
Just say no
>>7502702
Well not much advice I can give you, sorry.
>>7502742
what a noob
S-so guys when do I get to be a girl?
>>7502737
goodnight :3
ily ily ily
>>7502743
>sad animals
>cancer
>homeless
I can't
>>7502750
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oofSnsGkops
>>7502751
Don't feel sorry. Stop saying sorry.
>>7502752
.////.
>>7502742
>tfw get hugboxed by AI claiming I'm a girl
>>7502749
how long have you been on hrt?
a week?
you will start getting the mental effects soon, as well nipp soreness
hrt takes time to work, which is why you should be practicing girlvoice, makeup and clothing
>>7502747
cleanliness, people, body dysphoria, safety, and future mainly.
>>7502754
I can't do it
that's a cute nemo btw
How long on mones should it take to go from flat to an a cup??
Just wanna check im not changing too slow or too fast
>>7502759
>>7502759
>>7502759
it's where all the cool kids hang, this thread is so last thread.
>>7502758
5 days lmao
It was mostly an ironic question
But yeah I want some effects so I feel like I'm making progress
I'm too sad to practice anything though and have no money for clothing anyway
>>7502762
3.514 years before any person on hrt reaches e-cup
How do I get the courage to correct people when they misgender/deadname me?
I've been mostly getting gendered correctly by strangers, but even my friends and family I'm out to still constantly use my old name and pronouns. It makes me not want to be around them...
>>7502768
scream at them and call them a shitlord
>>7502761
Stop worrying. Also its a Jegan. You like Gundam too? =}c
>>7502775
hopes and dreams of thiccness are dead
>>7502776
oh, I still need to watch a lot of them but I do like gundam, I tend to stop watching shows when I get really sad so it's hard to finish them.
>>7502707
Wow you're literally me lol.