>21, 3 years HRT. >Too feminine looking to be a normal

>>7268183
What part of Melbourne are you from?

>>7268188

Different city. Where are you?

>>7268183
> 35C
Townsville, Cairns, or so,somewhere further north, maybe even Darwin?

>>7268222

Campbelltown, Sydney

>>7268183
With you on the struggle anon.

I don't know what to do. I want to scream and put my head through a wall. What the hell do you do? It's impossible to hide anymore but I can't handle the tremendous failure my transition has been so far.

>13mo HRT

>>7268522
pics?

>>7268183
but it's winter

>>7268646
> Australia

Seasons are flipflopped as you cross the equator.

I learned this in like 4th grade or something, how do you not know this?

>>7268522

OP here, where do you live and what's the weather like there? I totally get you with the frustration. This self imposed isolation is torture. But it's either that or be a social lepper.

>>7268183
same problem here, except I don't give a shit. I've suffered too much to care about how people perceive me. I don't have friends and I don't socialize, so I don't care about their opinion.

If I'm outside, I'm there to get shit done and go back home. No one's business if I have some deformed small tits.

I'm pre-everything but hate going out without long pants/top because I don't like being reminded I have hairy arms/legs. Hiding at home sounds like a not-horrible idea.

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>>7268667
Nigga are you retarded?

>>7268183
I'm in the exact same position but there really isn't much you can do about it unless you're able/willing to take 3 months of your life away every year so you don't have to deal with the heat.

>>7268723

I'm the opposite. My legs and arms are waaaaay too soft/shiny to belong to a normal male. I really like how they look but it draws a lot more attention than I'd like.

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I live in America, but during summer I just pretend like I have terrible gynecomastia. It's basically true, anyways.

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>>7268726
>He thinks it's winter in Australia right now.

Are we being trolled? Is this a meme?

Go to church

>>7268860
stop fishing

>>7269002
of course it's a retarded weeaboo

>>7269117
You got me, Mr. "I-was-just-pretending-to-be-retarded." TOP KEK and all that.

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>>7268183

I swear I die a little inside every time I see this video.

>november
>summer
L M A O
ausfalia truly is fucked

>>7268183
I spent entire summer at home, not even joking
and I typically like to walk or ride a bike, but this year I'd only go out like once a week to buy something or walk in a nearest park when no ones there
I've been quite depressd too

I have no advice for you other than maybe find people who accept you and spend time with them (yeah easier said than done)

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>>7268860
p fabulous pham

>tfw need to go get more pills
>too sad and self-concious to even leave my room.
life is hell

I stopped hrt two years ago. Can't stop thinking about going back. Every single day. Been ignoring it too long, trying to be what I thought I was before and it's come back to a head. Pressure is building and I'm getting old. What do, preferably short of the old plunge-a-roo off a high ledge?

Still incredibly masculine looking. Thin, angular, no soft edges anywhere. Don't know what to do to calm frayed-to-the-breaking-point nerves. This is a step for me, to talk about it again rather than bury it. Any suggestion? Anything? Anyone?

Please.

>>7271762
You can talk about why you stopped if you want.

Ultimately most people are just going to tell you to get back on HRT, since regardless of how masculine you are it will give some improvement, and also stop things from getting worse. For many people mental effects (reduction of anxiety included) are definitely there too.

>>7268183
OP if this gif is of you then you NEED to stfu now.

Also something key. Being a pretty woman and being a passable woman are different things.

We are often a shit judge of how passable we are. If you are 21 and on HRT for 3 years you have a lot in your favor.

I didn't start till late 24 and I am still ok so I have a feeling your way better off than you think you are.

>>7271762
Could always take hormones and stay boy-mode.

Just do like what others have suggested in here, say you have an endocrine disorder, gyno, etc. etc. and people won't give a shit if you got weird man boobies.

>>7271997

>OP if this gif is of you then you NEED to stfu now.

I wish, senpai.

>Also something key. Being a pretty woman and being a passable woman are different things.

But you can't be a woman to the outside world without being passable, so you can't be a pretty woman (to others) without being a passable one first.

Yeah, it's ~~~transphobic~~~ but it's what the rest of the world thinks.

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>>7268646

>>7268183
>21, 3 years HRT
I dont wanna make you feel more depressed but dude if you aren't going to pass now you are never going to pass. What makes you think you can't pass anyway?

>>7272728
I don't think that just appearance alone can make you pass, it could be voice or mannerisms etc. that maybe OP doesn't feel like they're passing.

>>7272728

>I dont wanna make you feel more depressed but dude if you aren't going to pass now you are never going to pass. What makes you think you can't pass anyway?

I consider a MtF to be 'passing' if I could not distinguish them from a cis girl in any everyday situation.

Tbh less than like one in a hundred (probably) trannies pass at my standards.

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>>7268603
Oh alright.
Most recent one I have is from Halloween. I threw on whatever I could pretend was a costume that covered up as much of me as possible since we were out walking. Also shitty remnants of half-assed black lipstick. Hair is shit from wind.

Be gentle, yes I know Hon.

>>7268668
I live in the US. It's getting cold, super windy. We were supposed to have snow but no luck. At least it's winter so I can cover up every day but I'm terrified of what to do when this summer comes...

Good luck OP, I hope something works out for you.

>>7272845
you remind me of my 52 year old jewish aunt
although you do have a teenage boy chest/shoulders/torso

>>7272875
That's kind of you to say, thank you.

Spot on with the chest/shoulders/torso anon even through the shirt and cloak, good job. Here's my measurements:

39 Shoulders
35 Bust
33 Underbust
30 Waist
34 Hips

Sadly I'm also 6'3" so. Y'know.

>>7272886
decent shoulders for that height but those hips are really unfortunate

you said you are 21 which means you might still be in that window of opportunity for hips growth since your growth plates haven't fused yet though

>>7272914
Oh no I'm not 21, that's the OP I just said I sympathize with their situation since my features and small boobs make it hard to not be an obvious tranny everywhere I go. Even in a thick coat. I started at 24, and I have actually had a pleasing amount of hip growth. I used to be straight as a pole. I don't expect any more but I can dress for what I've got.

If I can ever look good enough to want to.

I wanna start transitioning but it's impossible in Calgary, you're lucky to have been on HRT at such a young age im 19 and scared I wont be able to get hormones till my late 30's. Every girl is different, no one perfect,you're beautiful in your own way!

>>7273111

>im 19 and scared I wont be able to get hormones till my late 30's

Why don't you just DIY? Honestly I'd rather off myself than have to wait that long for HRT.

>no one perfect

See webm in OP.

>>7273111
Whatever it takes, whatever you can go for it. Don't wait until 24 like me.

>>7273145
DIY can lead to major health risks right? I wanna get hormones but i dont want to die

>>7273155
Idk , I dont want to die doing it myself, and I dont got much options since im going to school with no job living at conservative parents house

>>7273160
There's a DIY guide floating around somewhere. Look up Informed Consent clinics first. Or at least a good Endo.

>>7273167

Being dead is better than being a hon desu.

>>7272886

Why would you even start a transition when you're that tall? Logic dictates that you're doomed to fail.

>>7273735
Simple. Co-worker/friend of mine is as tall as me and has wider shoulders. Except she's gorgeous. Standing next to her I look waif-ish.

It's also a fatalistic attitude towards it.

>>7272465
great reading comprehension faam

>>7272845
you're cute

sorry about your chest/height

>>7274379

I'm sorry, what is it that you don't understand about my post? I re-read it twice and everything appears to make sense.

>>7274395
Thank you. Maybe when I've finished all of my laser I'll throw a better pic in passgen and see how bad I get butchered.

>>7274406
>Being a pretty woman and being a passable woman are different things.

>But you can't be a woman to the outside world without being passable, so you can't be a pretty woman (to others) without being a passable one first.
how exactly are you contradicting the first?

>>7274420

I'm say that what you wrote isn't true bro.

>>7274427
>you can't pass if you're not pretty
better seek help for that BDD my famalam

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>>7274438

Dude...... re-read what I wrote. I'm saying that you can't be a "pretty woman" if you don't pass, because if you don't pass nobody will consider you a "woman" in the first place.

You don't need to be pretty to pass.

>>7268183
I'm similar to this and live in Dubbo (;_;).
I manage fine

>>7274489
what's your secret

>>7274489

Details?

>>7274490
Know how to fight so when someone finally tries to assault you, you can fuck them up really bad, desu.

It's still pretty much a daily occurrence for 16-23ish year olds to slow their cars next to me and scream stuff like tranny freak, faggot, dyke, slut, dork (actually happened, lol), 'you a boy or girl answer me or I'll get out of the car and beat the fuckin shit out of ya cunt'. But they never outright approach me anymore.

>>7274447
ok? how is that relevant at all to the post you responded to then?

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>>7274542

>>7274570
sorry for the brain damage m8
hope you get well soon

>>7273160
diy is really easy dont worry senpai. Just follow the HRTgen guide and you will be literally fine. I'm doing it myself rn

I have some similar feels
>be femboy
>3 years hrt
>get substitute teacher job
>20 x "are you a boy or a girl" per day
>50/50 on whether they'll call me mr or ms even though I introduce myself as Mr. Anon
>constant weird looks and stares in public, people looking me up and down
I do enjoy it although it makes me feel very self conscious in public

>>7275498
I'm sort of in the same boat. I told everyone I have a hormonal issue that might be due to testicular torsion. I ended up getting little tit buds like ridiculously fast on hormones and my friends noticed. They think I'm going to get testosterone prescribed but I'm still mowing down estrogen.
I can't keep blaming it on testicles issues otherwise people will think I have like 9000 testicles down there

>>7268183

People like looking at feminine people. Girls and guys. You should feel flattered.

>>7268183
>>7268723

Come to QLD and boogie with humidity too...

>>7274489
>>7274504
Fuck transitioning in Dubbo, that's really goddamn brave

>>7277988
">7268723

Come to QLD and boogie with humidity too... "
No thanks, I hate humidity more than heat.
p.s how do I 4chan?

>>7277988
What is Dubbo like?

>>7278119
No one likes humidity, that was kinda my point. You could just dye your hair blonde and pretend to be a European backpacker and you'd be fine, though.

>>7278294
Regional NSW town with a shitty reputation. Being LGB would be bad enough, being T sounds like a death sentence. Cool Zoo and Observatory though.

>>7277988
Yeah Dubbo's fucked, I'm aiming to move to Cairns in a few months, hopefully.

>>7278294
https://youtu.be/PRSqBhgZ9X0

The town has a weird worshipping of the Bogan culture, except their version of a bogan is basically just a degenerate criminal. Imagine a town where 70% of the town is redneck trash. Also kind of the ice capital of Australia, along with Wello
It's always funny/saddening seeing the Dubbo LGBT page and there's only ever like 5 people in the photos.

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>>7279879

>tfw you live in a 99% white northern sydney suburb.
>tfw haven't actually seen an indigenous person in years.

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>>7279879
That sounds way too much like the deep south in the US, where I fled from a long long time ago.

Frightening.

>>7279879
Aussies please explain

>>7280337
I'm from Australia and even I don't know what the fuck is going on in that video.

>>7280373
Just just what they're like desu.
A group of them will all be acting like friends and ordering off of the Mcdonalds kiosk thing, then all of a sudden they're screaming at each other and ones being stomped on the ground

>>7280373
I'm Aussie too and I don't know what's going on either, I'm just glad I don't have to live there.

>>7268183
i'm in a similar spot. 21 and four months on hrt now. i've gotten already B cups, only one of my sweaters can still hide them. i mean i'm amazed and it's great how quickly they grew but i don't think i'll ever really pass and i'm way too insecure to go fulltime so i'm very unsure about how i feel about my boobs right now. worst (and best) thing is that they just seemed to slow down a little with growing but didn't stop.

>>7280502
It sucks cause everyone says you get like 6 months without much change to try out hormones to see if you like them but I started getting cone tits/gyno like effects at about 4 weeks in now. I'm not sure how much worse it will get though. My femboy mode is ruined now...

>>7279870
Cairns is lovely, 'cept for the mozzies and humidity

>>7286304
Lived there a bit before but couldn't get a job.
At least in Dubbo I get a retail cert and IT Diploma, so I should have better luck leaving, lol.

Getting Yeson in February and should be moving over that time.

>>7286375
it's like the further north you go the more the economy relies upon backpackers, but you should be good since you've got useful skills. Neat, how do you go accessing trans health services? I've just started HRT so it'll be a while yet but I'm fucking clueless about getting SRS, VFS and all the jazz here

>>7286414
Are you talking about cairns?
Cairns has a nice sexual health clinic. Has some doctor named Darren who's pretty good and knows a thai SRS doctor (not chett or suporn).

Either way, you'll be getting any surgery overseas, so outside of seeing a therapist to get the SRS recommendations, it doesn't matter what you do.

>>7268247

M8, I almost feel more sorry for you because you live in that shithole than all your gender issues haha. Speaking from experience, I'd rather sell a kidney than live in the outer west haha.

>>7274504

Do people seriously pay enough attention to people they're driving past?

Like, I've never been to Dubbo but as someone from the inner suburbs, I just find that hard to believe =/

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>>7286622

>tfw used to live in a nice house within five minutes walking distance from the beach.
>tfw parents kicked you out of home at twenty.
>tfw living in a one-bedroom shack in a bogan ghetto, never leaving home unless it's for groceries or to take a train to a more civilized part of Sydney.

Also what the fuck is up with the flies!?!? Why are there so many!?!?

>>7268183
Rp thread, that's not your actual situation, if it were true you'd be out there farming cummies as we speak. Stop lying.

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>tfw it will eventually be summer in the northern hemisphere again
>tfw my boobs have grown a lot in the past few months
>tfw being pressured to transition socially by new years

>>7287905
I'm with you anon, I feel for you. I don't know what to do either, it's anxiety inducing.

You are beautiful kik me some time - gmoney7913

>>7268183
>She leaves the house.
Get a load of this normie stacy.
Try being a hon.

>>7268183
nice troll my dick is throbbing with jealousy u lucious alibaster fem stallion. unless that aint u in the gif then sorry for thinking u r troll. also of it IS u there is no way u trans u r a cis troll fuck off bitch

>>7290305
Are you retarded? That's just a webm of some random girl. Read the filename

>>7287800
>>7290101
>>7290305

Are you guys fucking stupid or something? Do you think I'd actually be here talking to you goons if I looked like that IRL?

>>7280337
Niggers chimping out, iss juss how dey be.

>>7291754
mup da diddu ogga booga bix nood muhfugga.

>>7268183
>7268183
That girl is super hot... she was probably born that way though, you know, with a vagina.