Let's feel bad about stuff

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ok my turn now

>tfw boyfriend left me on st valentines day
>for a 18 yo boy
>be depressed for months
>shit from other aspects of life adds up
>start thinking about ending it
>one night you recive a text from a classmate who is asking for help for the coming test
>agree to help and study with him
>spend a lot of time together for the following two weeks preparing for the test
>you both pass it with good grades
>he tells you he couldn't have done it without you
>tfw feeling like my life is not meaningless for the first time in half a year
>tfw realize that I'm falling for him more and more each day
>tfw try to avoid it but can't
>tfw he's straight
>tfw the only person who showed any interest in you during the whole year is someone you will never have at your side
>someone who's most likely disgusted about the idea of kissing you just because you're both men
>tfw you became friends and he tells you about his personal stuff
>like the girl he likes so much but won't give him the time of the day
>tfw you have to watch him struggle and suffer because of it
>tfw you can't do anything about it more than being his friend
>tfw being around him makes you happy and extremely sad at the same time
>tfw I feel a weird pain in my chest every time I think about him
>tfw simply typing this makes me cry

Also my dog died.

>be me, closeted mtf
>watching that theroux doc on TV
>desperately want to turn it over but parents interested (in a really bad 'look at these freaks hahaha' way) and don't want to raise suspicion
>that hispanic 14 year old on easymode comes up talking about how she realised she was trans while watching a documentary just like this one
>realise she is going to have a happy and normal life in a way that I will never, ever experience
>trying to hold back or at least hide the tears, sink down below blanket on the sofa
>dad notices from across the room
>"what's wrong? are you crying? anon, are you transgender too?"
>"no it's just embarrassing, I'm cringing"
>"yeah, good... fucking liberal perverts"
Death cannot come soon enough.

>tfw dad is dead

>have a crush on a guy - smart, nice, and hot (the trifecta)
>he's kind of a nerd by association with his friends but whatever makes things easier for me since nerds are always shy
>find out he's going to a party, a friend wants me to go anyway so why not
>go to party
>barely see him
>watch him leave with one of my friends (a girl)
>wellshit.png
>fine, i'll get over it
>talking to the same friend, she asks me for a favor
>wants me to ask out one of my friends for her because she's too nervous
>wat
>nope, not dating the guy, just friends
>tell her sure and somehow she agrees to set me up with the guy I like in exchange
>there'shope.jpg
>set her up with my friend, they're dating now, happy ending
>she talks to the guy again
>now he's dating someone completely different
>fuck

ah, fuck, it never gets easier

>>5566818
>live in super tolerant society
>probably have tolerant friends and parents
>young enough to do alright on mones
>still in closet
>still going to an hero eventually
I'm mine own worse enemy

>>5567168
get mones
or at least blockers
you don't have to come out
do it you fuck
do it while you have the chance

>Figured out I was trans because of a Palahniuk book of all things
>Stayed in denial for a year
>Finally went to therapist
>Only said I'm depressed and am waiting to see if they'll find out if I'm trans
>Probably just wasting my time

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>tfw trans
>tfw feel really dysphoric and ugly
>avoid the mirror for months
>start to forget what I look like
>dysphoria becomes tolerable
>think, "you know, it's probably not /that/ bad as I look at puctures of hons on /lgbt/
>look in the mirror
>tfw feel really dysphoric and ugly
>avoid the mirror for months

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