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The last time I tried this I ran through the text limit so I'll try to give the abridged version...

I'm 20 and I feel like I'm coming to a turning point. I've always been pretty gay but from early teens to about 15 I had myself convinced I was straight and even enjoyed straight porn, even to the point of being a homophobe. After going to all boys prep school this illusion quickly shattered, and since then I've just considered myself bi and told no one.

However lately I've really started to open up and came out to all my roomates and have begun to let my femme side out more, which feels great. I'm starting to actually feel more gay and it feels good to acknowledge. Of course, perfect timing, I've also met a sweet attractive girl who I actually feel comfortable with for once and can see being in a relationship with. It feels like I'm being pulled in two opposite directions and I don't really know what to do.

I don't think being "bi" for my whole life is really realistic because its a turn off for both sides relationship wise, and there will always be speculation its just a coverup for full gay, esp with my personality. I don't know whether to tell the girl all this or just fuck her asap to see if its any good (I have topped and bottomed for guys and enjoyed it a lot). It would destroy our friendship if I fucked her, said meh, and came out as gay, but I guess the fact that I'm worried about our friendship is pretty gay already.

tl;dr I'm a 4 on the kinsey scale, do I round up and commit to the majority interest, repressing my feelings towards girls? Or just be wishy washy biscum forever... ;-;