the edition is fashion model edition
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Pffft I remember this. Before I started tripping though and before I really knew anything so I'm definitely glad there's not a picture of me on there.
>they see that you have a boyfriend, therefore you must be desirable etc etc
tho since I got a bf nobody has been hitting on me, I must be doing something wrong
I'm starting to think maybe I should just be a femboy, at least until I stop being androgynous and then I'll kill myself.
I think my body and face is too androgynous for me to have my ideal girl face, and I just look much younger as a boy.
I'm not confident that I can be happy as a girl anymore, and I definitely can't be happy as a man.
I'm so fucked.
Kayla thinks everyone else is rich or gets jobs from friends and she has no money so her life sucks because apparently she's the singular trans girl in america no one will hire.
Alison says he's just a gay twink who thought he was trans. He got upset at me for not taking him seriously - for a myriad of reasons mind you - and stopped taking hormones, blocked everybody. Stopped posting i think?
Idk who elanna is.
yah i mean you could do that, and you have the added benefit of very vew people knowing who you are.
the only old-timers still posting are anna, dollface, moof, sage (i think, and usually as anon) and ufufu, and even they post kind sporadically
but yeah its nice to camwhore at times, i usually do it on /soc/ but if you wanna post a pic you should!
if you post it this early in the thread everyone will see it when they scroll down to the new posts, ahahahah
do you present as female? what do you wear?
that makes no sense, but ok
not who you're responding to
but hrt and losing all your friends and then killing yourself is different from living in a constant state of dissociation to avoid acknowledging the fact you have a physical form and then killing yourself. right now it doesn't feel like a trivial decision.
>The woman who checks her makeup half a dozen times a day to see if her foundation has caked or her mascara has run, who worries that the wind or the rain may spoil her hairdo, who looks frequently to see if her stockings have bagged at the ankle or who, feeling fat, monitors everything she eats, has become, just as surely as the inmate of the Panopticon, a self-policing subject, a self committed to a relentless self-surveillance. This self-surveillance is a form of obedience to patriarchy. It is also the reflection in woman’s consciousness of the fact that she is under surveillance in ways that he is not, that whatever else she may become, she is importantly a body designed to please or to excite.
why you all so bad at feminism
if you definitely can't be happy as a man don't let that be an option
even if you aren't too confident that you can be happy as a girl, it's clearly better than the alternative, so go for that. The more you convince yourself that you'll ever pass the less effort you'll put into passing, which in turn makes it harder to pass and will ultimately make you more depressed
don't give up anon
*that you'll never pass, fuck
jormy is not an old timer, jormy didn't start posting with a trip until last summer or later
kayla is an idiot
"all the trips left" is in reference to the group of trips who posted in 2013 basically, and started posting when mtfg first started, or soon after
it's funny, isn't it?
did you make that yourself?? the costume looks good
so like, you're on hormones or no, or?
i think you look fine, and that costume isn't gonna be flattering on anyone who doesn't have a perfect body or didn't make it out of a zentai suit
hey, how'd you all pick names? because my birth name is kinda androgynous, and has some pretty slight changes to make it explicitly feminine, and i'm still kinda not sure if i should do that or if i should just pick something irrelevant i like the sound of.
Watching that video actually makes me ask a lot of questions. Like, yea, why the fuck is there only one clean note sung the entire duration? And what aesthetic are they trying to encompass with sleevless denims, flippy har and loose fit toes? Who the fuck thought a sincere moment witht the chick you're cheating on your girlfriend with would make a good ballad? It's literally scumbag the anthem.
I started posting last summer too...
Which trips left tho? Like, who is actually missing?
oh okay i wasn't sure if u were>>5157625
for a sec; god i'm stupid @[email protected]
where did u buy it? it looks nice
i dont think you look particularly mannish but ehh
i mean ur boobs are pretty obvious there so
my birth name is also androgynous, i just picked a feminine name from the same language as my birth name that was like something my parents might have picked
>who's actually missing
its too many ppl to list
off the top of my head, cathy, autumrainbow/lyra, amelia, haato, slug, blue penguin, that one girl that wanted to be a voice actress, jenifer, sage moap, the curly haired gurl who posts on /cd/ still and so is probably just anon, etc etc
it's litterally dozens of people and if you weren't hear at the time, you wouldn't know them so.....
and i'm not even getting into the people who's faces i can't remember, so
I've been there anon- my birth name is androgynous (at least the common nickname for it is), and it just didn't feel satisfying enough to just go with the more feminine form so I chose a completely different name
I knew that I wanted one that started with an A, and from that I wrote down the names I liked most (with my last name too) and whichever felt best I went with
I even wrote it in cursive, to test what it'd be like for a signature, to see how they'd feel.
>walking around like a goblin is a form of resistance
Lyra, bp, wizard, kuro, watashi, trashy, slug, epi, sage, lils, haato, amelia, mangy, dani, kitty, heavenly, watashi, SWG, naomi, peeps, TGB, Lyn, Holic, socks, Moko, Raifu, bear anon, quid, Olivia, zoe, lilyboo
some of those still post, but A LOT less than they used to, also I am bad with time so Ive no idea when people left exactly. those are just names of people I remember seeing frequently and missing now.
I guess I present as female? I wear makeup and I have long hair but I think I look better with short hair.
I wear androgynous womens clothing.
I am on HRT, and I am trying to transition. I've just started having these feelings.
Well I'm not going to ever let T turn me into a man. I guess I'll try to keep transitioning.
Maybe I should cut my hair until I'm more confident that I pass and just appear genderless for now.
My hair is really long though and took a long time to grow, I just think longer hair makes me look more unpassable.
>TFW back from rave and still high as fuk
Lils used to be a hon trip. She was known as batshit insane before Angie and PotC with a giant ego. She genuinely believed that she should be at the top of all tier lists and that she had a duty to be an inspiration to /mtfg/ trannies. Her and Angie were friends and sometimes trasbians together.
pretty much. crippling fear of failure (that applies to everything) and serious motivational issues even for stuff i really love doing or want to do makes me think i couldn't stick to all the work that transition requires, anyway, and it while it feels more depressing to not try, it's a whole lot less terrifying.
I miss the feeling of being high. It was one of the few things thing would make me not depressed. Well most of the time.
if you curl up and sleep on the ground then technically you could cuddle the world
Anyone here see Purity Ring live this year? I fucking loved it. Preferred the lyrics in Shrines to Another Eternity's, mostly, but musically I like Another Eternity better I think.
Pretty... unlike most here.
Happy halloween you glorious fuckers
God I'm so wasted
well, goodnight soon at least
Its much too late for such a loaded question.
Speaking of though how does one come by a drug hookup these days? I fell out of contact with the two people I knew and I have no idea how the kids do it anymore.
the world is all around us elanna, it could still be possible
if you lay still enough you could feel the world moving under you, and if you can do that you might as be cuddling it
I swear I did that as a kid once and I'm so mad I haven't been able to do it since, it was beautiful ;_;
No regrets anon
The knees do not make a man... or a transwoman in this case.
Didn't you mention something about modeling?
>Yup that's a Halloween photo.
>Tfw i spooped a lot of people
>tfw TWO different people tried to call out to me and couldn't tell if I was a dude or a chick
>tfw mam'ed twice
god that felt good
Provide an example of someone being told he looks great without some anon (or someone dropping their trip) calling them hon, fat or some combination thereof.
My personal fav is someone telling Kuroneko, and I quote - "you look like an over sized asian baby with too much makeup". And I actually agree on on the makeup bit.
ahahhaha me too
i think of too many things and im never motivated enough to do any of them
also my wisdom teeth hurt so much today omg
i first came here because i had no trans space to talk about things, irl or otherwise. what do you think i still dont have? this is it for me basically.
There are a handful of trips usually the shitters. Their fans coddle them, you can tell it's always the same group of people that respond positively to those trips. It goes to their head and they start acting like they're the bees knees.
Maddie I have hangover squads and hugs on their way Already
>Even the most demented trips here have fans.
I want better for us originals. I know you can do better than to waste time here doing nothing more than garnering attention and making girls here wish they were you.
I'm pushing an activist lifestyle these days. I decided being out and about trying to help stealth-ops and Hun alike meant something. White knight complex and all that. Sure it's not surprising, but it was the next step up from what I tried to do here. I just want to see you become bigger than this, and admitting all the reasons your hear will help.
Do excuse me if I'm wrong though.
I might trip if I wanted to be like Jormy or Kayla and have the same few demented fans fawn over me. Tell me I pass when I don't, I'm intersex when I'm not, I'm cis when I have all male features, I'm feminine when I talk about male interests, I'm smoking hot when nobody wants to date me.
I could be Ufufu or Dollface and worshiped for living the dream and having a real life. People could get jealous even if in reality I don't get out of the house, don't go to work or I work minimum wage retail, have no direction in life, stuck in the same trans limbo rut for the last 5 years.
I might trip if I wanted to live a delusion, tell myself anything negative is jealousy or chasers, but I'm not so keen for that life.
>I want better for us originals
Bat shit insane with a superiority complex. Anyone that posted here originally knew the trips save for a handful were pieces of shit that ruined everything.
How the fuck should I know? Go do something else and find it. Post shit places, social network. I dunno what paradigm you wanna shift. That's for you to figure out. Shit I'm not your mother.
Yes, I have already said your right about me. However can I ask how we fucked it up? Do you think the board would have survived without us? Do you know what it would have been instead?
>you need to stop posting here for reasons!!
>i dunno what else ur gonna do just stop posting here!!
also i think ur making some incorrect assumptions; i post here a few times a day at most, mainly in the morning before work. i hang out with my gf or do stuff with coworkers in the evenings; at no time am i constantly posting here, refreshing to wait for replies, that kind of thing. mtfg to me is just here when i want or need it, it's not any kind of focus for me.
All of that was either said jokingly (for Jormo) or in annoyance (for Kayla). If someone takes that to their heads the issue is certainly with them.
The rest is not your place to judge. You might not approve but you are far from some sort of authority on how one is leading their life.
I-i actually don't know please spell it out for me
You mean I'm not intersex? But anon said they were a doctor...
Oh umm nothing happened between us
I thought you already knew that you're just a confused boy
No that are two people telling you to tone it down with the whole judgmental prick with an inflated sense of self-importance schtick you have going. Nobody here is exactly an overachiever you included.
Life is cruel but it can't ever happen ;~;
you never know what hrt will do for her!!
its definitely sad though ;~;
>you never know what HRT will do for her
Umm probably make her straighter desu
What did I just read.
Elanna admitted to having a crush on her
It's a pretty popular ship rn
And for the record I am hoping for
Erin x her crush
Elanna x kit
Bexe x anon
Pookie x frog
I like all these and hope they all happen desu
tough 3-person situation WHOOPS
>not doing anal anyway
I just woke up having been bit by what looked like a brown recluse, now my calf has a welt the size of a orange. I don't have health insurance so I don't know what to do.
voice and body hair and hair and makeup and body language and fashion and fashion particular to shaping my body correctly and the whole process of coming out and the whole process of actually acquiring hormones and losing friends and family and making new friends and possibly never having children and legally changing your identity
how the *fuck* do you all manage? how do you learn everything and practice everything, look in the mirror long enough to shave. all this while sorting out food and working and maintaining where you live and pursuing hobbies to keep yourselves sane.
i can't do this. i barely have enough energy to survive without all this stuff. i can't do this.
>tfw should have just not said anything
I find most of that stuff fun, relieving and rewarding.
Its worth the bad stuff listed imo.
I'm happy for you anon.
P much but I'd let her stick it in and I'd be willing to ride the dysphoria wave to stick it in her, I could put on a strap-on harness, slide it through and pretend it's not mine maybe
You have to break it up into smaller pieces and just manage what you can. Some people are able to manage their time and stress better than others, you can't really compare yourself to them. It's not a race, you're transitioning for yourself.
Remember too that once you get one piece of it "done" then you're done, which means less to worry about and probably more happiness that you're one step closer to your goal.
>mfw merc says I look just as bad post ffs (even though I'm still healing) compared to pre-ffs and also thinks that kuro isn't cute.
I see that she only admires the trips she circlejerks
>have internet friend who knows I'm trans
>he's "not gay" because he doesn't like guys unless they're traps
>usually ignore this anytime he wants to playfully flirt at me and play along because I'm an idiot
>starts talking about how cute it would be to try to get me aroused in public
>"best kind of girl"
D R O P P E D
D A M N F A G G O T
If you have health issues its considered to be your fault here in america. So instead of make the public pay for people's mistakes we make the individual pay for them instead. Its supposed to be a deterrent from unhealthy behavior but fuck, sometimes people just need help and this country is pretty heartless most the time. And the worst part is what we spend on military could give every american free healthcare for 1000 years, but instead it goes right into the pockets of Boeing, Lockheed, Raytheon, and other war mongers.
if you get it in korea they can basically do anything. dont expect them to follow european beauty standards tho
in europe or the US, theyre most likely going to be more conservative with the changes
extreme cases are probably never fixable
to be honest it depends on how masc your face is and what you plan on doing to your face
but generally the more feminine your appearance to start with, the more likely you'll pass eventually.
You have said in the past you have a church/ religious health care that wouldn't cover trans issues. This means that they will cover spider bites. As the anon above said make your stories consistent.
tbqh I've always loved the name I chose and I don't remember where I found it. But I know I'm not going to use my birth name cause it's very masculine and I really don't like the female version of it.
she is the resident entertainment tho. she serves no other purpose here. she does it well tho.
What I really wanna know tho is if she actually is the same person/s that posted on cd all that time ago
Well for one it's gross that people might think I'm Kayla.
Also it feels kind of mean to Kayla. I don't like her but that's no reason to be a bully, really.
Good morning everyone <3
I'm only slightly (very) hungover but I'm gonna go out with my friends and get some indian food so it's allll good :)
Did everyone have a good Hallobones?
also holy shit I type like a retard when I'm drunk :x I'm sorry you all had to see that. I'm an English major so I'm ashamed of myself
This is now /KtKg/
Only AKAB Kaylasexuals can post below this line,
all others please relocate your butts in some place else.
oh my god what the fuck thread?
>poke head into thread to see whats up
>see...whatever this is
So I wake up and find this? Fine. Yes I think highly of myself. Truth be told it's probably because I don't think anyone sees me as as good looking as I do. I'm secretly scared only a select few think highly of me and everyone is to polite to be honest. Maybe deep down I'm fucking frightened 4chan's angry haters have always been right and I'm no where near as attractive as I think. Fuck you wanted to post my picture? Here let me do it for you.
And one more for good measure. Happy Angie? Now they can tear me apart again.
I live in england in the midlands, its often chilly here
You want lewd? On way back from nhs clinic was texting him and essentially this is what was said
>your appointment cancelled yet?
>no and if it is im gonna have to hit you
>violence never solved anything, its about dominance
>im not going to dom you if thats what your implying
>awww, you raise my hopes and dash them so expertly :(
Oh great comeback.
How's feel to be 26 and still living with your mommy?
Also you're jelly is so bad. Remember how me, lily and most teleported to the finish line :3c
oops sorry haha. You all need to stop having such a qt accent then! although I'm not as big of a fan of the cockney accent but the regular brit accent is still qt, but I think I feel that way about most accents :x
She just needs to learn how to stop being a leech to her mommy
So I've been on estrogen for two days and my skin has already become way more softer and tighter? Like, I've always said on here, my skin has always been incredibly soft and girl-like to the point I wondered if my hormone levels were off (they're not) but I didn't think this was supposed to change that quickly. I thought at first it was probably in my head but I literally can't stretch it away from the muscle like I used to because it's so much tighter. Does HRT give you more collagen in the skin? 'cause I've always had low collagen so I guess that could be it.
You could always just go by your birth name, like me ;^)
sorry but your opinion is wrong
oh haha I see it's "I want to kill myself" edition once again
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE @ the universe desu
well there's that mexican dude on here who apparently has a crush on me
see the NHS are shit at trans stuff but this kind of thing is what they're perfect for, you could be out the hospital same day and with absolutely no charge
hahahahaha tell me if you find an answer.
>being a tranny living in america
not even once
god you live in a shit country, move to europe
1-6 I think
>living in an urban environment with pets
not that my cat shows any interest in going outside anyway, kek, he's a fat fuck like myself
me, according to some people
this is actually possible there's that one little shit who's just started transition and occasionally posts under the name kayla w/ not tripcode
jeeeeeeeesus christ this is a post and a half isn't it
>le "british accent is so cute" meme
how long is it going to take before the majority of americans are aware that what they like is RP, not most actual british accents
like, wait til you hear the brummies
liverpool accent is great lmao its one of my favorites actually, i guess thats just cause i live kinda near there so im exposed to it more
scotland accents are the best tho desu
its all good tho desu i love it all
"Honey" or "hon" is what hons say a lot, because it was very popular when they were young, for women to say "honey" to everyone and everything.
Same with now, but instead of "hon", people say "desu" excessivly, as if they think they're more of a girl for saying so, so it'd have the exact same basis.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4NriDTxseog so here's some American accents I guess but she missed the best accent: miine https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaZN5FPMt8c
oh my god I wish I could find a commercial I heard on the radio of a guy with a wicked hard maine accent and it's perfect haha
I found this instead though and it's close but they're obviously trying to hard https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-euti6iPr9g
ok nevermind here we go
also some Maine mannerisms:
>no one ever gives street or address directions it's always
"well bub, ya go bout to the General Store then go left onto that old dirt road next to the pond there"
and also "you can't get theyah from heyah" is like a big phrase here although I still don't know why haha
>be 9 pm
>tons of people at a huge street party
>felt kinda chilly and bored
>walked around a bit
>loneliness kicked in
>felt like just going home
>on the way to car a guy stops me
>he asks for my number out of the blue and said he thinks im cute and likes tall girls
>I hesitate to talk
>then I let out my best girl voice (yes I practice often)
>I say I live kinda far away and maybe we can go do something now instead
>I don't even know what came over me desu
>I only went out to troll people, not go out with anyone, let alone a dude
>so he asks if I would like to go to a bar he knows that serves good food too
>I say yes and we start walking
>he talked, I talked, it was strange, I felt happy to not be so alone and he actually listened to me
>we got to the bar and grabbed a booth
>I ordered a whisky and rum and he was like "oh wow that's a strong drink for a girl."
>it dawned on me he didn't realize I was a guy
>oh shit he thinks im a real grill
>I switch my order to a mojito and he orders some shock top beer
>we order some bbq boneless wings and cheese sticks with marinara
>food was delicious and the drink was pretty strong
>we talked for another hour
>we got out of the bar at 11:00 pm and he asked if I would like to sober up at his place
>I agreed because I don't ever drive after drinking
>we got to his place and I sat on his couch and instead of like a water or something he hands me another beer
>I said I wanted to sober up and he said I could crash there till the morning
>I took the beer and the offer
>5 beers and some shots of vodka later I had to take a leak
>I was smashed
>I went to his bathroom and instinctively took out my dick and pissed
>I hear him behind me gasp
>oh shit I didn't close the door
>after I pee I swing around to him and my dick is still in my hand
>I put it away and try to say something but I can't
>he gives me a look and says its okay
>I tell him flat out that i just went out to troll people and have fun
>he asks if I really want some fun
>I say dude im a dude
>he asks if I am trans because of how convincing I am
>i say maybe
>I start to get really nervous like on the verge of spilling my spaghetti
>I get a little light headed and he helps me to the couch
>I sit for a few min and he starts rubbing my shoulders
>it did feel good
>he continued for a good 10 min
>I thanked him and he asked if I wanted to return the favor
>I go to reach out my arms to his neck and he gets off the couch
>wha? I say
>he says he didn't want his shoulders rubbed
>he stands in front of me and pulls his already hard dick out
>I never had a cock in my face before
>I say dude lets not
>he starts sounding angry and says I kinda owe it to him for all he paid for
>its still not going to make me suck your dick dude
>he then in a split second grabbed my head and smashed it against his dick
>all a sudden I started to get horny
So I woke up in his arms and felt fucking immediate regret and high tailed it out of there as he was waking up. I got home today at 7am and took an hour long shower. I haven't smoked in a year but I bought a pack and have been on my balcony smoking every 10 min. I noticed he had put his number in my phone while I was asleep and I deleted it but he has been texting me like crazy. What the fuck do I do?
>smoking after losing your virginity
That is the most bullshit story I've ever heard, but on the offchance it's legit, yeah, you're gonna feel like that until he says he loves you, and then when you break up you're gonna feel like that forever.
I live in and grew up in Norfolk but don't have the Norfolk accent and everyone thinks I moved up from London. Norfolk people are insular as hell so people treat you as an outsider or a foreigner for not saying 'ooo arrr moi booty, mind how you do.'
Americans like my accent though, so I'm not complaining. Most UK accents are awful.
>tfw finally realize after many years that guys don't want to be women like just few weeks ago
>talk about it accidently with boyfriend
>he comes clean and tells me he would like to be one
halloween got spookier.
>he starts sounding angry and says I kinda owe it to him for all he paid for
man that sounds kinda rapey
Man though, the whole story just reminds me of my night
>Went out with some friends
>One of them brings their dude friend
>I don't normally find guys attractive but shit damn son this dude was cute as hell, he was a blonde twink type and he had no shirt on
>We kept flirting back and forth until he left
>should have made a move but I didn't
>and a lot of denial in them
yeah, I am a living contradiction
Maybe I write them to justify wanting to be with men sexually. Like if its not totally on purpose then it isn't gay right?
>tfw regretting doing droogs last night
I'm getting too old for this shit tbqh
So I just looked that up and:
"In the June 2011 Forbes online edition, Jacquelyn Smith ranked a Master’s degree in Library Sciences as the one of worst Masters Degrees a student could invest in."
You should probably stay clear.
>try to plug my headset in
>instead of audio jack try inserting it into my reset button
>reset whole machine
Did hrt make anyone else really really stupid?
Yes and no. For me I have no patience for games anymore. I try to play one and I sit there and get frustrated and bored, I used to be able to play games for fucking HOURS on end, now I feel like my time would be better spent talking to people online. I got way more vocal on hrt.
Anyway I'm not in it for the money obviously. I want to work in libraries until I die and getting an MLS is the only proper step forward from where I am now.
I'm super curious what you sound like, I'm from manchester too but I'm the only one in my family without the accent and I'm not sure why, I probably just have gay voice but I'm wondering if it's an mtf thing
Terrible hangover. I'm not as spry as I used to be and holy shit can I tell...
>met a guy at a friend's party last night
>oddly enough we have really similar interests, anime, horror, etc. pretty cute too.
>not sure if he clocks me or not but whatever i'll go with it
>suddenly we're all going to a bar -- shit, i thought it was just going to be a chill night
>think to myself, oh well just go out and see what happens. at least i dressed cute
>everybody is already drunk but i limit myself bc mones
>remember all of kaylas silly greentexts but deep down i kinda want something to happen
>mainly shitty pop at the bar but theres some good music, i'm getting into it and having fun grinding all over him
>all of a sudden the guy grabs me and tells me we should get some privacy
>stop by a cemetary on the way back, he's all over me. fuck im so turned on.
>hands all over my body. feels so good. he stops for a moment and says to me, you ready for this?
then we did the first letter of each line
Holy crackers my phone is super fucked girls ; ( no Skype or txt messages till I buy another one.
>tfw no more Skype memes
I only have myself to blame for coming as hungover/drunk as I am. Now I gotta somehow find money to buy a new phone. God pls ;_;
Naw I wholeheartedly unironically like going to church and I subscribe to the faith sis. I legit love being a pure Christian girl.
Operator?? Its a prepaid non contract phone ;-;
I wish it was a meme, but that's literally what happened. I guess I should say that my friends were on skype memeing when my phone went kaput. ;-;
I have a bunch of bullshit excuses, and maybe I'll never feel ready to do it but I still feel early in transition. It would take a lot of work that I don't feel like doing right now I guess is what it comes down to.
Also I don't want to stay in this town longer than I have to and if I start Grad School here it might slow down that process. I'd rather be in a library in New York, the Library of Congress in DC (which I may need the degree for in the first place actually) or (even crazier dream) one in Japan.
It's all intimidating and I feel like I juuuust got stable living alone and supporting myself and transitioning so I kind of don't want to rock this boat just yet. I don't feel much urgency to get it right now which will change soon enough.
Lol why do people always tell me my job sounds boring? I got told by the lady taking my blood that my job sounds boring and I'm just like "bitch look around you THIS is boring"
I spend all day surrounded by ideas and life experiences! The raw form of the human condition and art! What's boring about that?