Suicide thread?
Suicide thread.
I haven't been to the therapist in a couple of weeks, and I'm not starting hrt officially for another month.
I thought, I'll use this time to try and see if I can properly repress. I'll give living as a man one last shit, I'll listen to /pol/s autistic man up bs and live like a boy.
So I do it. My roommate turns 21, we start hitting bars, playing pool, playing Nazi zombies every night. It all seems good.
But today us different. Im seeing a strong man in the mirror, and I hate it. I'm laying in bed for hours praying for God to send me back in time to fix my mistakes. My roommate got black out drunk and fought me, causing my other (cis female) roomate is moving out, putting me even further behind on bills and paying debts. She was the first person I had ever told about this stuff, and my strongest support through this black hole.
I really have completely lost all reason to live. I can keep struggling and I know it'll get better eventually, but I just don't see the point. I don't see and end goal. Live as a psuedo women, assuming I pass well enough? I imagine the dating pool for trannies is non-existent.
Does anyone want to do a suicide pact? Is this whole fit just because I quite cigarettes two days ago? Wtf is going on
>>8468348
Move with your other roommate?
Get your drunkard roommate kicked out, reporting him to the police for assault over the fight if necessary?
>Is this whole fit just because I quite cigarettes two days ago? Wtf is going on
same, and I'm also recovering from shitty weekened hangover. it always sucks balls the first week.
>>8468348
Don't be stupid. You're just a short while away from HRT. From therapy. From happiness. Just hold on and you'll be happy.
Hi all,
Im early in transition currently, estrogen and Tlevels are normal and within female range. I have a sex drive and masturbate.
My penis is and always has been above average in size, and many of the people ive been with have very much enjoyed this.
I feel that if i get SRS i wont have anything to offer people sexually. I dont think my boobs are big enough to satisfy people. So i have decided to try and save my dick as my best asset. Will this negatively affect feminization?
>>8468337
I am not really sure how you can influence that. Nor is it mandatory to get srs.
Kill yourself
>>8468337
We call a pineapple "abacaxi" in Portuguese
I like being a man. I enjoy being attracted to other men. I adore having my penis. It's the most wonderful feel
>>8468015
Someone will accuse you of being some A*P and thus somewhere on the trans spectrum
>>8468015
>needs to reassure himself and others that he tooootallyyy enjoys having his dick
Trans in denial tbhonest with you fampai
>>8468015
Cute picture Alice, that you?
>have gfs my whole life
>never doubt I am straight
>current gf is bitchy and boring
>start meeting with one of my childhood friends more and more
>have to keep myself from fantasizing he is a girl
I have weird feelings about this
>>8467784
You're a chaser, anon
>>8467784
>have to keep myself from fantasizing he is a girl
What? Why?
>>8467829
it's like AGP, but for someone else!
Hey y'all I'm in a hotel for a company business trip/training.
Have to share a room with a fellow employee from another district.
Really nervous but also hoping he's hot. Anyone have hot stories from confs/business trips?
You gonna get us some shots?
>>8467443
Possibly, if the opportunity arises.
>>8467442
It's absolutely going to be a fat married man in his 40s that has a lot of gas.
What am I? I've been told I'm gay, bi, straight and then something in between, what do I call myself? Not that it matters, but I'm an Autist and I have to know.
I say I'm bisexual but
>I do not like penises
>I do not like men
>I like cisgender women
>I like vagina
>I like doing anal (giving not receiving)
>I would be willing to date (not actively seeking) a transgender woman who is post op
>I would be willing to date (not actively seeking) a transgender woman who is Pre-Op but has the desire to get the Op done.
>if I were to have intercourse with the Pre-Op, I would not be able to touch the penis (or look at it)
What am I? Am I bisexual?
>>8467418
>I do not like penises
>I do not like men
that settle this
straight you are
can't say why someone would call you gay if not joking
>>8467418
You're straight
>when the boy you're dating gets triggered by your penis harder than you do
That's just splendid
>>8467435
So not even a little bi? Christ why am I here
>>8467497
>That's just splendid
I didn't mean to offend anon, I could do anything else though, just not that.
Also doesn't going out with a pre-op (or willingness to) mean I'm technically bi? Atleast that's what I thought.
I guess I'm straight then, just a little more open minded.
I want to be a girl
same t b h (to be honest) f a m (senpai means family)
you are a qt girl
>>8467193
we could be two girls here
Is it gay if I would enjoy sodomising this guy?
>>8467043
its a homosexual act
so yes, you would be being homosexual
>>8467051
It is a homosexual act but does it make me a BIG FAG.
>>8467057
a BIG PEDO maybe.
How hard is it to pull off the "6'3 tranny who dresses like a tomboy/dyke" look?
Not that hard if you're between 6'2" and 6'4".
Extremely difficult if you're below 6'1" or above 6'5".
Probably no one would think you're passable.
But I got mad lesbo action on tinder anyways
>pic related
>>8466832
Also I'm straight, lol
/mtfg/ no bullying
In this edition, tell us 3 things u like about your body
• Makeup tutorials : http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Correct hormone levels:http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
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• Transition time lines:http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• Voice Training:https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
Previously on mtfg >>8464290
I hate my body!!
>>8466621
>transwomen, crossdressers, men on hormones
im all of these things
also the only thing i could come up with is my tummy
>>8466621
im smol 5'2"
uh i got nice thighs
nice butte
Are you scared, LGBT?
You should be.
Your days are numbered.
>>8466474
I can't wait until I die tbqh I think people like you should be scared since you care about life.
>>8466474
Why would I be scared of goatfucking tribals getting blown to pieces by both Russians and Americans?
Not even Nazi Germany could withstand both the bear and the eagle so what chance do these idiots have?
>>8466474
>pretending to be a member of a terrorist organization on a website that has been proven to be monitored by the US government.
genius.jpg
Did anyone else procrastinate endlessly about getting on HRT? I just keep putting it off and on days dysphoria isn't bad I even convince myself I don't need it. Maybe I'm just afraid of transitioning? I don't even know.
>>8466381
Right here; doing EXACTLY that.
as soon as I realized it was a possibility I was in an absolute panic to get on it as soon as possible. hurry up and get started, you can always just stop taking it in a few months if ya change your mind or chicken out.
>>8466381
Same, i'm in every thread about procrastinating HRT and also on repressgen and wathever the fuck
I'm thinking about getting it tomorrow.
I have an idea. Anyone up for getting them tomorrow with me? Make a promess and do it already. Maybe create a thread if there's many people doing this too...
Otherwise we'll never do it and end up breaking at 27. Maybe together we can all do it?
Does anyone know if pueraria mirifica really works for more fem looks? I'm not mtf, I'm just a femboy looking for smoother skin
>>8466245
It will most likely help prevent MPB somewhat and will definitely help with skin.
Flax lignan extracts are also good for mpb and skin.
You might get gyno if you start megadosing on phytoestrogens though. 150mg of PM isn't much though, you should be fine.
>>8466263
Would 500 mg every 2 days be bad?
>>8466310
Also, bump.
>Be 6 or 7
>Frequently wear sister/mother clothes, feel anxious and euphoric
>Don't have male friends besides cousin. My hobbies are playing with toys and videogames (SNES). Hate sports.
>Be 8
>Bullied at school for being a weak nerd
>Be TOO sensitive and constantly cry about everything
>Feel like i'm smaller n weaker than everyone
>Be 13
>Still TOO sensitive and develop anxiety, wondering if it will ever go away
>Feels like i'm a weirdo
>Compulsively crossdress both for sexual and euphoric reasons
>Be 15
> VERY sensitive, EXTREMELY insecure, introverted and shy. Depression settles in
>I'm convinced i have a mental illness, despite my mother and therapists telling me i'm Fucking normal
>Discover 4chan but still no /lgbt/
>Crossdress everytime i'm alone
>First kiss with a girl
>Be 17
>Everything is still the same, tried LEXAPRO and it didn't worked so i just stopped taking it
>A year browsing LGBT, puberty is hitting me and i feel like shit, unwanted body hair everywhere, now i have a beard
>Start to grow my hair and consider laser for body. EXTREMELY insecure and depressed.
>Crossdress sometimes but i'm too tired and lazy to do it everyday.
>Drink alcohol and smoke like if i wanted to die. Consider suicide but don't do it for some reason
>Have "sex" with a girl, can't get pleasure from it
Now i'm 19, still unsure of what to do, i'm not sure if i'm trans and if i'm doing the right thing, as it will fuck my life forever if go on hrt. I feel like death is easier to deal with but i can't kill myself because i'm a pussy.
People tell me that i look like Serj Tankian and i get fucking depressed for days. I shaved my fuckin disgusting beard some weeks ago and my aunt told me i look like my mother and my heart skipped 100 beats. I'm not sensitive anymore, i don't cry for years. I don't smile for years. I just want to stop this all.
I also feel like anime made me think i'm trans and that i'm lying to myself.
If anime made you trans, then wouldn't more people who watch anime be trans?
Look up a gender therapist in your area and go to them. Hopefully you don't live in a gatekeeper country.
Actually, if you do live in a gatekeeper country, where you have to convince your therapist you're trans enough to transition, don't go until you want hrt.
If you live in a non informed consent country, maybe try ordering a testosterone blocker and see how you feel without test running through your body. You can do that pretty safely for up to half a year. Then make a decision whether or not to try estrogen.
Some people on this board have just gotten an orchi and not transitioned at all. So you could think about that too.
Also, there's a trans help thread always up where you can post these angsty thoughts.
>>8462257
>>8377657
>>8466345
Sorry for being selfish and creating a thread just for this, i wanted to know if anyone could relate or magically give me life-changing advice, but the problem is only myself that can't accept this.
Also thank you for your advice maybe i end up ordering blockers to try. There's no gender therapists where i live, i tried to go to a psychiatrist but he thought i was just depressed and sexually confused and put me on lexapro (the only person i remotely told about gender problems)
>>8466710
I can relate as can a lot of other trans people but I can' really give you life changing advice. Maybe try to order HRT online and try for a few months. If you feel better stick with it.
FTM here. How manly are my hands?
>>8466221
Very. To the point where I barely believe you. Digit ratio is girly tho...
>>8466221
Looks pretty manly to me. Manlier than my hands and I'm a cis dude.
>>8466221
Pretty hairy so I guess manly.
Also you happen to have a car which probably means a job.
You're more of a man that I ever was.