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>>8739071
(...cont)

I lived for about 4 more years as a "Normal boy" But every night instead of going on pornhub like many of my peers, My adolescent hormones drove me literotica and fictionmania. I had a very specific type of story that aroused me. It was "Realistic", non consensual Feminisation. I saw a youtube video once where a transwoman explained said that forced feminisation is such a popular thing among MTFs because it takes away the guilt. It's like a Psychological trick I used on myself because the feelings I had were just so fucking painful to deal with at such a young age.

I now realise any attraction to girls I ever had was me fantasizing about being them, especially in sexual situations. I sometimes masturbated to pictures of MTF's but it wasn't the body that attracted me but the knowledge that they were born male, the proof. I remember thinking to myself at around 15 how I was ever going to have a relationship, I wanted to always be honest with my theoretical partner, but telling them about my "fetish" was never going to happen. This undercurrent of guilt was so prevalent during my experience with AGP and sexuality growing up.

Eventually my interest in transgender people led me to /r/transtimelines, /r/transpassing and through those /r/asktransgender. I think you guys can guess the rest.

I came out to my mother at 16, managed to start blockers thru the NHS when I was 17.5 and started E on my 18th Birthday.
I'm 19 now and finally beginning to understand these feelings.

They are not wrong and they don't mean I am not trans, in fact, they are a symptom. I just wish I could go back in time and tell 12 year old me that I am not a pervert, or a sexual devient. I was an emotionally damaged child who was too ashamed of getting help. I think a few of us on the board could use this message now

Reading it all back, my story seems almost tragic. It took a lot to write this, but I am glad I did. Hope Maybe it helps somebody.

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>>8739078
You would have taken up resources for deserving early transitioners, and would have been evil like pic related.

>>8739071
You are still transitioning pretty young, you are fine.
I had many of the same thoughts and attractions, I was fascinated and attracted to transgirls and even understood that I want to be like them and change myself but I kept on repressing. The closet is too comfy, its just a fetish, r-right?

I never understood this meme.

>>8738586
idk either but eli posted it so i was offended by it

Lawful good- Samantha
Lawful evil- dollface
Neutral evil- caraposter
Chaotic evil- skull autist

>>8738049
It's fine to do it as long as you keep posting the conversation here.

yeah, but youre most likely going to have to talk about it anyway

>lol does your mom know you're gay
breddy shur she already got the hint bro

you tell her and she's gonna say "well no duh, where's that coke tho"

>>8737021
Coming out to yourself takes time.
You could try reading books about trans people and seeing if you identify with their thoughts and feelings.
Maybe try cross-dressing as a woman sometime when you are home alone and see how it makes you feel.
Don't worry.
You have some time to think about this.
People say you need to start taking estrogen early in order to pass, but it is mostly genetic whether or not you will pass, so make sure you are really trans before you start HRT.
Maybe try talking about your feelings with a counselor or therapist or a friend that you trust.

>>8737021
You remind me of myself a lot. Probably talking to a therapist is the best option, but I don't think any therapist would be able to solve this. I've decided I'll order Cypro and E and I'll try and see what happens, at this point it's the only way to see wether I'm trans or not.

>>8737367
Can you tell me more about you and about how I remind you of yourself?

>>8736487
Tumblr trannies be nuts.

yes

would you be friends with a dirty m*xican?

Depends if by "be friends with" you mean solicit nudes from. In which case yes.

i love lana :3

>>8736455
>brutal death metal, nazi punk or hardcore

That's just shitty in a different way, and I say this as someone who digs harsh music(not gay tho, just tranny).

>>8736455
Nice bait.
Most people have shit taste in music.
It doesnt matter if your an autistic frogposter or a tranny degenerate.

>>8736168
Everything tends to be genetic, so AGP probably is too.

I kinda want to survey a bunch of siblings to see how much it runs in families. (Obviously, this wouldn't separate shared environmental from genetically heritable effects, but could still be interesting.)

>>8736790
I've accidentally found out my brother is agp from his internet history and I'm gay(maybe bi) and pretty agp-ish

>>8736168
>he now wants to cosplay as Historia Reiss from AoT.
>AGP!!!
really?

Should I feel bad for never having a crush?

I crush on fictional characters mostly.

I had a crush but he was straight and I confessed to him and now he is my sadness

>>8735182
I was 12 and thought my dick didn't work because straight porn didnt appeal to me, then at PE at school i realised i like boys instead

i never participated in PE after that because the thought of getting a boner during was terrifying

>>8735188
Damn, I feel that. Always popped a chub during gym-class and felt hella guilty for it

>>8735188
>>8735212
That is actually really creepy

>>8731620
Who's that?

Yeah but that hair @_@

>>8731627
Evil Erlick

>post an image of you with friends
Hmmmm

but anon

I don't have friends

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I'll be impresesd if you can guess

>>8728372
Any guys from Scotland??

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good i was fucking bored of /int/

>>8728372
Why does the NHS hate us so much?

>>8727375
>does anyone comprehend this feel
12 year old girls probably, how about you nut up and stop being a whiny bitch on 4chan

>>8727375
If you got a bf, would you want to fuck or are you ace?

>>8727375
I know that feel, I want a boyfriend that's like my best friend where we naturally just end up doing romantic stuff like kissing and hugging and cuddling because we love each other, I don't care about getting laid at all, I just want to have fun, share emotions and experiences, laugh, play, fun stuff

>tfw you're an AGP brainlet with only 116 IQ
Tested by the military, not by some internet test, so that's accurate. Literally HSTS-tier. I'm unfit for anything.

>iq 144
>didn't fall for the fucking retarded blanchard meme

The whole world needs to know

>>8718769
You are dumb by AGP standards, but smart for others.
Regular people can have iq 80.
AGPs can't.

>>8702190
That picture makes me want to punch my monitor.

bitch needs electrolysis

>>8702190
>Too lazy to see if there's one already
Kill yourself.

>>8702196
Or electroshock therapy