I want to die so fucking badly. I'm not at all exaggerating when I say that every single day for months and months and months has been filled with hours of crying, trembling, pacing, and just pure mental anguish and agony, nonstop. I can barely sleep, I can barely taste the flavor of food, I just want to fucking die so badly but I can't let down the people who need me to be alive. My head hurts constantly, my chest hurts constantly, my whole body aches all day the pain is unbearable. why was I born with this fucking curse, why was I born into this fucking endless nightmare, why do I have to live in a world where I am surrounded by millions of people who have what I can't ever have
why couldn't I have been lucky enough to have been born cis
why couldn't i have been lucky enough to be born in a place that is supportive of trans people
why couldn't i have been lucky enough to have parents who would support my transition instead of throwing me out
why couldn't i have been lucky enough to start hormones early in life
why couldn't i have been smart enough to figure out that repressing these feelings and trying to be the right kind of person, a normal person was a mistake when I still had time
why couldn't i have been lucky enough to have genetics that would allow me to transition decently even after all these other things
why couldn't i be lucky enough to have even the smallest reason to enjoy life
why is the one existence I'll ever have, the one chance I'll ever get to experience life and all it encompasses so incredibly miserable and painful from start to finish
>>7325639
iktf same tbqh familia
*unironically hugs*
>>7325639
Because if you refuse to give up hope, you'll have proven to the entire fucking world that you have something else more valuable than what you wanted in the beginning.
Despite the benefits of being born cis. And without the resources of close friends and family to help you--holding out hope is the blood 'n guts of life.
>luck can turn out to be a curse
>people born with genetic beauty die from cancer and neurological disease every day
(I assume you're in good health because you didn't list any grievous ailments. Well, other than malaise stemming from being trans)
I mean, you have seen everything which was denied to you and it does no good to try to not be miserable about it, but if you refuse to give up now there's almost a guaranteed chance that you'll overcome most, if not all of the troubles facing you now.
Love, anon
P.S. I only say all this crap because I too was once broke down and hopeless and someone smacked my face and yelled at me for being such a pussy so ENOUGH
>TL;DR I'm rooting for you so don't give up you little bitch
Anyone /faggotandhateit/ here?
I'm either on denial of my faggotry or half a step into falling into the abyss.
I'm in denial of my life tbqh
>turned on by muscular/tall/big women
>Turned on by futa
>Generally submissive
>Tell myself I am open to being gay
>Any time I look at naked men in any capacity I almost feel like gagging
I almost feel like I should be gay but there's some homophobia deep within me that I can't come to terms with.
>>7325742
Same for me man, just that I'm top and quite dominant.
< Can't be healthy
Drugged up, not really but abused, yes.
Yep. I was violently raped when I was 18 and the trauma has almost become a fetish. I actively encourage my fiancee to take advantage of me when I'm drunk just because the feeling of vulnerability and the memory of the fear I felt when I was raped weirdly turns me on.
I'm really, really fucked up.
>>7325448
>. I actively encourage my fiancee to take advantage of me when I'm drunk just because the feeling of vulnerability and the memory of the fear I felt when I was raped weirdly turns me on.
... Go on...
>First gf long distance relationship
>We get along on every single level but distance is too much so we break up
>Fast forward 7 years
>Transitioned for 4 years passing fine
>Both of us get back in contact, turns out we're both in shitty relationships that are ending and we help each other out with our problems
>Get along again immediately as if we never even separated
>Still says im the best person she ever was with
>Still love her
>We're adults now so she can come to visit me
>Says she still loves me
>"But I don't know if I can be with you now that you're. . a girl.."
TRANSBIANS BTFO
>>7325298
Lol op tough shit
From one mentally ill degenerate to another, shit happens.
>>7325298
"I still love you. But in like. . a sister way now."
familyzoned
>think you're a tranny
>therapist tells you to do EEG
…
>low alpha frequencies (typical for males)
>no delta at all (typical for males)
So it turns out I'm a man…
>>7325085
be glad you actually have a real therapist and not one that refuses to tell you anything of value
>>7325085
I want more insight on this. Are hormones a factor?
>>7325101
What should I do though? I have the next appointment in two weeks and she'll read my results and decide, so I don't know for sure what that means yet.
How can I get rid of my dysphoria if it now turns out that most probably I'm just a regular dude and I shouldn't transition?
>>7325119
I don't know, I'm not on HRT yet.
Complete the following sentence edition
http://www.strawpoll.me/11767097
• Informed consent providers: https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/932389/Trans/Stepping%20Forward%20-%20Informed%20Consent%20Clinics.pdf
• Makeup for beginners: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
• Correct hormone levels: http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
• Checking your levels: http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
• Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
• Transition time lines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• Voice Training: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
• Discord: https://discord.gg/qQyfXCA
>>7323761 was before me.
cock sucker
All I want for xmas is death desu.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxuiJUMun7A
reposting in new thread
i got gendered female for the first time ever today
it feels RLY weird !!!! like idk even how to feel about it
HOW DO YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF ON DATING SITES /LGBT/? TASUKETE
Cute twink in your area that needs dick
>>7325659
..w-which area?
>>7325705
yours ;)
>tfw no cutie trans gf to fuck while my wife recovers from giving birth to our third child
>tfw you will never fuck OP's wife's son with your feminine benis while OP is forced to watch
tfw need dick
tfw in a relationship with a woman
>tfw no OP's wife's son to forceably feminize with my estrogenized breast milk
How can people actually believe that there are more than 2 genders? If you are something "different" you must have a mental illness. The multi-gender theory is just something teens in 2016 say so they can feel "different" and less attracted towards mainstream lifestyles and to recieve more attention.
Prove me wrong /lgb/
>>7324218
Agreed. I mean, sure, there are different ways to "express your gender," but at the end of the day you're either a guy or a girl. The mental gymnastics these people have to do to separate gender and sex is mindblowing.
>>7324218
>How can people actually believe that there are more than 2 genders?
They don't.
It's just the modern equivalent of Sonic the Hedgehog OC donut steel and shitty recolors.
It's playing pretend by a bunch of bored entitled cishet girls.
>>7324218
I know it's sounds like a meme, but gender actually is a social construct. There isn't a clear line between what's 'masculine' and 'feminine' – these are only labels which the society require us to idenitify with, which carry on certain psychological traits, just like the MBTI's 16 personalities for example. Our western culture distinguish two genders, while other cultures distinguish three or four and tumblr distinguishes 9999. And nobody is actually right, because everyone is different and it's extremely hard to label people's personalities like that. Biology through evolution makes females have the 'feminine' traits and males – the 'masculine' ones more often, but it's not always the case, it just turned out to make human reproduction easier.
What is lesbian abuse/rape like?
I always read about how lesbian have a higher abuse rate in relationships than gay or hetero couples.
How do lesbian rapists operate? Do they just fist you or forcefully scissor you lol
Bamp
>>7324215
>it's only rape if a penis is involved
Kys my man
>>7324215
We have a higher abuse rate, not rape rate
thankfully lesbians cant 'rape' we can only take what we want
What do?
Leave him, that's a broken boy
>>7324234
Well that's not gonna happen.
Plus, he'll do it every once in a while if I ask. Just wish he liked it as much as I do.
>>7324241
It sounds like not that much of a problem
If we isolated what causes gayness and were able to prevent it in utero, would you support this treatment?
>>7324058
Not really anon
>Auguste Rodin's The Thinker will never plow you to completion
why even live?
>>7324069
Why wouldn't you want children to be normal?
I'd rather prevent autism depression anxiety and bipolar.
>22
>Used to hate gays
>Now happily bi, and in a relationship with another guy
>Still like women
>Hate the shit out of lesbians
Am I the only one who can't fucking stand lesbians? I don't know what it is about them that repulses me so much, I just can't stand them.
I don't think lesbians are innately shitty. It's just that political lesbians are annoying as shit.
>>7323902
You just cannot comprehend the ideas that somebody doesn't want your disgusting dick. Sad!
>>7323942
See, shit like that. Just this aversion toward men and all things dick related.
Least you can do is not act like men are the worst thing to ever happen to world.
hello, this is my first time posting on this board and i came to you with a question
i was wondering if anyone else experienced what i have
>be a fucking nerd but have a huge dick
>to socially awkard to get any girls
>still horny as fuck
>end up fucking twinks or trans every few weeks although i wish i could simply land at least one girl
is there a term for this? and don't say "asshole" since i ALWAYS clarify beforehand that i just meet these acquaintances for sex
>>7323852
>>7323852
Why dont you just meet women for casual fuck sessions? Why do you consistently pur your dick into someone else with a dick, if you say you want women? What the fuck does your dick size have to do with you being a bumbling duff in dront of women? Why is it wqsier for you to fuck something with a penis attatched?
These are things you need to ask yourself. Look within and find the answer.
>>7323852
Yes, bisexual
>>7323865
there is no answer, i am on "straight meetup" sites as well, but literally NONE of the women want anything to do with me, i'd say i am at least 6/10, definitely not too ugly
dick size is important because on the gay dating site i frequent guys go nuts over it and are greedy as hell, complimenting my girth and size constantly
so i thought "hey i have a big dick apparently, i should be good and set to hookup on a dating site with women"
but like 95% of them don't even respond (and yes i know that such sites have around 1 women per 20 men)
Your reaction?
>>7323700
Mouseface makes for best mtfs
Good for her!