>I spent 14 hours on 4chan yesterday
>I will do the same today
>my average bed time is 11am
>the only time I left the house was to go to the corner store
>almost had a panic attack because there were no baskets
>tried to carry 10 things in my arms cradled like a baby
>dropped an item, went down to grab it, dropped 4 more things
>everyone is just looking at me with pity
>feign being retarded to get them off my back
Seriously, don't feel bad senpai. Not your fault that there were no shopping baskets.
>my average bed time is 11am
I get out of bed at 13 pm. Shit life.
>I spent what were supposed to be the best years of my life staring at a screen playing video games alone in the dark
>tfw 18 years old and laughing at you losers
My great granddad spent the best years of his life working in a factory 14 hours a day while living in a slum with no electricity. My granddad spent the best years of his life in a trench with foot rot being bombed by Germans. We're living the dream.
>I recently discovered that I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder which is why I cannot seem to empathize with anyone and why my dreams for the future have become so deluded that I now just want WW3 to break out so I can finally die.
Before that I always assumed I was just an asshole. I've been single for two years now. Seems to be getting worse the older I get but I refuse to hop on meds.
>tell mod to stop being a lazy fuck and delete the paris attacks sticky
>he deletes my thread instead
>one day later he deletes the sticky anyways the absolute madman
>I have completely wasted my youth and I will never, ever, ever get another chance to do things right
>wasted his youth
>implying I haven't just come back from spending the night at a mate's place with the boys and now gonna relax on my Sunday afternoon
>I recently discovered that I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder
How? some jew psychologist told you that?
I've heard psychology in the US is crazy (I mean over-sensitive when diagnosing people) and I wouldn't trust meds either.
me too senpai LMAO
That, and also I fit the profile. And I know, m8. They tried hooking me on that shit when I was dealing with depression. I stopped dealing with psychologists and mended my depression on my own, but there isn't much I can do about BPD on my own.
>perfectly happy 'wasting' my youth on computers
>have a couple close friends who do the same
>gain no enjoyment from being social, going out, driniking etc.
>don't really care about getting a gf
Just embrace it lads.
How can you call it wasted if you're loving it?
>I'm failing all my classes my first semester of uni
Don't think of it as a disease. It's the way you are, it's your personality. You can try to change things little by little.
I've been reading this book maybe it might help. It's available on pdf on the net. Don't be mislead by the title.
I'm perfectly fine talking to people and playing the part, people like me.
When people ask me to go on a night out though I just turn them down.
It's just not interesting. Shitposting on 4chan seems to be my true calling.
>30 years old
>out of a job, almnost no money left, no savings, no house, no car, obviously no gf
>living at my sister's house
>spend at least 12 hours fucking around on the internet
>was a virgin till I was 26
>im not even ugly or autistic
>what the fug
>graduating from uni this summer
>need to write a thesis and find a job
>might just off myself instead
>stay up all night gaming and on 4chan
>go to bed at 7am and pretend to be sound asleep while parents getting ready for work
>get up at 4pm
>try to look like I've had a productive day before parents get home from work
>"Good day anon?"
>repeat every weekday for last 4 years
feels good/bad man, depending on the day
>browse 4chan at 7 in the morning
>some time later I check the time
>it's night time already
I dropped out of my Honours year rather than write the dissertation
Got to mid November and hadn't even set up a meeting with my supervisor, let alone chosen a subject
Still NEET 4 years later
>all my friends will stop talking to me in few months since we're all finishing college
>I will get a shitty job despite being the potentially best of all due to my low self-esteem and no social skills
>they will all make great money
>I will spend my next 25 christmas alone in a cold apartment watching the NFL game and checking FB constantly to see if anyone texts me
>four years wasted
>four of my best years
>all the things I could have done
>all the things I could have seen
>but I spent it here on 4chan
>the only texts I receive are "thank you for your $111 payment"
>34 years old
>NEET living on autism bux
>Spending my life watching anime and playing video games
>Get yelled at by team mates in video games
>Go to bed and read
>Try reading Finnegans Wake
>I can't read it
>Repeat the next day
>25 years old with no marketable skills nor even plans to go to university
>managed to convince everyone a shitty IT course i took is on par with a degree
>pretended to study and work for years while in reality i was reading books in a cafe , took 8 hour long walks and fapped in the woods
>once my part time pc repair gig is over i`m dead
>realise all of this but do nothing to change it because one time i had a dream of winning the lottery
yes, it's a start but it's more than that. It explains the origins of some bad thought and action patterns and how to change them. I'd say it can put you on the right track regardless of whatever personality disorder one may have. I wouldn't think much about personality disorders. You will only give it more power imo.
Depends on how much you enjoy it. Some days I feel a bit shit or ashamed of what I'm doing but most of the time I'm having fun, plus the alternatives to this all worse than the current situation.
If you're bored as fuck everyday then you probably can change
>i could've been an attractive guy with successes to my name
>instead i'm just a fat loser who hasn't talked to anyone he isn't related to in months
I am grateful to be NEET, I can't imagine working again. It's been 4 years so far.
But being NEET won't make you happy. I've lost what little social skills I once had, I play games and shit just to avoid thinking about my future, there's no joy in it.
>feeling cool about being good at a videogame
>I have no skills or talents and there is no reason for any employer to desire me as an employee
>''anon will you work on your cv and get a job?''
>''yeah mum I'll work on my cv this weekend''
>''anon, how is the job search going?
>''the economy is killing this country mum...''
>''mum, I gotta pay a couple of bills, mind sending me 400$?''
all my bills are microtransactions in videogames
My mum works 2 jobs and is still poor a shit
>my grandparents left switzerland because of this
I thought my people were strong and hardworking
This is basically what modern life has come down to. People just bullshitting each other routinely and wasting time on enjoyable but unproductive activities. Don't feel so bad about it, your situation is not so much more obvious than everyone else's.
Also, I don't know if you were joking with Finnegans Wake, but try reading something lighter that will make you feel relaxed man.
When I'm stressed I'll just read Lovecraft or stephen king or whatever. Nothing fancy.
Yeah nah I read other stuff too. I enjoy reading.
Finnegans Wake though, can't get past the first page. And I have to finish books once I start them. I might just alternate a bit.
Thanks Greece bro.
PS. Did you like King's The Dark Tower?
>took 8 hour long walks and fapped in the woods