>almost nothing in bank account >have lots of healthy and

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>almost nothing in bank account
>have lots of healthy and high calorie food stored in flat, enough for until payday
>can't ask parents for more money, they'd freak due to how many times I've done it before
>still buy a coffee today during lunch break despite telling myself yesterday was the last time
>bought lots of junk food yesterday, telling myself it was the last time
>had large bag of doritos of with nacho cheese dip, tub of Ben and Jerry's ice cream, big bag of skittles, most of a big chocolate bar, and coke zero
>no point lifting weights at the gym until I finally have a few nights of sleep not harmed by coffee

REEEEEEE

How do I even get the fucking motivation to eat healthily when I have an ugly non Chad face, zero social life for 8 years, I'm the ugly loser beta at work, and have never had attention from girls ever? I am being told to train for a sport, "Anon's-great-future-ball", which doesn't exist.

>inb4 "lifting will magically fix everything bro!"

I squat 4 plate. It's just a demoralising life. My eyes are wide open as to how ugly I am, how awful my social skills are, how easy women's lives are, how I'll never fit in with normies and get ahead in the workplace because of all the necessary socialising. How society grinds up beta males such as myself. I can see all the snake oil salesmen and see the incentives motivating them and the pseudointellectuals who tell you to read boring old books or travel to places, or, in the extremely general and common case, join their hierarchies and pay your dues for probably no reward.