/Feel/ Thread

>>11316984
>tfw cant find good versatile shoes to cop
>want to cop CP's but unsure
>only own a pair of super stinky all black vans and a pair of adidas gazelles
>still considering copping cps

>>11316991
CPs aren't comfortable and you're pretty late to the game, don't bother

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>Think I'm a hideous, unlikable person
>Am incapable of seeing any positive features about myself in term of looks and personality
>Lots of people actually compliment me calling me attractive, smart, etc
>I genuinely believe they're doing it to fuck with me

>>11317016
people don't do that, there's no reason to
you're a little paranoid and that's okay, you can get over it

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>find qt on tinder
>bond over fashion and music
>she thinks im a qt and loves my style
>i too think she is a qt and love her style
>finally go on data after talking for a week and a half
>kinda awkward at first but gradually get comfortable woth each other
>we get coffee and spend the day thrifting with each other
>we talk and cuddling on bench to finsh the day
>i leave happy
>wake up the next day
>go to check her Instagram because want to see pictures of her to remember fond memories of yesterday
>findout i am blocked
>go to her snapchat
>findout i am blocked there too
>send text message asking why she has blocked me on everything
>no response
>send her another text message telling her if she wishes to stop talking to me to simply tell me instead of cutting me off completely with no explanation
>still haven't gotten a response

I thought i was finally not going to be lonely anymore

>tfw broke up with first gf
>she was my only friend
>tfw after that for some reason everything has been going good
>finally getting really good grades in school
>everything else keeps working out fine for some reason
>sometimes think about her
>realize she was really abusive and I was stuck in an abusive relationship with her, and since she was my first I assumed that's how it usually is
>tfw really want a gf now
>I don't know where to go
>just want to fall in love again
>tfw

>>11317040
That is fucking weird bro, crazy bitches is what that sounds like

>>11317040
Yeah fuck that bitch, if you stayed with her she would've been the type of hoe that never communicates her feelings and shit. Fuck that noise dude, never have any sort of sympathy for bitches who don't communicate

>>11317040
>tfw that happened to me

Deleted my OKC profile after that, never went back.

>>11316984
I used to be morbidly obese and lost a shit tonne of weight, but now the skin is still there and I don't have the money to get that removed. Plus my face is round and I'll never be the size I really want.

>have shoe size EU47-48
>will never have geos
>i just want nice sneakers

>>11317016
Bro I've felt that like my whole life
Recently got diagnosed with ocd, basically developed it due to how much I hate myself and wanna be someone else. You gotta quit that mentality guy

>>11317209
not him but how do you fix it

>>11317040
what in the fuck? LOL that's fucked not even gonna lie

>>11317415
20mg prozac 2 times a day

>>11317442
how do you get it

I don't the money for a doctor.

>>11317449
you don't. i was kidding

you should save up some cash and see a therapist though.

>>11316984
Anyone have the pic of blue guy from watchmen that isn't meme dude, thanks

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>don't pay attention a lot and people get mad at me
>talk in class a lot
>still get very good grades
>forget everything all the time
>fucking love checkers (the game)
>can't ever do homework or sleep because doing other stuff is more fun
I suspect that I have ADHD but I know how gay self diagnosis is so I never say so. Also I don't even want meds unless I really gotta study because I'm terrified they would change my personality. Does anyone have ADHD in here that can maybe tell me about some stuff they do and see if I can relate?

>>11317508
Also what is the difference between ADD and ADHD. I'm not bouncing off the walls I'm just super spacey

>>11316984
i need a gf but i cant get one because i dont have a job

I just want friends

>>11317589
That's not why you don't have a gf

>was 18 in college
>girl got my number from someone else
>started talking and eventually date
>dumped her ass cause she kept snubbing me around her friends
>also found out she was cheating on me
>fast forward 5 months later
>got myself into pilot school
>cunt keeps texting/messaging me via phone and social media wanting to talk
>lol-go-fuck-yourself.jpg
>blocked her everywhere
>fast forward 18 months later
>im a pilot now
>logged into one of the social media site to delete account
>tfw i realised this neurotic cunt is still messaging me for almost every month till now using different accounts
>tfw when she say she saw me wearing X on X date and X time
>tfw i cant get a restraining order in my country because there are no law against stalking

i thought people understood the concept of breaking up and also the meaning when i said 'go fuck yourself'

>fked up one of my classes
>sleep cycle is completely broken
>feel like my memory is going
>feeling more and more stressed as weeks go by
>people around me thinking im getting worse cos of recent breakup. But really i didnt care about her I just liked having company
>want to start taking valium or xanax so I can at least feel stress free for a bit. I know ill get addicted though

>>11317629
girls dont go out with neets. not good ones anyway, maybe basic girls do but i got high standards

>>11316984
>date girl
>break up cuz I wanted freedom from woman
>regret
>she comes back to me
>she say "Why do you like me? You could do so much better."
>realize she's right
>fuck what do I do

>>11317508
>>11317512
I got diagnosed with ADHD and I just spaced out a lot. I only got diagnosed cause I fell for the adderall meme. Every acts like its some wonder focus drug but you really just will be able to shit post at a faster rate and never want to eat. Meds don't mess with your personality at all though so you shouldn't let that stop you from going to a doctor if you really think meds would help.

>>11317715
You in it now boy, better man up quick and tell her how it is.

>>11317707
Na I wouldnt ether, get some cash boy.
Money makes the world go around.

>>11317040
There has to be something you're leaving out, you must have been mad autistic.

>>11317048
You're in high school you'll get over it. Don't force a relationship just let one happen naturally

>>11317604
Get some? Put your self out there, hopefully you are not socially awkward.

But if you are, still put your self out there.
Only way to learn and better your social skills bud.

>>11317040
She scared, you flexed on her to hard.

>tfw I met a girl last week but forgot her name
>tfw met her at a bus stop and talked for an hour
>tfw she looked at me the sort of way I never would've thought I wanted
>the only hope I'm going on is I hope I meet her again, since the town I live in is relatively small

>>11317732
Are the meds fun? I don't wanna abuse them or anything but I've heard it's fun. I bet I would get diagnosed if I had a doctor check me out but meds worry me because I don't wanna get addicted or anything. Is that stupid?

>>11317770
Nice, get her name.

>>11317629
why dont i have a gf then

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Been feeling increasingly bored with life and desensitized from my emotions. Been drinking a lot of beer and smoking some cigarettes to fill this void. I also want to breakup with my girlfriend and fuck the shit out of this one girl who I've become close with once again.

>>11317806
Do it, life is to short.

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>Mom commits suicide after very short depression last August
>Spend following 8 months building up life again with my dad
>Love him more than any other person on Earth, only challenged by late mother.
>After 8 months finally starting to get life back on track and start enjoying it again
>Start of April father dies from a heart-attack out of nowhere
>Now 22, no siblings, no parents, living with aunt and uncle.

Life no longer seems to have any meaning or point and I'm just floating through existence. I used to have a great life, why the fuck did this happen to me?

>>11317838
Get a therapist

>>11317787
Can't say, but if you're looking for an actual gf then she shouldn't be the type to only date you if you have money

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>>11317813
For sure, I'll remember you the day I lay it down, anon.

>>11317774
Nah its not stupid its understandable.I'm on adderall and it definitely helps, but not nearly as much as everyone likes to say it does. The drug isn't fun but it has kind of gotten a reputation for being like a cool "study drug" because it isn't addictive and you cant really overdose so its super low risk. It's worth seeing a doctor and trying to get a prescription for sure though.

>>11317852
Eh, both have a psychologist and a psychiatrist. So that is covered. The thing is though that I don't really feel depressed, I just feel like everything is pointless and we will die anyway. Luckily I have a large network looking out for me and a 8/10 gf, so some things are ok, but fuck this gay Earth regardless.

Hopefully things change as time goes on, we'll see in a year.

>>11317838
yer a superhero, peter

>>11317880
Yeah basically, when I was still in the shock-phase I kinda thought that this would either end great or shit. Now it just feels like shit.

>>11317894
Look on the bright side, you didn't implode.
>The thing is though that I don't really feel depressed, I just feel like everything is pointless and we will die anyway.
I'd wager more on this being either a phase or something that will lead you to being in a better place than now, or even before, than something that will make you go downhill.

>Luckily I have a large network looking out for me and a 8/10 gf
>large network
If that works for you, great
>8/10 gf
>ree
and so on, but again if it works.

>>11317760
nah im not leaving anything out. thats all the happened. whats worst is that she didnt seem like the type of girl to do that. she was pretty open and friendly throughout the whole date. the only thing that i thought was kinda weird is that she barely ate any of the food she ordered.

>>11317858
Cool maybe I will. Thanks bro

>>11317760
>>11318018
also she changed he Instagram header to "its time to fucking died"

this is getting kinda spooky now

>>11317415
Your thoughts create your reality. Use this to your advantage. Thinking paranoid = to feeling paranoid. So instead of focusing on paranoid thoughts try to assume the positive option in a situation. Eventually your brain will change to not think in a paranoid manner all the time. It's really that easy. Look up how the brain works and stuff like that and you'll know what I mean

>>11317838
sorry for your loss anon

>>11317838
I'm sorry man, things like this just happen. Just don't put your aunt and uncle through that by killing yourself or nothing

>tfw barrel chest and tree trunk thighs

No matter how much weight I lose nothing nice will ever be made for people my shape

>>11318088
*her

>>11317760
>you're in highschool get over it
Well I did have her when I was a senior, but I just finished my first year of college and I'm starting to realize a lot of things about that relationship.

>wide hips
>new normie wagecuck job making me gain weight because it's sedentary af lifestyle
>sick as shit and never want to go to work
>bored of everything. nothing is exciting. i don't even remember the last time i felt something other than disgust or the last time i cried
>even killing myself sounds like a hassle

>>11317086
at least u prob have a huge dick

> size 41 here, mediocre penis :-(

>>11317016
>tfw I have never related with something so much
feelsbadman.jpg

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>>11318159
i feel you, only instead of a job i'm at uni doing the bare minimum to get by

>>11317869
>The thing is though that I don't really feel depressed, I just feel like everything is pointless and we will die anyway.

common sign of depression, desu

>think of myself as the least important person in my life
>large network
>keep getting feelings for my mates' gfs
>every time I go on a date I get drunk because I'm a borderline alcoholic
>never had a real gf
>wake up next to random girls but have almost no memories of the night before
>don't know if I ever had sex consciously
>things tend to matter less and less to me

I don't even know if I want to change anything about that. All I wanna do is sit on my couch with a cup of coffee and watch some nature documentaries til I get tired

Tell me /fa/ what does love feel like?

>too tired to even pay attention to a movie anymore
>can't think straight
>can't relate to anyone
>have no place in society

>>11318356
take a nap

>>11318361
It doesn't matter how much sleep I get. I always feel like this.

>tfw not even alcohol takes away my social anxiety

I can be drunk as fuck and still unable to socially interact like a normal person.

>>11318370
drink a cup of coffee
go for a run
take a cold shower
eat your fruits and veggies

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>>11317693

>pilot school
get a load of this highschooler

you dont become a pilot in 18 months buddy

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>attractive
>likeable
>tfw have never been able to have a deep connection with anyone
>no friends
>depression
>seeing psychologist now
>drugs kind of helping but not really

>>11318249
that's what i did at uni as well. it only keeps getting worse anon. brace for it
existing is terrible

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>>11317838

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/This_too_shall_pass

Applicable to every situation and every feeling.

>>11318088
Sounds like she has mental problems and just didn't want a relationship. I've been with a lot of girls I've talked to over the Internet and some of them work in mysterious ways. They'll block you or don't want to meetup because they're scared they'll fall in love or whatever. Maybe it's just an excuse not to see me.
In your case it just sounds like she's a hello drugo or something

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>can't stop focusing on my looks
>have a near unhealthy obsession with facial aesethics
>gave up completely on lifting, have become king of skeletons now
>losing contact with old friends, have no new
>porn addicted
>addicted to shitposting and online chat rooms as my only way of contact
>almost falling asleep writing this because I took sleeping pills
>at least my dreams are amazing

>>11318557
also
>can't find love
>can't help that I'm ultra egocentric
>have little no empathy from others. haven't felt true empathy or sympathy since middle school
>sex isn't fulfilling
>porn is the only thing that allows me to get off
>live as a leech of my rich parents
>dream about a future as a millionaire just fucking proving all those fags that doubted in me wrong
>tfw they were right

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>Skinny as fuck which is great for /fa/ styles
>I don't even like effay styles though
>Have a serious case of golden-age syndrome and want to wear outdoorsy, vintage, Visvimy kind of style
>Want to wear denim but blue jeans make me feel to normie and self conscious
>Wear all black and look fine because of the huge cognitive dissonance from above
>People keep asking if my boots are Doc Martens when they're clearly fucking not

>mfw the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side

>>11318580
you can wear other types of pants than blue jeans with outdoorsy stuff anon

>>11318557
>>11318572
holy shit dude you sound like me
i've been watching porn today and i feel like each time it has to get more extreme for me to be interested
i also have little empathy and use people for personal gains
i manipulate my partners into doing what i want
sex is a chore
spend most of my money on clothes
never happy with my appearance and am obsessed with my face and body and how to improve them
i have an adult job but i still mooch off parents
very much unstable
take sleeping pills and addys for recreational purposes

>>11318580
post fit

>still stuck in early "hypebeast" mode
>been collecting sb dunks for a decade
>spent nearly $11k on dunks in past three hears
>several Bape, BBC/IC, Supreme pieces
>No desire to change
>solecollector forums are dead

I'm 24. When does the nightmare end.

>>11317693
Something similar happened to me. Only it was my first gf, and she said she would kill herself if i left her, also when i left her said she was pregnant. Fast forward 4 months see her at a nightclub with her cousin. Crazy bitches i tell you that

>>11317702
bro just get that sleep schedule sorted and work on things 1 at a time
meds will just leave you worse off

>>11317040
I remember something like this being mentioned either here or reddit, and someone said that's apparently the "norm" now rather than just saying you're not interested, idk mejt, but if that's true, don't take it too personally.

>>11318643
what's the point
don't do it if you don't want to
collect something else like stamps, vintage maps, or knockoff video game consoles

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>>11318613
yeah I've been thinking of investing in a good pair of olive pants, any suggestions?

>>11318626
why though, here's two that are somewhat close to the aesthetic I want. Still not good enough though

>Obsessed with my appearance
>Spend literally my whole paycheck on clothes the moment I get it
>No friends
>Come home from work and browse /fa/
>browse /fa/ till 4am nearly every day
>Caffeine addiction

>>11318679

Eh, I love collecting them but sometimes I feel like it's just to chase my dream from 10 years ago. Kind of like a manchild, except I'm adding a photography and videography aspect to make it respectable.

>>11318685
i remember your fits in waywt. they're dope.

>>11318687
same~
i dont even have anywhere to wear my clothes except maybe work

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>>11318698
>i remember your fits in waywt. they're dope.
thanks senpai

>>11317629
>>11317854
It wouldn't really be about the money for me personally, but I wouldn't want to date someone who didn't have a similar work ethic.

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>tfw crippling depression/anxiety
>will never have the body i want because i'm too lazy to go ano for it
>poor
>average face
>shit city
JUST

>>11318695
are you mrnikesb6

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>>11318343
feels good
and then it feels bad

>no future
>no social skills
>no purpose in life

I just don't care about anything anymore.

>>11318736
Is it better to have felt it and feel bad or not feel it at all?

>>11318740
become a smack head youll find friends and get social skills. then recover and youll find more friends with the social skills you got. you might find your wife/husband, if you start to lose your relationships just get back on the smack and do it all over again.

>>11318735
no he is the youtube superstar son of rick owens, franalations

>>11318745
I'd rather never felt it at all.

Being able to say that you're not a virgin anymore is so overrated, who cares

>>11318740
the only future is your future
the internet is the perfect replacement for a social life
life has no purpose anyway

>>11318745
I was cheated on after a 4 year relationship. So no for me

>>11318745
feel it mayn. you learn a lot and it will have good memories when all the sad passes.

>>11318760
At least you got to experience it like a normal person.

Outsiders like some of us will go through our whole lives never having felt what it's like.

>>11318768
cuck

>>11318773
This is why I have no sympathy for whiny faggots who bitch about how they lost their gf or whatever like their life is so hard.

They have no idea what it's like to be an outsider.

>>11318781
do you ever try to not be an outsider?

>>11318784
You sound like a normie who has no idea what it's like to not fit it anywhere or be unable to relate to other people or feel like an alien.

but sure tell me how to be normal

>>11318792
i didn't mean it in a condescending way you autist i wanted to know

>>11318797
I've tried but it's not that simple. It's just who I am. There is something inherently wrong with me. I will never be able to function in society.

>>11318781
fuck you dude, i'd much rather be an outsider than be in a fucking abusive relationship like the one i was in, lose my virginity to someone who only saw me as a means for her own emotional boost, and have my heart broken while i was deceived into thinking that she actually loved me

having your hopes put up then all of a sudden forcibly taken away from you fucking sucks

its like if you enter the lottery, and it says you won 1 million dollars. you feel awesome, quit your job and start looking into a happy, jobless future. then suddenly they tell you it was cut for some reason, and you only get enough to pay your bills for a month, and now you're stuck without a job, you're now even worse off than you were before

>>11318804
At least you got to experience love and emotionally connect with another human being for a while.

I don't even know what that's like.

>>11318775
yeah, totally. It was with one of my friends too

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>depressed
>literally living in hell on earth
>socially awkward only 3 friends i rarely go out with and they make me feel like shit about anything (like about my look etc despite others complimenting me)
>kicked out of school for getting "low grades"
>work and get 1350$ to make my life a bit better and it gets stolen
>got some sleeping problem where i feel dead tired if i dont sleep 12 hours a day at least
JUST

>>11318862
fuck those friends

>>11318804
that's just life you ween. you think that winning the lottery feeling ever lasts, even in the best of situations? of course it doesn't, it either comes to a violent end, as in your case, or else it bleeds out slowly over the course of years until one day you realize you've wasted half your life sharing a bed with some tepid sack of flesh you can't bear the sight of. neither course is preferable.

you'd get over these things a lot faster if you didn't insist on melodrama. there's a kind of comforting vanity in this idea that life's one great tragedy after another, but you're ultimately deluding yourself into giving your suffering greater meaning than it deserves. all so you have something to hold onto it in a meaningless universe where nothing you do or feel is of any consequence whatsoever. that's no way to be happy.

>>11318667
what the fuck thats such a shit thing to do to a person. normies are scum.

>>11316984
i cant stop my emotional eating pls help me

>>11318897
never thought of it like that, insightful

>>11318862
Just try to work through it man. Get the help you need for your sleeping and put yourself out there to make new friends. Even if your socially awkward people really wont care. Your situation right now is just making you more based for the future.

>>11318887
they are fun when they arent being assholes

>>11318899
it really is the norm these days. people use dating sites to meet up with so many people that they couldn't possibly bear it if they had to actually go through the process of rejecting every single one. it's much easier just to block them.

also it seems like the same phenomenon has created a culture where it appears that there are a million and one options when it comes to dating, and so there is always that nagging feeling in the back of your head saying there's something better out there. so you're hesitant to commit because you don't want to throw your resources at a subpar situation when there could be something better out there. it's very much like shopping for clothes (or anything, really) in an over-saturated market.

>manlet
>balding
>lunacy
>everyone hates me
Time to kill myself

>>11318951
sleep is slightly getting better with coffee and stuff trying to find frens but dudes in the neighborhood only play sports and half dudes in school they wear trash blazers and suits and dress "fancy" so i dont get along with both :( thanks for some hope fren

>>11318965
there's more to making friends than trying to find people exactly like you
which you will never find
just hang with people that seem chill or you have at least something small in common with
perhaps someone who is interested in board games, researching pre-WWII wars, or spanish poetry

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>Be utterly isolated throughout high school
>Not even good enough to hang out with the weird people, I literally didnt know the names of a single person by the time I graduated
>The only times I ever talked where when I got called on in class and I had such a bad stutter I couldnt say anything
>Eventually college comes around
>Hear tons of stories about self reinvention, "the best years of your life", life affirming friendships and all the other things I could finally find
>First week in dorms
>Psyche myself up to meet flatmates
>Start talking to them and eventually go out to the first "everyone meets everyone else" party
>Everyone else is mingling and making friends instantly
>I try to approach a few people to introduce myself
>Have a few stilted and dull conversations
>Suddenly it hits me im just walking around like a huge autist, probably already gaining a reputation as "that weird guy"
>Go home early
>Months pass
>Join a few societies, exact same thing happens, cliques are already in place, and im not interesting enough to be liked
>year ends

>>11319003
it is entirely your fault for not meeting your own standards
do whatever the hell you want with your life, it's up to you and no one else
grow a goddamn spine and live your life

>>11319003
>make a list of things you find interesting
>do those things
shit aint hard anon
the rest of your life starts right now
be the person you want to be

>>11319003
Maybe try either outdoor or sport oriented clubs because that way you can at least lose yourself in an activity without having to do too much pure social interaction.

>>11319009
>>11319013
that is effectively what i did
most of my hobbies are solitary, and when i try to participate in group related things like sport or whatever i just end up as dead weight and its clear people are waiting for me to go away
starting to lose interest in just about everything anyway, most of my energy is focused towards not dropping out which ill probably do regardless

>>11319003
The first step to being social is socialising, stop worrying about what people think you aren't going to be best mates with the first new person you talk to. Once you start clicking you'll have people you meet up with who will introduce you to more like minded people and so on.

>>11319037
In my experience a lot of clubs really struggle for numbers and mostly just want people who are willing to keenly participate regardless of their skill level.

>>11319037
what are you interested in?

>>11317415
As bogus and hippy as it sounds, I found a couple of mindfulness meditation guides to be a real help. Basically you just concentrate on the present moment and you realise that your thoughts are just thoughts, and they don't have any real impact on who you are, it's just what you concentrate on that matters.

I love Yohji Yamamoto and I'm fat and ugly. No chance I'm going to cop a gf.

>>11319003
I know how you feel, anon.
I have the same problem except i have a ''social circle'' that revolves around my family so i can't try to just talk and learn by trial and error because my family will know how much of an autist i am.
I also love my family and they are the reason i haven't met Death yet. Life feels like a maze of traps...

>never went to highschool because of alot of personal problems, regret
>failed all exams, literally no qualifications
>no social skills from being a shut in and bad anxiety
>pretty much nobody knows who I am anymore
>still am a shut in and have no desire to do anything or better myself because life is pointless to me now
>feel like a huge disappointment to my whole family
>have a bunch of deficiencys and other shit wrong with me, pretty much dying
>only drugs can make me feel happy again but I know it won't last
>a-at least I have my sick fits right guys
What do /fa/, should I just end it all.

>>11319253
dude there are plenty of skills out there that are easy enough to learn and that you can make a living off of
cooking, construction, carpentry, coding
the list is endlessu
live you life exactly how you want to live it
who gives a shit about the people you think you're disappointing
live for yourself

y'all need to get a grip

>>11317838
i know this will come off as bad but if it were me i would literally kill myself so i could maybe see them in heaven, that's assuming we really have an after life

>>11316984
tfw caught feelings for FWB
tfw tell her
tfw she won't fuck anymore

>>11318899
People do it to me every single day, m8. That's why I don't invest in people literally at all anymore.

>>11319371
This.
Foreal, fuck what your family thinks and everyone else. And try to learn a skill. There's something that interests you out there for sure. pursue that shit, man.

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>>11319253
If no one even even knows who you are anymore, then you're in a perfect position to become whoever you want to be

>>11317806

do it before its too late senpai

>>11319397
Don't do it, you moron.

>>11318401
there's something called mpl buddy. you dont have to take the ppl license beforehand. it's only offered by airline academies, not through private pilot schools.

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>hook up with some girl last fall
>turns out shes crazy
>told everyone from my old high school I raped her
>police get involved
>was depressed before this, now on suicide watch
>still going to court to this day
>failed suicide in the winter
>lot contact with anyone ive ever known
>hopefully the suffering ends soon

>>11318202
Big yes. Too much girth for most girls, too.
>feels bad man

At least not a manlet. 6'6.

>>11317040

You don't need a girl like that in your life, anon.
It sucks. Don't let your projection of who you want her to be obscure who she is. A girl like who just cuts all contact at the drop of a hat like you described is not someone you want to be with.

>>11319659
shouldn't have raped her, rapist.

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>finally get over my first true love lately after a year of obsession
>peers all see me as a songwriter with insane potential but have no proper gear or software
>friends keep trying to pressure me to get tinder
>just want to write and listen to music and improve my wardrobe and style

Why must people push you to do things just because everyone else does them? I'm finally content after years of depression and uneasiness and nobody believes I really dont want to even talk to girls anymore

>>11317040
This kind of happened to me, the most frustrating thing is not knowing why

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>>11317040
>mfw this happened to me
>mfw she was the light at the end of the tunnel
REEEE just speak your mind dear, we're not 12 anymore

fucking women man

she didn't block me but she's hardcore ignoring me, she reads every message I send her though, there's still a chance right y-you-guys?

>>11319853
This is the unfortunately the easiest way for women to avoid harassment, because they don't know how you're going to react, and bad experiences with a few autists who can't take no for an answer have ruined open communication for everyone

>exemplary student at a prestigious student
>couldn't land one internship
>live in one of the cities of the highest density of homosexuals in America
>genuinely contemplating becoming a gay club dancer for obscene cash amounts as I am a poster child think in build and form
>additionally I absolutely do not drink alcohol, so the possibility of being roofied is highly doubtful

someone give me advice into this gay Underworld that I'm sure presents some horrors

>>11317838
I feel so sorry for you anon :--(

>>11319948
whats it like being an exemplary student at a prestigious student

>>11317040
>tinder

dont

everyone goes there to fuck someone and ditch whoever theyre not into
It's fun to fuck around and meet whores but thats about it

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>tfw extremely insecure about height
5'9 and latin, sucks ass


I've even considered that gruesome height surgery.

>>11316984
>size 14 us. No one makes shoes in my size
>work part time minimum and am to fianically responsible to spend money on a lot of clothes

Who the fuck makes decent shoes in size 14

>>11317016
fuck man, same.

>>11317767
kek

>>11317040
i think she might have had a bf and used you to cheat.

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>>11317016
People often say I'm incredibly attractive, and I catch girls just flat out staring at me CONSTANTLY.
I've had girls move and go out of their way just to talk to me out of nowhere.


Problem is, I'm a complete social retard so I ruin every chance.

It's awful, hell on earth, all these girls just trying to get on with me but I'm a fucking retard that pushes them away/too scared to do anything.

No one has ever given me a compliment except that I'm smart. And I'm not even that smart. I think they just think I am because I'm socially awkward and weird.

That's it. Never any compliments on my appearance or my personality or anything human. Apparently I'm just a walking encyclopedia to them. I'm sick of hearing about how smart I am. I would like to hear an actual compliment for once.

>>11318685
are those boots Doc Martens?

>>11317016
I've ruined friendships because of my paranoia that my friends are out to fuck with me or just my friend out of pity or that they canceled on me because they secretly hate me. Don't fuck up like I did. Get this mentality sorted out asap.

>>11320094
What should you do if you have a few friends who genuinely like you (I think), but at the same time, they often laugh at you because you're the weird awkward guy.

I just want to be a normal human being but it's like I'm stuck as the weirdo

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>>11319909
Yep, but she came out of a 4 year relationship and she dropped the "I'm just happy right now so I'd rather stay single" excuse, that was pretty funny actually

o well, plenty of fish in the sea and like the other guy said, if they can't communicate now they're shit relationship material

i kinda wanna just kill myself
i dont know why, it's just like i can't be bothered anymore

>pretty convinced that i'll never be in a meaningful relationship (or any relationship for that matter) and can't really think of any logical reason why someone would choose me over a plethora of guys better than me
>at least I have more money for new cops

bittersweet

>>11320101
I'm still working this out myself actually, but this is what seems to be working for me so far: just don't let it get to you, throw some friendly banter back at them where possible, and work on improving yourself so that eventually they look up to you and see that you have strengths and you're not just the weird guy, even if they like you as the weird guy. It sucks for people to have a 1-dimensional understanding of you.

>>11320069
Bro I get this. I wouldn't even consider myself good looking but I've managed to fuck up such obvious situations as being shown round girls flat and having her ask me of I want to try her bed and outright having a girl walk up to me and tell me I'm gorgeous.

I either think people are taking the piss or panic because I don't know the appropriate response

>>11319909
couldn't you just as well avoid harassment by letting the person know (through text or im) that you don't want to see them, and then block them if they continue to contact you?

>>11317016
This has been me the past 4 years

>>11320140
Thanks anon I've been trying this but it's hard. I think normal people who have never been the weirdo don't really understand what a lonely and degrading life it often is.

>>11320164

>outright having a girl walk up to me and tell me I'm gorgeous

I would genuinely struggle to deal with that situation. How do you even respond to that

>>11320183
It's happened to me once or twice. I just told them to go away.

>>11317838
I'm sorry man, it's all a part of life. It hurts now but like anything else, give it time and everything will feel better.

>>11320183
One time I chatted for a bit, mumbled "I'm going outside for a smoke" and after that she was gone.
Other time I was collapsed at the bar and the girl startled me and called me by someone else's name so I told her to fuck off

>>11320050
The most likely answer. Also chicks do this shit all the time and because you have no mutual connections it's so easy for her to block you out. Chicks are the fucking players in this game, not the other way round

>>11320179
Yeah, keep it up! It's a long process, but it's worth it. Read as much stuff as you can on building self esteem, it's helped me a lot. People's comments bothered me much less once I because happy with myself and with my quirks as well. Just be the best version of you, and if your friends can't accept that, they may not be the right people for you. And yeah you're right, people really don't get it. Not sure what your case is but I don't look like a weirdo so people expect me to be normal and think that I'm intentionally being a cold bitch when really I'm just awkward. :(

>>11320214
lol blame all women
people of all demographics are assholes m80

>>11320216
Women are the ones who love to ignore people. That's worst way of doing things, it makes the other person's mind go all around the world trying to understand why and he'll never know why. That shit is just selfish; fucking stand up and say your reasons.

>>11320050
actually realistic. v possible.

>>11320241
I understand what you're saying but on the other hand what if they're doing it to be mysterious? Being mysterious is effay.

>>11320254
They do it when they want to end any kind of relationship, for god knows why, with out having the trouble of actually talking to the person because if they do they may feel bad about it. It's just easier to pretend that guy never existed, especially nowadays when you can just block people; too bad for the ignored person, fuck what he will think and the doubts that will go inside his head.

>>11320170
If it's just tinder with no irl contacts then yeah, but I've had at least one case where I've had to keep pulling bs excuses not to meet up because he went to my uni, had mutual friends and this guy regularly got violent and angry when he was drunk and I legitimately feared for my safety. Needless to say this was one of the reasons I wanted nothing to do with him. I mean obviously shit like that is the exception, but you never know when it's gonna happen

>>11320260
Yes I understand your argument but there is something cool about being all elusive and just disappearing one day, never to be heard from again.

I've done it. It's effay

>>11318262
Well yeah, I'll also see it as depression if it continues. But as far at the therapists tell me at this point it's just grief, which is normal.

>>11318485
Yeah, that's the plan. Hopefully things look differently already within the next six months.

>>11319397
Eh, we'll all die at some point anyway. So I'll just see them then, if the afterlife is eternal it will relatively be the same if I die now or later.

Also do you seriously think this only happens to men? Women get ignored too

>>11320266
It's selfish. You did it for you and only yourself without giving a fuck about others.

Being ignored is the most painful thing you can have in a relationship, aside from psychological and physical violence of course.
>>11320275
Women like to ignore a lot more than men; men are more confrontational. Women kill more with poison, men kill more with weapons but the opposite still happens.

>>11320279
Yes and being selfish is effay. We're all going to die anyway. Morality is made up. Who gives a shit

>>11320279
"women kill more with poison" what the fuck does that even mean? How the fuck do you equate ignoring someone to poisoning them?
Look, I've been ignored before, it fucked me up too, so I'm not talking out of my ass here. My response was to learn to not give a fuck and I suggest you do the same

>>11320293
>"women kill more with poison" what the fuck does that even mean? How the fuck do you equate ignoring someone to poisoning them?
It's literally what it means; it's an example. When women commit murder the most common way they do it is with some kind of poison. I was not equating.
>Look, I've been ignored before, it fucked me up too, so I'm not talking out of my ass here. My response was to learn to not give a fuck and I suggest you do the same
I was never talking about that. I was just saying it's a thing commonly done by women in response to
>lol blame all women

>>11320264
Pro tip if she has a tinder account, she can't remember the names of all the guys she's fucked

I'm serious....way common any girl around 22 years old at least 40 guys

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Fuck me.

>met 10/10 kate upton German girl while out traveling
>her main interest was collecting bikinis and surfing
>she was a wannabe normie but a bit awkward and weirded most people out
>I showed her some attention and she just stuck to me
>she clearly liked me, but me being me never made a move on her
It's been 4 months now since we went separate ways and not a day has gone by without me thinking about her, I know there's plenty of fish in the sea but I don't think I'll ever pull one this good ever again. Not even buying expensive clothing kills these feels.

>tfw broke up with my gf of 3 years two days ago
>we had plans to have a future together, finishing grad school next year
>she was diagnosed with bipolar in January and had to take time off school, went home to the other side of the country
>"don't worry anon, I'll see you in a few weeks"
>tfw never came back and will only be back in either September or January
>came to visit for a few days twice but we can't even really talk on skype or by text because she's too depressed
>became /fa/ and we agreed we could see other people
>having success while she is home and miserable
>realized it isn't fair so I broke it off, my family thinks it was the right thing to do despite thinking we were great together
>gf is mad at herself for getting this way and mad at me for "giving up on her"
>still a possibility of us getting back together in the future but who knows

I'm trying not to think about it and haven't told anybody. I self medicated by copping a bunch of shit yesterday. Did I fuck up?

>>11320352
Nah man, much as it's upsetting to hurt people you love you'll only hurt her more if you pretend then have to say it was all lies for the last however long

>>11320070
You are beautiful anon

>>11319688
kinda feel the same, let's start a band anon
we can write songs about grills

>>11317508
>>11317512
Got diagnosed with ADD about half a year ago so i could get extra time on tests and shit in school.
>yes i am 18, had a recent birthday
And i have the meds for it and the guy you also responded has it right, shitpost speed up 1000% and appetite down 100% its like the perfect /fa/ drug because all it makes you do is post and not eat so you become a skinny pretentious asshole. Stopped taking the meds because I didn't need them for daily tasks and i was loosing way to much weight

>>11317702
You don't need meds, you need the support of your close friends

>>11320611
Writing about love and girls is boring material senpai Weezer did a whole album of it this year

>>11318311
Are you me? This is my life right here, and my dreams are similar, coffee, a blunt, and nature docs.

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>finally meet qt
>she says she is not that into fashion
>wardrobe full of Lang, CDG, Wang, Norgaard, Acne and other stuff, even got a fucking Rolex.
>be me
>still in basics by uniqlo, weekday and h&m. got a pair of CP's, but thats it.

I feel blessed and then again feel inadequate

>>11316984
>No real emotional connection to anyone in my life
>Feel like everyone is some sort of robot instead of a person.

>>11320266
Did this shit before. Feels good

>>11320673
is she interested in you?

>>11320683
we're dating.

>>11320686
good for you

>>11320686
Is she rich?

>>11320754
thanks

>>11320757
her family is, sure, but everything she owns she pretty much bought with her own hard earned money.

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All I do with my free time is browse /fa/ and drink, being social is easy as hell but I just don't see the point anymore.

I love you faggots.

>>11319948
>smart kid doesn't get what he wants
>becomes a gay stripper
Make a movie about your life

>>11320104
Yea man, girls today are a dime a dozen and as long as your not a basement dweller with autism and zero looks or social skills the grills will come find you.

>>11320132
Don't sell yourself short, all you have to do is convince the grills you ARE better then other guys, then you will come to understand yourself and discover that you are actually better

>>11320342
You need to go to her, and finally tell her how you feel, the void in you will either fill with her, or just disappear because you at least got closure

>>11320352
Sounds like she isn't making and effort either so you did the right thing

>>11320673
Shitty green text but good story, please re do and elaborate on details

>>11317016
>Think I'm a hideous, unlikable person
>Am incapable of seeing any positive features about myself in term of looks and personality

Yeah sounds about right.

>Lots of people actually compliment me calling me attractive, smart, etc

Fuck

>>11320352
She'll meet another guy in a week, jump out of her depression and won't even Remember your name

>>11319684
but i didnt :c

>>11318955
nvm i take this back

>>11320894
Fuck off fattie the only reason you're even getting any recognition on this board is because you're such a fucking fattie that it's the only plausible reason that people still even waste their energy to talk about you behind your back. Go back to your fridge and fetch another stick of fucking butter,
fattie.

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>>11316984
She got FAT /fa/
help me

>>11317838
lucky, i wish my mom would fuck off and die already. my dad is okay but would be cool if he died so i can have his money to buy sick fits

>>11319659
>borderlines

>like this girl
>she likes me back
>she seems cool and shes qt as fuck
>we go on one date
>it's awful because of my anxiety about it and her friend was there who made it extremely awkward
>we barely talk for a few weeks
>last week she told me she doesn't have feelings for me anymore because she thinks i'm too awkward
>later that day a friend tells me she was sending nudes to some other guy for weeks, maybe even before we went on the date
>i don't know if i'm happy or sad
>i'm super confused

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>>11321201

>>11317040
You're a lonely autist. It showed, and she got scared.

That's all. Don't show it next time. My general rule is: Start getting personal with a woman only after fucking her for a month or so.

Keeping a "facade" is considered polite.

>>11320077
I'll kill you

>>11320670
We're in this together

>>11321676
if you knew my parents you would understand.

but i get where you're coming from

>>11317040
That's fucked

Very unhappy with life and relationships. My gf is probably cheating on me but I'm lonely. I'm probably going to kill myself soon

I'm honestly gonna kill myself at this point
I'm a Manlet, I have no social problems because of this because I surround myself with people that don't care about that

But buying pants is fucking hell
A 30 inseam goes past my ankles
I have to pull my pants up to my fucking bellybutton for it to look normal

I can't be /fa/ it's not possible I should just die

>>11317040
At least you've got a date, I managed to get 0 dates out of the 200 matches I've got in a period of 3 times of installing/reinstalling.

Got enough numbers but they were all attention whores.

>>11322384
That's what tailors are for. My body proportions are fucked and I have the opposite problem so as soon as the cropped pants meme is over, I'm fucked.

>>11322397
I've never gotten anything tailored before? How much does it usually cost? And how long does it take?

>>11322411
Varies by country but just call up a tailor and ask. I think hemming pants wouldn't cost much, or else you can roll them/cuff them for free. This would look a lot better than pulling them up too high.

>>11322384
Short torso long legs here. I hate buying pants especially.

If I want to look "normal" I have to wear them lower, almost under my ass (ass is real high). If I wear them at a "normal" height it looks like a normal person who pulled up his pants way too high.

>>11322411
A hem costs around AU$10 but its easy as fuck and your mum can probably do it for you

>>11317838

You gotta keep living on and make the most out of what you got. I'm sure your parents would want nothing less. At least live your life for them.

>>11322462
My mom is incompetent as fuck at that stuff
Is it an easy thing to learn?

>>11317016
I relate to this too well. it's affected my entire life

>>11317838
I'm really really sorry anon. you'll figure out what your purpose is. keep on trucking and you'll find your way. my thoughts go out to you and your family, man <3

>>11320293
It means women attack indirectly.

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I feel like life is just super boring and there's nothing I actually like to do. All I do nowadays besides work and school is watch TV and play video games. The only other thing I do is work out and run just because I think at one point I'll get so bored of life that I'll just join the military because there's nothing else to do.

Also of course tfw no gf ever and probably never.

>>11322521
absolutely fucking yes
you literally just cut the ends off with scissors and sew them back up (you dont even have to do the second step if you dont want)

>>11320894
>>11321035
nah sieg is right, that's how depressed girls are, dude

>first gf broke up with me
>breakup was a total shitshow, we both got hurt and started saying hurtful things to each other then just stopped talking
>felt like shit for a few weeks
>decide that it'd be best if i apologized so that i could probably make things better for both of us (dont want to get back with her of course)
>she finally responds after a week
>she basically says "i still hate you" and shit
>i say well i dont, and i hope you can get over that hatred bla bla, we shouldntve ended it like how we did
>she says yeah we shouldve
>me: well that makes me feel a lot better, i guess this convorsation is over then
>her: well im not that satisfied because i wanted to keep on hating you but if this conversation kept going it'd happen later
mfw, people never fucking change. immature little brat.

i dont really feel bad about her anymore, but i feel bad about
>tfw literally no friends
>no one to talk to
>tfw not in love
>tfw bored every day
>tfw i just want /fa/ friends

>>11317048
Holy shit, you're me.
>4 years later
>I'm still alone and miserable

>day 4 methadone 110mg cold turkey
>feel
>ing bad

>>11323435
You're gonna make it

>>11317040
Same thing happened to me.
People don't owe you anything in life, as cancers as it is, not even a reply. Once you realise this it will make you so much more content.
Girls can smell desperation from a mile away, you just have to try take it with your chin held high and stop giving a fuck about getting girls.
>2016
>caring about a second tier subspecies

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I can't help constantly wasting my time on the internet. I find things interesting and i think having a hobby would be good for me, but i just can't bring myself to it. I only have a little group of friends where i think i don't belong. I also sleep a lot.. probably like 12 hours every day when i don't have to go to class.
I feel like i'm avoiding life, as i don't feel strong or capable enough for living it. I don't know what to do

>>11318862
Melatonin for the sleeping issue my man

>>11323428
>>11320894
Really? She seems to have 0 interest in meeting a guy though. I figured that us splitting up would probably give her a kick in the ass to lose weight, go out and be more social again, so I guess it sort of makes sense.

>>11317604
I was like you, then I got friends.

The amount of pretending you need to dish out to survive and not reveal yourself is exhausting and sometimes you find yourself believing them.

There is no way out.

>>11322442
Post a pic lmao

tfw
>Hung out with alcoholics and druggies
>Cut that shit out of my life
>All my former friends either are dead/mentally unstable and toxic
>No one calls or hits me up anymore
>Socially isolated
>Dad lost job of 30 years, mom tries to work but has degenerated back discs so I help take care of her
>I work two jobs to help parents keep the house, plus I go to college
>Have job interview of a lifetime tomorrow, if I'm hired everything will be ok

Wish me luck you guys

>>11324202
I wish you luck, m8.

>>11324202
good luck

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>I went on a date last week and I think my pretentious demeanor put her off, I wasn't trying to it's just how I am sadly
>I'm very shallow and superficial at my core but it's all I know
>I can get laid no fucking problem but I want a relationship
>my body count is in the double digits yet I've only felt sexual intimacy once
>I need to get a real job becuase flipping clothes and shoes feels like childs play
>tfw I would only work at American Apparel, because I'm a shallow piece of shit
>tfw when I'd even settle for Urban Outfitters even though I hate it
>I would consider a video or book store though but never food
>tfw when I feel like every other job else is beneath me
>My art isn't going anywhere
>I feel like a joke and I'm exhausted
>I know I'm a cliche but that's how I am and that's the only way I can see myself becuase years of low self esteem has turned my into a superficial asshole
>tfw I keep getting rejected by 3 modeling agencies becuase of my height (It's one inch)
>seriously though it's shitty when they say they love my look but I'm only 6ft
>tfw a girl I knew in high school is now a signed model
>tfw I feel like I'm both better and worst than my friends
>summer is here and I'm not looking forward to seeing my high school friends becuase I feel a lack of connection with them on a level of interest and a hobbies

Seriously I'm a piece of shit but thanks for reading

>>11324202
You can do it mate

>>11324270
Yeah you really sound like someone I would avoid, very generic too. Try finding your own way.

>>11323885
R E D P I L L E D
E D P I L L E D
D P I L L E D
P I L L E D
I L L E D
L L E D
L E D
ED

>>11324270
I think double digits is fine without intimacy ....the average for a woman at 25 is nearing 100-120 sexual partners if she isn't vanilla

Even then vanilla girls are nearing at least 40 partners at 25

>>11317048
Hey this is a good feel. You'll get a gf when the time is right and it will feel way better than your first

-someone who was also in a (physically and mentally) abusive relationship with a girl

>>11324202
You got this breh

>>11324334
I never got cucked, but she did hit me. That's probably why I like to have rough sex with my current gf

>>11324205
>>11324238
>>11324280
>>11324336
Thanks you guys, this means a lot.

Also I don't mean to sound preachy, but to the younger posters here, please don't fall into the wrong crowd. When I was a teen I thought: that won't happen to me I'm different, or I'm smarter than that. I've seen the humanity sucked out of people I cared about because of drugs, self indulgence, and nihilism. I was a piece of shit person, and now I pay the price. Don't let this happen to you.

>>11323435
are you me?

I'm lonely too

>>11324310
the world you live in...

>>11324359
how do you gt a girlfriend if youve got no friends? like doesnt that come up sometimes?

>so who do you hang out with?
>no one
>.......

Can't stop being a flirt. I'm happily in a long term relationship with an amazing girl that I love, but I'm a massive flirt every time I'm on my own. I don't know if I'd actually cheat, haven't so far, but I lead girls on and then feel guilty so I bail.

Also, don't know why girls are interested in me because I'm overweight. I think that's why I flirt so bad though, because I relish the thought that people still find me attractive, and the fact that my gf has grown out of having fun, and now I feel old at 23.

Working my arse off (literally) to lose the weight again and get back to how I was, and its going well (lost 22kg so far), but not happening fast enough.

Also, took me ages to get control of my bipolar, everythings been good and off meds for nearly 12 months, but its all going to shit again.

Sorry for the tl;dr, but feels good to get it off my chest.

>shitskin fat
>poor
>feeling that existencial void
>smoke weed
>feelings get worse
>while high I realize that I always have been 'that' antisocial tryhard guy, the freak.
>I don't want to live anymore.

>>11324419
You need a reality switch. Give the weed smoking a hiatus, change your diet, and get more sunshine and exercise.

>>11316984
>dog i had since 7 died hit by car month ago
>me and my best friend got beat up by some 6 fags when I came back to my old country for weekend 1st time since last year
>friends I live with now are kicking me from shared house, so I have to search for my own place, which I can't fucking afford so I will end up in tight flat in shit neighbourhood
>the girl from work that I became friends with and we were going out for cafe, dinner etc had bday recently I said to her I love her, and she said she don't feel nuffin to me
>in near future I'm gonna live poor life in absolute solitude having my heart broken everyday at work seeing her
>Because of all this I started drinking vodka again everyday and I feel like shit already.

>gf has never had a boyfriend before me
>never had a best friend or any really close friends for that matter
>hadn't even made out with someone before me
>since I started dating her she's become closer to me than anyone else in her life even her parents
>feel like I'm obligated to treat her especially well so she has a good reference for the future
>feel like I don't want to put my fucked up ideas and worldviews in her innocent little mind
>feel obligated to clean up my act in order to set a good example for her

>>11324447
What are your fucked up views and ideas?

>>11324419
drugs are bad mmkay?

>Months ago, get involved with Girl A.
>Turns out she's unstable af.
>Wants to end things once, then wants me back and I give in.
>Wants to end things twice, then wants me and I give in.
>All this time we've seen eachother 4 or 5 times, all other communication is constant internet messaging and texting.
>Wants to end things a third time, then wants me and I say fuck it.
>Break it up.
>Enter girl B.
>She's nice an tries absurdly hard to make me like her.
>We hit it off in a way.
>Girl A steps up trying to get me back.
>I refuse and break all contact (to give us both a break from eachother).
>Start relationship with Girl B and it goes smooth.
>Begin having doubts.
>Re-enter Girl A, turned her life around.

I just don't know anymore. I used be an awkward ugly loser that had to settle for whatever. Now I have an option and I don't fucking know.

>>11324431
I try. I start to cycling again and I feel a little better.
>>11324465
weed used to make me feel somehow happy but now it's a nightmare :(

>>11324461
They're not actually that fucked up, it's mostly just anecdotal stuff I've learned from life experience which isn't always reliable

>tfw the girl i was talking to decided to break it off

I was so fucking close. Thought I would lose my virginity in the next month but I guess not.

>>11324381
sometimes yeah

>tfw no m8s to hang up

>>11324283
Idk I feel like I'm not like that on the surface that or you have to know me for a while to see it idk

>>11324476
What are your political views?

>>11324469
B all the way.

>>11324512
Libertarian (read: don't really care about politics) but I'm gonna vote for the Don

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>have fucked up heels
>no matter what shoes I cop they tear up at the heels within a week
How do I end this (without ending my life)?

>>11324414
Take your meds.

>parents hauled me away from my home country at 14
>start resenting them because i was very lonely and couldn't make friends at new school
>life was shit, school, wow, sleep, repeat
>turn 18, move back to home country by myself
>get a shitty call center job (graveyard shift)
>rent apartment
>get in touch with qt girl i knew before i left
>eventually fuck and she becomes my gf
>a few months pass and she moves in with me
>lifeisok.jpg
>one night gf is nowhere to be be found
>cell turned off
>get paranoid and think of the worst
>pace through house for about 5 hours
>get phone call from gf
>she went to another city about 300km away with oneof her slutty friends
>completely loseall trust in her and relationship starts degrading fast
>feeling lime im going to lose everything
>become depressed, quit job, attempt suicide
>gf breaks up with me
>huge crippling depression
>lay in bed all day covered with a blanket staringat ceiling
>neverfeltthisalone.exe
>eventually get evicted
>relyctantly call parents and they buy me a plane ticket to see them
>22 years old, living with parents
>feel like im alone on earth

hiw do i fix this?

>>11320680
screencap'd for future school shooting references.

>>11324545
go to college

>>11324555
Fuck that, go to trade school and learn a trade and kick back with your easy six figure income

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>tfw u have a wide hips
there is nothing worse in the entire universe than this shit, kill me please

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>ex got a new bf who looKs identicle to me
>girl I'm chasing stops talking with me for no reason after we hit it off really well
>also poor as arse and need new clothes desperately
So nothing major, not sad just gf sad :^(, on a side not will be funny as fuck when ex cheats on new dude

>>11324470
Keep cycling then. Fill life with hobbies and then work up social interaction from there. Quit smoking weed for a while, it will be tough for the first few days, but in a few weeks you won't miss it. Remember weed effects everyone differently, don't listen to the "I smoke weed everyday and I'm fine!! XD" crowd. I personally had to quit because of a job I applied for, and I won't lie it was kind of tough but I feel so much better. If you keep trying you'll make it.

>>11317016
>Lots of people actually compliment me calling me attractive, smart, etc
you wouldn't be mentioning this if you weren't grasping for attention and were self-pitying. Pathetic. If you thought they were lying, you'd phrase it like this: "people are lying to me about being attractive". So stop worrying you pathetic man

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>>11319909
reddit

>>11317040
Never give up bro. You have us.

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>>11324283
you've got shit taste killy. he's got basically the most /fa/ personality possible.

depressed, pretentious, superficial, exhausted, cold. secretly low self esteem and seeking intimacy but trapped in the same old cycle.

more archetypal than cliche. really. I fuck with that

>>11324622
How do you not understand that living under certain conditions restricts your awareness or your belief in certain possibilities?

And nobody comes to 4chan to look for attention in any other form than baiting.

>>11324514
Thanks for giving the outsider's perspective, in a sense I know B is the best choice (despite her psycho episodes when drunk). Despite her being the obvious best move I could make, I don't feel like I'm as "in love" with her as I was with A.

But A was something else before she went crazy on me. I'm afraid I'm only remembering the good things and good feelings about that time with her.

Fucking feelings man, how do they work.

>>11323939
cool it kathy, sleep, rest, get ready, you don't need to rush it

>>11324531
learn to walk without stomping your heel first

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>>11320815
>she bought a rolly with her own money
what a stupid bitch lmao

What is the pictur called that this guy used.

>>11325049
back to feggit

>>11324432
>my dog died
Losing a pet is the worst of all feels, I'm as close to my pets as I am to my family, pets ARE family. But a lot of people act like when you lose a dog, cat, lizard, whatever, that it's like suck it up and move on it was only a dog or cat or whatever. It sucks

Anyone here familiar with harm ocd?