I haven't spoken a single word in 5 years. Ask me anything.

have you got a job? if so, what is it?

>>741594225
How do u order at the drive thru?

>>741594225
Did something happen to your vocal chords or are you just a turbo-autist?

>>741594225
y tho

Not such a cool thing on /b. Most people here haven't spoken to a woman in way longer

>>741594298
I inherited enough money to make that unnecessary for at least 10 more years. I'm planning to kill myself anyways.

>>741594387
I don't

>>741594438
I don't know if I'm autistic, I just haven't left the house in 5 years because enough money and social anxiety. Whenever someone comes by I pretend to be unable to speak and write little notes for them. I just think it's funny. I order everything I need online.

>>741594455
se above

>>741594225
Do you use sign language?
If so what's the sign for OP is a fag?

What was your last word 5 years ago?

>>741594225
Can you send a audio file of you voice?

>>741594755
Send monies to my PayPal: [email protected]


Does anyone ever visit?

>>741594755
dude you're a new level of sad

>>741594225
you could fuck a lot of bitches for that money u fkckin moron kill yourself faster

Reckon you could talk over the phone?

>>741594774
I communicate almost exclusively online. The pizza guy and UPS man think that I can't speak so they don't even try getting a word out of me. It's more like "That'll be 9.99" and "Here you go sir" and then they're off again and I'm happy

>>741594826
I honestly can't remember.

>>741594883
No because I've decided to never speak again. I'm like a monk now. I feel at peace with myself and the world.

>>741594897
1. I won't send you money.
2. see above. Aside from food delivery and UPS no one comes by. I live in my childhood home. My parents are dead and I haven't seen my siblings in like 8 years. I don't even know if they're still alive.

>>741595014
I don't feel the need for sex. I haven't even masturbated in years. My life is total asceticism. Asceticism and pizza.

>>741595126
Talking to people on the phone was one of the hardest things for me to do due to my anxiety. I don't even know why.

>>741595126
Or some group chat could be cool.

>>741594225
What words haven't you spoken?

I want to kill myself too, around october. How do you want to do it? I think, Im going to cut my arm or choose Helium. Im killing myself because Im poor asf and dont believe in Hope anymore

how's the 9th grade.

>>741595198
>I feel at peace with myself and the world
>>741594755
>I'm planning to kill myself
Okay

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And here I thought maybe you had taken a vow of silence. Turns out you're a hikikomori faggot.

>>741595286
I'm still trying to figure out a somewhat special day way to die. Any suggestions?

>>741595389
You don't know what it feels like to know that you're going to die, right? It's the most liberating feeling I've ever felt.

>>741594755
Kind of sad that parents or whatever you inherited money from worked hard and were successful and you are just using their money and are not planning to continue the bloodline

>>741594225
are you male or female?

>>741595460
Meet up with the other guy in October and do it together. Just talk for an hour and end it after.

What do you do all day?
You've haven't even muttered anything to yourself?

>>741595645
Maybe buy some drugs and OD on them with the dude.

>>741595460
>I'm still trying to figure out a somewhat special day way to die. Any suggestions?

go to seoul or tokyo and wait for fat kimmy to drop the nukes

I have a friend who didn't speak for years, maybe from ages 13-17. Whenever there was a group he'd just sit quietly, and either nod or shake his head if you asked a question. He avoided it completely, but it didn't bother us although obviously it was a bit of a joke. The few times he couldn't avoid it, he would turn his head away to face the wall and briefly speak.

Looking back it was weird as fuck but he's fine now. There is hope for you OP if you choose it.

>>741595198
>I'm like a monk
>My life is total asceticism
Honestly this seems like rationalization for your severe autism.

>>741595557
My brother and sister both inherited the same amount. I don't know if they have children already but it's likely.

>>741595642
male

>>741595645
not gonna happen. I'm not planning on doing it that soon and I want to die in my home. a few weeks back someone posted an idea for a crossbow suicide contraption with at least 4 crossbows firing at his head simultaneously. I think that's worth considering

>>741595746
not as far as I know. maybe I have spoken in my sleep. I don't know
I just watch netflix and lie around in bed. sometimes I play vidya

>>741596030
>I just watch netflix and lie around in bed. sometimes I play vidya
See>>741596003
You are not an ascetic.

>>741596140
better. I'm ascetic with all the perks of modern technology and pizza

>>741596338
You are deeply autistic and retarded as fuck.

>>741596030
Maybe the reason you want to die is because you haven't socialized with anyone. I'll give you some advice: get a psychiatrist with your money and type to him over the internet.

>>741596338
Do some research on ascesticism and monastic living and you will see that you aren't living up to the standards of either.

>>741594225
Why do your siblings not make contact with you?

Do they never want to visit the family home?

>>741596423
This. Socialization is key to maintaining proper mental health

>>741596030
Have you tried contacting your siblings? What is the story with them? Maybe they can help you

how old are you?

>>741596423
you know, I'm not desperate about my situation. when I turned 22 (I think it was then) I decided I didn't want to have a life and I'm gonna stick with that decision

>>741596563
there's no family left aside from me. it's kind of a weird story. back when they decided to move out I became worried that I might end up alone because I hadn't made my peace with the world back then. so I tried to ruin their respective relationships and job offers to force them to stay here. they hate me now but I guess I'm gonna contact them one last time. maybe before I die, maybe with my suicide note. who knows

>>741596030
what happens when you get hurt, like stub your toe? to you make a noise or do you somehow stay silent?

They are talking about using new technology like the oculus rift for exposure therapy when it develops, simulating interaction, stage performances etc, are you open to that kinda stuff?

Also have you ever tried beta blockers, Valium, phenibut etc?

I don't get the whole thing, there's so many things to try before resigning to suicide, also tbh I'd be more anxious about coming across as weird by not talking and raising additional scrutiny during these,(albeit few) interactions

>>741596838
btw they're twins so they moved out around the same time. just to clarify that

>>741596833
turning 31 in december

>>741596923
I haven't spoken a word in 5 years. Though I have made those hissing noises you make when you hurt yourself and bite your tongue, I admit that

>>741596989
You're a Wizard Harry!

>>741597041
funny that you mention it. sometimes I listen to the Harry Potter audio books for weeks on repeat.

>>741596838
So you don't want to commit suicide because you think life sucks, but because you just feel like you don't need a life.

>>741594225
>I haven't spoken a single word in 5 years
then how do you breathe idiot?

If I came to your house, broke open your door, stole all your things, and walked out in front of you, what would you do? Would you call the police?

>>741597143
How many times have you listened to In The End by Linkin Park?

>>741594225
Are you religious?

>>741597267
I think he has so much social anxiety he would off himself or scare the dude coming in by being naked. He's probably like 500lbs.

>>741597324
He's only been silent because he's a faggot. Nothing to do with any philosophy or religion.

>>741597434
You never know..

>>741597040
Ever laugh while watching a comedy on Netflix or whatever you enjoy?

>>741597185
second I guess. though sometimes I wonder why I haven't done it yet. maybe because it would mean effort. or maybe because I want to see the end of GoT and of course I want to know how the Kingkiller Chronicle ends.

>>741597321
never. I don't like Linkin Park

>>741597324
no

>>741597328
155lbs last time I checked. skinnyfat for life

>>741597526
rarely. malcolm in the middle gets a chuckle out of me from time to time

>>741595642
>>741596030

figures its asking to much that a woman would be quiet for 5 years

OP, post a relevant pic with timestamp or it didn't happen.

>>741594225
Do you still maintain a standard of cleanliness for yourself and your home?

>>741597601
>or maybe because I want to see the end of GoT
GoT is now fanfiction, headcanon trash. Utterly shit taste.

>>741594225
How do you get thru a ylyl thread and never laugh or say anything? Never yell at video games ever? Ever stub your toe in those 5 years and say fuck?

>>741597644
>let me take a photo of 5 years of silence
well...

>>741597711
actually I do. I could never stand dirt. there are some rooms, like my parent's bedroom, that I rarely enter but aside from a little bit of dust nothing is too dirty there either

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>>741597321

How bad does your breath smell?

>>741597869
not bad at all. I brush my teeth 2 times a day

>>741594755
With all that money, do you ever want to try to find an ultimate way of peace (like Buddhism)?

Have you ever had sex?

Don't you get lonely? How do you cope with that level of isolation?

Do you play any instrument?

Have you ever had sex?

What video games do you play?

Do you take alcohol drugs weed etc?

Which country are you from

What happened to your parents?

Is that what triggered how you treated your siblings to make them hate you ?

can you only speak below a certain decibel? like how do you yell to someone across a field from you

>>741598013
meh, I just don't think about it. too busy with netflix and ricing my desktop.

>>741598123
guitar. I own some cheap Fender acoustic which is quite nice and a Gibson Melody Maker. I'm not good at it though. Lost the motivation at 16 or something

>>741598195
no sex
I like battlefield (1 is better than some people rate it) but my favorite so far is witcher 3
alcohol yes, no weed because I'd have to talk to a dealer but I huff ether from time to time because I can make it out of engine start spray stuff

>>741598315
mom died of cancer when I was 17, dad had accident a few years later.

>>741598443
have you read the thread?

you ever like say some sound a sims character would make so you could like break the thing you got going on but not really

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Why? You selfish fucking cunt. Jesus loves you. I hate your pathetuc ass.

>>741594225
have u been diagnosed with a mental disorder?

Do you ever go outside, walk in nature? Do you stroll through the forest after it has rained, with that unique scent in the air, hearing the birds chirp? Do you watch the sun rise or set?

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>>741598598
I am sorry. I just hate suicide. And you sound pretty decided so i guess I hate you too.

>>741598745
no but I probably would be if I ever went to a doctor

>>741598758
no but I sometimes take a shit on the neighbor's lawn at night

Can we get a selfie from the internet monk?

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>>741597601
Youa re needed. God needs you. Alive.

>>741594719
top kek

>>741598758
are you trying to save him? I think you killed him a little more inside with that stupid stunt

Do you write your thoughts on a diray or something?

Any type writting really

>>741598852
>monk

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>>741596030
It's just so sad. All they wanted to do was give youba good life and all you want to do is die I love you please don't do it

What made you choose to no more speak a word?
You never speak alone?
What your inner voice sounds like?

>>741597601
Kek how can we be friends?

>>741598852
sorry but no. there's not a single photo of me online as far as I know and I'd prefer to keep it that way.

>>741599020
no but I have published some rather violent horror stories on reddit/nosleep
won't tell you my account name though

Enjoy yourself until the day you die.

>>741597952
tbh why even bother with personal maintenance?

like, if i lived in total isolation, had no intention to attract or impress anyone, and planned to die long before i got old, i think i'd just give up on any personal maintenance that wouldn't immediately kill me.

never brush my teeth, never shave, never wash (as a chore that is, i like baths a lot so i would still get somewhat clean every once in a while), let myself grow fat while indulging in delicious, unhealthy foods and sweets.

now that would be incredibly liberating. just let my body go to ruin as i indulge every vice without restraint or consideration for my future, because i know i'll kill myself before the ruination of my body becomes too painful.

as it stands, i don't have the kind of money to live that without working and i do in fact desire social interaction. but i think that's how i'd approach it.

OP go for a walk, an hour every day to begin with. Clear your mind, get fresh air and some exercise.

You'll feel better about yourself, find the courage to communicate again and eventually get laid.

>>741599131
Awww don't be lame senpai... how long you been using 4chan?

>>741599224
>why even bother with personal maintenance?
because being dirty bothers me personally

>>741598502
My girlfriend tells me wit her 3 but I have not played

You should try meds dude, if you are too scared to speak to a doctor buy online first then speak to a doctor.

I'm sure you think everything is fine but you may end up thinking about all the time you wasted and that would suck..

>>741599271
2006ish I guess

why do you lie?

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Your life sounds bleak and boring

>>741598987
>stupid stunt
People need to understand what they are missing. There is so much more to life. They need to yearn for a better life or they will stagnate. Apathy and contentment are worse than death.

>>741595198
Have you ever heard of Diogenes?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diogenes

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>>741599131
It's just sad, you seem pretty decided on it and I wont try to convince you but I can't seem to get depressed/bored ever when playing video games. I play when I wake up to when I go to sleep with minor breaks. Never got bored

are you planning to die as a virgin?

You think you have grown spiritually since you last spoken?

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>>741599387
Have you ever met... a nigger?

is your place clean?

This the most rediculous and pathetic thing ive heard in a while, how did you came up with that shit OP!?

>>741594225
Do you ever laugh ?

>>741599131
Do you know what your face look's like? I'd assume so since you do like to keep clean.

>>741599446
I didn't even read your stupid rant after "people need..." you need to shut the fuck up how bout dat

Have you ever been so far as to even pretend to even want to go do more like?

>>741599448
I have

>>741599543
yes but I didn't run hime over because terry was wrong, they don't glow in the dark

>>741599486
yes. I mentioned earlier that I don't have a sex drive anymore

>>741599649
yep. see some earlier post for details

>>741599525
no but that was never my goal

>>741599717
of course I do. what do you think mirrors are for?

>>741599710
see earlier post. too lazy to link

>>741599772
good question. depends if you count a microwave as a dog.

>>741599724
>rant
>a few sentences
Someone's a bit touchy, eh? Can't have anyone questioning your life choices, becuase then you might feel some regret. Anything to keep the illusion going.

>>741599772
Irish

>>741599991


OP here, just want to clarify that >>741599724 is not me

>>741600087
I didn't think it was, but the point still stands.

>>741600138
well if you think >>741599724 made life choices similar to mine... but I don't regret anything so far and I'm certainly not touchy about my situation. I knew some people would try to talk me out of it when I started the thread

Do you think that living a life of solitude and spending so much time online has made you smarter? Or has your mind withered into a dissonant state?

>>741600273
can you reply to my reply
>>741599464

OP how is this thread panning out for you? Do you regularly communicate with people online?

>>741599991
Go away, ur a nuisance. No likes you. Stop trying to change people, anon. Live and let live.

You got the 5 yrs at the first time?
If no, in how many attemps?

>>741600273
I watched a documentary about people who jumped from the Golden Gate Bridge. Those that survived said they instantly regretted their decision to jump.

>>741600273
Because you haven't really given any logical reason to explain your choice, clearly you may be content but how can you get any fulfilment? Do you acknowledge the possibility that you could be happier if you tried to reintegrate back into society and lead a more normal life?

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I just want you to know OP, you pretty cool man

Why do you not talk?
What were your last words before doing this?

>>741600719
Not op, read thread

>>741600577
I'm snacking on croutons and posting what I want.

>>741600801
too lazy, 126 replies

When you drink alcohol do you have any compulsion to socialise? Maybe go to a bar or somewhere fun?

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What are you talking about?

>>741600369
I never considered myself smart (though other people have) but I can't really judge my development. Even before I started retreating I didn't really challenge my own intelligence

>>741600470
I don't get depressed playing games either. I don't feel depressed at all though maybe I am and I can't even tell anymore. Doesn't matter I guess

>>741600632
It's not like I made the decision to remain silent from the beginning. it's more like that at some point I realized I hadn't spoken in a few weeks and I thougt it was kinda cool

>>741600648
well then I got to make sure I choose a method that kills me instantly

>>741600885
no but I sometimes put on loud music and run around in circles naked. I really do

>>741599917
try sex at least once, you dont need to talk with a hooker

>>741599446
>Apathy and contentment are worse than death
Honestly I think so many people are ambitious, striving for fame and success and simply are never able to make it, and become incredibly insecure about themselves and their lives when it all fails.

It's good to include new experiences in your life, but really contentment is the goal of life. To be happy with where you are without having to yearn for better. We often think that we'll only be happy once we've achieved this goal or that goal, trapping us in an endless cycle of yearning and disappointment, for most people anyway.

But being happy with where you are now? That's a difficult attitude adjustment to make. Yet it might just be the most important for consistent, continued happiness. It's understanding that happiness is transitory and doesn't last. But contentment can.

Not denying that OP's life sounds pretty pathetic. I just think that last sentiment I quoted doesn't make much sense. I think it's really the way most people think and it makes them miserable with their lives. And if OP is genuinely content with his life, who are we to make him live any other way?

The issue is, is he really content, or has he just convinced himself he's ok with it? Maybe that's what you're talking about, but you specifically made no distinction between apathy and contentment.

>>741595198
Do you just feel accomplished with yourself, and that's why you want to end your life?

>>741600719
My parents died which was traumatic, I then took that anger out on my siblings who have since disowned me. I have gradually become more withdrawn and substituted the real world for online. Because I have money, there is no motivation to do anything for myself

What would happen if police wanted to talk to you?

how? (my dream)

>>741600954
What state/country are you from?

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>>741601180
not gonna be more specific though

>>741601057
I don't know honestly. It's not like I want to die, more like I don't feel the urge to stay alive and death would mean a minimal amount of effort for all eternity.

i really want to give op a line of cocaine to see what happens.

>>741601434
never tried cocaine but several other illegal drugs
my favorite so far was acid

Are you an edge lord trying to be 'different' and simply exisiting in an attempt to seperate yourself from the human race?

>>741601051
You know you could do this only as a hobby, right? You don't have to care about getting fame, you don't even have to worry about getting paid. Just do something in your life that A: You can master and B: Feel proud of.

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>>741594225
How you've lived the last 5 years seems pretty fucking awesome and honestly I would rethink about killing yourself. Ok i'm done sucking OP's dick. Also I have another question, does it get really fucking annoying people trying to make you change your mind or do you just ignore it?

You never feel the need of talk? sometimes?

>>741601626
never tried to be edgy. this is just how my life turned out and I'm fine with it. I don't wear fedora or fingerless gloves and I haven't read anything by richard dorkkins

>>741601656
I can agree with that.

I'm bored now, good luck OP go outside

No offence op but it just sounds like you have depression/anhedonia and your apathy prevents you from getting treatment.

>>741601840
bye then

>>741601847
even if that's so I don't care. I'm fine. Wubbalubbadubdub!

>>741594225
can you show us your dick?

Do you own any pets?

>>741601971
What would you do if police confronted you in your house and talked to you and suspected you of doing a crime ? Just write notes and say you can't talk or?

So you don't talk or go outside, yet you make a thread seeking online communication (attention)?

>>741594225
Have you ever rolled dubs or higher?

>>741602108
I would revert to full Rain Man mode

What would you do if I gave you a billion dollars?

>>741601051
I didn't clarify enough. I think apathy is a bad thing to feel, but I am not saying that all contentment is bad, I made too general of a statement initially. In OP's case, contentment is, like you said, something he's convinced himself of, but also something that is limiting and unhealthy. I don't think OP's lifestyle or state of mind are particularly healthy, and his false contentment won't help him to improve his situation.

>Honestly I think so many people are ambitious, striving for fame and success and simply are never able to make it, and become incredibly insecure about themselves and their lives when it all fails
I meant that people should strive to improve themselves: become more knowledgeable, healthier, virtuous, and so on. However, striving for fame and success are also useful, as often the deciding factor between success and failure is persistence. Giving up ensures only defeat.

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>>741602001
no but my anus
I've been posting this photo on /b/ occasionally for 1 1/2 years
I didn't wipe too god that day and I only realized it after posting the first time...

>>741602108
suicide by cop I guess

>>741602177
I was interested how people react

>>741602236
quads is highest

>>741602292
wipe my ass with it because it's itchy

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>>741602277
>>741602177
Whoa...

Are you lying?

>>741599917
Did you used to play wow>?

>>741601971
Where do you live? Have you ever felt like creatig something that will outlast you, like writing a book? How much information have you amassed during all these years on the internet?

>>741602450
no but if you believe I am I won't try to prove it to you because why the fuck would I

>>741602496
no. I absolutely love warcraft 3 and was shocked and disappointed when wow came out. I despise blizzard for creating it

>>741602567
>where do you live
scroll up
>Have you ever felt like creatig something that will outlast you, like writing a book?
No but I've mentioned earlier that I'm active on r/nosleep from time to time
>How much information have you amassed during all these years on the internet?
nothing useful really. internet is entertainment to me

>>741595198
"Asceticism and pizza"
You're my hero!

>>741594225
How much longer till you walk the dinosaur etc.

Do you own a smartphone or tablet?

>>741602916
I don't believe in dinosaurs

>>741603042
nexus 7, no smartphone

Favorite type of porn n pornstar(s)?

>>741594225
Will you donate all your money to my paypal before you kill yourself? I could really use that money for science and stuff.

>>741594225
How it feels anon?
Do you realize that you are slowly missing verbal intelligence?

>>741594225
what else do you lie about on the internet?
do you have any friends in real life?

>>741594225
Andrea Chan???

Are there any other photos you can share that are not your shitridden asshole? Like battlestation perhaps or contents of fridge?

To what kind of music are you listening?

>>741601971
>Wubbalubbadubdub!
>I am in great pain, please help me
Interesting choice of words there.

>>741594225
Do you have a certain type of humour? And have you ever laughed since you have taken your vow of silence?

What types of music do you listen to?

>>741603099
no sex drive, as I have mentioned earlier
but when I was still masturbating I preferred redheads with some trimmed hair down there.

>>741603102
no, sorry. If I haven't used it up at that point I'm gonna give the rest to my siblings

>>741603220
who?

>>741603360
wasn't serious though. just felt like the right thing to reply because I like Rick&Morty

>>741603400
well there's the /b/ humor, I wouldn't be here otherwise. I like satire a fair bit too.

>>741603454
favorites are Pain of Salvation, Drag the River, Joe Strummer's solo work.... just to give you an idea of my musical spectrum

>>741594225
Can you help me take two strokes off my golf game?

Have you ever had any friends? If so what happened to them?

>>741603686
ooooooohhh caaaan dooo!

>>741597321
Kek

Don't you aspire to anything greater?

can you rap this?
https://soundcloud.com/jmack_thesavage/jmack-on-the-track

>>741603911
well I'd like to have a bigger dick if that's what you meant. no, not really

>>741594225
Have you ever felt the need to get schwifty and proceed to shit on the floor?

I think OP may have collapsed due to chronic over-communication

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>>741604107
Sad! Many such cases.

>>741604445
no I'm still here

One time I didn't talk for like 3 1/2 months.

I suffer from pretty bad depression and when I wasn't talking was when I was at one of the lowest points in my life.

I don't know if it's the same with you, but I didn't talk because I felt like there was no need to. Everything I wanted or needed could be done without communication, so why communicate? I still left my house, I just never spoke to anyone outside. I'd use self service in shops so I wouldn't have to deal with a cashier.

I even still had a decent amount of friends that I had before I stopped talking, I just didn't speak to them.

I get you OP. 5 years is a long time, but I've had a slice.

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hey guys OP here im a huge faggot also check out rodney christ

>>741594225
Have you never kicked a dooor or some shit and never yelled out fuck or shit or apple pie or something?

Call me up for a chat OP on 0898-BITE-ME

Why are you like this?

>>741604630
Where can I normally find you once this thread dies?

>>741604899
Hahahahaha! Oh my god, I just laughed out loud for the first time in years! I'm cured, thank you rodders you plonka

Kek OP here, made this thread a few hours ago and forgot about it. This guy has been trolling you for over 2 hours

>>741605499
I'll always be with you. In case you want to contact me, it's the second star to the right, and straight on till morning

>>741605667
wrong

>>741595286
Try biting your tongue off and choking on it. You don't even need any extra shit, just you're teeth and your tongue. It's gonna be hella painful tho. I'd say it's a last resort

>>741605738
Ever taken up programming? Web design? Trading? Dropshipping? Anything remotely productive?

>>741606158
no. I couldn't care less about productivity

>>741606219
Even if you could earn millions with nothing to lose and potentially shape the world? Don't you have any ideals or creative drift?

>>741606565
no. Don't get me wrong I would end all suffering on earth if I could do it by the press of a button... but I wouldn't put any amount of effort into it

>>741594225
how many knobs did you polish in that amount of time?

>>741594225
Don't kill your self. Pretty soon other wizards like you will take over the world, and you'll be happy again desu.

>>741599991
>>741599999

>>741606777
By Kek's trips, go forth and change the world...

I am totally self-reflecting at this point, there is a side of me that's just like you and acts against everything I ever want to accomplish and I don't want it to prevail.

As for the suicide thingy... Why the haste? Why not do something while in this infinitely brief and incredibly rare state of being?

>>741595198
Damn, you are pathetic

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>>741606777
>>741606888
consecutive triples are consecutive
we bad

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Yes? No? Maybe?

Why havent your siblings tried to contact you. Surely they could considering you live in your childhood home. I know you said you took things out on them, but how could it be so bad that they disown you for so many years?

This just doesnt make sense to me

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>>741594225

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It sounds like you've decided to withdraw from society as a way to prevent emotional pain, but, rather than instead of living with that decision, you've convinced yourself that you're actually behaving like a failure at life for the luls. I think scheduling yourself with a psychiatrist is in your best interest.

>>741608315
wouldn't say that. socializing just means effort for me so I just don't do it. I feel better that way because whenever I was in company of others it just started to piss me off and I wanted to be alone again

>>741608596
>whenever i was in the company of others it just started to piss me off
So, like, emotional pain?

>>741600954
are you in
>leave me the fuck alone mode
or in
>at peace / bored with the world mode?

if you arent sure about the difference, imagine
>one day i knock on your door
>i wont force you to speak to me
>i wont force you to come with me
>but i will present an offer to do something great
>great as in - talk to a motherfucking alien species or something
>and you are free to either just close the door or further investigate
would you consider such offer?

do you not even scream or mutter "fuck" when you stub your toe or cut yourself when you are cutting vegetables?

Living on a "first world" country it's like living on easy mode.

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>>741594774
Right here anon

>>741595253
We had one on fb bit cucks keep fucking it up ;(

>>741596030
I really wosh nobody an hero but as a fat neckbeard depressed suicidal anon like the rest of us i have come up with a few foolproof plans. Mostly involving learning to fly, several guns mounted all over the plane wired to remote triggers at me, explosives, drugs, and maybe live stream because its about as foolproof as it gets.

>learn to fly
>rig plane with guns on me
>fly plane as high as normaly safe
>eat ungodly cocktail of meds about 20 seconds before impact. Maybe liquify them and chug it?
>smash plane into cliff side and trigger like 20 of my guns to go off right before impact
>explosives triggered to impact
>hit cliff
>fall a long ways
>maybe be in pieces
>land below in MASSIVE fire i light before
>if nothing else works drugs should kicked in
>if i live through it and not potatoed live the rest of my life serving god.

There would be no other way to explain the redundant suicides all at one time.

I wish I could pull this off!

>>741597321
No fugging way its him anon. No whey

>>741598502
Pics of battlestation or specs at least?

I wish for a riced out desktop cause 2 poor to do cars.

Got pro painter bro tho and reseaches computer modding FOR YEARS.

Next build is gonna be inside an antique gas furnace if i can figure out how to get the fucking porcelin paint off and patch the rust holes. Might just pay my bro if i ever get any fucking money.

>#onlyricedoutgasheaterever

>>741599446
>underrated powerful image