Hey guys. 20 yo girl here.
I want to get this off my chest and I thought id say it here.
I absolutely despise myself to the point where I have lost everything I was. My hobbies, my friends, my skills, personality etc. I am no one and I am alone.
Live with mom, have had depression for 4 years now,got no job and no motivation for life. I'm ugly and awkward as fuck too. Never even kissed
I don't want to kill myself yet because I don't want to cause drama in my family. I know im young but I'm thinking about doing it next year away from home.
You're still young. Just hang in there. Your 20's typically are the toughest because of insecurities, lack of direction ect. Just try to get a hobby that Kees your mind off things perhaps something that challenges your mind. Hang in there :)
tits or gtfo doesn't apply unless op wants soemthing for being a grill faggots
the jump from highschool to 20 y/o mark is pretty much the point where you decide your future, adn you wasted it like a bunch of other /b/tards here so gl with that
an heroing is too easy but it's an option, you can still fix your life you actually try to do something with it instead of crying about it on the fuking internet, tho depressin is a bitch if you already hit that point
how to fix your life? hell if know, get friends? work on your body? geta hobby? become important to someone? charity? become a teacher? just do anything to keep you away from nothing at all
You're so nice anon. Thanks for the advice.
Live in a shit country. Heroin would be nice but we don't even have it
Yeah I'm so fucking desperate i chose internet to whine because honestly no one else would listen.
I thought about charity, it's a good way to help others and get yourself motivated.
I guess I needed some support. Will see what happens in the future, I'm too lazyto start. I guess I can give those options a shot, thanks anon
if you gonna drop there you are just asking to feel gud now and ruin what's left of your life
>no one else would listen
there's groups irl for that, dk about your country, but there's always the church (and i'm an atheist, but they do a job an ear). point being, anyone can post shit on the internet, but if you got no one irl to lend you a shoulder it ain't gonna do much
Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional
Tits or gtfo
Believe it or not theres a shit ton of girls in your exact situation
But the important thing is to make small goals to get yourself out of your current problem
Take more risks, there are plenty of guys who will kiss any girl that moves
Make small talk and wake up with a purpose every day, even something as small as a to do list will make you happier by giving you a goal to do every day
Hell if your in the same state as me il even help you out, don't care how you look like but for right now
Get what you mean.
I shouldn't have said I was a girl but I still felt the need to clarify even if I knew the rules
Men and women are treated differently and I wanted to whine for a while and having you guys know all the basic facts.
(like gender and age)
I'll go to college. Been thinking about which carreer for two years now and I'm still not sure
But I'll stop being stupid and just start something, just whatever to feel useful and build a future possibly
>tits or gtfo doesn't apply unless op wants soemthing for being a grill faggots
Learn your rules, faggot.
I call it "that website im always on" i let it slip once but she thought it was a spelling error. ..
Yeah this shit is fight club rules for sure. Hope you find your dog or whatever
>im pretty sure you guys are helping by demanding seeing her tits
she feels ugly and probably wants the attention ( don't even mean that in a bad way) what better way to get that than having some random lads jerk off to your tits, nobody else probably has
Dude go for it.Here's a tip: Choose the career that you can do and the one that pays well. Dont fall for the "follow you dreams" crap. cuz when you're out from college, the dream job will not fucking appear and you'll be stuck with a huge debt in your name. So by then, might as well not even fucking went.
You're completely right. Good thing im not into art shit anymore. Id follow my dreams and be broke forever
I'll try to think and choose a good career but also not something too out of my capabilities
technically my ex now, pretty sure she's gonna kill herself sometime tho so we'll see just how fucked up it all ends up.
hope your shit works out better than that. you have time to figure life out.
I like you and your wishful thinking.
>You-you like me?
Yep. Do you want to see my axe-wound?
I guess I understand what you mean because I don't agree with the church. And with that I mean the power they have. All that stuff everyone knows about
But what do you mean exactly when you say you've seen it more than once? I don't think I'd become too invested in church things.
But even so, going to church to "cure my depression " doesn't seem like the best option for me
My favorite is the middle one on the left.
You'll find it- we all lose our shit now and then. You have a reason even if it isnt the best not to do something stupid; use that and try to make things better for yourself. At least its something, try not to worry too much about what others think though.
Since no one here has really had fantastic over-arching advice yet, I will toss in a few regards. Regards that many will toss away immediately for reasons they will quickly justify but will not provide solid answers for.
I remember being that age. I remember being desperate for the approval of my friends. I remember being confused with myself, and angry with myself at that confusion. I remember justifying to myself that the anger and confusion would go away in time, and I know now, it didn't entirely. But that wasn't bad.
I remember thinking entirely to long about what the younger version of myself wanted to be. I remember the joy prospects of mind brought me. I remember being disappointed that those prospects did not come to be. Then I discovered the despair the innocence of childhood could bring. That despair turns to joy in time once again.
I remember being alone. I enjoyed the solice, and I enjoyed the company of myself. I used to joke it was the only way to insure intelligent conversation. I use to cry whenever it was only myself I could talk too. I used to cry whenever I couldn't talk to myself.
In short, I won't say an heroing isn't an option. It is. But is an option in the same way quitting a difficult to beat but satisfying to beat game is. You can quit now, but winning in time, especially in time, will bring you so much more.
Take this as it is. You will find your own way in time.
Fuck what this guy says
Live stream it.
Make sure you have good lighting and don't rush things unless you're also going to make it messy.
If you're going to suffocate/strangle, let your tits flop out first and make a lot of noise and writhe around as your oxygen depletes.
>it was your dream to have someone masturbate thinking about you?
That's been this fat, hairy, depressed, old, oldfag's dream, too.
GET A THERAPIST
idk why you would post here its scum but seriously, therapist, /b is not a therapist this was a terrible idea. therapist allows u to talk about ur problems and work through them, /b will convince u to kys. /b should be sued for manslaughter
kek, she is not gonna work anything out. trust me. she is irretrievably and damaged and incapable of identifying or treating any underlying causes, only symptoms.
but anyway I've got a ticketing system to spin up here and you need to go volunteer for a human aid effort in africa or some shit so lets get on with it
This person has sound, yet crass, advice. Therapists can help a lot. And though most believe visiting a therapist is a sign of weakness, it is not. If you had been gored by a rhino, you would seek out a surgeon.
>implying I'm less than serious
But the point is, if sluts are going to kill themselves, they should at least have the decency to put on a good show for us.
Maybe go to a 3rd world shithole and livestream your murder/snuff/gangbang?
Don't be afraid of asking for advice from the avenues that feel most comfortable for you, but do recognize all advice comes from the mouths of people. People can carry their own beliefs and systems; not all are healthy for you.
are you white and smart? if so why not have a baby with another smart white guy? lol seriously we can't let the nig nogs and retards out breed us even if we are depressed and poor
you are a fat faggot in a basement trying to get attention
>You can always just pay someone anon.
Thanks for the advice but I've lived my dream more than once without paying for it.
It sounds like we experience depression in similar ways.
It doesn't get better. But hang in there. Keep looking after yourself. Don't rely on others for your happiness.
You're not alone, and you can face this.
I thought about that but I spend way too much time on the internet. Full of pretty girls and people saying a 10/10 for me is a 6/10 for them
I know I have to fuck off and get over my insecurities
Or find a boy the same level of ugly as me
Sometimes, it's okay to cry. Sometimes, it's okay to run away. Life never made you that strong. But at one point, we must all face our challenges. And sometimes, it takes help to face it.
What I'm trying to say is that it's okay to cry. But you have to face your depression and do something about it. It's that that's stopping you from life. Not you, not how you look, not who you are. Tell your parents. Get some help. Fuck it, LIVE. Live life to the fullest. If you feel sad now, that's because at one point you felt fucking awesome! Feel that way again! Go jogging, ziplining, swimming, hiking. Get a job, any job. So long as you enjoy it. Go out, get some sun, some social contact. Live life. Because you are the only one of your kind in the world. And that means you can live a one of a kind life. So just get out there and live.
You are spot on anon. Hang in there, and understand no one is out to help you, or out to get you, they are only out for themselves. We are only small steps away from being each other.
You must have seen this little bit of performance art.
People go to the therapist for every stupid reason where I live so I'm not worried about what others think
I'm already on the list, they'll call me back on September ;)
So I won't have to rely on 4chan to bitch about depression
>We are only small steps away from being each other.
Poorly quoting the Joker.
>So I won't have to rely on 4chan to bitch about depression
You can bitch here all you want as anon or after time stamped tits.
I go on here for the non pc shit. I honestly prefer some cunts telling me to show my tits than having someone tell me shit like "it's okay baby we're all rooting for you, you'll beat depression baby flower"
>I don't watch Christopher Nolan movies.
Fuck that faggot.
That's okay too. I hope no one uses such strong language with you. No one with any sort of manageable depression should be called a baby flower or be coddled in any other way.
But, to understand that others have been through the same....
That can mean a lot.
And as your referenced anon did, dismissing those in need is an innately in-empathetic view.
Depression is universal, and only temporary, and no one here has existed without some form of it.
I'm not saying don't toughen up. But maybe have a little heart?
Why should anybody care about your problems?
Aren't they your problems?
If you can't solve them yourself - if it is actually physically impossible for you to solve your problems - then you should run away from them. Release any delusion that you owe anything to anybody, and live for yourself.
You're sad and furious and desperate and tired. We get it. We get it because that's life.
Punch your problems in the face or turn your back on them. If you let something keep getting to you, you have nobody to blame but yourself.
Fucking love ya dude!
Cheered me up a lot
I'm going to a therapist soon. For now, I'll follow your advice on fucking doing something outside. I need to move. Can't be in bed day and night
I hope I wake up tomorrow as motivated as I am now
I hope you're trolling.
>CN fucked the comics. Get real bitch
That's what I was trying to imply. My tone was lost in text.
I felt pretty similar at 20. I'm 26 and love life now. Sometimes things change. For me it was gaining control over my life. Having a descent job and my own place gives me a little freedom which is what I realize I was lacking.
Anon, nothing in that tumblrfag's post was helpful or even true. I'm glad I wasn't the only one to notice.
No, that is still her problem. She is responsible for identifying when, due to psychological stress, she is unable to work. Adults know when they are sick and responsible adults take precautions to reduce the risk to others. They don't need to be told to, they just do.
This is why stress- and medical- leave exist.
This is why unemployment benefits exist.
If OP is experiencing delusions or hallucinations which would impair the capacity to make this judgment, then there are some routes of assistance available (though, to be perfectly frank, any American with a mental illness and no steady income/household support is quite fucked).
>Hope you're not I guess. And that you're capable of understanding what I said and not some pop-interpolation of my meaning.
Nigger, I'm not OP. Everything you said in that post was either irrelevant, not true, or harmful if believed.
Really great to hear that you're doing so well now
It really gives me hope. because your life now it similar to my so called plans
good to hear you're well anon keep it up and thanks for your words
Oh, sorry, you must not be from the USA. Sorry about that.
In the USA we really don't offer time off or insurance benefits for mental medical leave. And unemployment really can't support an individual much less else.
If you're in Europe your good. But in the USA we really just have to cope with depression and what not. I guess, unless you're lucky or rich.
This might be the most juvenile response I've ever read. This type of encouragement sorta works in sports or moments before doing a short but terrifying activity. It's the crappiest type of advice for a chronic issues like mental heath.
Right now I'm seriously just tired. You get me. I wish I were the way before I was depression. It has completely drained me. I know if I try to get better I will
So you do the same, anon
>I am sorry to hear this subject unnecessarily infatuates you so.
Boy, you must be retarded. I am very interested in this type of topic it's your harmful answers that I wanted to poke fun at and I did.
>it applies to any femanon you beta cunt
WHAAAAAAAT? Look at that interaction again. Specifically, how rule 30 counters other anon's faggatry and if need be how rules 37 and 29 lead to rule 31, which leads back to rule 30 for proof...I hate being baited and I just took a huge bite out of yours. fuck.
What are your goals? I guess one thing I really had to learn in this process is the difference between my life goals and career goals. My job is how I support myself but it is not my life. You might pick a path where they are one in the same but for most that isn't the case. Di what is takes to have control in life but also have freedom.
You sound a bit defensive. Hide behind a dismissive attitude if that makes you feel safe.
>girl posts thread about depression
>fp is togtfo
>reply with 'wew'
>makes him a newfag
you know that tits or gtfo is used to combat attention whores, not any and all femanons right? Or are you too much of a newfag to remember when we came up with that?
>When we came up with that
Ok silly boy.
If you think tits or gtfo is anything other than silly you are a silly person. !
>No I'm only being sexist to protect the integrity of my online community
I know exactly what I need: a job to sustain myself and my own place if possible (not right away.) I'm currently struggling to get it all done
I've had a couple of interviews but i didn't get the job. So I changed my goal to "choose a carreer".
I have too much time and no hobbies, so it didn't help my current state at all. But I'll try to get stuff done and stop laying around.
Sure as hell i'd kiss the op if i got the chance to, fuck yea. OP post your number here and ill hit you up, This reply probably belongs in meetups but this is /b/ so anything goes fuckers.
Nothing at all, I am completely useless. I earn a bit of money from a small job i have, only requires me about 6 times a month. But at least I don't have to ask my mom for money
I know I need to get on my feet. I don't know if I can blame it all on depression though. I guess I still feel lost
Not to be an asshole here femanon but being lazy doesnt solve anything. No its not an ochams fucking razor but if you want to be attractive or better yet if you want something in life, you have to give life what ever you can in order to get it. You have to work for an answer.
Surly you do something, do you game, or watch Netflix or streamers on Twitch or Youtubers? Do you read? have you ever written? I refuse to believe you sit in total silence most of the day and occasionally make threads on /b/
Its never to late to start something new. Especially at your age theres still a lot of time ahead in your life. One valuable lesson I learned is that people age differently, and you cant do anything about that.
Makes me feel good that you consider those doing something
I do watch a lot of stuff on Netflix. I used to read a LOT but now I've lost energy for it sadly.
I consider myself not such a bad artist but I've stopped doing that too
I live off music and netflix now. But I do spend almost all day on my phone. Even trying to watch a show is sometimes energy draining
At least I have 2 cats I adore
Maybe you should seek happiness in what you occupy your time with, If you like watching shows and reading books you could join a book club or become a member of a popular show's community, something where you can talk to people who share a common interest.
I don't think art is good when forced so if you don't have the energy don't create if you don't want to, but keep your equipment, you can come back if you're even inspired, but don't be afraid to come back.
If you like music maybe try audio mixing, remixes are always interesting and it gives you an appreciation for the music and how it's made originally, get schedules of your favorite band's performances so you can support them and meet people there, I get that's intimidating but I've found people are typically in really good mood at concerts.
And try house/cat sitting for some extra cash, I too have a cat that I adore
All of this awesome advice!!! You're a hero.
Thank you so much, all of it sounds inspiring.
I would love to join some philosophy meetups. Book discussion also sounds interesting.
And car sitting for cash sounds like a dream. I had never even thought of it.
Amazing ideas. Will definitely put them to practice
excercising is incredibly underrated. Something as simple as walking can chang everything. You dont need a group of friends to enjoy the outdoors. Nature is always there to inspire.
I sent you a friend request, did you see it?