Feels thread? >failing college >lost best friend for no

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>>734090135
What was your major op?

Why did you lose your friend?

>>734091616
they probably got sick of ops beta ass

>>734090135
If this is Yao, I still want to be friends

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>>734091622

the other day a co-worker told me "I can't believe you don't have a girlfriend, you're such a good person" I died inside knowing all I'll ever be is a lonely sad manlet

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>Be me

Mfw

>>734091738
fuck, too real

>>734091654
>>734091603
In all fairness, there's such thing as falling out of love. You can have all those things and then it be followed by the most soul stealing fallout imaginable. I feel like it would have been nice to have fun and hook up when I'm older. Me and the old lady hate each other at this point, and thinking back on the good times as kids literally hurt. Some eternal sunshine of a spotless mind shit, would rather never of had those memories.

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>>734092042
Why didn't you make your move on her

BROTHERS IT'S WAR TIME
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zr5qzV-8Zkc
TO ARMS TO ARMS

>>734092118
the co-worker was a guy

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>>734092213
Maybe go to the gay?

>>734092488
that's another story for another time

>>734090135
I had a feeling once, it was disgusting. Never again.

>>734090135

>26 years old
>dropped out of college twice
>working same entry level job for 8 years
>one friend I have left lives 3 hours away
>gf of 5 years broke it off 3 days ago
>too autistic to get that lucky again
>no hobbies
>live with parents

Can someone post a pic on where to place the barrel of the gun so it's guaranteed death?

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;__;

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>>734090135

>be me, 22, just graduated
>diagnosed autist when I was like 7
>good job related to degree, around $42,000-$50,000 a year (variable hours)
>nice friends, live with some of them
>nice family, mom is awesome, cool brothers, cousins I'm friends with
>everything exactly how I pictured it, how I wanted it during college
>but I fucking hate my life
>I feel awkward in my own skin, like everything I say is retarded
>tried therapy, several anti-depressants, didn't do shit
>tried never drinking, tried always drinking
>tried never getting high, tried always being high
>always being high is better, but I still can't fucking stand anyone
>hate every second I'm at work
>hate being around family
>hate being around my friends
>eventually move out of house with friends, get my own place
>I'm happy when I'm there, miserable when I have to work
>try to keep seeing friends and family but I feel like shit whenever I'm around anyone
>start ignoring their calls more and more
>keeps getting worse and worse, I'm only happy when I'm on my own
>gets to the point where it's either quit my job or an hero
>quit my job, move back in with mom
>manage to get disability
>full-time NEET now, do nothing but watch TV and go on internet
>only leave house to see Dr
>see noone but my mom, even ignore her most of the time
>this is the happiest I've ever been
>I'm on my own all the time and it's great
>but disability doesn't last forever
>I've already decided I'll an hero if they try to make me work again
>it'll destroy my mom but I just can't face other human beings

>>734094523
Aim for where male pattern baldness is. The round part on the back of your skull

I'm on the brink of accepting the fact that I'll be alone forever, one of the unlucky ones who never gets to experience love, companionship and general happiness. I'll likely never get married and end up dead by 40.

Every girl I talk to I can tell instantly doesn't want to converse with me, a lot of my friends are in relationships (or at least have been) and I am still single after 19 years, I get next to 0 matches on any of the dating apps and the general loneliness is probably the root of my general depression. I fucking hate my life.

I fucked my best friend and ruined my relationship with her. She had a small break up with my ex friend who I was really close with. He found out I took her out and came running back. I fucked her after they got back together. My relationship was ruined because she kept leading me on but gave more fucks about him than she did me. I miss my friend

My dog died today
>Best friend if 11 years
>Her name was Holly, short for Holocaust
>German Shepherd
>Always kept me safe
>I'm thousands of miles away, can't even be there for her
>Can't find a good torrent for Futuramas"jurrasic Bark"

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>>734096169
Are you fat and ugly?

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>>734091703
that was awesome. almost chocked on the cherries I was eating

>>734091738
added to my cringe folder. Thanks anon

Kys Faggots

>>734097793
>>Her name was Holly, short for Holocaust
>>German Shepherd
Feel bad for laughing but I did.

Sorry about your dog anon, here's a good stream for Jurassic Bark:
http://gorillavid.in/0tmjkc7y2nkl

>>734097880
How unfortunate.

>>734097880
So close anon

>>734090135
parents probably paying your way
nobody fails when they buy their own credits

kys fucking spoiled summerfag.

>>734098671
I was paying for my college and failed too but that was my fault bc i got heavy into drugs and basically spent a semester getting fucked up in a crack house. Now im back with my mom in our shitty apartment. Sober now but lost my gf and future. Worst part is I have only my self to blame.

Real depression is far beyond feels you fucking stupid assholes

>>734098362
>>734098617
How salty. Can't accept not everyone is a fat neckbeard.

>>734098909

Nobody cares you whiny bitch

>>734099175
fuck me, feels too real

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>>734091916

>>734099344
Inappropriate for a feels thread you cunt
>>734098909
I care junkie anon, that sucks but it's never to late to go back

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>>734095971
woah that story turned on its head real fast. that was a vivid experience. but maybe because I can relate to it somehow.

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>>734095104
Saw him in a thread not that long ago. Another anon capped it, anyway in case you wanted to see him after the story.

>>734095971
I would suggest you reach out to someone. Either to your most trusted friend or a relative. Not too late to go back. Let an internet anon help you. :)

>>734100029
Ah can you not stand other people either?

>>734100430
That's the thing, I really don't want to go back. Been unemployed since before Christmas, not seen anyone for months. I keep expecting to change my mind at some point, to feel lonely or miss someone, but it doesn't happen. I just can't stand the thought of having a conversation with anyone, especially not a 'reaching out' conversation. It only sucks because I know I wont get disability forever

>>734094523
c'mon man, it aint over till its over

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>>734100433
yeah and actually almost the same thing

>be 23
>graduated from college last week
here's a twist though
>I majored in something I never gave a shit about, never even had the slightest interest
>Decided to stay level-headed and go for it anyways, since it is said to give a stable job
>And I would have gone into the arts
>Now I graduated, feel like shit
>Anxiety is the only thing that keeps me functioning somehow
>I'm a NEET for a week now
>I just want to be alone in my own place
>Can't, because don't have a job

Just thinking about getting a job gives me anxiety because I just studied for the tests and forgot everything. After 4 years, here I am with basically no knowledge of this field at all. I'm completely burned out.

>>734101049
what field

>>734100606
It's not about reconnecting. There is clearly some underlying issue. If you reach out, and get help, you will feel better. What you are experiencing is a temporary state, which is not the true you. For a reason beyond my knowledge you seek to isolate yourself. Find the reason, work on it, and life the happy life you can live.

>>734101171
finance

>>734101049
Well shit, I never cared about my major either. Knew since sophomore year I hated it. Is yours in a really specific field as well?

I wish I could live alone too. Fuck I wish disability was enough to pay rent & bills

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>>734090135
Yes sir lowly double IQ beta wage slave i want fries with that

>>734101240
sounded like you got some professional qualifications

anyway man a jobs a job

I want to kill every single one of you faggots

When the pain too real, and she don wanna give head right that instant.

>>734101291
I don't know if it just me, but I had an incredibly hard time getting through college like this. All the tests, just sitting in class was a struggle, the fucking thesis was a horrible journey, etc-

I once made a thread about whether it's worth studying something you don't like, just because it is looked for in the job market, and a lot of people said it was. I started to feel like I was being overly sensitive about all this, and that I was overreacting, but this burning out feels very much real.

>>734101174
eh, tried help (meds and therapy), tried telling friends about how I feel, it doesn't do shit. Every time I'm around anyone, it's like there's a clock in my head counting down to when I can get myself out of the situation and be on my own. It's always been this way really, it's just the last few months I've stopped trying to fight it.

>>734101439
Yeah sorry if I wasn't clear enough, trying my best with english. Sure, but knowing that I have little to no knowledge, and I'm generally a slow learner.. I don't think I'll be tolerated for too long on the job.

>>734101539
I struggled a lot with school too, when you don't give a shit about what you're doing it's hard to make the effort at all.

>>734101664
ah man trust yourself if you're this self-reflective i'm sure you'd do fine

>>734101782
And I was even encouraged to go for the master's degree (by parents, relatives with degrees), but I think I'll pass on that one..

>>734101833
This felt nice, thanks for that and hope you're right. This self-reflecting tends to turn into anxiety and a bit of paranoia though, which makes my (already not so bright) mind completely freeze.

>>734090135
allright you fucking selfpitying sack of potatoeshit.
LISTEN TO ME.
STOP DELIBERATELY DROWNING YOURSELF IN SADNESS.
you focking little bitch, bit by bit, piece by piece, look at yourself and see what's wrong with YOU, than work on it, it takes time you soulless piece of fuck. OR kill yourself and never have enjoyed anything, better open your eyes before you finally do it.

>>734101782
forgot to ask, what do you have a degree in?

>>734099090
She's old now and dried up. Ready to be recycled.

>>734101542
What do you usually do in your free time? Do you consider that you have a healthy lifestyle?

>>734102240
IT
>>734102535
TV, internet, hadn't read in forever but last month or so I've felt less under pressure so I've gotten back into it.
I'm not unhealthy anymore, I used to be. I started exercising & eating better and managed to lose weight since leaving my job. Don't get enough sunlight and I smoke, but other than that I'm not in bad shape.

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>>734102218
This made me sad

>>734091622
God I got me right in the feels

>>734091757
This has restored a little bit of my faith in humanity

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>>734091622
this made me cry

>be me
>be in relationship with girl for 8 years
>going to marry her after she finished school
>we both still live at parents house to save money and going to get apartment soon
>be my 27th birthday in June
>tells me she's coming over
>decides to instead hang out with a friend and "loses track of time"
>actually she's resentful that I made her stop seeing some of her slut friends who kept getting her in bad situations
>sit at home all day waiting for gf to get there
>parents have birthday cake for me
>"Where's Taylor, anon?"
>"I dunno mom" as I hold back the tears
>never shows up and says she's got school work to finish and we can hang out another day
>In Feb she broke up with me
>find out that she cheated on me with one guy in Feb 2016, and another guy from Sept-Oct 2016 multiple times
>her lovey dovey name for me was "bear bear"

>>734091757
lol this is nice.

>>734102767
put. head. in. blender.
mixed toughts.

>>734103118
Wil je een massage en een klap-thaise loempias dus?

>>734102750
You exercise indoors or outdoors? It's very relaxing to go for a run in a park.
If you are going to do something procure that you are part of it, that you are doing your own conclusions and making your brain work. I am not saying that you are letting your brain rot, but that is what many people do.
I don't get something. Why the same people that don't get gratification with social interaction get it when watching movies or shows? You are still watching people, why not go out and talk with someone?

>>734099175
happens to be true seventy percent of the time.

>>734103160
with my over the top detective skillz I found out that you are probably from holland, but still have no idea what the fuck were you trying to say there.

>>734091916
Faggot who cant drive gets his woman killedd.

>>734102767
It should have motivated you. It's like that comic in witch a man is talking with himself as a kid, t should remind of yourself when you where a young boy with dreams and that you can still make some of those real.

>>734103295
Because I don't need to talk back to the TV. Because the TV doesn't look at me expecting me to say something, TV doesn't make shitty jokes I never get but have to fake laugh at, if TV is pissing me off I can just turn it the fuck off.

There's no pressure with TV.

And I mostly exercise inside, I have a park nearby but don't really like going. Parks are full of people and people are shit.

>>734103468
Sometimes for some people, the light shines too bright and they are still blinded, it's no longer darkness, it became blinding light.They are hopeless.

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>>734103468
this one?

>>734091738
plz respond.

>>734103859
ah no I thought he was talking to himself but he's actually being interviewed.

>>734103094
lololol bear bear couldnt satisfy his girl with his cub chub.

>>734091738
Well.. you can't feel entitled like that. Sometimes you have to start a conversation or even a relationship. In order for that to be maintained, you need communication, and wanting to happen to you that much is just sad. You yourself have to put in the "work" it takes to maintain that relationship. Because it's not even a case of not being able to talk to anyone because he has no friends.

>>734103563
Maybe you just need to learn how to talk.
You don't have a laugh at jokes; you don't have to say something; you only need to talk back. Someone made a shitty joke? Say smiling that it was a shitty joke. Someone is expecting you to say something? Say that you don't know what to say, or that you don't have nothing to say.
People are shit, yeah, but you can go outside. Is a very rare sign when a stranger talk to you in a normal situation, is even less likely if you are running.

>>734091603
thanks anon, almost forgot to get drunk today

>>734103859
No, is about middle aged man. The artist only used blacks and whites, I think.

man up bruh, to live is to embrace life, all the good and bad side of it

>>734104401
Yeah I realized that the one I posted didn't match your description.

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>>734104494
Silly me, I saved it!

>>734104668
Nice. It's actually similar to the one I posted, deals with wasting time and potential.

>>734092082
Care to elaborate?

>>734104263
I'm okay at that, making the right noises at the right times, I can act like a normal human pretty well. But it always feels like playing the part. Every time I'm just myself people comment about how 'surly' and quiet I'm being and feel the need to draw me in to conversations. They don't know the quiet me is the real me, because I play the part well. But when I tell people I know shit like that they just get uncomfortable. A few months back I got sick of it and just noped out.

>>734105022
>Care to elaborate?
do you?

>>734105027
I like to talk, some people say that I talk too much. The thing is that I only have a couple days of human interaction in a week, and that people never talk about something that I am interested about. My point is: I feel out of place too, but I don't try to put on a mask. But what if today is my lucky day and I find someone truly interesting, what if the people that seemed boring are actually a truly intriguing individual.
>>734105523
I don't really care, what you want to know?

>>734099090
I'm sure I do but I know for a fact that she doesn't think about me in a positive manner. I saw her with a guy a few weeks ago. They were holding hands.

>>734090135
Sort yourself out, CUCKO.

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>whiny first world teenager problems general

>>734105895
That's what the thread is supposed to be about. It's a place for people whine and cry about themselves

>>734105523
If it was a "Elaborate about the question" the question is: What is wrong with being you?

>>734105895
And the problem is?

>>734095971
Some envy and resent those whom they see as more successful than themselves. Others dream of success and social recognition without hard work. All such attitudes stem from the dire delusion that happiness can be gained from somewhere other than within ourselves. Activity is another name for happiness. Give free, unfettered play to your unique talents, live with the full radiance of your being. This is what it means to be truly alive.

>>734104097
Kek

>>734104097
:( XD :(

>>734106333
True, happiness lays within ourselves.
But I even think all the talk here aren't about happiness. It's about wanting to experience something others have most of the times.
I am happy with how I am.
I have friends, a job, I leave the house pretty often, get drunk at parties and all that shit, but how do I get this myth of love into my life?
How do I get a true companion?
And no they won't just come around if I do what I like.
I won't fuck women at work because there are still some standards left in me.
If I do what I love - art and music, I won't ever leave the house and won't ever meet someone.
It feels to me like getting a partner is the hardest mystery to crack for me.

>>734106667
haha sorry bro, I couldnt resist.

Seriously, though, to keep a woman, you have to keep her sexually satisfied. If you make her cum every time you fuck, she wont stray, and she'll give you whatever you want. kinky stuff. Anal. etc.
I suggest banging several 2's and 3's on tinder until you become the puss whisperer, so the next time you get a girl you want to make your wife, you can keep her faithful.

>>734097793

I'm so sorry, anon. I've got 2 little rascals myself and I know that one day they will die and I'm afraid because they bring so much joy to my life.
Good luck m8

>my dads dying
>my moms an alcoholic
>family shattering
>never had a gf
>one friend
>im fake
>stuck here
>shouldnt have existed
>gonna die any way
>noting matters
>were all insignificant
>virgin
>from a white hating spictown
>cant leave
>stole a car being fake to keep new friend
>on probation for 3 more years

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My life sucks right now too.. but i want to never give up, and i believe in you all :-)

>>734101049

Getting your foot in the door is literally the hardest thing. Older generations don't understand just how hard it is to get that first real job.
I was one of the few lucky ones because I did some unpaid placements while at uni and got a job straight out of that, but my gf has been struggling for 2 years to get anything. She had seasonal work occasionally but everyone wants to pay minimum shit for maximum experience so if you aren't already in your chosen industry good luck breaking in.

But stick with it. Once you have 2-3 years experience you're set.
I know it's hard getting started but once you find your feet, you'll wonder what you ever worried about.

im a ugly deformed piece of shit that shouldve been aborted

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>>734109087
>step 1
Clean your room
>step 2
Sort yourself out
>step 3
Rescue your father from the underworld

>>734109624
Rosie?

>>734109456
I didn't expect an answer after 2 hours, but thanks dude.

>gf has been struggling for 2 years to get anything

Oh man that doesn't sound good. Once I graduated I actually was a bit happy that all the struggle was finally over, only to be bitchslapped by reality that now I have to find work with this close-to-zero level of skill, and zero passion or interest for the craft. I dug myself a nice trap there..

But yeah, now I'm just gonna have to stick with it. What did you gf study btw? Something related to agriculture? Just cause you mentioned seasonal work.

>>734091622
This pic represents me
(today is my bday...)

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>>734111067
Happy birthday man

>>734111067
Happy birthday my dude

>>734109726
>step 4
slay the dragon
>step 5
kick the bloody postmodernists out of the country

>>734090135
>lost best friend for no reason

Perhaps you could take this time to learn about why you're denying losing your best friend. It didn't happen for "no reason". I'm sure the reason revolves around the fact that you see no reason.

Stop playing video games and work on your person.

>>734091757
:)

>>734111191
>>734111363
Thanks anons
This made my day

>Close friend just text me.
>Her nephew commited suicide.
I´m in shock... I liked her nephew, he was good and with a long life ahead to live...

What should I say to her? What to do?

>>734112812
Chin up, it'll get better.

>>734111067
happy birthday anon, you know - we've all had lonely birthdays once or twice :') it does get better, hehe.

>>734112812
Now that you have a few pats on the back, its time to get to work, bro.

Start doing pushups, crunches, squats like a madman. hundreds a day. Then start making money. Your life will improve, I swear it.

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>>734103094
Fuck mate I'm sorry

Old fag here. Genuinely feeling trapped and like everything is pointless. Sat up at some clifftops here in the UK at the moment. Not self harmed since October but I feel like I need to, or do worse. Got the blades next to me and just want to get it over with.

>>734113269
i hope so...

>>734113435
i have money
i am not ugly
people just don't seem to like me

>>734111067
Happy birthday anon

>>734095971
Give me a call sometime

>>734117069
Hard to do without your number

>>734106333
Nice, what is this from?

>>734091603
We'll at least I'm not in jail.

>>734115522
lol then you suck. go build some character.

>>734117777
Weird name for a cat, but check'd

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>>734111067
Happy birthday, I love you.