Can we have a feels thread? I'm feeling like shit..
>19 >female >virgin >socially awkward >have social anxiety >can't function in society >play vidya all day everyday >live in the ghetto >grew up liberal now I hate blacks >watch the news more often than before >thoughts of impending doom loom over me >never had any friends >always afraid to let anyone get close >feel so lonesome >depressed >drained >broken
bunch of maggot dicked virgins that have never scene pussy haha
anyways op sorry for disrespectful pussy comment but like its true these kids on /b/ have never even interacted with a girl before so they dont know how to act smh. look what u need to do is not add anyone form here because it wont end well, so dont accept any adds ok?
here add me on kik (king_hassan420)
lets chat and who knows what might happen lol :P muah xoxox
>>734045407 Do you know how fucking hard it is? Do ANY of you know how fucking hard it is? To go 26 FUCKING YEARS without even kissing another human being? To go 26 FUCKING YEARS with not even an OUNCE of intimacy in your life? No....of course you don't! You're all Chads and Staceys. You guys just fuck any slut you want. And you girls just fuck the top 20% of men. And don't fucking deny it, it's scientifically PROVEN! Girls rate 80% of men on OkCupid as BELOW AVERAGE. Guys like me, average looking guys, guys who are a little on the short side, we don't even FUCKING EXIST to you! We're the guys who run your fucking errands for you, help you move your shit, who treat you with nothing but respect and what do we get in return? FUCKING NOTHING! Not a hug, not a peck, NOTHING! And then you have the FUCKING audacity to turn "nice guys" into some FEMINIST buzzword and accuse us of being CREEPS! News flash: you only think we're creepy because we aren't ATTRACTIVE! If Chad does the same shit, you can't even wait to take off your soiled panties for him! Well, fuck you! My names is Danny Fuckin' Struthers, and I'm a fucking virgin! Don't like it? Bite me!
>>734044856 my guess is that your just bitter to the world. Looking at your steam profile pretty much every game you have 50+ hours in has a negative review. My guess is that you find flaws in games that are publicly voted positive just to bring down the devs that put hard work into making the game for you.
Over all your personality is as cancerous as your ovaries.
I learned some jazz chord progressions to mess around with, learned a little more about theory, and improvised a bit while doing this. I got distracted at some point, and tried some new things with an old jazz piece of mine, ended up making a new chord progression, improvised a few melodies within that, as well. I enforced my knowledge of the f major scale in standard tuning some more, and improvised while doing that, as well; I also decided to improvise to some backing tracks with the f major scale.
While tuning my guitar, I focused more than usual, so I focused like I used to, getting a pretty damn good and accurate tuning by ear, but it's obvious to me that I have to try a lot harder to focus and get a good tuning than I used to.
I don't play nearly as much as I used to, so I'm pretty rusty; I'm still damn good, but I'm not as good anymore. My improvisational skills may have improved, though, despite the relative lack of practice; curious.
I used to love playing the guitar, I could do it for hours. Dare I say, it used to make me happy. How, it just distracts me from the pain, but the pain always comes back. If I enjoyed it earlier, it was little, it was more like it just distracted me from the pain.
My pain is in my feels.
I also improvised some blues, it was funky as hell, maybe even fun, for the little while, and right after, I just felt the pain again.
>>734049181 do you fucktards realize tits or gtfo dehumanizes woman as if she were not human but a mere possesion, tits or gtfo STRIPS HER OF HUMANITY! It is disgusting, inhumane, regressive and insane that you guys think this is an actual rule. You're all fucking virgin faglords, no wonder why you faggots sit at home and jerk off on /b/ all day. TITS OR GTFO IS OFF THE FUCKING TABLE, /b/, NOT EVEN YOU FUCKING VIRGIN ASSHOLES CAN BE SUCH FUCKHOLES THAT YOU JOKE ABOUT A WOMAN'S WOMANHOOD BEING DEHUMANIZED! You know as well as I, the majority of you are only misogynist and say “tits or gtfo” because it makes you feel like less of a pathetic loser and failure at life
>>734049480 >>734049578 With drugs, for most people, they end up getting addicted, and spending all of their money on drugs, so they either have to steal to get more drugs, or they withdraw, suffer, and they are just sub-human when they're like that.
>>734044856 >BOO HOO MY LIFE IS SO SHIT EVEN THO I DO NOTHING TO CHANGE MY REALITY JUST PLAY VIDEOGAMES AND BLAME PEOPLE FROM I DON'T KNOW FOR MY FAILURE BECAUSE SOME 15 KID ON POL POSTED A FUNNY MEME ABOUT THE MEXICANS AND THAT GAVE ME ALL THE INSIGHT I NEED TO JUDGE PEOPLE EVEN THO I'M JUST 19 AND DON'T INTERACT WITH ANYONE
>>734049938 if growing crops making thing,and providing $ aren't satisfying find something that is there are many many options workouts,doesn t even have to be anything major try a bit of pushups,I always was happier when in shape.Staying stuck in the mud with nothing should be avoided because forward is satisfying, not stayin put
>>734044856 You are virgin and have social anxiety, seriously you have to break that, you are stronger than that, why don't you break your awkwardness and inhance your chances of getting laid by posting your tits honey?
I used to succeed after working for it, and that did it for me. Now, it just doesn't cut it. Drugs didn't cut it, so I moved on to knowledge and the development of skill, I pursued goals and dreams, I made myself quite the man.
It just doesn't seem like anything cuts any more, especially now.
Recently, I've had a constant dull pain of sadness, loss of appetite, loss of motivation, like I said - loss of appeal of previous interests and hobbies, I've haven't been sleeping well, and I'm just not 100%.
>>734044856 ah fuck it i reread OP's message and now i feel like making a modicum of effort.
i sort of stopped caring about shit after i started reading ancient philosophy. i went from stoicism to epicureanism and i try to live out the latter every day.
so check out epicurus' existing works (about 100 pages have survived) and lucretius' de rerum natura.
don't fear the gods. don't worry about death. what is good is easy to get. what is difficult is easy to endure.
and if any of you phaggots accuse me of being a white knight my defense is that i believe in spreading the word about epicureanism because i was just as depressed as OP when i discovered it. epicurus worked for me. sometimes the ancients have the answers.
Martial arts and parkour are excellent full body and cardiovascular exercises. Not only do these things exercise your body, they exercise your mind. If you do it right, you get a well rounded exercise of your mind: memory, logical reasoning, spatial reasoning, reaction time, focus, pattern recognition, and what not.
You develop a hot bod, you develop a sharp mind, and you acquire knowledge and skill, you are really making yourself something else, something better, when you do martial arts and or Parkour.
>>734047556 What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch. I’ll have you know my name is Chad, and I woke up this morning 5:30 sharp to the smell of wet pussy. I was getting a blowjob from two bitches (Shit was SO Cash), one was trying to fit my humongous 3 pound balls in her mouth while the other was choking halfway on my 18 and 3\8 inch dick. She started to squirt hard, she was convulsing and having 6 orgasms at the same time. I gave it to them and they were on the floor squirting like motherfucking fountains. Must have come about a quart of sperm and compressed air. Imagine your best orgasm, then multiply it by 35. I had to go to base camp so I front-flipped from my 14th floor barracks into my valet parked 2012 Ferrari (I got connexions). Pushed my shit to about 4 hundo (mph, mind you) and I was at base camp in no time. When I entered, I became a top sniper and was granted access to the entire arsenal of the USMC. I learned how to kill someone in over 700 different ways and was assigned to be the leader of a squad that will kill 300 terrorists using gorilla warfare tactics. Also did 6000 push-ups, 8000 sit-ups and bench-pressed 30 plates in 16 minutes. After basic training, I met a network of secret spies who will help me trace your IP address, while eating gold plated sushi and 15,000 $ champagne. My unit got the rest of the day off and I became captain of our base’s football team and starter of the basketball team. I got straight A’s on the military entrance exams and received more awards. Meanwhile, you were jacking off to pictures on Facebook and naked drawn Japanese people. Went back in the Lambo to my barracks and now I am getting ready to go to sleep. I am going to graduate at the top of my class in the Navy Seals tomorrow and I want to look pretty much perfect for it. Don’t be a stranger and remember, I did more in one day than you will your entire life.
>>734050739 I can relate to this. I used to do sports, workout, have a social life, eat well and lead a healthy lifestyle. They seemed futlie, I rarely eat, I hardly sleep, I very seldom go out. I am dissatisfied with how I have become, but I am equally dissatisfied with what I was.
>>734049196 Just finished watching the video. Interesting concepts, but I am not sure that they applicable to individuals in day to day lives as apposed to control groups with a set variable proposed to them.
Different gyms and dojos train differently, so there's not a lot of consistency.
getting taught Aikido will lead to you not being able to fight, since they don't train application well, and the stuff is hard to pull off in the first place
You will get fit with Boxing because they focus so much on conditioning your body but they also train application relatively well, most the time.
Most Karate doesn't train enough application, and some of the stuff is hard to pull off, like Aikido. Kyokushin tends to teach application more. More structured environment compared to stuff like MMA and Kickboxing.
MMA will lead to you being a well rounded and good fighter prepared for a variety of things, given that they train application well.
Judo tends to be kind of like the Boxing of grappling, but it's more structured compared to others.
>>734051487 >What about you, Anon? My mind hasn't been so sharp lately. I haven't been trying to get myself out, it's like I've been trying for months, not to mention the previous years, but I just broke. The marbles just wore me down, my fibers were stretched, they were slowly tinning and tearing, and then the marbles just fell all over the floor, rolling around all over the place, some rolling under things, bouncing off of edges, etcetera.
>>734047556 ah shut the fuck up, at least you have the luck to have never felt it at all. Trust me, there's fates worse than being kissless. It's even crueler to consistently have it dangled in front of you, then snatched away by this fucking cold indifferent universe
>>734051325 >>734051797 >tfw you were a full on autist at 15 and started to learn martial arts >get really into "Tiger style" >spend like 8 months creating micro fractures by just smashing my hands into walls non stop never really went past that, but now i can rip fruits apart my just stabbing my fingers into them.
>>734052119 eh, fuck it, may as well post what is troubling me. Part 1/4 or so. >Be Me, 14 years old. > Filthy Jew faggot, parents wanted me to go on a birthright trip with some "friends" that I had known for a while in middle school. >For the rest of this trip, I will be referring to this as the Israel trip. >Attended this school from 1st Grade to 8th, in 8th we go to Israel. >School shilled the trip to make us stay there, was a pretty shitty education, for they didn't teach some essential shit properly, fucked me later in high school. >Arrive at Jerusalem airport, normal shit, faggots ignoring me like they had normally done throughout my time there. > A Day and a 1/2 in, tired, we are going to the underground western wall >Note about the trip: We were going with 2 other middle schools. >On way to the place, fall asleep due to jet lag. >FirstIncident.jpg
>>734052145 I did a few things when I was younger, now I do MMA. In MMA I kind of incorporate the stuff I used to do.
Exercise is just good for you, you get a better body so you're happier about your appearance, it decreases the effects of negative emotions, it increases your happiness, reduces stress, helps you sleep. Sleep helps decrease negative emotions, increase positive emotions, sleep helps you brain work better, you have more physical energy. By exercising your mind, you get very similar effects as physical exercise? >citation needed
By exercising your mind, you build your body of knowledge, and knowing so much, you have higher self esteem. You are able to relate more things to other things, and you have more to talk about with people, you have more complex ways to relate things and ideas, making your conversations more interesting (experiences may vary?). Exercising your mind and memory, you hold back neurological disease. With such a sharp mind, you get more self esteem, making you happier, reducing the effects of negative emotions.
There are a variety of ways to apply your martial arts skill, but the chances are that a lot of people won't need to defend themselves with their martial arts in hand to hand combat. Even if a drunk is giving your trouble in a bar, you can just diffuse the situation, or the bouncers will handle it, and you won't need to use your martial arts skills. But it'll give a little more piece of mind walking around knowing you're a human weapon I guess.
\>>734052573 >I fall asleep next to a guy on the bus, Dickhead doesn't even try to wake me up. >Nobody notices me, like usual. >Stuck with Israeli bus driver >Somewhat dazed and confused, go with bus driver to his parent's house. >Dude speaks no english, have no idea what he is saying. > At this point, I feel bad for him, due to the fact that this faggot just showed up (me). >Get back to the group, at the wall. >A group of 40 jewish children, including the ones i knew, all look at me, and start laughing at me. >This is when I realized that life was not going to work out well for me. >Worst part however, was not the fact that the kids were laughing at me, that was expected, save a few. >The worst part was the fact that the chaperones, teachers of mine, were also laughing, and did not try to help me in the slightest. >I trusted these people, and this act of negligence, in addition to 2nd incident (coming soon), almost sent me off the deep end, thought about an heroing.
>>734053541 >Back to the story >I then watch everyone i thought I knew, slowly cave to peer pressure. >AsExpected.jpg >Fast forward to a few days later. >Friend of many years up to that point invites me to talk in his room. >2ndIncident.exe has started running >The Time has come for the 2nd incident >Go into friend's room, lets call him Zach >Zach then, along with 2 other faggots >They then take me, place me under the sink, place towel tight on my face, and pour water. >Waterboarding.jpg >Too scared, brain gets sensation of drowning >Throw up a little, immediately goes back into mouth. >This, although it was only 2 minutes, felt like an eternity. >Especially because it was by someone I trust, in addition to the 2 guys who helped him (also trusted them) >Walk out stunned, lost faith in humanity. >...
>>734053605 >After Israel Trip >I attempt a form of communication with this man, after about 3 weeks of minimal communication with the outside world. >During this time, I attempted suicide. >Parents thought I was being overdramatic. >Probably was. >Back to the story >I skype this man, >I ask him "Zach, why did you waterboard me?" > He replies "Well anon, I just wanted to. And you were the easiest to do it to because I knew you wouldn't resist." > I have not spoken to him since. That day has haunted my memory for years now, because it is a constant reminder of how I can never truly trust anyone, and how even those who you think understand, never will. Thank you for listening in on my faggotry. >Flash Back to week before end of school. >Depressed as shit, look around to see if anyone cares about what just happened. >As normal, nobody does >In fact, school attempts to cover up the issue, and pretends like it didn't happen (The bus incident that it, not the waterboarding) >Even if the waterboarding got out to beside the kids, Zach's parents have enough money to "make it all go away". >I confront the school about the bus issue, they say it was a problem and won't happen again. >I know its bullshit, but i let it go. >However, my parents (my mother) stopped supporting the school (My dad wanted to pretend like nothing happened) All in all, lesson is to never trust kids, or people in general. I learned that lesson the hard way.
>>734052985 >live in the ghetto >doesn't use martial arts
Stfu, I quit BJJ, Mui-Thai and boxing two years ago, I spent 17 years of my life going to matches, watching film, practicing for hours and hours every day and it paid of very well and came in handy multiple times. There isn't always mommy and daddy to hold your hand in the real world dumbdumb. If someone runs up behind you and punches you trying to knock you tf out for some crack money, you gonna tell me to just rape you? Or Just get shit beat out of you? Both? Stupid. You gonna beg him to stop? He'll love that. No matter where you live, there will always be crazies. Just lurk moar and you'll see proof everyday.
Guys, I always feel lonely. I don't know why, but I always feel alone, even though I have some friends and family that care about me. It's such a strange feeling, feeling alone and empty, yet for moments at a time I don't. What is my problem?
>>734053630 Nig u need to GTFO and find another environment where u won't be seeing ur classmates. If u form new social connections with nicer people, u may find the strength to get over the shit hole that is your life
>>734054543 i guess so, but its hard after one of your friends fucking waterboards you for shits and giggles you know? Anyway, for the time being im attempting to find some purpose besides feeling depressed. Might try my hand at vidya making, maybe not. Might just up and kill myself. Who knows, latter might just be the best option. Only time will tell.
>>734054847 I'm sure it is great. I've had friends throughout my life but never that connection that we could talk to each other about our lives, aspirations and even our shared interests. I've always been a quiet kid in school, probably because my parents moved every few years and I was always the new kid. People were nice enough to me to adopt me into their group, but they were never like me. They had their own history, probably knew each other since elementary, and then there was me. High school years were split in half and I moved shortly after graduation, I'm now in college with no friends and no natural experience of making friends. I'm glad you have friends right now, OP, even if they are somewhat superficial. They're good people. Blahhhhhhhhh
alright niggers im sad and want to post a story >Be me >14 and scrawny >get constantly bullied at school n shit >have no idea what sports are >play videogames and practice instrument all day >socially awkward af >me to myself "i need friends so why don't i find a sport" >decide to try out swimming cuz why not >find out online at the time how to somewhat do freestyle >go to pool and swim for 2 hours every day. each day is so fucking hard for my undeveloped body >random ass coach sees me and teaches me how to do a flipturn >ohcool.jpg >now I can look less like a retard >November, just turn 15, tryouts for varsity swim team are here >decide why not ill try out since like i have nothing better to do >barely make the team, 33 in my 50 free >worst one there out of guys and girls. I was only taken onto the team bc they had an extra spot >guys love me because turns out I have a huge cock >earn the nickname ricky with the big dicky >also get abs so now I look a little less out of shape >fast forward to districts meet, I swim the 200 free and 100 backstroke. go a 2:15 and 1:08 respectively >not worst one on the team anymore, better than other girls >50 free ends up being a 26.2 but too many sprinters so I don't get much time >fast forward to sophomore swim season after lifting all summer and getting in good shape >200 IM and 100 breast, 2:20 and 1:07 respectively >coach tells me im really good for my second year swimming ever >join a club team, lower my 50 free time even more >junior year, 5'10 170 pounds but strong as fuck, 22.8 50 free and 49.4 100 free >Still not good enough, decide to lift even more and focus on developing my arms >drop whole second in my junior year, go a 21.5 by May of my junior year >catch attention of college recruiters after making states >realize I can actually have a future in swimming since it saved me from being worthless >fast forward a couple years, first day in college >come home dead from practice >phone call from cops >ohshit.cock cont?
>>734057106 >>734057440 >call from cops >mama is rip >ohfuck.nigger >ditch college and team to go check out mom at hopsital >completely different lady, got fucked my a car crash, dies right in front of me >lose it bc she was supportive of my swimming >decide swimming is gay bc no mom to support me anymore >drop out of college, go into hiding, never touch a pool again >live w dad but we hate eachother cuz stupid shit long ago. I agree to not bother him if he lets me live w him >gain weight >get dumber >get uglier >everything goes bad, now life is all thrown away bc my mom was my closest companion >play vidya all day, currently trying to figure out how to make a living to get the fuck out of here
yeah rip my life. I regret throwing it away but I actually couldn't even do anything without my mom. her death got me shook and now I have nothing to do. Too old to return to a D1 program anyways so
happy feels thread /b/ or it doesn't rly seem like one
>>734053029 Back in highschool there was a girl in my class who achieved that. She wasn't exactly a beauty, but she wasn't fat or disfigured or anything either. A solid 4 out of 10. Really craving for the dick as well. Problem was that she was batshit fucking insane. No one wanted to hook up with her fearing the consequences. She progressively turned into a frustrated, horny mess, getting all sexual on any nerd loser she could find. Finally this chin-less, chubby-thighed, sweaty soccer fanatic kid fell for it and they started dating. He learned his lesson the hard way, when he had to go to the hospital, needing stitches on a human bite mark.
>>734044856 OP, you have a cute nose. Most likely the rest of your face too.
Today, I buried my doggo.
She belonged to my highschool gf, we'll call her Nikki. When I first met nikki, she wasn't at all my type but after getting to know her I started having feelings for her. I finally worked up the courage to tell her one day on our lunch break. She just kissed me. My world was fireworks and colors. We started dating and were together for nearly 12 years. We got Gypsy (the doggo) about 10 years into our relationship. We were living together and it was a birthday surprise for her. I still remember how her face lit up. She had a gap in her front teeth, I used to think it was strange looking, but it's funny how the imperfections eventually become perfection. Nikki and gypsy were my life. I couldn't wait until after work when we could all snuggle together. Nikki made my life everything I ever wanted. We hardly ever argued and we never yelled at each other. The sex was amazing and so was everything about my life. August, almost 5 years ago, I had bought a ring. I wanted our life together be legal and solidified. I wanted to marry nikki and have little babies will funny teeth and beautiful eyes. Her eyes were so incredible. Bright green with rings of golden fire around the pupils. She could say so much euthanasia just her eyes. I had planned to ask her to marry me. She was going to a friend's house for a birthday that night. We hugged and kissed and she said she wouldn't be home so don't wait up. She'd be staying the night there. She took gypsy because her and friend's dog played together a lot.
At 4:34 am August 17, my phone rang. I was half asleep when I answered. "Anon.." a shaky voice says, the friend "there was an accident. Nikki is being airlifted to the city." What?! What happened? "She fell anon.. like off the edge." Her friend's backyard ended in a steep 110 ft drop rocks and the ocean. I was shaking getting dressed.
I don't remember the drive to the hospital. But I remember getting there and the 3 friends from the party all crying in the lobby. "She's dead anon. She didn't make it." They wouldn't let me see her. I wanted to see her because this isn't real. Couldn't be real. They said if I wasn't family, they can't allow it. It was about an hour before her parents arrived to identify the body. It was real. My love was dead and my light was gone. The golden fire extinguished. They still wouldn't let me see her. I still remember the feel of her last hug. The way her kissing tasted and her lips on mine. I remember the smell of her hair.
All I had left of her was this ring, all her clothes, and our doggo. I gave most of her clothes to good will. I kept one shirt that used to be mine until it became her night shirt and her dress from a wedding we went to when I decided I wanted to marry her.
Today, I buried my doggo. I lost the last physical connection to the only girl I've ever loved.
I hope things start to improve on your life OP. I wish the power to change things that need changing. There are people who love you and will remember your smile their whole life. You are someone's world.
Hon, I think you came on the wrong thread, we're known to be a bit vicious when someone of your... state of life complains, you don't have my sympathy, but I'll gladly redirect you to someone who does.
They are just laying low. Probably going to take a month off to get rid of the heat, then they'll be back doing the same shit. Whenever this person comes back I suggest using the "Follow" option on Steam so we can keep track of this faggot.
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