Good evening, Anonymous. How was your day?
If you'd like some advice, someone to talk to, or even just a friendly chat then I'm here for you!
Why into a coma? That just sounds dangerous.
Or you just spend a whole lot of time not being able to do anything.
Not too bad, trying to adjust my sleep pattern though so it's a little tiring. Have you been up to much recently?
Not too bad, not too bad. Sleepy, but that's how it always is.
For the most part I spend the day in meetings. My team interviewed a couple of people who wanted to work with us, so that's quite interesting.
I'm not sure I'd call what's in the Silmarillion a dream land.
Because my partner is adjusting to a daytime schedule and I have the week off, it just made sense.
>Mfw Saber gets rekt by the banhammer
You'll get rekt in a minute I swear to god!
I've decided that I'm going to hang myself if I flunk out of college again, and I'm in danger of doing so. I failed two exams in two separate classes due to poor study habits, even though I literally gave it my all.
If I don't graduate with a four year degree, I have nothing else to fall back on. I'm not physically strong enough to do skill trades and I can't make a living working at fucking mcdonald's. I have medical needs that have to be met and I won't have the money to keep getting the medication I need.
I'm fucked, guys.
No, I just don't really think that having to deal with Morgoth and Sauron is a dream land really...
Got any plans this week?
What is it that you study? And how much trouble are you having with it? Is there nobody at your college that you can talk to for help?
I really don't think you would. Especially as Morgoth had a tendency towards torture...
The last few days, well maybe week have been... interesting. Thank goodness things have been slow overnight. I feel sick from when I wake up (4-5pm) until about 4 in the morning. Stomach upset, headaches, fatigue..., but I don't think I'm physically sick. I'm trying to stay positive though. I might have missed it in the past, but what are in classes for?
don't give up. It takes a lot of motivation sometimes. I was failing classes left & right in my first 2 years of college, then the next I was about to be kicked out. I found motivation though and pulled out a 3.4 gpa by the 5th year of university & went on to a 3.96 in grad school. I have faith in you... echoing saber what are you looking to do?
Sup 2nd best (fate) girl.
I'll be getting my PC in a week or so after not having one in 8 months, I'll be moving to a bigger room and getting some nice furniture and I'll finally get to play video games again. I'm pretty happy dude.
It was a pretty relaxed meeting, but it was still a little tiring. I tend to get called in for them even when I'm not needed.
What kind of tournament is it that you're helping out with?
I tend to just have faith.
I totally could! But you know I couldn't bring myself to...
Soooo... you can't!
Smart is such a... relative term. Like IQ & such it's just soooo general. I believe it takes a lot of focus / skill to do well in martial arts... It's just another type of smart! I wish I had gone though with Kung fu, maybe I would have had more discipline & wouldn't just now be getting stable at life.
Oh? What kind of specs does the PC have? A bigger room sounds quite nice as well, I've been stuck in quite a small one for a while.
What is it that caused a fractured ankle? And why is it you won't get to see your kids, can't you have someone bring them to visit you?
I'm quite sure that not being able to bring myself to because of how I feel about you is different to not being able to.
What kind of martial arts though?
I'm a social work major, but if I survive this semester, then I'm going to look into software engineering. I'm barely passing my classes right now, and my essays are what's keeping my head above water right now. My midterms for my classes ranged between 70-75%. "C"s earn degrees but I'm one fuck up away from it dropping below 70%.
There's nothing anyone can really do at college. My issues are retaining and recalling from memory but I have trouble even remembering what day it is. There's no tutors to help you with that.
Things are just really starting to close in and I'm wondering if I'm even meant for this world.
Technicalities you fucking faggot. <3
No I have to be supervised with them because of my ex wifes lies. So with a cast and all I can't stop my youngest from playing with something he could get hurt etc.
I skipped on ice this morning and my ankle went too far so I've got like 3 broken bones.
well as much as this seems like a self plug. Have you tried going to the uni counseling dept/ a counselor? I always advocate that not just people with a mental health d/o can benefit from counseling. In my work with foster youth I helped with academic work, studies, general life problems and everything there forward. Should be free for students as well.
I'll spare you the boring stuff but
>GTX 105ti 4GB
>got me a ssd you fucking cumdumpster slut
The onky issue us I may have bought a medioctl case.. What do you think of the specs?
Also is it true if it's not ssd, you must hang from a tree?
Hm... Well software engineering can be difficult, but it's also something that's quite accessible to learn. There are a lot of resources on it, and I know I tend to look things up as I'm coding anyway.
If you have extreme issues with retaining and recalling from memory then I'd consider consulting a medical professional, because a memory issue like that sounds like an actual problem.
You wouldn't be able to either, you faggot! <3
Ouch. I'm really sorry to hear that you just won't be able to see them. That honestly sucks. At the same time though, I respect you for wanting to see them. My dad never cared enough, so it's nice to see someone like that.
I tried karate when I was younger, I never took to it though. I had a lot more success with judo.
Those specs don't seem bad. If I were able to go for something a little more powerful then I probably would, but that's more than enough to last you a while.
Having an ssd is nice. I had to go back to a regular hdd after my ssd died on me, and I'm really feeling it.
I couldn't for a multitude of reasons~
>I'm really feeling it.
Good evening or morning....
Anything interesting happen today?
We had some quite large people at our club who were rather talented at it. I think it's all about learning to approach it in a way that's right for you. If you're at a club that adheres strictly to kata then you're going to have problems, but mine was always about learning to adapt the throws into something that you can personally use.
You raised them on your own? Why?
Exactly! So you can't say anything! Or wait, were you trying to say something there...?
Don't be mean to my toaster, she's just been through some hard times!
Maybe I was!
Umm all in all it got up to £1020 all together so I already blew past my budget but I think it's a great build for the money. It's 1080p without having to pay boatloads. And I sprung for some smaller goodies like a cheap liquid cooler and some extra fans.
What do you recommend I install on my SSD (aside from the OS)?
More like what didn't.. I was hoping Alice would be better for her thread/stream tonight, but I'm she's not.
Not really much of anything though for me. I assessed one walk in last night that only need outpatient services and then like many a night before I was done around 12am in the morning 2 hours after i started...
Well my ex was there but she mostly was with her friends. Sure she brought the money in with a job but she only worked long enough to milk sick leave etc.
So I was left to care for their daily needs.
thank you for doing this tonight, aneki. please take good care of anonymous. <3
So, basically paid for nothing then?
I'm not sure what's worse, a deadly slow night, or and extremely busy one
Yeah, I've heard it can be difficult but I think it's something I would excel at. I love technology.
My memory issues are medication related. I suffer from a mood disorder, and I don't have time to find an alternative medication. Getting on a new mood stabilizer, antipsychotic, or anything else I'm taking would not only take time to get into my system, but I'll have to fight off side effects for a month and I just can't afford to do that if I'm in college.
Thank you for being here, anon. I haven't talked about this to anyone. I'd bring it up to my therapist and prescriber but I don't want them to suggest that I visit a hospital to get stable.
I'm not greasy, or role-playing. I'm 100% authentic! I'm so authentic that my girlfriend is talking shit to me as I'm doing this!
Evening! Not much happened today. My team interviewed two artists and an audio engineer which was interesting. We ended up taking on one of the artists and the audio engineer, because they seemed super passionate and talented. The other artist, well, let's just say he was interesting.
I'll use and abuse you in a minute!
Yeah it's a fine enough build. Are you putting it together yourself or getting someone else to?
I tend to just put the programs that I use the most on the SSD, because it speeds up load times. If I remember right, you want to avoid putting files on there that you change a lot, because writing things to the hard drive is what wears it down.
I had to retire when I moved for university, unfortunately. I miss it a lot.
That honestly sounds like a really shitty situation to be in. I'm so sorry to hear it. I bet they'll grow up seeing you in a much better light than her because of the care you've put into raising them.
It's just the same as always, nothing special.
I just kind of do.
Psych admissions generally fluctuate like that. I run the entire department myself at night, so if things get busy,....they get BUSY, but if we are full (which is sn't hard, we're the highest quality treatment in the metroplex and half the size of other hospitals). I generally do get paid to do be a placeholder until something happens or I go home... I'll reiterate this half the reason I come to these threads. I like being helpful and my work isn't too much on self fulfillment right now...
I don't know!
>But I approve.
>I had to retire
Granny Saber retired years ago.
That sucks, but remember apparently looks aren't everything. I'd challenge you to work on your perspective. despite that the insult you were just told basically that there is something so redeeming about you, that it overcomes one of society's biggest hang ups!
I'm really sorry to hear that. I dealt with JDC a little when I did work with foster youth. Do you think it was better than w/e alternative was at play?
What's going on? Are these feelings chronic or do they come in episodes?
I probably need to go for a while now. Feel free to stay in here! I'll probably be back at some point.
Ouch. Just... Ouch. I can't imagine how much that would suck, I already get worried enough that my girlfriend doesn't like how I look.
Have you spoken to her about it?
If they're medication-related then you probably do need to look into changing it. I know you're worried that you won't be able to manage with college, but if it's impacting your college life this badly then it might be worth the risk.
You're approving of it now are you? About time.
Ah. How was that artist interesting?
Ok. So your here partially to be helpful, and partially to kill time?
until she leaves me for someone better looking
yea I asked her about the text, she said don't worry she doesn't care about looks
what the fuck am I supposed to take from that? she does care about looks. her ex boyfriend was buff as shit too
When I say interesting I mean that he was an egotistical asshole whose whole everything seemed condescending.
You know, you only need to ask about these things...
When I can find a place where I can do it.
Will you love me?No ones in love with me and its kinda bumming me out.
Oh, so not actually interesting, just an asshole. That's no fun...
Try consulting a medical professional instead of seeking answers from no-life shitposters on 4chan.
Other than that, you could 1: Do drugs
2: Not kill yourself
3: Control yourself
no no, I don't get on 4chan at work! I like the people here is the other half of the reason.....though if there were enough interest maybe a thread ever so often on an off day could be arranged past 3am...
Maybe try asking her what it is that makes you such a catch? I mean, it's not going to change how she feels about your looks. Sure you can work on that to an extent, but maybe focus your efforts on something you have more control over. Such as improving on things she already loves about you!
....still I feel, I've had a similar experience before. As far as other posting about dumping her. I'd guess that would be up to you depending on how much you value her knowing that your looks aren't why she is with you..
I can give you unconditional positve regard.... It's like love, but you don't have to do anything for me feel like you are deserving of hapiness...
While I am an LPC I can't give serious therapy / advice online as it's an ethical / legal violation, but what is up? I do agree if you feel you need help you should at least call a general doctor for a referral..
Unfortunately it was our only option anymore. He refuses to admit that he has behavioral and mental health disorders that need to be addressed. I have sought out help for him only to be told there isn't anything available or he would flat out fight me to go.
1. Nice dubs
2. Right now I'm living with other members of my more distant family because my father pulled a gun on me and the rest of my family. I grew up abused by him and never had many friends. My mother had panic attack disorder and neglected me while my bipolar father abused me. He did a lot of hard drugs too, and was a part time drug dealer. I have been raised in a shit hole and it's obviously a cause for my mental problems. They only reasons I have not gone for treatment now is because my mother never let me and now that I'm 18 living with other family I have no insurance.
3. Again, nice dubs.
Oh, I thought that it may have been so slow that you can slip onto here for a bit.
Oh that sucks..... I deal with a lot of individuals who, to everyone around them, seems to need help but refuse. It's never a fun ride, for the person, their loved ones or those of us in a position to help. JDC is a hit or miss kind of deal. I'll let you know that people don't change until there is reason too so strong they can't reconcile their way of life around it. How old is your son?
I'm really glad to hear you have good insight into this! That makes your prognosis pretty good. I'd consider calling your local MHMR (I know, I know, no one likes doing so b/c its for intellectual disabilities too) and asking what they can help with. Also counselors offer sliding scale and some may be able to offer pro-bono work (we have to as part of our license). If you don't need medication assisted treatment (only let a MH professional or a psychiatrist make that call) you may be able to get a lot out of therapy..
I probably could.... but my shift is from 10p-630a, so unless I make a thread... there probably isn't one!
What timezone you in?
I've seen these last till like 1 AM EST at times
I think it's time i joined the stream group I guess..
I'm in central so that's 12a for me... I'm uuusually still calling insurance at that point. I typically get done around 1-2am EST.
I'm pretty sure today was his breaking point and realization that enough is enough. He is 16. Sadly I admit that he needs to go through this to understand that there are consequences to his actions.
16 is a really hard time. Men generally don't stop development of crucial frontal cortex systems until age 25 and that'll definitely effect his ability to see the problem, but that in mind if nothing like this has ever happened before I'm sure this could be the kick needed. At least I hope so. I'd advise you to look into co-dependency and en-abling behavior. Not just the loved one's of those affected by addiction are capable of such things, and enabling behavior almost always comes from a place of love so it's hard not too..... just something to think about for the future..
I can't stay any longer tonight... Time for work... I'll post this again since I can't stay I hope you can get something out of it, if you can read my terrible left-handedness...
I do believe the problem will solve itself
It actually almost has
But if you must know, In the morning, it was in my upper chest and lower neck, it only somewhat hurt to breathe or swallow, but it was more of a sore pain, now it is only at my lower neck, only hurting sometimes, a more precise location would be where the neck and body meet at the front
I think it might've been caused by sleeping in an odd position
What did she do to get b& ?
Well if it is just a bizarre location for a muscle knot then it's fine. If it's your throat closing up that's not ideal. I highly doubt it's the second though. Throats don't just close up without cause.
Are you in any clubs? Why not your classmates? Personally in made most of my friends through clubs or the extra credits I enjoyed.
Also you always have me for a friend. I'm dreadfully boring but still a friend.
Its probably nothing, but see your doctor anyway.
High grades aren't everything. They matter on paper but not really in the real world. My father doesn't have much of an education, but he is constantly offered fairly prestigious positions because of his personality and work experiance.
Basically being a good person is more important in life and is just as important in the job field.
don't fall into the trap of thinking that you aren't good enough compared to your peers. that's a common feeling when you're in a prestigious place with high standards, surrounded by similar students that meet those standards (that includes you btw). So an "average" or "below-average" student is still pretty damn talented. So focus on your personal improvement and not how you compare with others. also think big picture and see where youre trying to go (easier said than done)
I have a decent job, but I have too much trust issues to find a partner. I just have my closest friends and thats it. my parents messed me up from the beginning and now I dont trust anyone
I'd like some advice from fellow anons about my predicament, I met a female heroin addict that actually really likes me and wants to take my virginity but I don't know if I should. I'm also 21 years old
I'd recommend against it anon. I feel it's a very risky sounding situation. Not because of disease but because emotional attachment to that can crush you. I'd recommend keeping her as a friend and trying to help her kick it.
addiction is a hell of a disease. It requires good social support, financial support, and medical support to get people's lives back to normal.
having sex with someone is a big commitment, unless its mutually casual. so if you love this person and want to enter into a relationship with them, just know that it will be a huge effort to be a part of that social support
Heroine mimics how it feels to be loved. I figure a relationship with somebody who is giving fake love to themselves is just...I feel it would be poor. Especially with the great dangers to her health. That is not to say she isn't a wonderful girl who is in pain. People don't just do heroine for no reason. So
This may be a good way for you to help her (and you) grow as a person. But I'd advise against anything serious yet.
She might be clean one day. But this addiction might come from somewhere deep. I hope you can help her and things work out for you two anon. You seem very kindhearted to me.
Just be yourself.
No games. No bullshit.
no worries; I recommend you read this https://www.drugabuse.gov/publications/drugs-brains-behavior-science-addiction/preface
as a primer for understanding addiction and what current treatment is
Like shit. Just tired of living. Squandering the opportunities given to me and looking back why did i fuck up. Still miss this girl but she told me to fuck off just because i opened up to her
Feeling that doesn't mean it is true. High-school is difficult for sure. But I had people who liked country listening to why I liked metal. I have faith that you can do it too anon.
Good evening madam
I would love to play a game
I know I'm not much help and that I'm pretty boring, but I'm here for you and I genuinely hope things get better for you anon. High-school sucked for me...a lot...things get better.
Somebody wanna explain why Reimu is doing a cooking thread as we speak?
Oh okay, so I know who it is. An old friend and when I saw the style of thread figured it was them.
I'm fantastic, life going good, just randomly browsing /b/ while a bit intoxicated. How about yourself?
As somebody who has been that loner in high school with no friends...it gets better. It's still hard but the reward is so much more wonderful.
Your family loves you anon and I'd hate to lose you.